This story is an AU and a crossover at the same time. Several things in the storyline happened differently, which of these things changed will be stated in this chapter. Thanks at Kyuri and Hadz as both fixed as many mistakes as they could and made this first chapter that much better.

Disclaimer: The story you are about to read, the characters and places you are about to see all belong to Eiichiro Oda and Masashi Kishimoto. If you do see something you do not recognize, there might be the slight possibility that it may have been my idea. Wouldn't bet on it though.

Have fun and enjoy.

Sitting in front of the memorial, Kakashi was busy carving the names of the fallen shinobi they had lost in the past few weeks. He didn't want to do it, but he knew he owed it to all his comrades. After the abduction and death of the Kazekage Gaara, the first name he carved in was Haruno Sakura, his former student. It was especially painfully for him to write that name. He had trained that girl; she was one of his first students.

I knew it had been a bad idea to put me in charge of a Genin team, Kakashi thought sadly. He was the first one to admit that he didn't do a good job with his team but he couldn't help but feel that this should have been avoidable, that he and Tsunade (mostly Tsunade) had trained her better than this.

One might think the student of the famous copy ninja and the legendary Slug Sannin would be a monster on the battlefield...

Yet Sasori of the Red Sands had killed Sakura and Chiyo in the cave where they had cornered the Akatsuki duo. While he had chased after Naruto, who in turn was chasing after Deidara, Sasori had obviously defeated and killed the two kunoichi and before the fight between Deidara and them could reach any conclusion; Sasori had caught up to them and then they had been surrounded by the two S-Class nin. A mirthless smile nearly found the way on his face at the thought that Sakura had obviously destroyed Sasori's puppet he had been hiding it. Sakura had come far from the little girl who only looked at Sasuke, to a capable yet inexperienced kunoichi. Like most shinobi she died too early, too soon before she could reach her full potential.

Fortunately Team Gai arrived at the scene, forcing Sasori and Deidara to escape, as both were exhausted. They had spend three days extracting a Tailed Beast and fought hard battles right after and before, like Deidara's fight with Gaara and the chase while Sasori fought against both of the kunoichi.

They left Kakashi poisoned, courtesy of one of Sasori's numerous weapons and it was only because of Sakura's last remaining antidote that Kakashi could escape sure death. Naruto was mostly uninjured or to put it better, didn't receive an injury that wouldn't heal overnight but Gaara's and Sakura's death hurt Naruto more than any poison or injury could.

You once thought that loneliness is the worst pain in the world Naruto, do you still think that?

It hurt even more that, as it turned out, Sasori had taken Sakura's corpse with him. From what Kakashi had understood from the battlefield where they had found Chiyo's body and by questioning Chiyo's brother, he had learned that Sasori would build a puppet from Sakura's body, a fear that became validated during the invasion. The thought of the body of his student being exploited and used that way nearly made vomit.

Then Kakashi had attempted to help Naruto learn a new technique, a technique which would surpass the Yondaime, his teacher, one of the best shinobi in history. A technique that even in his most basic form was devastating and with the next step would surely be an incredible attack. The Yondaime himself hadn't found the time to complete it but had left Kakashi with enough ideas, that Kakashi had attempted to pass it down to Naruto, as the last part of his father's legacy but in the end the training had been futile.

Naruto's state of mind just didn't let him learn to combine elemental recomposition and spatial recomposition. It failed, since Naruto simply couldn't hold back his frustration, rage and sadness and thus he lost control of the Kyuubi too many times during the shadow clone training session to progress. The Kyuubi chakra was something Naruto accessed in emotional distress and Naruto had never been in a worse emotional condition than at those moments.

To complete, or advance, an already difficult technique like the Rasengan required concentration, calmness and willpower, all of which Naruto didn't have at that point. The amount of Shadow Clones who couldn't focus and control their chakra and drew on the Kyuubi were too much to handle for Kakashi and Yamato. So what should have been a training session for Naruto, turned to be a workout for the two teachers. Keeping an eye out for hundreds of clones at the same time and dispose of them once they turned dangerous is not an easy feat, especially if one keeps doing it for hours.

During that time, Kakashi carved in the second name, Sarutobi Asuma, the son of one of the strongest shinobi in existence. Kakashi offered himself as a team captain for the former Team Ten as they went out to avenge their sensei.

Asuma's death was a real tragedy; now the only living link to the third Hokage was Konohamaru who was even less talented than his uncle, and the difference in skill between the third and Asuma was exactly like the difference between Kakashi and a fresh Genin. Kakashi knew how Asuma had felt; despite being an excellent ninja himself, he also could never truly live up to the legendary level of his father who was even said to surpass the Sannin and he knew anyone of those could defeat him.

Still, as things were Team Yamato couldn't manage to provide backup for Tsunade's deadline and in the end, another team was called.

It didn't do any good. They were beaten; although they had taken out three of Kakuzu's hearts and Shikamaru actually managed to defeat Hidan, the loss of the backup team, Chouji's critical injury and Ino's sacrifice didn't leave them any choice but to retreat.

He had clearly misjudged the Yamanaka girl, he often saw her as a less talented yet a prettier version of Sakura but that fight had corrected his view of her as she displayed an amazing fighting spirit.

Without any concern for her health she actually managed to possess Kakuzu, swallow a self made poison and let Kakashi's third Raikiri pierce his third heart; yet it was in vain. Although it had saved Chouji, the Akimichi was killed by Kakuzu only three minutes later as he threw himself in front of Kakuzu's gigantic fire attack which would have killed Ino, who was weakened by her own poison.

It had pained Kakashi to see that even this selfless gesture from the Akimichi was in vain as the black tendrils of Kakuzu had pierced Ino only seconds later.

Kakashi, Shikamaru and one other chunin were the only ones who were able to escape Kakuzu, who didn't follow them, fearing another ambush while being low on chakra and hearts.

Kakashi had watched how Shikamaru had carved Akimichi Chouji and Yamanaka Ino into the monument, right before he added the members of the Nijuu Shotai that had died during the fight, all of them comrades and at one point, teammates.

He had sent his nin-dogs - alongside with a few ANBU - to the place where the one Shikamaru had defeated lay buried but they had found the hole empty. Only the numerous bloodstains hinted that there had been once the destroyed body of an incredibly dangerous ninja.

Seeing that this guy actually was immortal, Kakashi had little doubt that he was alive.

Shikamaru had told him that he was still talking although his head was separated and his body blown up, so that Kakuzu guy had probably stitched him back together.

Akatsuki is made up from too many strong abominations, thought the Copy Ninja resentfully.

Then they had received the note that Akatsuki had captured the eight tailed beast, it hinted towards the fact that it was the work of the very two shinobi they had let escape.

The news Jiraya brought after this was grave; Sasuke Uchiha had killed Orochimaru, formed his own platoon and gone after Itachi while the Akatsuki had captured another Jinchuriki, which made Naruto their last and greatest target.

The news of Jiraya's death that Fukasaku, one of the two great Sage Toads, brought alongside the final message of Jiraya had been devastating. Not only had they lost their strongest shinobi, but his death came hard to the very two people they needed to depend on the most; Tsunade, who had already lost her apprentice Sakura now lost the last link to her past. Sandaime was dead, Dan and Nawaki were dead, Orochimaru had betrayed them and was dead too, Jiraya had died and Naruto was a wreck, exactly like she had been.

Seeing all her fears for which she once left Konoha come true and going through losing her most precious persons again changed Tsunade. Shizune and Naruto were probably the reasons she didn't go on a rampage.

Naruto, who had already lost Sakura, many friends and now his mentor and teacher had taken the news surprisingly well and had immediately accepted the Sage training Fukasaku proposed.

Kakashi was the last person on earth to blame him for wanting to escape Konoha in his situation. Naruto, who had made it his very own dogma to not let any harm come to his precious persons, had lost a lot of them without being able to do anything to prevent it. He blamed himself for Sakura's death since he chased after Deidara. He blamed himself for Gaara's death, for not being fast enough to get there in the first place. He blamed himself for Ino's and Chouji's death for not being able to complete the most difficult training Kakashi had ever seen. He blamed himself for Sasuke's descend into darkness for not speaking the right words to reach Sasuke . And he felt guilty for not fulfilling Jiraya's ideals.

Kakashi knew how blaming yourself felt; he felt exactly the same when his friends and loved ones had died one after another, leaving him, the least deserving alive. He also knew how that particular mindset influenced one's training; it either drove you to greatness, or it broke you. It had broken Kakashi.

If it hadn't been for Mikoto Uchiha's endless patience and kindness, Kakashi doubted he would have been able to control the Sharingan half as well as he does now.

How is it that a wonderful woman like her dies and I survive? Naruto, you feel the same way, don't you?

He also doubted that the Toads had the same patience and understanding for Naruto that Mikoto Uchiha had for him.

So when Naruto returned, he was not surprised to see that his pupil had not mastered Sage Mode.

Akatsuki didn't wait long after the death of Jiraya by the hands of Pain in Amegakure, the attack totally caught them off guard; before they finished their preparations Konoha was invaded by a total of eight Akatsuki members: Deidara, Konan, Sasori, Pain, Hidan, Kakuzu, Kisame and Itachi and apparently they had used the Uchiha's knowledge as a former Konoha ANBU to infiltrate the village without getting noticed by the detection barrier.

That battle was the longest, hardest and most hopeless battle Kakashi had ever fought. As after Jiraya's death, Kakashi was the second strongest shinobi of Konoha, almost on par with Tsunade. Unfortunately, every one of the Akatsuki was either stronger or on the same level as he was. That made the situation catastrophic since it normally takes three to four good shinobi working perfectly in team to bring down one S-class ninja. Having eight of them attack in surprise while working together and Konoha couldn't organize a sufficient defense.

Deidara nearly blew up the whole village and the only reason he didn't use even stronger bombs was, so Kakashi thought, not to kill Naruto. Kakuzu wasn't that far away in dealing damage, using the strongest elemental combination attacks he had seen to simply annihilate Konoha's best troops. Konan, using exploding paper to such amounts that Kakashi wouldn't have thought existed, destroyed selected targets and whatever was left with pinpoint precision.

Hidan, Sasori and Kisame rampaged through the city overwhelming them with immortality, a sheer insane number of lethal and poisonous puppets, brute strength combined with a chakra draining sword, the perhaps greatest repertoire of water jutsus since the Nidaime and maybe the chakra reserves which nearly rivaled Naruto's.

It didn't help that one of Sasori's puppets was Sakura and Naruto's roar of anguish that he let out as he had seen her would haunt him forever in his nightmares.

To Kakashi's greatest horrir, they weren't even the main problem, Pain, the leader of Akatsuki was! As Fukasaku described, there were six bodies, each of them capable of doing incredible feats and working together they formed an unstoppable force.

He didn't even know what Itachi had been up to but his guess would be that he had "visited" the old Uchiha compounds again, if the flames engulfing that place were any indication.

I should have tried harder to kill him when I saw him in Konoha back then, he told himself, perhaps it could have prevented the surprise attack.

Maybe they could have won, no Kakashi was sure they even then they could have fought them off, if it hadn't been for Danzo's betrayal. Danzo had kept his forces underground, in hopes that Tsunade and most of her supporters would die, leaving him in charge of Konoha without serious opposition once he and his Root shinobi fought the enemy off. He had grossly miscalculated; the main force of Konoha had been broken, seeing that they missed many shinobi who, as it turned out, had been Root agents.

Kakashi had never suspected that so many of his comrades had been brainwashed by Danzo and the Root alone couldn't deal with the Akatsuki. While there were more Root agents than suspected, they were still not numerous enough to successfully fight the Akatsuki. Kakashi suspected that many Root died as the countless explosions caused break-ins in the underground tunnels where the Root Agents were waiting for their opportunity.

Danzo himself had been killed by Itachi; Kakashi had found his mutilated corpse with the Uchiha fan crudely carved into his stomach with a kunai. The sight of a dozen Sharingan eyes in Danzo's arm and one where his right eye had been hidden under bandages didn't even startle Kakashi, much less since all of them seemed to be slashed.

After Danzo's treachery and manic thirst for power, Danzo should be glad that Itachi killed him; Kakashi would have made him suffer so much more pain before he had allowed him to die. And if the trees and branches sticking out of the ground irregularly were any indication, it didn't seemed that stealing Sharingan eyes wasn't the only bit of grave-robbing Danzo had been up to.

Although, the way his face looks makes me wonder just how much he really suffered at the hand of Itachi. The Tsukiyomi leaves no visible scars and Itachi had plenty of reasons to hate the man who stole his family's eyes. Shows that even kinslayers don't want anyone else to hurt their family.

After all of of this, Konoha was now mostly in ruins and ashes. Naruto was captured; most of the ninja, including Tsunade, Gai, all of the ANBU, the former Roots, nearly all jounin and most of the civilians who actually made it to the Hokage monument, which had been blown up by Deidara, were dead. The ones left were a couple of chunin, a dozen genin and maybe three Jounin.

The long battle had ultimately led to Konoha's destruction. Pain's, Kakuzu's, Konan's and Deidara's techniques had done most of the collateral damage and the fighting ended with the final capture of Naruto, who despite arriving during the heat of the battle with Sage Mode activated, could not turn the tide of the battle.

Konoha had lost its Hokage, more than two thirds of its Shinobi-Force, the surviving third was greatly injured or was simply away for missions, three fourths of their buildings and the vessel of the nine tailed fox.

That was literally the end of the Hidden Village in the Leaves; there was no way it could rebuild itself fast enough without the other villages noticing its extremely weakened state and not a single one of them would dream of letting this chance slip. Hidden Stone and Hidden Cloud would exploit this where they could and take as much from the Country of Fire's territory as they were able to.

Kakashi knew this, the surviving shinobi knew this, heck even the remaining civilians realized this.

"We can't stay here anymore."

Kakashi didn't need to turn his head to know that most of the survivors nodded. "We will divide our remaining forces in three; one part will go with the civilians and lead them to the main capital, two will stay here to wait for all the teams who were out for missions and the others will follow me…" to death,

His gaze wandered over the battered figures, every single one of them dirty, wounded and exhausted. Shikamaru, who like Kakashi didn't wanted to survive this particular event yet did tightened the self applied bandage and nodded.

"Put me on your team Kakashi." The copy ninja ignored the rudeness, even though it was well within his rights to scold him for that, but Konoha was gone, there was no need to separate between Chunin and Jonin any more.

"I'll tag along too." croaked a voice, "Don't think I'll be all that useful with my arm like this but every second they're wailing on me is a second you can use to get a shot at these bastards."

Under normal circumstances, Kakashi would have punished this kind of self-destructive behavior but when it comes to the Akatsuki, that idea wasn't that bad, a second more could make a huge difference for him to strike with his Chidori. In fact, this was the reason he was taking anyone with him in the first place. The more they have to kill, the more time we have,

"Just know what you are getting into Kiba." No san, no kun, neither of the survivors cared about formalities at this point.

Kakashi doubted Kiba knew what his real plan was; Shikamaru might have figured it out and even with him he wasn't sure. Genius he might be, it also belonged an especially ruthless way of thinking to come to the same conclusion Kakashi had.

Forgive me, sensei.

He turned his attention again to the memorial stone and carved in the last names. It wasn't enough, he needed more volunteers but he couldn't bring himself to order people to come with him, it was a hundred percent suicide mission after all. It was more likely to survive a dive into lava than coming out alive from the Akatsuki lair, where ten S-Class missing-nin were proceeding to extract the nine-tailed beast.

He knew they needed three days to extract one and it might even take longer with the Kyuubi. The attack was yesterday so if they arrived this evening or tomorrow morning, that would still leave four days.

Four days to find the hideout of the most secretive organization known to mankind.

"Izumo, you organize the rest, me, Kiba and Shikamaru are going to leave right now, otherwise we'll lose their trail." ordered Kakashi.

"I believe I could be helpful." interrupted a voice.

"I don't think so Lee."

"I will follow you, regardless of what you say Kakashi-sensei."

"Don't call me that," sighed Kakashi. "what I'm going to do is nothing a real teacher would ever consider."

"It would be to your advantage to take me along too." said a calm voice, although Kakashi didn't overhear the pain, Shino's injuries must be more severe than he thought.

"Why? It is because I have planted a female bug on Naruto, with it, a recovery mission is possible."

That was the best news he had heard in the last few weeks and Kakashi nodded; as much of a liability Shino would be during the fight, with that broken body and the loss of nearly his whole destruction bug colony, it would make up by leading them directly to the hideout.

"Ta..take me too."

Kakashi looked tiredly at the speaker, knowing very well, that she, just like Lee would follow him, no matter what his response would be. In all honestly he didn't want her to come, not only was she one of the less suited for the task he had in mind, but also because she wouldn't be of much use in the upcoming battle; improved Hinata had, Akatsuki level she was not.

Even less if she had suffered third degree burns on a lot of places of her once beautiful body. Most importantly he didn't want her to come because he KNEW why she wanted to come.

But again, he just nodded, finishing carving the last name, Maito Gai, which by all means should have been done by Lee, but Kakashi did it as Lee couldn't effectively use it hands at this point.

Gai, maybe the only one apart from Tenzo whom he could have referred to as a friend, had died five minutes after opening the eight gate, successfully keeping all six of Pein's bodies at bay, even managing to "kill" four but Pein did have the annoying ability to "revive" the bodies. Seeing as it rescued two of his three students Kakashi could only applaud the deceased jounin for having the courage to throw his life away to stall a superior enemy to let your pupils escape.

Gai, in many ways, was a greater man than he could ever be. Now Kakashi had to do the same, only he had to save a world from Akatsuki.

It is your win Gai,

Standing up, he signaled for those who wanted to come to follow him. He wasn't surprised that Neji Hyuuga joined theirs ranks without saying a word. Kakashi didn't know if he came to avenge the death of his sensei and teammate, or to protect his last teammate and cousin, or to save Naruto or simply to die, maybe it was a combination of all of them. Kakashi didn't care: even injured to that degree, Neji would still be useful in battle. That boy was a genius more talented than Sasuke and by far the most powerful Hyuuga he had seen. In a few years, Kakashi was sure, he would have been at Akatsuki level. Unfortunately, he most certainly won't have those years.

Another talented kid dying young, seems to be the fate of most prodigies; either die young or live and turn into a monster.

"Good luck," he told Izumo, "the Capital City should be safe for a while. They may not have the troops that Konoha did but it will provide safety for a little bit." That was a lie, if Akatsuki or even another major shinobi force wanted to attack, the ninja stationed at the capital would not save anyone but the capital and would probably not fight if it came down to it. Yet it was a lie Izumo knew too, and he played along with it.

That didn't mean he had no problems with Kakashi right now. Why go on a mission you can't succeed Izumo obviously wanted to ask. No, demand from him. Everything in his posture, his face said that he thought this to be insane, that Kakashi was going into his death, taking six young kids with him. The grip on his crutches tightened.

He won't say anything, assured Kakashi himself, he is not stupid enough to start an argument like this right now, in this situation,

Kakashi knew that his profile as the infamous copy ninja was well known. Officially having stolen over one thousand techniques and maybe having the most completed missions in Konoha history, people expected great and impossible things from him and a certain level of responsibility. They expected him to have a better idea, a safer one. One with an actual chance of success.

An undeserved reputation, Kakshi thought, an unfounded one.

He had been a student of the fourth Hokage, close advisor and personal guard to the third Hokage and some people even rumored he had been the second youngest ANBU captain, after Uchiha Itachi. Izumo had served under him at times, so he knew that this behavior was not normal and that he knew he should say something to make him reconsider.

But he didn't, he knew that not one of the shinobi who were going with Kakashi would hear what he would say, that it only would cause the moral going down more than it already was. If it was possible that is, after losing their home, their village, the one thing they had sworn to protect, no matter what…

To think it was done by eight people, ending the greatest of the five great shinobi nations like that. What three wars couldn't, two platoons managed it, without any losses on that.

And now five exhausted and injured chunin and two exhausted and injured jounin were about to hunt after those eight monsters.

He knew he would never see any of them again. He knew that with them, the last prominent clans of Konoha would die out.

It would be my fault,

Yet all he could do was to mechanically nod as he forcefully chocked out "Yeah, you too."

Just one more thing to do,

He fumbled a scroll out of one of the many pockets of his vest and opened it. The blood needed for it was easy to provide since he wasn't lacking open wounds and within the small cloud of smoke, stood Fukasaku, leaning on his staff.

"I take it they have him." croaked the old toad sourly.

"Unfortunately." he paused for a second, "Can you…?" but Kakashi was interrupted before he could finish his question.

"Already tried that, boy." The elder frog shook its head, "Have been trying that for the last hour, after we were sent back by one of Pain's bodies. They must have covered him with seals that prevent the reverse summoning." it paused for a few seconds. "They knew he could summon us and obviously they have people among them who are quite well-versed in summoning."

"I was afraid of that." admitted Kakashi, ignoring the looks everyone around him had. "My dogs can't pick up their scent either. We have no idea where they went but we have an Aburame with us who tagged Naruto with a bug, we may be able to follow them that way."

Fukasaku nodded approvingly to Shino. "Aburame were always dependable."

Kakashi stood up, his eye meeting the frog elders steadily. "We'll head out then." Kakashi gave the toad an opportunity to say something which it didn't take. Old summons were rarely that cooperative with people who did not sign their contracts. It showed how deep the bond between Jiraya and the toads was, for it still helped them so much.

"Please don't stop trying to summon Naruto, maybe we will get lucky."

"We didn't stop, my wife is continuing the efforts as we speak." The toads gaze went over the group of shinobi Kakashi had assembled to take with him.

"Please save Naruto-chan" it croaked sadly, apparently it didn't notice Kakashi not answering when it disappeared back to its home.

Neither did his team.

The Akatsuki had managed to get back in a matter of thirteen hours, for the emergency team of Konoha it took three days. You can't maintain maximum speed in a near half dead condition.

They had to stop over five times already to close the most urgent reopened wounds.

"It is about time I explain our real mission…" started Kakashi slowly at their last break before arriving.

"What do you mean real mission?" asked Kiba confused. For him it was a pretty clear mission. Get in there, try to rescue Naruto and mess up the sealing and die while trying, nothing too confusing, it was actually his kind of mission. He wouldn't mind surviving but at this point, with his family dead he didn't think it would matter.

"We're not here to save Naruto; we're not going to try to save Naruto." The reactions of his team were quite expected. Shino didn't have a visible reaction, Shikamaru cursed silently while Neji frowned, the shock on Lee's face was heartbreaking, Kiba snarled angrily and would have yelled in a safer location, Akamaru growled dangerously and Hinata, due to a mixture of shock, rage and sense of betrayal activated unconsciously her Byakugan to glare at Kakashi in such a way that her deceased father might have been moved to tears.

"Wh...what are you saying?" demanded Hinata. "How can you think like that, we have to try, maybe we…"

"No!" Kakashi interrupted her. "It is impossible to save Naruto, it's impossible to go there, take Naruto and escape. I am not going to let you die while trying doing something meaningless. At best, we can interrupt the ritual for three days if we move according to your idea."

"Then why did we come here?" snarled Kiba, looking more feral than usual. "Tell us, you piece of betraying shit."

Shikamaru, inhaling the smoke of his cigarette deeply, glanced empty eyed at his friend. "We are here to kill Naruto."

So he did figure it out, noticed Kakashi, I wonder when,

Kiba, until now standing, collapsed tiredly staring in wide disbelief at both Shikamaru and Kakashi.

"No…" he hissed, balling his fists. "No! I know there's something else. Kurenai-sensei never really liked you but she did always say she respected you for one thing, for your tenacity to never let a comrade die while they were on a mission with you and she said you always pulled it off!"

"Not always," responded Kakashi softly, "But you must understand one thing, Naruto will die, whether we attempt to save him or not, he will die. The demon extraction will kill him. Let us say we storm in, one of us grabs Naruto while rest delays Akatsuki, two minutes, five minutes if the delay was really good, then they will catch up to the one who has Naruto. They will kill that person, fast if they feel generous, slowly if they are angry at us for interrupting their sealing. Naruto wouldn't gain anything, we wouldn't gain anything, Akatsuki would have lost three days, which ultimately wouldn't matter."

"We have to try!" protested Hinata, "E...everything is better than to accept his death!"

"Why?" asked Kakashi, "Because you yourself will die peacefully, thinking "I gave my best" or "At least I have tried"? That history will reflect "they fought well until the bitter end"?

"If we had a one in a million, no one in a billion chance that we eventually might be able to pull it off, you can be assured that I would have tried it but as it is, not one of us has more than a third of their original chakra; we are all exhausted, injured and some of us can't even use most of their usual techniques. We couldn't beat them in top condition but we can't even fight them in this." Here he stopped to look everyone in the eyes, one by one.

"We will storm in, and the minute it takes them to kill all of us, we will give one person the chance to kill Naruto so that the Kyuubi dies, leaving them without all nine tailed beasts. Whatever they might have planned, it won't happen.

"It won't be a meaningless death for Naruto. He would approve, he would put the wellbeing of countless humans before his own…" he trailed of seeing the look on Hinata's usual gentle and kind face; he saw the hatred towards Akatsuki, towards their situation, towards the world and the most intense hatred towards himself.

In all honesty he couldn't really blame her for that; he hated himself too, far more than Hinata ever could. He had failed everything and everyone that had depended on him: the Leaf, his father, his old team, his new team, his teacher, his friends and the sons of the two people he had looked up to the most.

He was going to kill the son of his sensei whom he had disappointed over and over again; he was going to lead a bunch of injured, exhausted but talented and good hearted kids into a suicide mission that had almost no chance of success and he was going to betray every principle the Hidden Leaf and his mentors had fought for. He was going to do, what even his father, a stern and dutiful man, hadn't been able to bring himself to do. He was going to betray his friends, his teachers, his students and the most important people in his life.

Kakashi wished that he could do it without forcing Obito to watch it, but he needed the Sharingan for the attack so he would involuntarily make Obito watch him kill their sensei's only son.

And it still wouldn't be the worst thing I have ever done. No, Hinata couldn't hate him as much as he hated himself.

A/N

So, that was the first chapter, I am still in the middle of planning this out, so don't expect fast updates. I do have some stuff ready but it will take a while to fully write it out, hope you liked it so far.