Last chapter I think, this is the tenth! Thanks for everything, thanks to notbotheredtologin ()
who told me I had to choose. Thanks for that! And I have chosen. Thanks to Jaden-Cyber Incision for everything :D
Clary ran from Alec and went to her room. She was tired.
Tired of lying to Jace and lying to Alec. She lay on her bed.
She shut her eyes. And began to dream.
She was in Idris, with Jace. He was wearing Shadowhunter clothes.
"Alec is dead" Jace whispered. "He fought a demon for you. He died because of you"
Clary felt her heart pounding. No. No. No.
Isabelle appeared beside her sobbing. She looked at Clary.
"All he did was love you. And you never loved him back. He wanted to be like Jace"
Be like Jace.
Clary sat up her heart pounding. Alec. She jumped out of bed and ran to Alec's room. She burst inside. He wasn't there. The bed was empty, all tidy. As if it hadn't been slept in. Where was he?
"Alec?" she called. Her voice echoed through the Institute.
No answer. She ran down to the kitchen. Magnus gave her a sad smile. No. She slammed the door behind her as she left. Jace would tell her. Alec couldn't be dead. He just couldn't.
I need him, she thought. Then she heard voices coming from the Weapons room. Tears were slipping down her cheeks. She walked in the door preparing for Jace's response. Alec straightened up and
looked at her. She stood for a moment, marvelling just how amazing he was. How beautiful his dark blue eyes were as he looked at her. She gave a choked sob and she flung herself at him. She buried
her face in his chest as Jace watched. She felt Alec's arms wrap around her as she sobbed.
"I thought you were dead" she whispered.
"I'm not Clary" he said gently, stroking her hair. Jace walked off. But this time she didn't follow him. She knew what she wanted now. It was too hard to even think of life without Alec. She would die
without him. Without him kissing her and forcing her to tell the truth about how she really felt. Because she had to at some point. And that point was now.
"Alec" she said quietly. He smiled down at her. She reached up and stroked his face.
"I love you" she said. Alec's face hardened.
"Clary, I don't know if I believe you. You said it before, and you denied it. I want to trust you but I don't know if I can" he said quietly. Tears filled her eyes.
"Please believe me" she said. She reached up and kissed him. He hesitated before pulling her tightly against him.
"It's time to let her go" Jace said quietly to Magnus. Magnus nodded.
"There's no use denying they love each other" Magnus said softly. Jace looked like he was going to cry. He was shaking. Clary came into the room holding Alec's hand. He looked away.
"I'm sorry" Clary said shakily. "But I love Alec"
She went over to Jace and turned him towards her. There were tears in his eyes. She hugged him tightly. He held her too, kissing her hair.
"I'll love you always Clary. Don't forget that. I love you" he said his voice breaking. Clary kissed his cheek. He pulled away. Alec went over to Magnus. He hugged him. Magnus gave Clary a sad smile.
Jace squeezed Clary's hand, stroking it with his thumb. She let go of his hand.
"I will always love you too" Clary said softly. Jace nodded before pushing past her and leaving the room.
"It will be hard for him" Magnus said softly. Alec nodded.
"I'm sorry Magnus. I'm sorry"
Magnus smiled at him, but it was clear he was hurting.
Clary touched Alec's hand. He smiled at her. Isabelle smiled at them both from the kitchen table. She kissed his cheek gently. Magnus walked from the room too. So did Isabelle. Alec kissed her gently at
first. She sighed. Then he kissed her more fiercely. She tangled her fingers in his hair, marvelling how soft his lips were. She pulled away slightly.
"I love you" she said.
"I love you too" Alec whispered against her lips.
It was going to be hard without Jace. It would take a while for Magnus and Jace to get over it. But she'd always care about him. Jace was special. But she had Alec.