smile.

rating: kid-ish

pairing: kenshin/kaoru

song/inspiration: battousai

warning: possibly confusing and grammatical errors?

Summary: (a short intro into kenshin/battousai state of mind and how kaoru fits in this)

Battousai and Kenshin the rurouni weren't two different persona as many people thought, and even if they were that didn't mean he had completely locked him up.

What many people did not know was that Battousai was actually a state of mind that was always present, the assassin that thought through every move every opponent made, that controlled the movements of his body. Battousai was his conscious and his demon, a presence completely his that had been created to survive, a hardened shield to withstand the horrors of the Bakumatsu. But in reality all him, Battousai was a art of Kenshin as was the rurouni. But that is a description for a different time.

Now if you were to ask Kenshin why, when he shaped into that assassin "persona" (remember no one knows he really is always there), his eyes change color, he won't answer that it is because it is a distinction of two different souls or which is which, he actually won't say anything in reality.

But deep down he responds and sighs because he wished the world would know, but is too afraid to actually say that his eyes change color and that his voice changes to a deep baritone because his emotions are too deep, too passionate and that sometimes he wishes he were back in that era were he could do what he wanted but not really, because he doesn't want to hurt those around him. There are no other reasons why he actually portrays these changes other than the fact that he wishes he could act on his feeling and not be judged by society, or those around him.

And if you were to ask him right now in this very moment, as he is caught of guard in his relaxed and lazy state, why he changes? He will say that it is because he is alarmed that he has let himself relax too much when there are so many dangers around hunting for him and his family, yes family, but he will completely deny that it is because he is too amused at catching Kaoru trying to tip toe by without waking him and after finding him looking at her, looking so sheepish that it is comical. And he chuckles as she giggles, because he knows that the only one that understands his state of mind is Kaoru, the woman child that captured his heart and his mind at first glance. The ray of hope that showed in the darkest of times and showed him that in this family; hers, his, ours, his conscious supplies, he can be who he wants to be without fear and without judgment. Because they understand he is Kenshin, Battousai and rurouni in all of his self.

introduction to smile :) a series of drabbles containing the couple of kenshin and kaoru with appearances by the kenshin! gang. hope you like, please if you'd like to criticize or whatever the link is right down there, feel free :)