NOTE: she's still dead. I promise! Like not even playing... she's DEAD... the kind where you stop breathing and kind of sort of DIE.

*Rimabeth POV*

"Mistoffelees.. I l-love… you." I whispered watching as everything went black. Death wasn't upsetting actually. It certainly wasn't as painful as I thought it was. I could feel all of the worries and problems simply lift off of me as I watched Mistoffelees slowly disappear. The drum beats out of time as I feel my heart stop.

My eyes fluttered open, staring up at the pure white sky. I sat up, no pain at all to stop me. I stared around at the sad Jellicles, the kits being ushered away. Tugger walked away from the bloody pool that was once Griddlebone. I followed him into his den, watching him as he began to cry. Never, not once, in my entire life. Had I seen my brother cry. The Rum Tum Tugger was someone you cried over, not someone who cried because of you. I turned my head about, nervously trying to look away. I slowly walked over to him, wrapping my arm around his shoulder. I didn't say anything, just sat there holding him. His fur was once soft and warm, I couldn't feel it now. I couldn't feel his heart beat, or the warmth his body gave off when he tackles you in a hug when you came home. Oh Tugger, you're not alone. I'm here for you Tugger. I ran my paws through what would probably feel like his fluffy, long mane. I couldn't feel him.

"I'm sorry Rimabeth."

What was there to be sorry for? He'd helped me countless times when I'd come home from Ripton. He'd tried to save me when I'd been captured by Macavity. What could he be sorry for.

"Tugger?" I knew he wouldn't hear me. "Tugger you're the best big brother I could ever ask for." The tears streamed down his cheeks as he looked up blankly at the wall. I couldn't. I just couldn't ... he took in one last sob of a breath as I kissed his head, walking out of the room. As odd as it sounded, one day he'd die too. And I'd be there to welcome him with open arms, ready for one of those hugs.

Munkustrap just stared as Alonzo and Tumble cleaned up the new mess. Alonzo, sweet sweet Alonzo. I remembered when I used to be with him. I'd sit under his humans wonderful flowers petals, just staring up at them as he pawed at my fur. His hazel eyes staring at me longingly. I'd turn over and kiss him thoroughly, and his arm would snake around my waist, pulling me into pure embrace. He was strong, loyal, nice, polite, funny, protective. He was almost everything I looked for in a Tom. But there was just that one flaw. He was so protective of me. I could take care of myself. Alonzo was older than me, more experienced than me. But I still loved to be with him. I gently walked over to him, watching him pull away the bloody form. I put my hand on his arm, watching him stop in his tracks, look up and swallow the tears as he continued with his work.

Demeter cried on my brothers shoulder as they both stared where I once lay. I leaned down, placing a small kiss into his head fur, whispering,

"Munkustrap?" He eyes shot open, darting around. Could he really hear me? Was I getting closer to being understood - if that was the word? "Munkustrap?... You're a great big brother. Thank you." He squeezed his eyes shut as tight as he could, trying to ignore my words. You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel Munkustrap.

Time for my big finale.

I slowly approached my own den, staring in awe as Mistoffelees clutched onto my body. It was odd sight. Staring down at your dead body, your beloved clinging onto it. His rocked me back and forth, rubbing my now cold pelt. He laid me out across his lap, a small smile escaping his lips. I smirked, walking slowly to him, staring down in an observant fashion. A tear slipped from his eye as he put his face in his hands.

He was the thing that kept me up at night, knowing that my every dream, was now my reality. Mistoffelees could make my heart skip with one smile, my world light up with one laugh. I needed to be with him, and I would be eventually.

"I love you Mistoffelees" I whispered, softly pressing my lips to his. He faded from my sight. This was Heavyside. A simply beautiful field, everyone sat on a sort hill of their own. People talking, children laughing. Children. Oh these poor kits, they hadn't even had a chance to live. I stared out over the endless stretch of land, every piece covered in past Jellicles. I felt the wind rush around me as the people around me switched.

"Mummy?" I turned around, my little girl staring back at me. "Mum!" She yelled as she ran into my open arms. I scooped her up holding her close to me. My little girl. My only little girl. My heart jumped into my throat as I choked on a sob. Thank you Everlasting Cat. And soon, she'd meet her... father of the sort. She'd meet my Mistoffelees. And I'd be together. I'd be waiting. I'll be waiting.