Someday, Somehow

Chapter 2

What Should Be And What Is

"I need the room number for Allison Cameron," House requested when he finally arrived at the hospital.

"Name?" The woman behind the desk responded.

"ALL-I-SON…CAM-ER-ON, are you deaf cause I got to say not the best career path," he remarked.

"Your name?" She rephrased.

"Greg House," House answered getting frustrated.

"I'm sorry sir, I can't let you see her."

"What do you mean you can't let me? I'm her proxy."

"I'm sorry it say right here that you have to speak with Mrs. Elger before you can see Ms. Cameron," she picked up the phone and mumbled something while House stood there impatiently waiting for her, " She won't be a moment sir just take a seat."

House limped over to the seat in the waiting area and pondered on resent events. He and Cuddy had broken up and he actually felt bad about it, he had rushed to the side of a woman who possibly, probably hated him and he was waiting for somebody who he didn't even know, Mrs. Elger. He liked puzzles, it was no secret and he had been trying to figure out Allison Cameron for nearly 8 years, Mrs. Elger would be one more piece to add.

"Dr. House?" House looked up to see the person asking for him and had to double back he was so sure that it was Cameron, only at closer exception he assumed it was the sister Chase had mentioned. She was older, slightly but still no mistaking her relation to his ex-subordinate.

"Yeah, hi older version of Cameron…Lizzie? Lexie?" Greeted House in his own infamous way.

"Libby, I'm glad Robert convinced you to come." She smiled brightly but much more coolly than Cameron.

"Firstly, the wombat didn't convince me to do anything and secondly, most people aren't glad to meet me so I'm assuming that Cameron hasn't told you much about me."

"Actually she told me that you were a arrogant genius who didn't give damn about anyone other than himself, and all his little games." House began to say something but was cut off by the clearly more courageous Cameron, "I also known how many times I have had to listen to her crying over you only to hear her praising you and worshiping you that next time she called. Dr. House I don't know you but I know my sister, she smart and funny and beautiful and she's probably the strongest person I've ever met but ever since she met you she has questioned everything about herself. When it comes to you my sister doesn't have a history of doing the smart thing hence you being her medical proxy because after everything she has some twisted idea that you actually care what happens to her. I think you should just walk away before you do anymore damage ho-."

House was slightly shocked that this woman was actually telling him not to see Cameron and even more shocked that he, now more than ever wanted to see her and talk to her, so he cut Libby off before she could continue.

"If nothing else she trusted my medical opinion and like you said you don't know me so you should to."

"Like I was saying, however if you actually care about her than I'll let you see her cause I've never seen her like this and I have know idea what to do. It's like she's there with me and I'm watching her slip away. She needs somebody who has been through just a fraction of what she's gone through and I don't know if that person is you but I'm giving everything I've got and it's not enough, you're my last chance."

House considered this a lot right now he had to make a decision because his presence in her like would either completely destroy her or it would help her.

"I'm not gonna crush her."

+h/c+

To anyone else it wouldn't look like anything was wrong not even to House. One the way to her room Libby had told him more about her condition, she had been smart and all of her cuts had been made on her thighs and legs, small and shallow, only just drawing blood. They weren't suicide attempts; they were relief from a different type of pain. He could understand that, some times when his leg hurt he had cut because the pain receptors in his brain would then focus on that pain than the pain in his thigh. As he saw her waking up he wished that he could just yell at her for being stupid but he couldn't, he understood he empathised with her.

Here eyes fluttered open and it took here a while to focus on who she was looking at but those bright blue eyes were unmistakeable "House wha-what are you dong here?" The brunette asked sounding alarmed.

"Your sister called the wombat he told me I was your proxy. I wasn't gonna come but I-"

"Get out," Cameron said surprising both her sister and House.

"Ally, he came along way…" Libby began.

"I don't care how far he's come he can go back. Go back House; go back to your girlfriend and your team and your game. I folded a long time ago and I don't want back in. "

"Fine," he said as he limped toward the doorway, "Oh and Cameron, I love your hair. Reminds me of the good old days ya know? Centrifuges, monster trucks, attempted kiss and stab." With that he left smirking that totally House smirk.

"Ally why'd you send him away?"

"Because he can't help me, can't fix me. He's just as damaged as I am.

"Maybe he's just damaged enough?" Libby said but it was more like a question.

"It doesn't matter. I don't need him anymore, don't love him. I can't"

"Well which is it little sis because love is something you can't control. You can't say sorry I don't like this one, next please."

"He is selfish and manipulative. He ruins people, he ruined Robert, he doesn't care about individual lives all that matters to him is the puzzle. Hen infects everybody around him with misery. Besides he has a girlfriend now and he-"

"Al! Ally! Alison! Are. You. Still. In. Love. With. Him?"

Every word out of her sister's mouth hit her like a brick. She should hate him, it wasn't a question, she knew that she should but she woke up and he was there and every time he's there he puts her head in such a flurry. So was she? Was she still in love with Gregory House?

A/N: Not really happy with this chapter. Nothing seemed right as I was writing it but oh well what are you going to do eh?

Comment always welcome and much loved. They help stroke my ego, hopefully by the end of this fic it will be as big as House's. haha.

Thanks to everyone who commented the first chapter, Hollie 2611, AllyCameron, Inu-Gurl07, k-girl20 & DanielaCullen1901.

Also to ChillinOut, I'm curious as to what you were expecting was going to happen to her and also that I think your opinion is valid and Cameron Kinda agrees with you but also in my defence I am in high school. =D

I DO NOT OWN HOUSE M.D

Just to let you know my inspiration for this fic came from the

Nickleback Song 'Someday' it fits both POV's but mostly House.

-Em