Okay so I did plan on making this a one shot, but the story wouldn't stop being written lol

please review and tell me what you think xxxx

In every high school there are clicks, groups of teenagers with status' assigned to them within the first few hours to joining the emotional train wreck that is high school, and will stay with them until they finally graduate if not the rest of their lives.

There's the popular crowd usually consisting of strong confident athletic jocks, and the 'perfect' perky cheerleaders. The others were groups such as; the nerds, the freaks, the sluts, and the rich kids- which were mostly the popular kids apart from those really snobby ones that turned there nose up and everything and everyone, the bullies- once again usually the jocks that liked to pray on the weak like fricking animals and then there was Dean.

Dean Winchester was the anomaly he was on the football team and one of the best players, yet his soft spot for victims and playing the hero made him hate the jocks way on running the school. He was tough and smart and could take them on and everyone new it, they had respect for each other but there was not friendship there. Dean was also best friends with a boy you could only describe as being 'strange' they had been friends forever after since there mothers meet in hospital as they were giving birth to them, so they were born but one day apart, in reality Dean was born first and is 2 hours older.

There have been many like Dean on there first week at high school, they all seemed to do the same thing, ditch the weirdo to fit in and gain popularity. Something Dean had the opportunity to do but refused, he wasn't going to ditch Castiel to get in with those jerks. That was years ago now its senior year, and Dean has impressively stood by his morals.

Dean's group of friends were a weird lot, the ones that didn't really fit in with anyone, seemed to all gather together with Dean in the centre, they all bonded and formed a friendship group; Dean's friends were the outcasts that fitted in nowhere but with each other. Due to the respect Dean commanded and his sway in school, which no one especially Dean new just how big that was, gained immunity from the worst of the jocks attention. So could get on with living there lives and counting down the days till graduation.

Deans friends consisted of the best friend and resident church going saint Castiel, Bella; the exchange student with mental problems from abuse in her past, but acts violently as a cover, Jo; the freak with a knife collection, Chcuk; the psychic and mind reading writer, Gabriel; the immature joker with no off button and Deans girlfriend Anna the fiery red head that sometimes hears voices.

Dean looked around to his friends as they all sat in the middle of Cas' living room, with all the windows blacked out and an Ouija board in the centre of the small circle they created, Bella was operating it convinced she could communicate to the other side. Dean smiled softly amused at his friends, it figures on the night of the biggest party of the year they would be talking to the dead.

Dean went to the kitchen to fetch a beer Cas had alerted everyone to earlier, many beers had been consumed, they may be outcasts but they were still teenagers. As Dean entered the modern, white but rather traditional, kitchen he found Castiel already in the fridge. Without a word or having to peer to see who it was that just entered the kitchen, an arm appeared from behind the fridge door holding an already opened beer out for Dean.

"Thanks." Dean took the beer and took a swig "how did you know it was me anyway?"

"Dean it's me, of course I knew."

As Cas stood at the side of Dean as they both lent against the kitchen counter. Dean gestured in agreement to Cas' reasoning and he tilted his bottle to Cas' they clanked their bottles and the boys smiled.

"Cheers to that Cas."

They drank silently, before Cas turned to Dean, watched him drink until he was done with his swig before he began to talk.

"You want to go, don't you?"

"Go where?"

"Don't play dumb Dean, Meg's party, you want to go."

Dean had every intention of denying it, but couldn't this was Cas he was talking too, someone that knew him better then anyone. They knew each other inside out yet still managed to surprise each other, which is what they liked most about there friendship. Dean shrugged stiffly.

"It would be nice to go to one, once in a while."

"What we're not good enough for you Winchester?"

Cas joked making Dean smile and after quickly glancing at the door way he lent in and gave Cas a quick yet lingering kiss, soft and tender as they slowly pressed their lips together. Making both boys smile as they parted and Cas bite his bottom lip.

"You are more then enough."

Dean reassured Cas who knew he was telling the truth and wouldn't swap his friends or him for the world, but Cas also knew he did want to be more social.

"We could go."

Cas suggested only to get the idea laughed off by Dean.

"No we're here with Bella and her ghosts for entertainment…oooohhhhhh"

Dean couldn't resist making cute mocking ghost noises and wiggling his fingers in Cas' face making the younger boy giggle and swat his hand away, well Cas meant to swat it away he ended up holding it where he caught it, in mid air near his face stroking It with his thumb. Cas brought Dean's strong hand to his lips and he kissed his palm, and after looking again at the door way, Cas smirked at the Dean put his index finger in his mouth and keeping eye contact with Dean as he swirled his tongue around it and sucked in a very, very suggestive manner.

Dean opened his mouth as if to gasp but nothing came out, he seemed to be struck by the breathtaking image of the beautiful Christian boy in front of him and the feel of him divulging in what had to be a sin, something that felt that good just had to be a sin.

"Cas, what are you doing to me?"

Cas chuckled as he let Dean's arm drop to his side though still holding onto it, he laced his fingers with Dean's as they playful rolled there thumbs over each others. Their eyes met and neither of them could hold back the smile that kept across their across there faces. Both wanting to kiss the other, they felt each other move inwards to share a very passionate embrace when, all of a sudden the sound whistling caught their ears, it was getting louder and Dean and Cas parted quickly, Cas sat at the table wear Dean went over the fridge to make it look like was just rooting through it. Anna appeared in the door way a few seconds later, thank god for her whistling both boys thought.

"Hey honey!"

Anna said louder then anyone including her expected, she then covered her mouth and giggled.

"You're drunk."

Dean replied to Anna who parted her index finger and thumb slightly to reveal a tiny gap and showed dean, how little drunk she was. But as she did she thrust her hand at dean to fast and toppled slightly.

"Yeah you're not drunk."

Dean told her sarcastically as he moved away from the fridge and stood in the middle of the kitchen, he didn't know what to do or say. His sexy girlfriend was standing in front of him, but so was his gorgeous, loving, attentive, boyfriend, which Anna didn't know about. Anna pouted and made her way towards him she wrapped her arms around him and squeezed his ass, making Dean look very uncomfortable, Anna didn't stop she lent to his ear and whispered very louder, that poor Cas heard.

"I want you." Anna removed her hands and put them in his chest ran one hand down and hooked his waist band of his jeans and felt to the soft hair underneath. "Come upstairs Deanie"

Dean shook his head, "no Anna, we're at Cas' and you're fucking smashed."

Dean tried to remove himself from the situation but then she started kissing and licked Dean neck making sex noises and giggling on the way. Dean was getting hard he didn't want to be but Anna knew how to touch Dean just right, almost. It was in fact Cas that could send his head spinning with one touch, one look. Great now thinking about his boyfriend has gotten him fully hard and his girlfriend took the damn credit.

Cas unfortunately was still sitting as the table and could hear Anna's pleas and kisses worst of all he heard Deans gasps of pleasure. He didn't mind well that's what he told himself. They both new what they do at night isn't exactly right and it after all Cas' idea to keep it secret. Despite this he found himself getting jealous so stood up, with a brave smile looked at them, Dean's eyes were looking back he was obviously uncomfortable with what Anna was doing in front of Cas but hadn't exactly stopped her.

"Excuse me."

Cas said sounding as casual as he could Anna stopped what she was doing to get out the way for Cas to get his beer. Cas moved in front of Dean reaching for the bottle. Cas turned to look at Dean; they stared into each other only for a second but was enough for breaths to get lodged in their throats, stomach churn and them to have to stop themselves kissing the other. They were so close they felt each others breathe skate over their features. Cas removed himself from Dean's personal space and looked from Dean to Anna back to Dean.

"I'll leave you to it."

Cas told Dean although he sounded neutral in his emotions, sounding like it didn't bother him at all, there was pain behind those beautiful eyes of his, Dean saw it and wanted to hold Cas until it went away. The younger boy turned to leave Dean and his girlfriend alone.

"Cas wait there's no need…"

"shhhhh Dean you heard him let's continue…upstairs."

Anna slurred into Dean's ear.

"No Anna, god get a grip will ya."

With that Dean left the confused and emotional Anna standing alone in the kitchen, she slowly made her way to the chair just vacated by Cas. She realised just how drunk she was and thought she must have scared Dean off. Jo joined her in the kitchen they ended up having one of those in depth drunken talks.

"Cas wait, wait up." Dean caught up to Cas in the hall on the way to the living room to join the others. He turned the boy to face him "I'm sorry about in there, I never meant…"

"No it's alright."

Cas answered but Dean was unable to answer as Jo walked past the boys became silent so she wouldn't suspect anything. Jo watched them as she went to the kitchen; she thought they were acting strange. Dean turned back to his lover.

"no it's not alright."

"yes Dean it is, now come on let's join everyone else."

Cas quickly but intimately cupped dean cheek and rubbed it with his thumb before leaving for the living room, dean followed suit feeling stupid and worthless.

He liked Anna he really did but he loved Castiel. He felt like a user, but it was Cas that told him not to use the word love, it was too dangerous. That they should keep what they have what they do and what they feel secret from everyone else, and not let it interfere with the rest of their lives, including Anna. Cas had reassured him that they could date other people and with Cas' insistence went with Anna, but Cas still remained unattached, apart from Dean. But he loved Cas, he did whether Cas wanted to hear it or not. Dean did and wanted to tell everyone but Cas refused to let him.

Cas knew how Dean felt, though he never said it, after their first accidental kiss and their second and third. Cas and Dean decided to talk; One kiss was an accident, two was a mistake but three, there was no excusing that apart from with the truth, they both wanted it. They both needed it, they needed each other. After talking it though Cas told dean they could be together, they could hold and kiss each other and have some fun but only in secret no one else could know.

Dean obliged as long as he had Cas he didn't seem to mind. Then things changed, feelings deepened and when Cas realised he loved Dean he decided to tell him; not to fall in love. Love was confusing and distracting, it hurt and was of no use to them, not when they were just having fun and knew it wouldn't last, nothing good ever did.

Although Cas was the one that told Dean to go with Anna, he was feeling sick at the thought of Dean holding, toughing and kissing her they way he did with him. It made Cas want to kiss Dean in front of her to mark his territory, show her what's his and what she cant have. Of course he doesn't, being jealous of your lovers girlfriend was normal, though did his best to hide it.

They sat in the circle joining the others, Bella was finishing her ghost session, Chuck filled them in that they told her something about a seals coursing the apocalypse or something, Gabriel suggested going to sea world and interrogating the live stock, of course he was joking but after the beer he would probably do it.

Cas and Dean sat next to each other. Cas leaning on his right hand and dean on his left, this meant their hands could touch, they were gently caressing each others fingers, sending sharp sensations of lustful desire through their bodies. As they lent into each other slightly knowing from experience this would hide they hands with the help of the sofa behind them. Their now obvious closeness to hide there…closeness Didn't go unnoticed by everyone but was simply over looked, they were always close, they were best friends no one thought anything of it. Dean felt Cas warmth, he felt Anna's too, but Cas' was the only one that seemed to warm Dean's chest making it tighten and harder to breath, Dean guessed his was some sort of positive feeling for Cas as he didn't get it from anyone else, especially not Anna.

Everything when smoothly dean and Cas gently secretly touched whilst pretending to listen to Gabriel's jokes and chucks rants whilst they were doing vodka shots, they couldn't think up a game so decided to simple drinking, everyone seemed game enough, apart from Cas that didn't like to drink to much.

Dean felt happy truly relaxed he was with Cas, friends and booze all three he loved, all in different ways but Cas above all, more then anything, it hurt just thinking about having to kiss Anna and not Cas, but he did it for him, Cas seemed to think Dean seeing Anna would throw people of the sent of them.