A/N: Wow, I barely realized something. IchiRuki can mean two things.

Ichigo x Rukia

Or

ICHImaru x Rukia ( I purposely capitalized ichi in Ichimaru)

I should have been happy when I saw you there, laying in your own blood barely breathing. But I wasn't.

If anything, I was the exact opposite. I was terrified. Terrified that you were going to die.

It was the worse feeling ever.

I've never felt this raw emotion of pure sadness and desperation. Not even when Kaien-dono died or when Ichigo was almost killed.

"Rukia-chan." Weak, that's how your voice sounded but the wave of relief that went through me when I heard your voice, confirming that you were still alive and not dead pushed me to have faith.

"Gin!" My voice sounded urgent, scared, and desperate.

I knelt down beside you about to heal you when told me something that broke my heart. "It's no use, Rukia-chan."

The tears came and fell on their own. I was going to lose you and there was nothing I could do about it. You were holding my hand as I cried; as I felt your hand turning cold... as you took your last breath.

When your hand went limp, I clung to it even when they tried to take you away from me. When they were able to take you away, I started screaming and yelling.

Before I finally passed out, I knew that I didn't want to wake up knowing that you weren't going to be there.

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