Hello there fellow readers, it's Ta here with my very first fan-fiction!

-Crowd cheering-

I'm super exited about writing this.

Of course, what better anime to write about than Kuroshitsuji!

I'm going through a Sebastian and Ciel phase, kind of hard to avoid once you have seen the first season and some of the second[I cried sooooo hard at the ending of the first one, who of you did as well?]

So yeah, I love reviews! The more reviews, the more I'll update

Let's get this loooong show on the road, yes?

Warnings: Lots of lemons in the later chapters, this is M for mature audiences. If you don't like boy on boy action, especially when it involves a minor, I suggest you stop and exit this story at once.

:'D

Disclaimer: I don't own Kuroshitsuji or any of the characters, they belong to Yana Toboso.

Chapter 1 : Disperazione

The first sensation I felt was despair that turned to agony which suddenly faded into a heavy sadness that chilled me to the core. All I could see in my mind was Sebastian's saddened carmine eyes. Agony and craving clashed within his brilliant orbs, his face was perfectly gathered into an expressionless mask. My mind suddenly struck by how beautiful he was.

I heard his gentle whispers in my ear, echoing over and over, trying to comfort the anxiety that was eating my insides.

"Sh... it's okay; I'm right here. I'll always be with you, young Master."

Was Sebastian really going to be with me for that long, will he really follow me to the deepest depths of Hell? My mind processed those unreasonable questions that ached to be answered over and over again. The pieces of the puzzle started to piece themselves together, I could hear the ticking of my mind as the end dawned on me.

I wanted to see his face again. My fingers ached to feel the warmth of his skin, smell that consoling scent of his waistcoat. I nuzzled my face into the hollow of his neck, the thumping of his heart lulled my anxiety for what seemed like a flash of light. I could feel strands of his coal-colored hair tickle my ear uncomfortably but I cared not for all that ran through my mind at the moment was the realization that I was slowly being freed from the "master and servant" act I've struggled to pull through.

Somehow during my pondering his whispering came to a stop. I tried to look around, to find my dearest butler but it was all in vain; my eyelids had closed heavily over my eyes and my trying to open them wouldn't work. Where was Sebastian? He promised to be with me forever, he promised!

I attempt again to open my eyes, my cerulean orbs searched from under my lids finding nothing but dark shadows. These shadows frightened me, made me remember those horrid days when I was caged. When I was taken advantage of, when I was slaughtered. My lips parted as I tried to get my vocal chords to work but all that was emitted from my shell was that dreadful silence that I had come to loathe.

I felt Sebastian shift around me, his hand came to rest on my cheek as his thumb caressed the skin over my cheekbone. I wanted to melt into his touch but as soon as that thought ran through my mind his hand slid down my jaw and and it tilt my head sideways. The crook of my neck exposed just for him; I knew he felt the blood rushing through my veins, how his mouth must water from the thought of finally tasting the aged wine that rightfully belonged to him. Another swift slide of his hand down my shoulder blades, his touch delivering burning signals to my brain as I inhaled sharply. Suddenly, I felt his hot breath wash over the sensitive skin of my neck, I could feel the goosebumps rise on the skin of my arms from the pleasant effect. His hand once again sliding down my shoulders only to fall on my waist.

"Young Master..."

His voice, oh how seductive it could be. If only I could open my eyes; why has god forsaken me like this? Why must he laugh at my foolish desires to see his face? I felt soft strands of his hair brush on my collarbone as Sebastian pressed his soft lips to my neck which caused my body to shiver involuntarily.

That's when I felt it, his venomous fangs break skin slowly. My nose instantly caught the smell of blood and it made my stomach flip in turmoil. The pain...I cannot describe it for I was too lost on the way his lips pressed even harder on my neck and how I felt my blood fluidly trickle down the contours of my chest.

Once my thought process commenced to take account of the fact that something was going wrong, that the searing pain I was starting to feel wasn't how I had imagined it would be, my arms took up the last of my remaining strength and tried to break free from the stupor. I tried to breathe, to feel the rush of air through my lungs as my chest heaved up and down but of course that was all in my imagination. I lay there, still, quiet, growing colder as my ears perked to the sound of that wretched ticking sound coming from the watch that Sebastian kept in his waist pocket.

Tic tok tic tok tic tok

Rgh, make that annoying ticking stop, make it stop! was all that kept going around in my head. My mind wouldn't freeze, it kept producing all these thoughts like a factory that was working overtime. The image of my butler's face flashed under my lids. I tried to concentrate on his eyes but my attention was drawn to his lips. Oh how I ached to feel his warm, delicious lips on mine. How I wanted to lock my fingers into his raven strands of slightly ruffled hair and tug him down, down, down over my body.

My ears caught a faint whimper and I quickly realized it was mine. I could still feel Sebastian's gentle but firm grip on my waist as he released the impaled skin of my neck with a terrifying slurp. I sighed knowing it wasn't the end, knowing that he was just tasting, savoring and enjoying the taste like the fine wine taster that I knew he was.

His hands slid up my body only to rest on my neck as I felt him shift around me. His sweet breath now mingled with mine, the awareness of my senses dulled by the low chuckle that was emitted from him as he saw me inhale deeply.

"It's time young Master."

I gulped, my Adam's apple raised as the saliva was forced down my esophagus, readying myself for what was to come. A sigh left my lips as one of Sebastian's hands slid up to cup my cheek, he leaned in closer and I could see the outline of his shadow through my lids. Then I felt his soft lips on mine, at first they pressed on mine gently but then they took hold of my lower lip and bit down softly.

My breath caught in my throat as I opened my mouth to catch my breath, a soft moan escaped from the clutches of my teeth. Sebastian took this opportunity to let his tongue wander inside my mouth, the warm muscle exploring relentlessly, savoring my tantalizing flavor as he sated his hunger. He offered me a soft grunt which caused me to shiver, my tongue twitching slightly as Sebastian's teased it. I wanted to get caught up in this kiss, wanted to lose myself but I knew it wouldn't last long and not matter how much I pleaded with my body to respond, all it did was lay lifelessly in his arms.

I felt Sebastian withdraw his tongue slowly, reluctantly. I felt the wet and softness of that bubblegum pink muscle lick my lips.

"Ciel..."

And then all I could feel was the cold completely take over my body and the agonizing pain as I inhaled sharply and silently screamed in agony.

What did you guys think? Oh my god, I wanted to just make Sebastian take Ciel right then and there!

Sebastian: You horrid woman, teasing me so.

Me: Hee hee hee... Oh you will get your chance later on my dear, I promise you.

Sebastian: Just remember that you do not play with a demon and get away with it.

Ciel: … I love the way I have a say in this...

So I'm going to let you all know now, there will only be this death for now, technically it isn't a death...yet. Can't give you all any more hints or you'll discover my plan for later chapters. Spoilers? None as of yet, maybe later when I get more your attention?

OH that's right! I'm in need of a Beta reader, it's rather hard re-reading everything and not getting too caught up in the story. So just send me a message if you're interested.

There will be plenty of other chapters IF I get enough reviews in each chapter that I update. Reviews make me feel like you all actually read and like what I write. Makes me feel like all the time and effort I put into this was well worth and appreciated.

THANK YOU ALL FOR READING, TILL NEXT UPDATE!

~Ta