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ShepXJoker
Chapter One
She had died.
And it was his entire fault, she had ordered him to move but he refused, she had to get into his face and plead with him to leave with her and then he had finally agreed, but by then the unknown ship was already on its second attack.
A blast separated them, he tried to reach out to her but his bones had too many limitations, he watched in horror as she was thrown into the cold harsh space. "Shepard!" He tried yelling even though he knew it wouldn't help anything, she was going to die…
He lost the two things he loved most, the SSV Normandy and his girl… his girl… he had told her how he felt about her just before the Ilos mission and she had returned his feelings; the great Commander Alyssa Shepard fell in love with a flyboy.
But she was gone now.
He let her die.
He was grounded and all Shepard had fought for was lost, the council ignored the reaper threat and the Alliance quickly declared Shepard dead, which he already knew but they weren't doing anything about it, she had faded into a memory…
Two years…
Two years … it had seemed like a lifetime and Joker had spent it in one bar or another, it just wasn't a life without Alyssa.
"Flight Lieutenant Jeff Moreau?" A voice called from behind him, causing him to jump slightly in surprise.
"I'm not a flight Lieutenant anymore." He replied bitterly looking down into his glass of scotch. "I've been grounded for two years."
"I'm here to offer you a job; I think it will interest you." Joker raised an eyebrow before turning around in his chair to look at the man, his face was stern, his hands were behind his back while he wore a black and white space suit and on the left arm was a Cerberus logo.
"Cerberus? You must be joking." Joker scoffed turning back around, back to his drink.
The man placed a datapad in front of him. "We need a pilot for our Lazarus Cell team; we need a pilot for a Commander Shepard."
Jokers' eyes went wide turning back around to look at the man in question, before slowly taking the datapad into his hands. "Thee Commander Alyssa Shepard? She's dead…"
"Cerberus is rebuilding her, bringing her back to life." The man answered short and sweet, never changing the facial expression that was on his face.
"Why? Why is Cerberus doing that?" Joker asked as he began to look through the extensive files of the Lazarus Project.
"We aren't fools." He replied simply turning around towards the exit. "Are you coming Mr Moreau? She should be awake soon."
His mind raced but his legs carefully moved him to hobble after the man carrying the datapad in his hand still going through the large file, the pictures that went along with the files made him sick to his stomach, his Shepard was spread out and open on an operating table being brought back to life because he had let her die.
The man led him towards the docking bay of Omega in silence while Joker hobbled as fast as he could after him, when they reached it there was a tall, skinny woman with black shoulder blade length hair with cold blue eyes; her arms were firmly folded across her chest. "Mr. Moreau, glad you have decided to join us." Her voice had a harsh edge to it while her eyes stared at him.
She led him towards a small ship. "Although I have to be quick so I can get back to Shepard, the Illusive Man made sure I made you feel welcome." Her head turned slightly to look back at the hobbling pilot. "You will undergo a physical examination."
"Joy." Joker mumbled under his breath following her to where ever she was leading him.
She stopped at the small ship before she turned around to face him. "It is really Shepard Mr. Moreau, she even woke up once and she asked for you."
He felt his heart jump into his throat but quickly re-arranged his cap to cover his flustered self. "Sign me up."
It had felt like another lifetime had passed him, he had gone through Cerberus' prodding and poking, they even gave him some upgrades for his legs so he could walk properly; but he felt his heart catch in his throat when he had heard Shepard was talking to the Illusive Man and would be in his view in less then two minutes. "I have found a pilot which I think you will like."
Joker stood waiting in the doorway of the room he was told Shepard was in, the room became engulfed in orange lights before she reappeared in the room, she was looking around and at herself before sighing. "Only one pilot I want." She mumbled to herself and Joker felt his heart race upon seeing her.
Her long light brown hair fell down her back the same length he had remembered it, the back of her body was just as amazing as he remembered it to be as well; he wanted her to turn around so he could see her bright blue eyes and lovely oval shaped face. "…Ally…"
She shot around in a second but to Joker it seemed like a slow motion movie, she was just as beautiful as he remembered her while her hair whipped around her face before landing back in it's place, her eyes were wide as she stared at him. "Joker?" A smile replaced her shocked expression before she ran forward and pulled him into a hug. "I'm so glad you made it!" She was his Alyssa, the only thing that was different was some scares that were still fresh on her face.
"Watch the bones Ally." He said lightly before putting his arms around her waist, oh how good it felt for her to be back into his arms.
"Two years Joker… I was dead… for two years." She spoke into the crease of his neck letting her warm breath run over it, causing the little hairs on his body stand up; her arms were still tightly placed around the pilot.
"You don't need to tell me that, Ally… I was living for those two years…" His voice seemed a little distant which called Alyssa to pull away from him.
She looked him up and down feeling her heart fluttered just like it used too whenever she was around him, 'has he moved on?' She asked herself. "Is something wrong Jeff?"
"…No." Joker replied taking her hand into his. "Things have changed a lot since you died Commander." He spoke leading her towards the thing he was most excited to show her.
"What happened to the old crew?" She asked holding his hand tightly, liking the warmth of his hand.
"We couldn't hold together after you were declared dead, the Alliance didn't like how many non-humans you had on the ship; I was grounded and the Council quickly ignored any thing about reapers." He studied her face while he spoke and he caught each spark of anger that went through it.
She sighed deeply. "I saw Tali, she had her own team and she looked so in command… being dead sucked."
"Look, they only just told me about it but…" The lights switched on slowly revealing their new ship sitting and waiting to be used, Shepard looked towards Joker to see the large grin on his face.
"Looks like she needs a name…"
Joker led her by hand onto the new Normandy and she could tell how happy he was to be back on a ship and back to doing what he loved, Jacob and Miranda walked in behind the two as Joker dragged her, admittedly slowly, but dragged her none the less through his new ship not aware of the two people behind them. "I suggest we start on Omega to recruit the Salarian scientist, we need protection against the collects." Miranda's voice cut through the air causing Joker to drop her hand immediately.
"Miss Lawson's suggestion seems most logical." A blue orb popped up causing both Joker and Shepard to turn to look at it.
"Who are you?" Shepard asked folding her arms across her chest.
"I am EDI, the ships Artificial Intelligence." The blue orb replied causing Shepard to 'huh' in slight approval.
"Joker doesn't like other people controlling his ship." She added glancing towards her rugged looking pilot with a small smile.
"I can not control the ship; Mr. Moreau will have complete control, I am mostly the ships defences." EDI replied flashing as if it was actually moving its mouth to talk to them.
"Dam right I better." Joker replied before hobbling towards the cockpit.
"Set a course for Omega." She called out after him causing him to wave her off in reply. "While we are there we can pick up Archangel and Zaeed Massani." She explained before nodding at her two new crew members before following after Joker.
The new ship was defiantly an upgrade from their old ship she could tell just by walking through it, the ship had a full crew already and Shepard made a mental note to get to know them before they went on this suicide mission. "So what do you think, Shepard?" Jokers' voice cut off her thoughts about the crew.
'Shepard?' She shook it off and walked up next to him. "It's an upgrade that's for sure."
"Setting a course for Omega." He said running his hands elegantly across the screen, she couldn't help but to watch with amazement.
"I missed watching you fly." She purred gently running her finger tips across his arm, she felt him stiffen which caused her to sigh and retract her hand. "You've moved on then…" She said quietly before quickly exiting the cockpit. "Miranda, Jacob, get ready to depart." She called through the ship as she left.
He wanted to go after her but his guilt was too strong, she needed someone who could save her, not someone who could get her killed; she needed someone better then him.
He listened to her missions while he waited for her to return, Mordin, the Salarian turned out to be easy enough recruit, turns out Archangel was Garrus and she was so excited to see him she tackle hugged him doing more damage then was good for either of them, Garrus was gunned down by a gunship and she screamed for him to have medical staff ready for them when they got back to the ship. Zaeed had already made a deal with Cerberus so he bored the ship pretty much as soon as Alyssa touched down in Omega, he hoped she would come back to the cockpit but she was too busy making sure Garrus was okay and meeting her ship crew.
A few hours passed before Alyssa made her way back towards Joker, she entered the cockpit in a pair of skin tight jeans and a spaghetti strapped tight black shirt, her hair was loose around her shoulders. "I think we need to go get a drink." She said quietly looking at him with her hands on her hips.
He swallowed hard looking at her curvy body; he knew she wasn't really asking him if he wanted a drink, she wanted him to go with her without question. "What about the crew?"
"I gave them some shore time for the night so I could enjoy being alive." She answered moving her hands from her hips into a folded position across her chest. "Please Jeff?"
"Sure Commander." Joker replied, the distance still distinct in his voice; he pushed himself up off the chair and walked to her side.
She linked her arm with his. "It's Ally to you…" She said softly looking up into his misty green eyes.
His heart jumped once again as he looked back into her bright blue ones. "Let's go then." He cleared his throat before walking with her out of the ship.
He led her into the bar Afterlife as the music blasted around them and different coloured lights flashed on and off, Asari danced around poles on the top of the middle bar or on the laps of men or Turians' wanting to have a good time, he led her over to the quietest bar because he knew she wanted to talk.
The Asari bartender looked up at the two sitting down before gasping. "I don't believe it, Commander Shepard?"
She raised an eyebrow at the Asari before nodding. "Yes?"
The Asari's smile was wide as she poured the two a drink. "On the house, glad you aren't dead."
"Thank you." Shepard replied looking down at the liquid before quickly sculling it, the Asari poured another one with a smile before going back to other customers.
Joker looked down at his drink unsure of what to say, he wanted to tell her he still loved her but he knew that was good for no one. "You okay?" He managed to say after a moment of silence.
She downed her second drink before calling over the waitress once again for another. "I guess I wasn't expecting everything to be so different." She sighed watching the Asari pour her another. "Just leave the bottle." She said to her waving her hand.
"Two years can change people." Joker replied watching her scull down the one in the glass before moving onto the bottle.
"I just didn't think you'd be one of them." She sighed out once more, she felt light headed and couldn't quite understand why; she used to always drink this stuff.
Joker looked down at his glass before sculling it, he placed it back onto the counter wiping the corner of his mouth; he glanced at Shepard who was already half way through the bottle and quite flushed in the cheeks. "I watched you die… Hell it was my fault you died…"
Shepard looked at him with a frown forming on her face. "You didn't kill me Joker, the collectors did."
"If I had just followed your order you wouldn't have die-"
"Joker for fuck sake! You're a pilot it's in your blood to try your best to save the ship when she's going down! Hell I'd do the same if I was a pilot! But as a Commander it was my job to save you; which I did!" She yelled a little louder then planned stunning him a bit; she looked at him a moment before cracking into giggles.
"Drunk already, Ally?" Joker couldn't help but chuckle along with her.
"I think it's this new body Cerberus built… Needs to be broken in." She snorted taking his cap off his head and placing it on her head. "I…" She sighed turning to look at him. "I love you." She mumbled before taking another swig of her drink. "Have ever since I met you, your funny, your smart, your incredibly sarcastic, you listen to me all those times I came to complain to you about the council, you have saved my ass more times then I can count! And you've always been there when I need you. Not to mention your extremely attractive…I hate that you moved on."
He knew she was being so forward because of the alcohol but he also saw how much she truly meant it by the sparkle in her eyes; he gently ran his hand across the back of her neck before pulling her head into him to kiss her lips gently, after a moment he pulled back for air to look at her; she was smile at him and her features never ceased to amaze him. "I still love you…"
The smile on her face got wide until she threw her arms around him hugging him tightly but not enough to hurt him in his condition. "Bartender! Drinks all round!" She called out in her drunken state slamming her fists onto the bench.
"Are you sure commander?" She asked curiously seeing the amount of beings in the bar looking over towards her.
"Yes!" She stated getting a loud cheer in reply from the others around her. "Charge it to the Illusive man." She added to the Asari with a smirk.
The night passed as Joker and Shepard drank together before taking on a slow dance, it took a lot of convincing on Shepard's part but he crumbled once she teased him with a kiss, for those few hours Alyssa felt like nothing matter in the galaxy besides her and Joker right now, they continued doing shots into the early morning, buying double for any member of her new team she saw.
The two staggered back to the ship with giggles and hands always touching each other, she even pulled him into a kiss even now and then until they made it to the ship, she led him into the elevator feeling herself want to make him hers. "Jeff." She said in a seductive tone gently pulling him into her as she kissed and sucked his neck. "I'll be gentle." She said into his ear before gently nibbling on his lobe.
Before he had time to say anything the door swung open to reveal she had taken him to her quarters, she gently pulled him towards the bed getting him to sit down on it, he did so nervously, although he wouldn't admit it out loud, this was his first time.
She pulled her shirt up over her head before dropping it to the ground and slid her jeans down her legs leaving her in her matching red lacy undies and bra; she went towards him moving gracefully even though she was completely drunk. "Relax Jeff." She said sweetly tilting his chin up so he was looking up at him, she still had his cap on but backwards which looked incredibly cute on her; she gently placed her lips onto his tasting the sweetness of his mouth as he let her tongue explore around his.
Her hands moved over his body tugging at his shirt so he would help her remove it which he did instantly, her hands move down to his pants tugging at them gently, he nervously helped her get them off leaving him in just a pair of boxers. "Ally…-"
"Jeff I promise I'll be gentle…" She said running her finger nails gently up his thighs getting a moan in reply; she smirked as he fell back onto the bed.
She crawled up onto the bed slowly sliding down his boxers releasing his hardened dick from his clothes; she smiled up at him before very carefully taking it into her hands and sliding her hands up along his shaft getting a moan from Joker in reply. She moved her lips towards his throbbing dick and slowly placed it into her mouth using her tongue to lick around the head teasingly, Joker let out another moan feeling the warmth of her mouth around his member as she began to bob her head up and down in a slow motion while holding the base of his dick tightly. "Ally…" He moaned while she continued to tease him with her tongue and lips.
Joker took a hand full of her hand into his hand while she bobbed her head up and down making her go faster; he had to bite the side of he's cheek to stop him from Cumming right then and there. She carefully stopped and made her way back to his lips, oh how she loved the way he tasted; his hands ran along her back in search of her bra strap and making quick work of it, it gently slid off her body and she sat up straight to let him have a good look.
He stared at her beautiful breasts for a moment before taking them both into his hands, gently teasing her dark pink nipples with his fingers; she threw back her head and moan softly while he moved himself closer to her placing one of her nipples into his mouth running his tongue across it.
She carefully climbed on top of him trying not to hurt him in anyway, he wanted to be inside her so badly and she wanted him as well, she pulled her undies off before straddling his hips gently glancing up at him to make sure she didn't break anything. "It's okay." He reassured her letting her know she could continue.
She took a hold of his hard dick gently rubbing it's head against her opening before lowering herself onto it, both moaning loudly, her walls tightened around his dick as he filled her deeply; she slowly started a rocking pace feeling him hit her g-spot with each movement of her hips.
Joker couldn't help the gasp that escaped his lips feeling her wet heat clench around him tightly. "Fuck your tight." He managed to get out causing her to give him a lopsided smile in between moans.
Her pace quickened as Joker bucked his hips to match her movement; he placed his thumb onto her clit rubbing it gently receiving a loud moan in reply as she bounced harder feeling like he was filling her more and more, hitting her sweet spot over and over; she felt amazing while Jokers free hand held onto her hip to help him thrust with her.
She felt herself tighten even more around his dick before releasing her sweet cum all over him. "Jeff!" She moaned loudly grinding smoothly against him as she came.
Joker didn't think it was possible for her to get tighter but when she did he couldn't hold back, her bucked into her hard releasing his seed deep inside her grunting loudly. She collapse onto him breathing deeply, sweat all over her body, Joker wrapped his arms around her naked back. "I love you Alyssa Shepard…" And with that he pulled her into one last kiss for the night…