The next six months were the most hectic of Onyx's life. She was planning a wedding in half the time it usually took. Every day there were meetings with florists, venue owners, caterers, designers, musicians, etc. The list went on and on. Onyx was incredibly stressed and although Jake attempted to help she preferred that he just provided moral support. Every time she allowed him to do more they ended up talking about Bass Pro Shops. Onyx was on her way to the final fitting of her wedding dress with Jason, Josh, and Josh's girlfriend Ashley. Jake was currently at home playing video games, he had been in a sour mood for hours arguing that he should be allowed to go since they were already married anyway. In the end Onyx was forced to go bridezilla on him until he agreed to stay home.

When they arrived at the bridal shop Onyx quickly stepped out of the car and strode up the walkway. She wanted to get the fitting done as quickly as possible. It was nine days before the wedding and Onyx's agenda was jam packed. After the fitting she needed to double and triple check the seating arrangements, go taste the wedding cake, make sure that no whiskey was going to be served in the open bar(fishermen and whiskey were never a good combination), and pick up new converse for Jake and all of his groomsmen (Onyx hated dress shoes). The bridal assistant smiled as they entered the shop. She outstretched her hand to Onyx."You must be the bride." She said warmly.
"How did you know?" Onyx asked as she grasped the woman's hand.
"You look completely flustered sweetie."
Onyx smiled and shrugged, "You nailed that on the head."
the assistant looked Onyx her up and down and laughed, "judging by the sweat pants and messy pony tail I'd say your wedding is within the next two weeks."
Onyx laughed and nodded, "next Wednesday."
The woman walked around the desk and picked up her schedule. "What can I help you with?"
"I'm here for my last fitting."
"Name?"
"Onyx Harris."
The woman looked up and smiled once she found Onyx's name on the schedule, "just head on back to the fitting rooms and I'll go find your dress and bring it back."
Onyx nodded and they walking over to the fitting area. Josh, Ashley, and Jason all sat down while Onyx hovered nervously in front of them.
"What if it doesn't fit?" She asked her voice sounding panicked.
"It will be fine." They all replied exasperatedly. All three of them had been dealing with Onyx and her crazy wedding antics for the past six months.
Onyx narrowed her eyes and pointed at Josh. "I brought you because you know Jake the best and I want you to tell me if you think he'll like my dress or not."
"Ok." Josh said raising his eyebrows.
"But I know he's going to ask you what it looks like..." Onyx continued, "and you better not tell him!"
"I'm not going to tell him!" Josh replied sounding shocked. "Psycho." He added under his breath.
Ashley nudged him in the ribs and smiled at Onyx, "Don't worry Jake thinks you look beautiful in everything."
"Thank you." Onyx replied smiling.
Onyx sat down next to Jason and rested her head on his shoulder. "Thank you." She said while stifling a yawn. "No problem. That's what I'm here for." Jason had definitely been the most helpful to her while she was trying to plan the wedding. He went with her everywhere and never lashed out on her when she went on a bridal rampage. He was also much more business savvy than she was and was able to get a lot of stuff she needed cheaper than the original price. "You're the best man of honor ever." Onyx said.
"I know right." Jason replied, "I should start charging for my services.

A few minutes later the bridal assistant walked in the room holding a garment bag over her arm.
"Ready?" She asked.
"Absolutely." Onyx replied excitedly.
They went behind a curtain and Onyx quickly removed her t-shirt and sweat pants. Onyx stared at herself in the mirror as the woman helped her into her dress. 'Please let it fit!' Onyx prayed. "Wow." Onyx said quietly once the dress was on. It was perfect everything fit exactly how she imagined it. "So what do you think?" The assistant asked. "It's perfect!" Onyx said excitedly. It was a crimson colored lace mermaid dress. The top was corset cut and it hugged her body perfectly.
The woman pulled back the curtain so her entourage could see her. Ashley gasped, "Red?"
Onyx shrugged, "I'm not a virgin so I didn't want to wear white and I think red is a really romantic color." Onyx bit her lip, "You don't like it?"
"You look amazing!" Ashley gushed.
Onyx smiled widely at her and turned her attention to Josh. "So what do you think?" She asked nervously.
"I think that…"
Onyx's heart pounded as she waited for Josh to reply. If Josh didn't like it chances were Jake wouldn't either.
"You look stunning. Jake is going to freak out when he sees you." Josh finished.
"Really?"
"Definitely."
"Thanks." Onyx said quietly as she tried her hardest not to cry.
Jason smirked and dusted his shoulders off, "I totally helped pick that dress out."
Onyx rolled her eyes and closed the curtain. 'Finally.' Onyx thought to herself as she looked once more at her reflection. She couldn't believe she was in a wedding dress it was making her head spin.

Onyx held on to her dress tightly as they walked back to the car. She was ecstatic to finally be leaving with it. Onyx tenderly handed the dress to Jason and then started the car. She had to drop Josh and Ashley off at their house before she could continue running errands. Onyx pulled into their drive way and turned around to look at Josh. "You have to take my dress with you."
His mouth fell open, "Why?"
"Because I can't take it back to my house! You and I both know that Jake is going to look at it as soon as my back is turned."
Josh nodded in agreement, "yeah he definitely will."
Ashley stepped out of the car and Jason carefully handed her the garment bag through the window. "Josh." Onyx said sternly, "if something happens to my dress I will kill you."
Josh gave Onyx a wide smile, "And I thought bridezilla was an urban legend. How foolish of me."
Onyx smiled and flipped him off as she backed out of the driveway.

Onyx didn't return home until almost 10:00 that night. She walked straight to the bedroom and collapsed onto the bed where Jake was laying in his boxers doing something on his Iphone. Jake sat his phone down on the night stand and rubbed Onyx's back. "How do you feel?" Jake asked.
"Dead."
Jake laughed, "just let me help."
"It's fine. Jason has been helping a lot."
"Jason Jason Jason." Jake mocked, "you've been spending a lot of time together."
Onyx smiled, "If you haven't realized Jason is gay by now then you're crazier than I thought."
Jake laughed, "I was playing around. But you're so tired all the time. I feel bad."
"I'm getting the full engagement experience."
Jake smirked and moved his hand lower down her back. He slid the tips of his fingers underneath her t-shirt and began to inch his hand down the back of her pants. Onyx rolled onto her back and pushed his hand away from her. "How many times must I tell you no sex?" Onyx asked.
Jake threw himself flat on his back and rubbed his face with his palms. "I'm dying here Onyx!"
"It hasn't been that long." Onyx laughed.
"It's been three months and fifteen days!"
"The fact that you know the exact amount of days is mind blowing."
"And you walk around in your little underwear and bras and shit then you lay all over me but every time I try and touch you tell me no! You. Are. A. Tease!"
Onyx snorted, "stop exaggerating. Besides if you're desperate enough you've still got your hands." Onyx waved her hand around and then pinched him on the cheek. Jake slapped her hand away and narrowed his eyes. "That's insulting. I lost interest in my hands at 13 the first time I..."
"Shut up." Onyx said cutting him off, "You can make it until next Wednesday."
"Fine." Jake said reluctantly.
Onyx smiled and laid across his chest to kiss him.
Jake looked punch drunk when she pulled away a few minutes later. "Tease." He mumbled.

"No strippers!" Onyx said sternly as she folded her arms across her chest. "I should say the same to you!" Jake replied, "I don't want any greased up dudes in banana hammocks shaking their asses in your face!" It was two days before the wedding and Jake and Onyx were standing in the bathroom getting ready for their bachelor/ bachelorette parties. "I don't even like strippers." Jake continued, "but I've seen how women act when they get around raw sausage."
Onyx's scrunched her face at him, "Who even says stuff like that you creep."
"Anyway." Jake plowed on, "You haven't had any of my good lovin in months and I don't want your hormones getting out of control tonight."
Onyx snorted, "You're nuts Jacob and besides I already told Jason no strippers."
"Good." Jake said with satisfied grin.
"Sit down." Onyx commanded as she turned on the hair clippers. Jake shut the lid to the toilet seat and sat down. Onyx gave Jake a quick haircut and then quickly dusted the fallen hair off. Onyx placed her hands on his shoulders and lent down to kiss him. Jake grabbed her hips and pulled her closer to him. He ran his hands across her bare stomach giving her a tingling sensation. Onyx pried his hands off of her and placed her hands on her hips. "Behave tonight ok? No hard liquor and don't let any of your beast friends get you into trouble."
"You got it mom." Jake said as he saluted her.
Onyx walked away from him and plugged in her hair straightener. She was extremely excited for her bachelorette party but it didn't come close to the excitement she was feeling for the wedding. The past few days had gone by incredibly slow and Onyx was way past impatient. She couldn't wait to see Jake in his suit. Since she wouldn't let him see her in her dress he wouldn't let her see him in his suit. However she saw it in the closet within an hour of him bringing it home. He had a crimson colored tie and she assumed Josh had somehow tricked him into buying it. When Onyx finished her hair she walked into the bedroom and pulled on her dress. It was short, black, strapless, and made out of feathers. She placed a cheetah print belt around her waist and slipped on a pair of black heels. Jake entered the room and looked her up and down, "You look Hot.". He said simply as he pulled on a pair of black jeans. Jake also wore a green T-shirt, a gray Enjoi hoodie, and a pair of black DVS'.

When they finished getting ready Jake drove to Jason's house to drop her off Onyx. He grabbed Onyx's overnight bag out of the back seat and handed it to her. "I can't believe I'm not going to see you until Wednesday." Jake said sourly.
"I know." Onyx said sadly, "but Jason and I have a lot of running around tomorrow and we won't get done until really late. You and I aren't supposed to be together the night before the wedding so there is no point in me coming home."
Jake frowned, "Is there anything you want me to do?"
Onyx kissed him on the cheek, "Just show up on Wednesday."
Jake smirked, "Or what?"
Onyx thought for a moment and smiled, "You don't want to know."
"I'll be there."
Jake kissed Onyx goodbye and smacked her butt as she got out of the car. Onyx flipped him off and then quickly walked up the driveway.

Once Onyx was safely inside he peeled out of the driveway and headed to the club Josh was throwing his bachelor party at. Jake pulled into the parking lot and slowly pulled his keys out of the ignition. In all actuality he would have rather spent the night with Onyx than at his bachelor party. Bachelor parties were meant to celebrate your last night being single but Jake hadn't been single for a very long time. He saw no point in it but he had promised Onyx that she would get a real wedding and bachelor/bachelorette parties were part of the wedding experience.

Jake walked inside and quickly found his group of friends. It wasn't hard seeing as they were the loudest in the entire club. The guys all crowded around him as he reached them. "Jake!" Jordan yelled excitedly as he clapped him on the back. Jake nodded at him and looked around for his brother. He found him sitting on a couch, drinking a beer, and talking to their friend Daniel. Jake pounded fists with Josh and sat down next to him.
"It feels kind of weird throwing a bachelor party for someone who's already married." Josh yelled over the music. "yeah." Daniel yelled back, "but he got married the first time without telling any of us so he owes us this party!"
"True." Josh agreed.
Jake laughed and grabbed a beer from a bucket of ice. He sat around, drank beers, talked to his friends, and laughed at them as they attempted to hit on girls. Jake was enjoying chilling with his friends but he couldn't help but wonder what Onyx was doing.

Onyx was having a blast. All of her best friends from high school flew out for the party and the wedding. Onyx was the oldest nineteen year old that she knew of and for the first time in a long time she felt young. She laughed the entire night as they reminisced about all the fun they had back in California. It was fun feeling youthful again but would she have traded her life with Jake for that feeling? Never. You had to grow up sometime right? Onyx just grew up a lot faster than most people.

That night once their friends had left Onyx and Jason climbed into his bed. Onyx's mind had wandered to Jake and stayed there. She was starting to want to go home but she didn't have the car and Jason had been intoxicated for hours.
She grabbed her blackberry and sent him a text

Hey babe.

Onyx closed her eyes and felt her phone vibrate a few minutes later.

Hey sexy. Having fun?

Onyx smiled and quickly replied.

It's just me and Jason now. I miss you.

I miss you too. Partying was a lot more fun before we got married. You've ruined me! Lol.

Onyx rolled her eyes and failed to suppress a smile.

Whatever. Call me in the morning I'm sleepy :).

Alright. Love you.

Love you too.

Onyx tossed her phone to the side and curled up into a comfortable position. She hated texting Jake it always left her wanting more. "Is the hubby ok?" Jason cooed.
"He's dandy." Onyx yawned.
"Onyx?"
"Yeah?"
"Did you invite your mom to the wedding?"
"No. I'm not ready to forgive her yet."
"I understand. What about Jake's mom? You've never mentioned her."
"She's not coming either. She's basically the same as my mom. Except she returns his calls."
"Wow." Jason said softly, "I could never deal with the shit you two deal with. How the hell do you do it?"
"We have each other." Onyx replied simply, "I think it's clear we don't do well without each other."
"Do you remember when I used to tell you your relationship wasn't healthy?"
"Yeah." Onyx said awkwardly.
"I was jealous."
"Of what?"
"I'd never seen love like that before. I just wanted it too."
Onyx smiled, "You'll find it Jason. You know how people say when you meet the one you just know?"
"Mhmmm."
"It's true. I loved Jake the day I met him. I know that sounds stupid but I knew everything was going to change when he came up and talked to me. That will happen for you too."
Jason laughed and kissed Onyx on the cheek, "Goodnight sweetie."
"Goodnight."
Onyx rolled over and faced the wall. She thought about the night she met Jake and how nervous she had been. She had never expected Jake to take the time to talk to her and she was shocked when he did. Thank goodness Jason had forced her to go out that night. That was the first day of her life. Nothing before then mattered.

"Why the hell am I so nervous? We're already married!" Jake said frantically as he paced the room. Jake caught sight oh himself in the mirror and frowned, "And why the hell is my tie so god damn red?"
Josh laughed and straightened his brother's tie. "Calm down dude. And I told you already Onyx is wearing a necklace this color."
"She better be!" Jake replied, "I'm going to kill you if I'm wearing a red tie for no reason."
It was the day of their wedding and Jake was in full panic mode. He didn't understand why he was freaking out so much. Jake continued to pace and rubbed his hand over his freshly shaven face. "Calm down!" Josh said exasperatedly, "just sit down or something."
Jake sat down on the bed and tied his converse.
Josh rolled his eyes and straightened his own tie in the mirror, "it's going to be fine dude."

Onyx looked at her dress in the mirror and was relieved she still liked it. Her hair was in what Jason fondly called "Kardashian waves" and she had accessorized with all black jewelry. Onyx took a deep breath and turned to face her bridal party.
"Well?" She asked.
They all began yelling at the same time and Onyx couldn't understand a word any of them said; but it sounded good. Onyx smiled and turned back to the mirror. She had never experienced a case of the butterflies quite like the ones she was currently experiencing. She couldn't wait to get her hands on Jake. It was incredibly sweet that he had wanted to give her a real wedding and Onyx was beyond happy. Jake was loud, cocky, stubborn, constantly smoking, always cursing, and an all around ass; but she was willing to bet nobody could love more passionately and honestly than he did. Jason stood next to Onyx and smiled, "You ready?"
Onyx's eyes widened, "is it time already?"

Jake walked slowly up to the altar Josh, Ryan, Jordan, and Daniel following close behind him. Jake glanced at all the people watching him and wondered why the hell they had invited so many people. Josh patted him on the pack as they stood next to each other in the row. Jake scanned the crowd for the people most important to him. He spotted the Northwestern crew (with the exception of Edgar), the Time Bandit crew, the majority of his friends, and many relatives. Jake stopped scanning the crowd when the preacher appeared at his side. Jake didn't realize quite how sweaty his palms were until he shook the preacher's hand. He gave Jake a smile and turned away from him.

One by one Onyx's bridesmaids began to walk down the aisle. Onyx was hidden from view clinging tightly to Jason. She looked around as was extremely happy about the way everything looked. The wedding was taking place in a large garden behind a gorgeous villa. It was sunset and much of the light was provided by lanterns hanging from the trees. The whole set up had a very vintage feel and it was exactly what Onyx was going for. Onyx saw the crowd of people stand up and knew it was her turn to take the trip down the aisle.

Jake felt close to having a heart attack as he waited for Onyx to walk down the aisle. The only time Jake had been this anxious was while he was waiting for Onyx to give birth to their son. Jake rubbed his hands together and wiped sweat from his brow. His face Immediately broke into a wide smile as Onyx appeared. 'Nobody should be this beautiful.' Jake thought to himself as he took her in. Her hair tumbled all the way down her back and blew softly in the light breeze. Jake had never seen a wedding dress like the one Onyx was wearing and it fit her perfectly. 'That explains the tie.' Jake was relieved to see that Onyx looked as nervous as he did. Jake stepped forward and held his hand out for Onyx as she and Jason approached the altar. Onyx grabbed his hand and they stepped over to the preacher
"Hi." Onyx said quietly. Jake noticed that her voice shook as she spoke.
"Hey." Jake replied smiling.
"Well!" The preacher said warmly, "We all know Onyx and Jacob are already married."
A small murmur of laughter swept through the crowd. "So instead of the usual boring babble I'm forced to say." The Preacher continued, "Jacob and Onyx have each written something that they would like to share with each other. You first if you will Jacob."
"Oh fuck ok...sorry" Jake said awkwardly making Onyx and their guests laugh. Jake reached into his pocket and pulled out a piece of paper. He unfolded it with shaking hands and began to read...

"Before I met you I was probably one of the biggest Douche bags in Washington. All that mattered to me was partying and getting fu..." Jake looked around awkwardly, "messed up every night. I didn't even believe in love. Every guy I knew who was married either complained about their wives or ended up getting a divorce. I didn't want to be like that. Then I went out with my boys and saw this bangin girl sitting outside by herself. I went up to you with the intention of just taking you back to my place, but as soon as you smiled at me I knew I was screwed. It only took me an hour to fall for you. After that night we spent all our time together and I was willing to do anything and everything to be with you. When you told me you were going back to California it felt like I had been punched in the gut. I didn't want to lose you so I asked you to marry me."Jake smiled, "That was the best decision I ever made, but I didn't know marriage was hard work. We were in love so I figured that was all that mattered. I had no clue it took a lot more than just that. You needed things like communication. Umm... I'm not the best at communicating just ask Josh. I put you through so much and you never complain. You believed in me at a time i know a lot of people didn't. I've made a lot of mistakes I mean a lot of mistakes and in the end you always forgive me. I'll never understand what I did to get so lucky. I must have been one hell of a dude in my past life. But I promise I'll never ever make you question whether I really love you again. You mean more than the world to me and I promise I'm going to prove it to you." Jake folded the paper and put it back in his pocket. "Umm that's it."

Jake looked up and was surprised to see tears streaming down Onyx's face. "I love you." She mouthed as she wiped away her tears. "I love you too." He mouthed back. Jake glanced around and was surprised to see that many people in the crowd were also crying.

"Your turn Onyx." The preacher said with a smile. Onyx turned around and waited for Jason to pull the paper out of his pocket. She took it from him with trembling fingers and turned back to face Jake. She took a deep breath and began to read...

"When... When I met you I was just an insecure girl who hid behind all her tattoos. You were the first person to ever make me feel beautiful. When you look at me I feel like you're really seeing me. You always see past the fake smile and I can't express how grateful I am for that. You're the only person I can completely be myself with without worrying that you're going to think I'm an idiot. There isn't anything I don't love about you Jake. You may be rude and sometimes arrogant but you're also the sweetest most understanding person I know. I wouldn't change one thing about you. You're my match babe and I can't believe I found you. I can honestly say after losing our baby you're the only thing that kept me alive. Everything is nothing with without you and I promise I'll never turn my back on you. I don't know what else I can say besides I love you Jacob Harris, and thank you for loving me."

Jake couldn't have stopped himself from crying if he had tried. That was his girl. His sweet, beautiful, intelligent, hilarious, perfect girl.
"Alright Jacob!" The preacher declared, "Kiss your wife!" Jake didn't need to be told twice. He wrapped his arms around Onyx and held her tightly as he kissed her. Onyx wrapped her arms his neck and stood on her tippie toes. "I love you." She said as she pulled away.
"I love you too." Jake said as he grabbed her hand and led her back down the aisle. Their family and friends stood up and applauded as they passed.
Jake leaned in and kissed her on the cheek as they left their past full of pain behind and headed toward their future. They didn't know what it held all they knew for sure was that they would have each other. Always.

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

With me -Sum 41

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