Chapter 1: Chapter 1

This is my first ever fan fiction. I am not an English major. I do not really do much if any writing at all. But one day after reading a few hundred stories on her I decided that I was going to try it. I figured why not, and I started to think of plots and places to go and ideas for situations. I am not team anyone, but I do find them all cute much to my husband's dismay. This is going to be a Bella & Emmett.

I am going to write this as M because most likely there will be language, and maybe a lemon eventually. It is not going to be a quick on I am in love with you story it is actually going to take a bit, or at least I hope, for it to get there. I have a nice long outline of ideas but feel free to comment or message me ideas.

For now there is no beta for this, I will do my best but like I said I am not an English major. I am a pre-school teacher. I am most likely going to switch what person I am writing in a bit as well, it has always been a quick of mine when writing. I am not sure on chapter lengths let me know what you like for this. Obviously longer chapters would mean longer between updates.

I also haven't read the books in over a year, so exact details might not match up perfect.

Last but not least- I do not own Twilight or any of the characters. I am just having fun.

Bella POV

It has been 3 month since he left. I've spent my time sitting here in my room hardly ever leaving my bed. I feel bad though; Charlie is really upset and starting to worry about me. It's not even just Charlie, I hear everyone talking all around me. They think I can't hear them, but I hear how they all are saying how it was just puppy love, how we were only in high school and it couldn't have been that serious. They had no idea. I had planned to be changed; I had wanted to be changed, so that we could spend eternity together. It didn't matter that I would lose everyone around me, I loved him and wanted to be his forever. That is what I wanted, but obviously it wasn't what he wanted. I wish I could just forget about him, and forget about that whole family. I can't believe they walked out without even saying goodbye. I guess I know how much they really cared about me, it was all a bunch of lies. Silly human.

But for some strange reason I think am finally starting to feel a little bit better, I am moving forward in my life. Okay I lie, I know why. Jake. He has been the best friend that anyone could ever ask for. He hasn't pushed me to tell him everything that happened. He knows the basics and he knows what the Cullen's are, and even so he still treats me great. It is nice having someone around me who knows I am not crazy, and get what I can't tell everyone else. He is really my best friend. He has been a wonderfully willing accomplice for all of my crazy ideas. I am almost waiting for one day to hear him actually tell me no one of these days when I suggest something completely retarded. But I honestly hope that never happens. My latest idea of picking up those 2 motorcycles only ended up with me needing stitches. It was nothing major and not anything I hadn't been through before. God I love Jake, but I think he is starting to worry about my ideas and wondering what I will think of next. He thinks it is only to make myself not think about them, which it is. But I am actually starting to enjoy it. Who would have thought Bella Swan would be into extreme sports. I still do not like baseball though, Charlie has tried to get me to hang out so we can spend "quality time" together but it hasn't happened. Playing sports is so much more enjoyable then watching it. But, I am going to have to make sure to keep myself as safe as I can so that Jake doesn't' stop me from trying more stunts. I am going to ask him if we can go cliff diving next week. Every since I first saw Sam and Paul jumping I knew I just had to try it. Even though it is nothing like the Bella that "he" knew I am starting to like the new me.

I sat around thinking for a little bit. Maybe I should give Jake a call and see if he would want to go to the cliffs today. I quick turned on my cell phone. It was a silly, but after the missing hikers last year Charlie got it for me to make sure he could find me when he wanted to. I didn't bother to argue that I wouldn't be leaving the house and no longer needed it. For some reason he got me an Iphone, like I really need something with that many options and buttons, but so far though with as many times as I have tripped and fallen I have somehow managed not to break it, so I am trying to think positive. But I loaded up the app and looked at the forecast. It was a nice day for the end up August. High of 76 and sunny. Sounds like a great day to go swimming, but not yet. I had woken up early again from a nightmare and it was only 6:15 right now, and not even 50 degrees out. No way would I touch that ocean, unlike Jake and his wolfy friends I would end up at the hospital with hypothermia if I decided to go swimming. Lucky dogs, it made me frown a bit thinking of Emmett and the rest of the family. He used to always pick on the pack about how they were over grown dogs. I really had no idea what smelled so bad about the boys at the reservation but they all kept insisting that the vampires stank, and they said the same about the pack. They all smelled great to me. But then again I was just a human so what do I know. I frowned even more after this line of thought. Jake had been trying now for weeks since we started to hang out to convince me that I was great and that I wasn't as dense as I felt I was. I knew I should have known from the start that there was no honest future with him, and that I wasn't good enough. In the end that is what caused us to split, I just wasn't good enough for him. Geez how did my mind get so off topic all of the time. I wish I could keep it in check. But no here I am again with my mind wondering to them, wondering how they are and what they are doing. I quick pulled up an email and sent it to Alice. I know I would not hear back as why would she want to talk to me either if the rest of the family didn't. But for some reason I still sent her a message.

Alice,

I miss you all. I really wish you would talk to me. You can even use me as Bella Barbie if that is what you want to do. It is so lonely around here without all of you. Sometimes I even miss Rose. I know right I have lost it. Please call me. I know you got my other messages, but again if you need it my number is 360-574-1737.

Bella

I hit send. I knew that nothing would come of it. She had never called me before when I had emailed her. Looking through my send box I had sent a message almost once a week at first if not 2-3 a week. Now it was maybe one every other week. I was getting better, I was starting to move on. But every once and a while I couldn't keep my mind from drifting off and those days I wondered maybe just maybe she would see it in the future and decide to send me a message. What the hell, she owed me an explanation. She told me she saw me as one of them. How is that supposed to happen now that they are gone. That make no fricken sense, she said, she said. Well why am I dwelling on what she said. It doesn't matter anymore since they are gone. What will happen when the Volturi come for me. Who is going to keep me alive then? I guess I just have to know that I am not going to have a normal life. I know I am going to die. I am a human who knows that Vampires exist. I might as well enjoy every day I can now and make the most of it.

I got myself and my mind back on topic and looked over and realized I had been sitting here deep in thought for over an hour. It was now 7:28 and I was crossing my fingers that Jake was awake. I reached over to my desk and grabbed a cherry tootsie pop and my phone. I had to pick up some bad habit since they left and after I kept biting my nails until they bleed I figured candy was a much safer and healthy habit. Just in case I ever somehow ended up around a vampire again out of the blue, especially any human drinking ones, bleeding fingers are not the best way to introduce yourself.

I grabbed my phone and called Jake. "Hey Jake, you awake?" I asked. I heard a groan and then a mumble of "I am now". "I am sorry Jake, I was wondering if you wanted to head on over to the cliffs today?" I asked, almost begging. I really wanted to go and try it out. I hadn't told Jake yet but I had been saving money from working at Newtons to maybe go try sky diving if I liked the cliffs. Then I heard Jake again, it seemed I had spaced out. "Bella- Isn't it a bit cold out?" he asked. I laughed a little bit "You know you run nice and toasty Jake so why are you complaining?" I wondered. "I wasn't worried about me Bella, I was worried about you. But I guess I can always find a way to keep you nice and warm." He laughed. Jake, he had such a great sense of humor but some days I worried about how he really felt about me. I knew, or at least I thought I knew that he liked me as more than a friend or a sister, but that is how I thought of him and I didn't see it changing in the future. "Bella…" I heard him repeat to me. "Yes Jake" I asked knowing I had missed something again. "I was just wondering when you wanted to come down, of course we can go to the cliffs, but it might be better it we waited till after lunch when it was warmer" he suggested. I agreed and we decided that I would come down before lunch and we would make lunch, and then head on over. We were really never believers of the no eating before swimming.

I got up off of bed and walked downstairs. Charlie was already up for the day and off to work. I think he has been working more since I have been in my funk. At first he was home all the time then once he realized that he wouldn't be able to help me he just seemed to stop trying as much. It was actually better then him being on my case all of the time. I was happy about it. He actually drug me the first time to go see Billy and Jake. But I can't be mad at him about it. Charlie was just trying to be a good father and help me out. I grabbed some pancake mix, some days I was just too lazy to make it from scratch and I kept a box of mix for just those days. They were still food, and still filling. So I quick ate and then washed up.

I knew there was no real reason to get a shower and do my hair before I went and jump into the ocean. What point would there be in that. So I went upstairs and brushed my teeth and washed my face. I quick sat down at the computer. I was still trying to figure out what to do with myself for my future however long it was. Charlie was really pushing me to go to college and to explore the world. I knew I didn't have that much time left for it so I had no motivation. Or at least I had an unknown amount and would rather spend it having fun over going to college and having "normal human experiences" Oh how I hated that saying. Geez. No Charlie never said it like that but he would say how I should act more like a normal teenager. I had never had much time for that between living with Renee and now with him here. I had to grow up much faster then what would be considered normal.

I decided to make him happy I would apply to The Art Institute up in Vancouver. They had a pretty good Culinary Arts program. I thought maybe spend 18 months there, it was not to too long. It would make my parents happy, and it was something I could live with. I hadn't told Jake yet that I had been accepted. I knew he wouldn't be happy that I was planning on eventually leaving. I really had no set date for when I was going to go. I hadn't selected what session yet that I was going to attend and I kept it that way. I wanted to make sure that everyone here was okay and that everything was settled in first and would be okay. I hated how much I worried about Jake and Charlie but I knew that if I just up and left I would feel even worse not knowing how they were really doing. I looked at my welcome packet from the school and it made me smile. It was a new life, away from Forks. Now don't get me wrong I don't hate all of it around here, I actually love my friends and family but I just knew that I needed to get away. Even if it was only just a few hours drive. I knew that the wolfs could run up to school fast if they needed to but for a human it was a 5 hour drive and that was hoping that I-5 traffic wasn't to bad.

I looked over at the clock. It was 10:30. Not to early for lunch. I got up and grabbed a swimsuit and change of clothes and went and hoped in my truck. I knew I would need dry clothes to put on later. The water was not that warm, summer had been nice 70's-80's but that means that the hottest the ocean got was in the 70's. That was far from nice and warm. I pulled into Jakes driveway and knew he had heard the truck. He was already outside on the porch waiting for me. I ran and gave him as big of a hug as I could. I loved hanging out with Jake, he was really my best friend.

We walked into the house and I waved hi to Billy. Ever since the Cullens left he has been nice to me but distant. It was like he knew that I wanted them to come back, and knew that I would be gone if they did. Jake told me they all worried about what would happen if the Cullens came back. He insisted that he only ment it from the point of the pack and that he trusted me that I would do the right thing if they came back, but I worried. I knew he did to. I honestly couldn't give him the answer he wanted when he asked me what would happen if they came back to Forks. I just kept telling him that they wouldn't. I knew they wouldn't. I had to believe that they wouldn't, my mind and heart needed that. To move on I needed to trust myself that they wouldn't come back because I couldn't trust myself if they did.

I walked into the Blacks kitchen and sat down. Jake had already made lunch. I smiled up at him "thank you". I knew he liked to cook when I gave him a chance. His mother had taught his sisters how to cook before she passed away and they had passed on what they knew to him. He knew how much I loved to cook though and normally let me. "Jake why did you cook, are we on a time limit today" I asked. "Sorry Bells, Sam called and I have to go and run patrols this afternoon. We are going to have to cut it a little bit sort" he said. "Oh, that is okay Jake." I said but I was actually a bit upset. Why had Sam decided to change the schedule. Obviously Jake didn't have to run this morning when we had made the plans I whined to myself. Jake turned his head and looked at me with his smile. I knew I couldn't be mad, at least I still got the morning to hang out with him. Oh well, and I let out a long breath. We quickly ate the grilled cheese and tomatoes soup that Jake made. It was good, he never burnt the bread. I bit my bottom lip and little bit and smirked. I was such a sucker for a man who could cook. I let that thought leave my head. "Jake I am going to go run and get changed quick then since we have a time limit today" I said as I went and grabbed my bag. I walked into Jakes room and closed the door. It was just easier and had more space to change. I quick stripped down and grabbed my swimsuit from my bag. I stood there for a little bit looking at myself. I wish I could tan. I was too white. Jake always looked tan. I wonder what our kids would look like. I shut down that thought process when I heard Jake walking towards his room and quick threw on my swimsuit. What was I thinking. Well I was told to go on and live a normal life. Then again I do not think with a life with a werewolf was what he had in mind when he told me that.

Jake knocked on the door and I told him to come in. He looked me up and down, and then started to laugh. "What is so funny?" I asked. "Look down" he laughed at me. I looked down and right away saw the problem. While trying to tie the top of my suit it had twisted. I was flashing Jake. "Oh My God!" I screamed as I turned around and blushed a neon shade of red. "Hey thanks for the show" he chuckled. Geez could I feel any more like an idiot. Well change that I could. It could have been Billy, or one of the other members of the pack. So I counted my blessings and walked out of the room. A few minutes later Jake came out wearing his suit.

We walked out of the house and down to the beach. It was a bit of a walk or a short drive to the cliffs and we had decided at the house to walk. I thought on the way home maybe I could bring up college to Jake. I really wanted to know what he thought about it. I don't know why but I wanted his acceptance of it. I know that since they left he has been watching over me more and more to make sure nothing was watching me. Sometimes I wish I had told him the whole story about Victoria and James but at the time they were still here and he didn't need to know. He was only a human then too at the time so I couldn't really tell him anything. Now I felt bad that I had lied to him. Jake of all people, the only person who had stayed behind me and supported me the whole time. He was there for me when his dad sent him with messages to tell me to stay away from the Cullen, evne though at the time he had no idea why. He was just always there. Now I knew I had lied to him and it was about something major. I wondered how he hadn't seen the bite mark but he never brought it up. It shocked me too since if it had been done by any of the Cullens it would mean they had broken the treaty and the wolfs would kill them. But somehow it wasn't brought up. I had to wonder if Carlisle hadn't told them about it in advance.

We got up to the cliffs and it was a wonderfully sunny day. The view was just spectacular and I could stop myself from smiling. Jake and I had came here before and just sat and talked, at first we just sat together in total scilence but I slowly opened up to him about how I felt. "Do you want to go by yourself Bells?" Jake asked as he saw me peeping over the edge from the lower cliff. "Um…" I stuttered. I knew I wanted to jump but was not sure how. "Well either I can jump first and wait for you in the water" he said "or we can just hold hands run and jump" he laughed. I felt like such a child. "Can we do option number 2 please" I almost begged. "Sure Sure" he chuckled. I was just an ongoing amount of ammusement for him to see today it seemed. First he sees my boobs and now me being a baby. I had been the one to suggest that we do this and now I was chickening out of it. Jake grabbed my hand. "On 3 Bells we run and jump… 1…2….3" we both took off running and jumped.

The fall felt like it took forever but I knew it was only seconds. "Shit… Ouch…" I screamed as we hit the water. Silly me hadn't kept my legs straight and it was the sting that came from a belly splash into a pool. I am sure my skin was bright red.. Again I look over at Jake and he is laughing at me. "So glad to ammuse you" I smirked at him. We both swim over to the edge of the water and sit in the breaking waves. I look at my foot and it is bright red and start to laugh at myself. "Are you okay though Bella?" Jake asks concerned. "Oh I am fine it just stings a little bit" . Jake looks up and me and then I notice he is not actually look at me. I turn around and see a really sweet looking girl and a couple of the guys from the pack. "Hey" I yell over at them. Quill turns around and they all walk over. I notice that Jake still has not said a word. All of a sudden he just gets up and starts to walk away.