I Know it's been a while guys I'm so sorry but I just had a massive writers block but I hope you guys enjoy this chapter I'm sorry that it's so short I will try make the next chapter a bit longer.
*if you guys read my other version of this chapter, the top is basically the same ,there will be a note at where you can start reading again if you already read my first version thanksxxx
It has been weeks since I've seen Alec; I can't stop thinking about him.
"You can't be like this forever Bella Alec will come back he loves you he just needs a little space right now and you starving yourself won't help"
I have heard the same things from various people 'he will come back don't worry', 'he loves you' but none of that mattered if I couldn't see him I turned my head to look at Angela. After she found out what Edward did to me she broke up with him and joined the guard.
I heard a creak from the door "hey darling can I come in?" I recognised jaspers southern accent as Angela squeaked in surprise
"Jasper what are you doing here I thought you left with Esme?"
"I wanted to talk to Bella" I felt his presence beside my bed as Angela left the room. He slowly took my hand in mine and said…
"Why are you doing this to yourself Bella? Where's the fiery girl I know? You can't let her get away; you and I both know that Alec will come back so why are you torturing yourself?"
I raised my head and in the first time in weeks I spoke
"Do you want to know why I'm doing this to myself? It's because all I can think about is Alec and how I hurt him I managed to hurt the one person who I truly love the one person who is supposed to be by my side forever has now left me, I just don't know what to do anymore"
And that was when I broke; I screamed, kicked and broke things till I had no more energy left and yet jasper just kept hugging me as I sobbed.
"I will never be anything without him jasper" I sobbed I pushed him away and put my head between my knees and just repeated it and repeated it until jasper sad the one thing that broke me out of this trance.
"I know where he is Bella you could go see him" jasper said softly
My head snapped up hope and disbelief filled my heart at once.
"He doesn't want to see me jasper" I said miserably
"Honey I saw Alec he doesn't look very well, you guys are meant to be together don't let this get between you he misses you"
He, he misses me?
I nodded my head hesitantly
"Good now let's get you cleaned up so we can get him back and I promise you we will get him back.
*note if read my other version of my chapter already start here
As I felt the final touches of Angela's brush against my cheek she said
"come on honey we're going to get your man back so you can have hot crazy monkey sex with him" I turned and gave her a weak smile appreciating her effort and enthusiasm to try cheer me up.
"I hope so Angie, I hope so"
She gave me a look of annoyance "okay seriously you and I both know he's missing you like crazy now let's get your perfect little butt in the car before I drag you out"
I looked at her in surprise
"In a car? I thought he went to France?"
She snorted one of her oh so lady like snorts "France my ass he's still in Italy we would run but he lives near a fairly populated place now come on"
I took one last glance at my appearance I was wearing a beautiful black corset with silver rhinestones on the side with a white waisted lace skirt paired with just simple black flats.
I just reached the car when suddenly Jane appeared.
"What are you doing here Jane "I said confused
"You're not the only one who hasn't seen Alec in weeks you know "she snapped her face turned sour as she hopped into the car.
Great I thought a car ride with the one person who hates me for no apparent reason. I took a deep breath and put a fake smile on my face as I entered the car.
The car suddenly halted to a stop. Reality crept back up to me again what if he didn't want me? I was damaged goods now. Tears gathered in my eyes as I willed them to go away ,suddenly I felt a hand on top of mine I looked up and found a pair of gentle red eyes far different from the other looks sent by Jane.
"He loves you I know it Bella don't let your imagination destroy this chance now go I'll be back in an hour or two to give you some time"
I pulled her into a gentle hug touched by her words not knowing if this will be the only time we will be civil. With one big breath I left the car and came face to face with a beautiful little cottage.
I walked up the steps hesitantly .I closed my eyes and gently knocked twice.
No answer I knocked once again and heard the silence I opened my eyes surprised at the massive amounts of pain burning inside of me as I registered what this meant. He didn't want me he didn't even want to see me. Biting back a sob I turned around not prepared at what stood in front of me.
There in front of me stood the love of my life, my soul mate standing there in tattered clothes, hair messy and rugged yet still the most beautiful thing on this planet.
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