"Fuck my life" A girl breathed out hopelessly as she downed the shot in front of her.

"Oh come on Ria. You know how Jake is." The man sitting next to her said as he rubbed her briefly on the back

"A dick?" she said raising one eyebrow. The men around her laughed. She glanced wistfully over at him. Him. Jake harris. The one and only boy she had ever been in love with and the only one she would ever be in love with. Talking to the skankiest looking girl in the bar. She sighed and looked at the man sitting next to her. Josh Harris. Her guidance. The big brother she never had, and the one she could always talk to. Sitting next to her making her feel better. Could the two be more different?

She glanced over at Freddie who was sitting next josh, and he frowned at her. She had known most of them since she was a teenager. Lyrica's parents had died when she was twelve. Phil took her in and raised, along with Jake and Josh. Everything was perfect till she turned 16 and began to see Jake differently. Now at 21 years old, nothing had changed for her. And nothing had changed for Jake. He was still clueless even though everyone else knew. Ria sighed and ran her fingers through her long pale hair.

RIa didnt know it but in the midst of all her moping she didnt realize how many men were staring at her in awe. She was quite a sight. Long pale hair, big grey eyes rimmed in smokey eye makeup, tiny toned body, and mile long legs. Not to mention she was covered in piercings and tattoos. She was always bright and bubbly which only added to her attractivness. Josh laughed slightly at her.

"What?" she replied slightly self conciously looking down at hereself.

"Ria. You dont even know. Look around. Everyone in this bar can't take their eyes off you. And your worried about my stupid ass of a little brother."

Ria turned and saw everyone staring at her. EVeryone except the one person she wanted most. He was too interested in the skanky girl with the bleach blonde hair. She downed the shot Josh had set in front of her and stood up, pulling her black button up peacoat around her shoulders.

"I'm gonna head back to the boat. Guess I'm just not in the 'Party' mood" Josh nodded apologetically and watched her as she weaved through the crowd. Freddie shook his head.

"That boy is never gonna learn is he?"

Josh snorted, as he surveyed Freddie over the rim of his glass."Its been almost 7 years. WHy would he start now?

Ria watched her pearly white breath dissolve into the Alaskan blackness, as she walked down the cobblestone strrets of dutch harbor. She sighed and looked out at the rolling waves of the bering sea. She stopped when she heard a voice behind her.

"YO!" She turned and saw the last person she ever expected joggin up to her, beer in one hand cigarette in the other. Jacob Harris. She looked at him curiously.

"Are you leaving?"

he took a drag on his cigarette before he handed it to her. As she took a drag, he took a drink from the bottle he threw an arm roughly around her shoulders, and said

"No.I came out to see why you were leaving?don't be stupid Ria, stay for a while

"You smell like a brewery" she said wrinkling her nose at him. He merely shrugged, and smirked slightly.

"So how bout it?stay...Please?" he batted his eyelashes at her, and ppouted his bottom lip. She sighed and turned to face the Elbow room again. Casting him a disgruntled look she said

"I hate you sometimes" he laughed and grabbed her hand as they walked together back to the bar. He intertwined his fingers with hers, as they entered. Josh did a double take when he saw them holding hands, and looked even more shocked when Jake seated himself among the other deckhands, and pulled Ria on to his lap. She looked slightly uncomfortable but smiled at everyone all the same. She leaned down and whispered something in his ear, and he immediately released his hand from her hip, and she stood up hurrying over to Josh.

"WHat the hell?" he said looking at her both eyebrows raised so high they were in danger of dissapearing into his hairline.

She ran her fingers through her hair, and gave Josh a painful smile as she ordered another shot

"Jake's piss drunk Josh" he sighed and looked over at his little brother shaking his head. But before he could say anything Ria gave a loud yelp and turned around quickly. Josh looked around startled. She turned her eyes wide.

"That guy..just..He..I...He touched me!" she pointed at the group of guys walking oast who were laughing and making crude comments about her. Josh jumped off his barstool, just as Jake and Ryan appeared on either side of Josh.

"HEY!" jake yelled. When they turned around Jake threw his bottle and it smashed directly at the guys feet.

'Yo what the fuck?" he yelled stepping back a few steps.

"Touch her like that again and i will kill you" Jake said stepping forward. Ria hurried forward and grabbed Jake by the arm

"Jake stop its not worth it." she looked helplessly at Josh who stepped in front of his little brother, but Jake shoved him out of the way.

'Leave. Now" he said quietly looking the man dead in the eye.

"Make me you fa-"

whatever the guy said after that was lost when jake swung a fist in the direction of his face.

'JAKE!" Ria screeched as she lept forward to untangle him from the group. Jake Anderson came flying in out of nowhere, and grabbed on of the guys off Josh, who had jumped in to help his little brother. Freddy kicked his bar stool as he jumped out of it ripping one of the guys off Jake, and Ryan attempted to pull AJke out of the frey. Ria felt someone tug on her hair. She turned, and looked irratatedly at a dark haired girl standing behind her.

"What?" she spat at her.

"Keep your fucking boyfriend on a leash bitch" Ria raised her eyebrows

"Excuse me?Tell your animal to keep his hands to himself. The bar quieted as the fight broke up slightly. Ria turned back to them when the girl pushed her forward.

"You wanna go with me?" the girl said taking a step forward, getting right in her face.

Ria laughed slightly and looked at Ryan, and then Punched to girl right in the mouth. She grabbed the bar before she fell, and Ria jumped on top of her. She pinned her and began to punch her in the .

"Whoa whoa calm down killer" Josh said hurrying forward and distangling her from the girl who lay clutching her mouth on the ground. hot tears fell out of her eyes as Josh set her in a barstool. Jake walked over and smoothed her hair around her face, and wiped away her tears, attempting to calm her down. The Cornelia Marie crew decided it would be best to leave before the cops showed up. They all walked back tot he boat recounting the nights big event with excitement. Freddie was waving his arms erratically, and yelling by the time they got back to the boat. Ria smiled slightly. She had a pounding headache from the alcohols,and the fight, and all she wanted right now was to sleep. The guys decided to stay up, and just hang out, when they got back to the boat, ria opted out. She slipped into a pair of soffe shorts, and one of Jake's oversized hoodies, and walked to bed after she washed her makeup off and pulled herhair into a ponytail. She was more than suprised to find Jake sitting on his bed, when she returned from the bathroom. He smiled at her, and patted the bed next to him/ She sat down very tentaively, flipping the light off as she did. jake layed down on the outside of the bed and once again patted the blanket on the inside motioning for her to come lay down. She crawled very awkwardly over him, and very tensely laid down. Jake pulled her very close to him, and held her tightly. But then he releasesd her and sat up. he smirked before pulling his shirt over his head. He then settled himself unnaturally close to her, his mouth only inches from hers. She stared at him for a long moment before sighing. she pushed herself away from his face and closed her eyes. She could feel his breath deepen, and knew he was asleep. Settling in for the night she thought in her mind

I hate you Jacob Harris