Bella's POV:

I've been a vampire for 175 years now and I still think about them. My life had changed so much after Edward and his family left. I would cry myself to sleep every night for months thinking about him. I didn't talk to anyone and kept myself locked in my room.

*Flashback*

"Bella, it's going to be ok that Cullen kid never deserved you. You were always too good for him."

"No Charlie! That's the problem! I wasn't good enough for him!" I screamed with tears running down my face. I saw the fury in Charlie's face. I bet he would kill Edward if he ever saw him again.

"Bells it's been over six months now and you haven't left this room or talked to anyone.. I want to help you"

"Please just leave, leave Charlie..." I heard him leave and I went back to bed, the bed Edward and I would share.

"Why did you leave me Edward? Why don't you love me? Alice, where are you? You were my best friend." I missed them all.

Emmet with his jokes, Jasper with all his stories and always making me feel happy. I even missed Rosalie even though she never liked me. They lied to me they all did even Carlisle and Esme.

"Bella…"I heard Jacob outside my door. "Please Bella, can I come in? I just want to talk to you" I had to face him some time might as well get it over with.

"Come In Jacob"

"Bella how are you? Are you ok?" How can he think I'm ok when my heart was broken?

"How do you think I am Jacob?"

"Look Bella you have to get over that leech, can't you see he was dangerous? he could have killed you at any time"

"But he didn't"

"Bells he wasn't good for you look at what he's done to you, look at your self! Crying over him, someone who doesn't love you, you don't eat or sleep. Do you even know what

you're doing to your poor father? He hasn't been out of this house in over 3 months thinking you could hurt yourself! Why are you letting Edward do this to you? He left you and you are still letting him control your life."

"You think I like being this way? I know it hurts Charlie to see me this way but hurting too Jacob! I'm mad at myself for feeling this way he hurt me and all I can think about is how much I still love him"

"Then let us help you let me help you Bella you know I love you.."

"Jacob.."

"No Bella listen, you're my best friend and I will always love you but now I also love you as my sister." Finally he understood I could never love him that way.

"Bells I'm here for you no matter what. I'm never going to leave you like he did please Bella try and move on I know is not going to be easy but please you have to try." He's right I have to try...

*End of Flashback*

My Jacob, I missed him so much he was my savior. After that night Jacob helped me be me again, he helped me move on and forget about the Cullen's. Charlie was happy I had gone back to my old self but was disappointed that Jacob and I would never be more than best friends The old Bella was back and I was happy and loving life again until two week's before my 19th birthday when Victoria and the Volturi changed my life.

"Bella, Aro needs to speak with you."

"Thank you Jane."

Jane, when I first came to the castle she hated me, her powers never worked on me and it pissed her off and it never helped that Aro took a liking to me right from the start. I

t took about 50 years for her to get over it and now we are best friends.

"Do you know what Aro wants?"

"No but whatever it is promise you will tell me!" I laughed she always wanted to know everything when it came to father and I.

"I will unless he tells me not to." I said to her and then walked out laughing. Aro loved me as a daughter and in time I began to see him as a father. Of course Charlie will always be my dad...Charlie how I missed him that bitch Victoria killed him and I couldn't even help him. How could I? I was only human at the time but I got my revenge. I had fun torturing and ripping her apart until I finally burned her.

I reached the thrown room and knocked.

"Come in Bella theirs something important we need to discuss."

Edward POV:

It's been over 150 years that I've lived without my Bella, my family and I miss her so much. I thought it was the right thing to do when I left her that day, the day I left her in our meadow.

~Flashback~

"Edward please don't do this.." I can't believe I'm doing this to my angel. Look how broken she looks...No! I have to do this for her own good.

"I'm no good for you Bella! I'm tired of pretending...I can't anymore." I'm sorry Bella it's the only way.

"Please Edward I know your doing this because of what happened with Jasper but Edward I'm fine it wasn't his fault." her eyes were breaking me, almost making me give in. If only there was another way...but there isn't.

"This has nothing to do with Jasper Bella" please don't make me say it my love...

"THEN WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS? YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME! THAT WE WOULD ALWAYS BE TOGETHER AND NOW YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT YOU AND

YOUR FAMILY ARE LEAVING AND THAT YOU DON'T WANT ME TO COME!" I'm sorry Bella maybe one day you can forgive me...

"WHY ARE YOU LEAVING ME?"

"Because I'm tired of you" I could see her body begin to shake.

"Because I want other distractions" I heard her gasp at my words. I could see the river of ears running down her cheeks.

"Because you're not good enough for me" she looked away from me and began saying no over and over again like she didn't believe the words that were coming out of my mouth. I had to make her believe...

"And because I don't love you" she let out a big sob and broke down. I looked down at her remembering everything about her. I knew this day would always haunt me, she looked betrayed, destroyed, heart broken and I was the cause of it and finally I saw the look in her eyes and that's when I knew she believed every word I said. I knew that look it was the look my eyes held so many times before I met her. I know what she's feeling because that's what I felt when I had that look in my eyes... she felt worthless.

I turned and ran.. I could hear her calling after me but I just ran. I can't believe I just left her there. I can't believe I just did this to my Bella, the love of my life, my soul mate, my heart, my reason for being. I had to she deserve a better life, a happy one.

God I can't do this!" Just being away from her now is killing me I have to go back. No! I have to be strong I have to do this for my Bella. I have to go home we have to leave now. I'm sorry my love...

~End Of Flashback~

"Edward please calm down your emotions are killing me over here."

"I'm sorry Jasper"

~Poor Edward he was probably thinking about Bella~

"I was..." He gave me a reassuring smile but it didn't help. Nothing helped I was miserable and so was my family. A year after we left Alice had a vision of my Bella.

(There were people all around crying dressed in black, two men were lowering something into the ground when the vision became clearer she saw a tomb stone and it said "Here Lies Bella Swan.")

I remember feeling like I had died all over again but in a much more painful way.

We all dry sobbed that day a little part of each of us died even Rosalie looked sad. I remember Alice eyes she blamed me for Bella's death I blamed myself too. Alice didn't even speak to me for ten years after that.

She says she still loves me but that she would never forgive me for taking her best friend and sister away. I remember when she tried to make me see that leaving Bella was a mistake God I wished I had listen to her if I had my angel might still be with us.

~ Flashback~

"I'M NOT LEAVING EDWARD!"

"YES YOU ARE ALICE! THE ENTIRE FAMILY IS LEAVING FORKS NOW"

"YOU REALLY THINK THIS IS BEST FOR BELLA? IS NOT! SHE LOVES YOU, SHE LOVES YOU AND CAN'T LOVE WITHOUT YOU AND YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT HER."

"Ha! Yes we can.."

"SHUT UP ROSALIE!"

"THIS IS NOT UP TO DISCUSSION ALICE! WE ARE LEAVING NOW!"

"Carlisle, please tell him we are not leaving"

"Edward... did you think this trough, is this really the best way son?" I don't know...but it seems like the only way.

"Yes Carlisle it's the only way"

"Then we will leave forks today..." now it was official.

"CARLISLE!"

"WELL I'M WITH ALICE! I'M NOT LEAVING! BELLA IS MY LITTLE SISTER AND I'M NOT GONNA LEAVE HER ALONE!"

"Emmett that is enough you heard what your father said. We are leaving today."

"But Esme how can you say that? Bella is part of this family how can we just leave her?" said Alice

"Yea mom Bella is practically your daughter, how can you agree to this?" I'm sorry Esme I know how much this is hurting you.

"Children that is enough." we all turned to Carlisle.

"We are leaving forks tonight. This is Edward's decision and we will respect it end of discussion. Now everyone pack up."

"FINE! BUT JUST REMEMBER I WARNED YOU EDWARD! THIS IS A MISTAKE YOU ARE JUST HURTING EVERYONE BY DOING THIS. YOU ARE SUCH A COWARD.

YOUR AFRAID OF BEING HAPPY! YOU HAVE LIVED IN MISERY FOR SO LONG YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE ANY OTHER WAY! YOU'RE AFRAID TO MAKE HER ONE OF US! YOUR NOTHING BUT A COWARD EDWARD CULLEN AND I HATE YOU FOR TAKING MY SISTER AWAY. I MAY FORGET WITH TIME BUT I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU! She ran up the stairs and went to her bedroom I could hear

her dry sobbing.

Was she right? I'm I being a coward? No! This is not about me this is about Bella being safe and having a happy life. I'm sorry Alice but it's the only way..

"I'm sorry Edward this is all my fault.."

"No Jasper is not your fault, we are all a danger to Bella. She deserves better. Go to Alice please don't let her hate me I'm going to need her so much"

"Don't worry, she will be mad for a while but you know Alice will always love you. She will forgive you eventually"

"NO I WONT!" we all heard her scream.

"Edward son are you sure about this? We can still stay"

"No Carlisle we are leaving"

"I hope you know what your doing.." so do I.

~End of Flashback~

"Children could you please come down here your mother and I would like to speak to you." In a second we where all gathered in the family room.

I stood by the window Alice was sitting with Jasper in a love seat Rosalie was on Emmett's lap.

Esme and Carlisle where standing in front of us looking serious maybe I should try and read their min...

~Theirs no need for that Edward you will know soon enough~

"So what's going on?"

"We decided it's time to go back to Forks..."