Title: Linger
Author: MistressKiko
Rating: M
Pairing: Shizuo x Izaya ... Shizuo x Mairu
Disclaimer: I own none of these characters!
THIS STORY CONTAINS MALExMALE RELATIONSHIPS. You have been warned.
Shizuo's POV
He looked at me then, with a perplexed gaze.
"Misunderstanding?"
My heart jumped. Maybe it was just wishful thinking, but he sounded hopeful. He shifted, and I realized he was painfully unsure of himself at the moment, though he tried to hide it behind a cool veneer.
"Yeah. Huge one," I muttered, shoving my hands in my jacket pockets and growing more confident as the talk went on, "Now, room?"
He looked torn.
I sighed, wanting so badly just to sweep him up in my arms, but that would just make things worse.
He took a deep breath, let it out, and then I saw his body sag like he was giving up.
"This way," he muttered lowly, walking down the hallway. I followed him silently, inwardly jumping for joy at his compliance.
Though, his attitude was fascinating me. I had never got to see a glimpse of this side of his personality, and though I definitely didn't enjoy him being sad, it was interesting to see none-the-less.
He led me into a room that looked incredibly like an office.
"If you're wanting another fuck, doing it on the desk would be hot," he said with false cheerfulness.
I clenched my fists, willing myself to keep my cool. I didn't want this to be like before, when I released my anger on him. That was the exact opposite of what I wanted.
"No, I don't just want another fuck," I clipped, taking a deep breath, "Look, I'll just put this bluntly. I got a call from Kururi yesterday. She had a pretty interesting story to tell me, and I want some confirmation. Did Mairu confront you about us?"
He sneered, taking a seat on the desk.
"Yeah, she was screaming her little head off," Izaya replied, rolling his eyes at the ceiling, "I'd really love to stay and chat and all, but can you get to the point?"
Keep my cool, keep my cool...
"Mairu told me that you sold us out."
His head snapped up.
"What?" He screeched, wide-eyed, "The fuck I did! I was just watching TV when she burst in the apartment yelling at me to stay away from you!"
I was so relieved. So, utterly and painfully relieved.
Smiling, I walked over to Izaya until I was right in front of him. He was watching me carefully, shrinking back.
"Know what else she said that was a lie?" I asked, placing both hands on either side of his hips on the desk. His body was stiff as a board, "She told you that I chose her over you."
"... you did," he replied, his voice shaking. I shook my head.
"I just told you, what she said was a lie. She found out about us, and then I broke up with her," his mouth fell open at this point, "so she wanted us to fall apart. When I came to the apartment that night... I thought... I thought that you told her about us, and then you were going to leave..."
My throat was really tight, and his eyes were really pretty.
I almost laughed at the ridiculous thought, but it was so true, and they were right there in front of me, wide and uncertain.
"That's why you were mad," Izaya concluded, bringing a hand up to cover his mouth. He was looking down at someplace on my jacket.
"Well, because of that crap you pulled after strip poker. Running out of my apartment like that doesn't answer anything, it only leaves assumptions," I said, and he jumped when I took hold of his chin, forcing him to look back up at me, "So I'm going to ask again. And this time, you better give me a straight answer. Are you after more than a fuck?"
He hesitated, still looking reluctant.
Then I realized he would probably never cave in these conditions. Izaya craved being in control. He hated feeling vulnerable, and putting your feelings out for the world to see was about as vulnerable as you could get. I didn't want to either, but this was getting ridiculous, and I needed it off my chest anyway.
"... because I am," I admitted quietly, hearing his breath catch, "If Mairu wouldn't have done this, that night would have been different. So different. And next time, I want you to be there when I wake up."
My lips were right by his ear, and I stayed there, waiting.
I could feel him breathing on my neck and his body heat was so close to me but we weren't quite touching and it was driving me insane.
With every second that ticked by, my confidence was withering away.
Why was he still silent?
Why wouldn't he say something already?
I was too afraid to draw back and take a look at his face. My gaze stayed frozen on his raven hair.
I stiffened when I felt his arms slide into my jacket. In an instant, the wall of tension between us collapsed as he slid into me, arms locked tightly behind my back and face buried in my neck. I immediately returned the embrace.
We stayed like that, silent, for I don't know how long. Then he lifted his head, and I was awestruck by the gentle smile on his face.
"Next time, huh?" He asked, that playful glint back in his eyes, "Shizuo, I'm so embarrassed!"
I sighed irritably, about to curse him for not answering my question, but he reached up and claimed my lips before I could.
I would never, ever get tired of kissing this man.
"I want more," he whispered against my lips. I shivered, casting a worried look toward the blind-covered window.
"They'll probably come looking for you..."
His eyes widened and then he started laughing, hard. Confused, and slightly worried, I held his shoulders as he laughed.
"What?" I exclaimed, when he just would not quit laughing.
"Ha... hahahe... I was... answering you," Izaya chuckled, wiping at his eyes, "But hey, if you wanna be kinky with me on the desk with my family out there, go right ahead, big boy!"
He wrapped his legs around my hips as realization hit.
My face burned.
Oh.
Wait, fuck embarrassment, what did he just say?
Izaya Orihara just admitted he wanted to be mine, is what!
I did a dance in my head that I would never, ever be caught doing in real life.
And in real life, I got busy kissing the living daylights out of the man I loved.
Short last chapter. I know you're probably like "Wait, what about Mairu's reaction?" and the family's reaction, and Kadota's reaction, and how our favorite couple is going to make it work, and etc etc. XD It's all good. There will be a sequel. This is just the end for now ^-^
Thank you soooooooo much to all the people who have reviewed, put me on alert, or favorited me! I love you guys ;~; And for my very first fic in the Durarara! fandom AND my very first smut ever, I got more of a turn-out than I would have ever imagined. You guys are AWESOME and I wish I could give you cookies. But I can't, so I'm just gonna eat the cookies myself =D