Deadly Instinct

Summary: That one little paper cut caused everyone including his wife to turn their back on Jasper. Knowing that he will not be able to resist the call of human blood any longer he returns to Forks to seek out the one human that he feels caused his downfall. Can she change his mind of ending her life or will she embrace the solace of death? Or do the fates have a different plan for them both? Darksper, OOC, J/B.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything Twilight, everything Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer. I just enjoy using the characters in my twisted little stories.

We're all in hell.
Laughing in your misery.
The desperate fade to black and it suits me well.

-excerpted from Hurt Me: Aiden

Beta'd by: The Wonderful JamesRamsey

Word count: 3,595

Pairings: Jasper/Bella

Chapter 1: Blood Red

Jpov

I stood as far away as I could from the poor excuse of a birthday party. Everyone was excited, well everyone but Bella and I that is. I couldn't understand why she wasn't happy, this party was for her.

Me on the other hand. I was slightly annoyed to be standing on the outskirts because I wasn't allowed to get to close to Edward's precious human. My throat had a slight burn due to Bella's close proximity. I started to wish that I had gone hunting like I had planned instead being sucked into this party for someone who clearly didn't want it.

So I watched as the family all fussed over Bella. Well except Rose, but she had her reasons for not getting close to Bella. Unlike me no one was keeping her away she kept herself at a distance because she was jealous of Bella's humanity.

Bella's face flushed a lovely shade of red as Esme handed her the small packet containing plane tickets. The burning in my throat flared up at just the sight of the blood settling in her cheeks.

Edward shot me a nervous look from across the room, before glancing back at Bella who was oblivious to his sudden stiff posture.

"Jasper perhaps you should go hunting your eyes are looking a little dark." He whispered to me.

Of course the rest of the family heard him and they gave quick glances my way.

I was slowly becoming pissed. They really didn't trust me; I didn't have to be a mind reader, hell I didn't even have to be an empath, to know that. It was evident on each of their faces as well as their body language. I really didn't need to hunt it, was just a precaution.

I was in control, but obviously Edward didn't think so and apparently neither did the rest of my family as they kept giving me side glances.

Edward looked at me again and this time because I'm a stubborn fuck I glared at him. 'Look Edward I don't need to hunt, I'm in control.'

He raised his brow at me, silently telling me he wasn't quite sure if he believed me or not.

'You really don't trust me around her do you? After all that has happened, you still don't trust me, none of you do.' I accused.

I felt his shame and guilt hit me before he looked at me; pleading with me to understand his fucked up way of thinking as he wrapped an arm around Bella's waist. Honestly he could save that guilt and shame shit for someone who cares. I saw a flash of anger cross his face before it hit me full force.

Fuck this shit I really didn't need to be here, Esme glanced between the two of us with worry written across her face, silently asking a question that had Edward nodding. I really did hate when they discussed me silently which they did quite often. She was probably asking if he thought I would lose control.

As I turned to head up the stairs to my study I saw Alice hand Bella the gift wrapped in shiny blue paper. Little did I know that this gift would be my downfall.

I watched from the second step as she slid her finger underneath the wrapping. Everything felt like it slowed down and went silent. The only sound was her heart beating and even that sounded slow. As I watched her retract her finger the thin red line from the paper cut beaded before a single drop fell to the carpet at her feet.

Everything went into overdrive as I lunged forward. The smell of her blood sent me into sensory overload; all I could see was her and every vein that held the essence of her life, which happen to be the sweetest blood I've ever smelled.

She stared at me with her wide eyes, but yet she held no fear, I felt arms gripping my waist as I was being pulled away from her. I pushed my hands out behind me causing whoever was holding me to lose their grip for just a moment but that moment was all it took as I made a dash for her again.

Edward pushed her back into the table that held glass plates, shattering them with the sheer force. The smell of her blood grew stronger as the glass sliced into her delicate flesh; the distraction of blood and glass was enough for whoever held me at first, to gain the upper hand once more.

Still they were unable to pull me from the room as I struggled to break free. I could almost feel the blood flowing down my throat, satisfying the burn that was in a uproar; the venom pooled in my mouth and I was sure some might have spilled down my chin. But I didn't care all I wanted to do was get rid of whoever was keeping me from my prey.

Her sweet, sweet blood flowed heavily from her arm yet she still felt no fear. Edward's nose flared as he took in a breath, the monster in me saw him as a threat.

I let out a growl as my mind yelled, "Mine!" over and over again.

I never felt the other set of arms around me until I was out in the night air.

Slowly I gained control over the monster within as I took in a breath of fresh air. My mind still clouded by images of blood; Bella's blood. I felt the arms release their tight hold, yet whoever was with me didn't move far away.

The red haze slowly lifted from my vision as I looked behind me into the sad faces of Emmett and Rose.

Giving both of them a pained look and a "Sorry", I ran into the forest.

I didn't want them to see how much I still longed to drain the blood from Bella. I ran until I was far enough away from temptation, or so I thought. I took down the first animal I came across trying to get rid of the image of the red flow of Bella's blood. I slashed into the buck's jugular violently with my teeth, gulping down the blood trying to satisfy the burn. Yet I couldn't stop the images of slashing into Bella's delicate throat in the same manner.

Not only had I wanted to drain her, I practically wanted to bathe in her blood. I looked down and realized that I had completely shredded the deer, there was nothing left but protruding bones sticking through what was left of the carcass. I was covered in blood and fur, yet I was not satisfied. Sensing another animal near-by this time a predator like myself who had no idea it was about to become the prey.

Snapping the neck of the mountain lion, I drained it quickly as my mind filled once again of images of draining Bella as she looked at me with trusting eyes. No, I didn't want her to trust me I wanted her to fear me; it made the blood so much sweeter if the prey was scared.

Never had I wanted to drain somebody so badly, but Bella was different. Perhaps it was the fact that she showed no fear in the very presence of true monsters. We were deadly, and she a small fragile human, stood bold against death every time she was near us. Being denied her blood caused the monster in me to roar, my thoughts were still consumed with draining her.

I took a moment to gain control over my thoughts as well as my emotions, before I decided it was time to head home. Racing through the blurs of vibrant greens and warm browns of the forest, I could hear the tiny forest creatures bedding down for the night. The birds above filled the air with their cries of terror as they sensed me passing below. I quickly crossed the river, as the window to the room I shared with Alice came in view.

Knowing that Esme would have my head if I got mud, fur or blood on the carpet and wood. I decided to forgo the front door while I was in my current state. Scaling the wall I opened the window and slipped in looking around me I didn't see Alice in the room. Peeling the blood soaked shirt off I tossed it into the wastebasket. Just as I unfastened the button on my jeans, Alice rushed in her light footsteps ghosting across the floor as she stood before me. She raked her eyes over my body taking in my appearance.

Looking into her eyes, where they once held the love that she had for me, now there was nothing but pure hatred. I recoiled away from her as if she had physically slapped me. Her emotions were so strong at the moment that I was surprised I was still standing as the onslaught of pain and disgust hit me like a tidal wave.

Staggering backwards I hit the wall, I felt so small under her stare.

"Alice I'm so sor…"

Her hand flashed up to silence me as her beautiful golden eyes darkened as the anger she felt doubled. Her mouth twisted into a silent snarl, I had never seen her look so furious before. She was always so happy and carefree but now she looked more like the deadly vampire that she was at this moment.

"I can't believe that you tried to attack my friend, does her friendship to me mean so little to you?"

I went to answer her, to apologize once again but the glared she fixed upon me was enough to stop me from opening my mouth.

"I waited so long for a friend outside of the family, and then we found Bella. I thought everything was going perfect, but then you had to go ruin it with your weakness for human blood. Well I'm tired of making excuses for you, and I'm tired of trying to stop you from draining every damn human that seems appetizing to you. No more Jasper this was the last straw, eternity has long since passed for us. Even as vampires we can grow tiresome. I'm telling you right now that I can't continue to hold your hand, and tell you that it will get better when obviously it won't."

My mind was whirling with the questions that her words brought forth. 'What was she saying?' 'Did she not want to be with me anymore?'

She had turned her back on me as I continued to try and figure out what she was implying. I watched as she stilled before she whirled around to face me her eyes flashing once again, she let out a low growl as she took a step toward me.

"Because of you Edward is going to leave her." She took another step forward as she continued to stare at me with her pitch black eyes. "Because of you and your lack of control, he will lose the only love he has ever known…"

I was starting to get angry myself, as her emotions began to have an affect on me. Trying to diffuse the angry little time bomb she was becoming. I once again tried to apologize. "Alice I'm sorry I…"

She let another growl slip from her lips. "Sorry! No, Jasper you're not sorry. You're weak, and you will always be weak. There is no use in trying to pretend that you will gain control over your bloodlust, when we both know that it's a lost cause."

I looked around to see that the rest of the family had entered the room while Alice was yelling. I looked to Esme and Carlisle, whose faces were impassive as they stood there; but their emotions said what they did not allow their faces to display. They were tired as well; their disappointment and shame hit me like a wrecking ball.

Alice stepped back from me and into the embraces of our adoptive parents. I looked over to Emmett and Rose, but Rose's back was facing me as she hid her face against Emmett's chest. The silent sobs shook her body; I could feel sympathy as well as their understanding seeping from them as they stood there against the wall.

Wait understanding? Understanding for what? A wave of panic shot through me as I tried to determine just what they could have an understanding about. They wouldn't would they? My mind was consumed by all the possibilities of what the family emotions could mean.

I looked toward Edward who was now holding and comforting Alice, rocking back and forth he looked up and held my gaze.

He was a torrent of emotions, but the one that stood out among all was pure undiluted hatred. Alice suddenly stiffened in his arms as her eyes glazed over. She snapped out of her vision and wretched herself from Edward's arms.

Walking over to the closet she stood just inside the doorway of her wonderland. "We're leaving tonight."

Her voice was calm, but it held an edge to it that I've never heard from her before. I was relieved that it wasn't something else that she had seen. But then the dread set in and I couldn't help but feel like that what she was saying did not applied to me. I held on to the shred of hope that she still wanted me, and that whatever damage there was to our relationship could be repaired.

As if she knew what I was thinking, she looked over her shoulder and stared right at me. Her eyes held no emotion as she said the words that shattered my dead heart. "Jasper don't follow, you're not welcome in this family anymore."

Her voice was so cold and distant as I watched her take off the ring that had adorned her finger for over 50 years. She tossed it at me as if it meant nothing more to her than a piece of costume jewelry instead of a symbol of our love. The ring landed at my feet as I watched her step into the darkness of her vast closet.

I glanced around the room at my so called family in shock as I felt everyone of their emotions. They wanted this as well. I caught Rose's eye and saw my own pain reflected back at me.

Not able to take it anymore, I tore out of there without glancing back. I could hear Rose screaming for me to come back and by the sound of it she was being held back from following me.

I knew that Rose was probably hurting, but she needed the family more than I did, and I would never ask the one person that I felt was truly a sister to me to choose between her loyalty to her sire and mate over the sisterly love she had for me. So I did what they wanted me to do I ran, the blurs of trees pasting each side of me as my mind replayed Alice's words.

I knew that it was too good to last, she was perfect and I was…well I was broken. I thought about heading in the direction of the home of my comrade and brother Peter, before deciding against the idea. That fucker probably already knew what had happened and I really didn't need his shit right now.

I knew that he would be happy that Alice and I were no longer together since he never really liked her. What was it that he called her again? Oh right, fun sized bitch.

According to him she was small enough to annoy him, but had enough curves for some pleasure as long as she kept her mouth shut. Just like the fun size package candy humans love. Annoying, but still had some pleasurable qualities.

I stopped suddenly and let out a roar as I uprooted a tree, tossing it to the ground with a thundering crack as it split down the middle. Dropping to the forest floor I buried my head in my hands as I tried to come up with an idea of what I was going to do. I knew eventually I would find myself on Peter's fucking doorstep whether I liked it or not, I just hope the fucking yoda bastard doesn't say that he fucking told me this shit would happen.

I looked up into the sky and stared at the moon as it cast a blue glow onto the trees surrounding me.

I couldn't believe that Alice would turn her back on 50 years together. She had stayed with me before; even through the slip ups in the past. Hell this time it wasn't even a slip up, Bella was still safe. Honestly I wasn't the only one she needed to worry about that night everyone besides Carlisle wanted to drain her.

Her blood was so pure that I'm sure it called to even the most controlled vampire. I even believed I saw Carlisle's composure falter a bit before I was pulled out the door.

Now that the red haze that the bloodlust had caused had lifted, I was able to remember everything. I sat there contemplating everything that had happen in these last hours.

The sky above began to lighten into a dusky gray, the forest coming to life once more, as the animals stirred and moved around me. They gave me a wide berth and stayed well hidden; they could sense that I was a dangerous predator.

I continued to think over all the years that I spent with a family that didn't truly trust me, yet I was willing to instill all my trust onto them. I could feel the anger gradually growing inside me as the low growls slipped from my mouth. I trusted them and they turned their fucking backs on me. They knew of my history and yet they tossed me aside and stamped a fucking 'too dangerous for this family' sign on my ass.

Then there was my so call fucking lithe bitch of a wife. She knew early on that I needed to hunt, but she held me back because she needed help with the party. If she would have just let me go, I would have never tried to make Bella my late afternoon snack.

And let's not forget 'to good for anyone' fuckward who decided to bring his clumsy human girlfriend to a birthday party she didn't want.

And then there is the enigma of Bella. Here is a girl who didn't know danger or didn't care about her own life. She looked me in the fucking eye and all I could sense from her was acceptance. Not an ounce of fear or panic flowed from her body. She had me confused with the acceptance; no one in their right mind would accept death at the hands of another.

Fuck, I had been sitting here for the last few days going over this shit. The sun was now filtering through the trees casting shadows while throwing other things in a great relief.

I could hear a twig snap in the distance and I opened my senses, catching the scent of a human in my current state was not the best thing…well not the best thing for them.

Before I could realize what I was doing, I was up and running toward the heavenly scent that caused my throat to burn. Catching the hunter off guard, I latched onto his throat as I sucked greedily; not caring to savor the taste. Draining every last drop, I let his lifeless body fall to the ground.

Realizing what I had done I felt ashamed of myself, Alice would be so…

I stopped myself in mid thought Alice, the fucking bitch called me weak, she told me not to follow. Well since I already fucked up, I might as well go for gold. I looked down and noticed that I had subconsciously ripped into the corpse at my feet.

Huh, I thought I had drained him completely. Well I guess the leftover blood will help draw in the other predators. Pulling his body over to a falling tree I looked down into his blank stare frozen in horror. His brown eyes stared up into the sky, brown eyes. Bella's eyes. With a wicked smile I knew where I was going to go, but I refused to make a solid decision. All I knew was that soon her sweet blood would be mine; this time I would not be denied my prey.

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