Hey this is my first fanfic and hope it's ok and enjoyable to read. I would highly appreciate constructive criticism and reviews this intends to be a series, but first I am seeing how this goes down. NOTE: All characters respond to their respected owners at bioware and lucasarts.

Okay I hope you enjoy

"Bastila, you can't go on like this forever" Carth commented, even though this comment went through Bastila's head without notification, she couldn't think of anything but him. He was the one who saved her from becoming what she hated, he was the one she loved and longed for, he was the one who was the saviour of the republic, he was the one who had set out to eliminate the sith threat, and overall he was the one she missed oh so greatly.

Revan.

He would have been gone for three years tomorrow, Bastila had been counting the days ever since he left, and left nothing but a holo-pad after that last magical night they had spent together, she can still remember every detail of that night. That holo-pad Bastila still had and savoured till this day, with all the details of his leaving, she knew what it said off by heart now;

Bastila it's still inside me the darkness and the memories are coming back. I have remembered what I found in the unknown regions and I must stop it. I don't know whether I'll be coming back, and you can't follow me, I must do this on my own, I care too much about you, and the others to risk your lives to help me defeat what I not only found but made worse.

But Bastila I have to tell you now before I go; You have made me the happiest man in the world all the memories we've shared, all the time we've spent together and all the love we held for each other. I will never regret the time we spent together it was the happiest moments of my life,

I love you Bastila Shan and always will.

Bastila had been waiting for him to return in the same room for almost three years, on Telos. The main reason for Telos was because of Carth he had been so good to her ever since, he was the one she could now relate to, she didn't understand how he kept strong despite all he'd been through. Carth, he was also upset by Revan's leaving over the time they had spent together he had began to feel close to the old sith lord, all the personal information they shared. He could still remember when Revan approached him and told him about his feelings for Bastila, Carth not helping but chuckle at this just simply wishing him good luck, with what he described to be the most stone-hearted woman in the galaxy. Yet now this woman was in tears over her love.

The room she stayed in was a simple one, like any other room on Telos. The not exactly most comfortable bed in the corner with the white bedclothes draped over it untidily, causing the sheets to wrinkle. The table next to the bed made of some type of cheap plastic, with nothing but a small cone lamp on it. The walls all white nothing personal about the room, well apart from the holo-pad and pictures that were placed on the shelf right next to the bed. The panoramic window at the far end of the room of which Bastila spent most of her time looking out of hoping she would see the one ship she ever wanted to see again, with the one person she ever wanted to see again piloting it.

Bastila then just realised what Carth said, she looked up at him "I know Carth, it's just..." Bastila failed to finish the sentence, tears beginning to swell in her eyes she attempted to wipe them away with the back of her hand. She didn't know why to bother, after all by now Carth had seen her tears on many occasions. Bastila then finished her sentence though it was muffled by sobs, "I miss him so much."

"I know" said Carth in his strong, assertive yet comforting voice. Carth began to hug Bastila trying to comfort her, as Revan left him a holo-pad as well, simply telling him to keep the republic strong and to look after Bastila for him, mainly to make sure she never followed him. Carth then let go as he did not want to make it awkward for Bastila, as he knew she valued their friendship, but Carth didn't feel that way about Bastila, anyway her heart belonged to Revan.

It was beginning to get late now on Telos, the stars at their brightest with the twinkle on each of them different to the other, some brighter than others. The lights in each other room distinguishing one-by-one like candles being blown out.

Bastila then realised by looking out the window just how sleep deprived she was, she hadn't been able to sleep well for since Revan left barely scraping five hours a night. She found it hard to sleep without him there, she missed his body heat and his soft scented musk, and when she was scared or worried she'd wrap her arms round his waist and bury her head into his toned chest. There were also the times when she couldn't sleep; she simply used to watch him sleep how peaceful he looked when he slept, how even his breathing was, he still could never escape her mind.

Carth immediately read the tiredness off of her face and gave a soft smile from his thin lips, "I understand" Carth said looking at Bastila.

"Thanks Carth" Bastila replied to him with the slight sadness still in her voice, he now understood when Bastila needed her own space. Carth began to walk out the room as he walked over to his own room just across the hall, he smiled at her as he walked and Bastila tried to smile back but it was only a half-hearted smile, the door shut behind Carth, and she was alone again.

She walked over to her bed and looked at the picture of Revan on her shelf as she did every day. He was so handsome, his deep brown eyes with that trace of gold in them. The way that his firm lips supported his beautiful smile, which showed off his gleaming white teeth. The way his auburn hair flopped over his head, the hair style was untamed but still groomed somehow. No wonder she fell completely in love with him combined with his looks, his compassion, and simply the way he made her feel.

Bastila then walked drowsily over to her bed and placed her head on the lumpy pillow she had grown so accustomed to. For some strange reason that night she fell asleep almost immediately and there was now worry or fret in her mind.

They walked alone Bastila and Revan hand in hand upon the surface of Dantooine with the grass swaying in the gentle breeze, and the sun of Dantooine lighting up the path in front of them. Revan stopped in the path just behind the great biba tree Bastila had told him about when he was still a training jedi. Revan wrapped his muscular arms round Bastila's waist and kissed her firmly on the lips.

Then Bastila woke up and the tears ran down her face like rivers she missed him so much the dreams were becoming more real though, why this was she didn't know she tried to comfort herself saying he was coming back, but even though her heart wanted to believe it her mind wouldn't let her be disappointed.