Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note.

Warnings: Angst, OOC, lime.

Pairings: L/Raito.

Summary: During the handcuffs, Raito has a secret. What will L do when he finds out the secret?

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What the hell am I doing? I am pushing myself onto a teenager. I should stop this. L watched as thin hips pushed upward and he felt semen spill over his hand. He stared at the teenager to see sweat running down the perfect face and Raito's face was red. The other man was panting hard, trying to catch his breath. He grabbed some tissues and clean his hand and Raito's stomach off. He sat on his side of the bed, staring at the wall. What was I thinking? I should not have done that. Raito is a teenager still. He is barely an adult.

Raito moved closer to the older man as he whispered, "I could take care of your problem." He never thought he would feel so dazed when messing around. He never had sex but he did fool around with his past boyfriends. He swept his hand up L's clothe thigh. He wanted to touch skin.

Slapping the hand away from his thigh, L mumbled, "I should not have done that." He couldn't believe he let his demands win over his mind. He unlocked his cuff and chained Raito to the bed. As he stood up, he whispered, "There are cameras in here. Do not try anything."

"What the hell do you mean you shouldn't have done it! Didn't you like it!" Raito screamed. He was upset. He wanted the other to touch him everywhere. He was going through hell trying to figure out L.

"I am sorry I pushed myself onto Yagami-kun. It will not happen again." L replied in a monotone voice.

"But I wanted you too. You didn't force yourself on me. I want you to do again." Raito retorted. He sat up and stared at the pale man. The other man was silent. What was L thinking? Why does he do this to me? One moment, I think he returns my feelings, and then the next second I think he doesn't. Why can't he just give me a straight answer?

He has no idea what he does to me. He makes me feel things that I thought I have long forgotten. It does not matter. He is a teenager and I'm an adult. I should not let it go this far. The detective shook his head and sighed, "I am sorry, Yagami-kun, but this will not happen again. It would not work between us."

"Why wouldn't it?"

"There are a lot of reasons. I am only here for this case. Once it is over, I will leave to solve another case. I will not stay in Japan forever. It is better for Yagami-kun to forget about his so called feelings for me."

"My so called feelings! I can't believe you still believe that I am not telling the truth." Raito yelled as he pulled his wrist. He hissed as the cuff cut into his skin. He wanted to punch the other man. He wanted L to understand his emotions. Most of all he wanted L to feel the same way.

"It is Yagami-kun's hormones messing with him." L responded as he headed toward the bathroom. He sighed and shook his head. He entered the bathroom without letting the teenager reply to his comment. He didn't want to hear anything else. If Raito's feelings were true, he wouldn't know what he would do. He had to put an end to this and quick. He turned on the cold water, stripping his clothes. As he jumped into the cold shower, he leaned his head against the tiles and closed his eyes. He has no idea what he is doing to me. He doesn't feel something for me. It is just his hormones messing with his head. He just wants someone to fool around with.

In the bedroom, Raito sat there, trying to hold back his tears. How could L think that? He opened himself up only to be rejected. He heard his cell phone ringing and he grabbed it. He answered in a soft voice, trying to hide his distress, "Hello."

"What happened?"

"No hello back?"

"Answer my question, Rai."

"Having man problems like always."

"Sorry man. I know how that goes."

"Luke, I don't know what to do."

"Wow that must be difficult."

"Don't joke. I'm serious."

"Well is he straight?"

"I don't know."

"You're kidding me?"

"I can't tell with him. He doesn't show interest in women or men."

"Wow, he must be good at hiding himself if you can't figure it out."

"Luke, I don't have time for you to joke around with me. He might come back anytime."

"Is it the same feeling as last year?"

"It is stronger than what I felt last year."

"That is good. He isn't some criminal, right?"

"No, he isn't. Luke, I don't want…"

"Yeah, I know, you don't want to hear it. Damn Rai, you almost got yourself caught into something that could have been horrible for you. You are damn well lucky that I came that night or you would have been hurt."

"I know."

"So this guy isn't a criminal. Is he nice?"

Raito lay down on the bed, covering himself up. He stared up at the ceiling thinking about the question. He sighed, "Well he isn't nice to most people, but I understand him. He is a genius too. So I know what it is like."

"Meaning he is like you. He acts all nice when he doesn't care what others say or do."

"No, he isn't. He doesn't act nice or sweet talk to anyone. He tells it how it is."

"Maybe you could learn a thing or two from him. How old is he?"

"I don't know. I know he is older than me."

"Wait, you don't know his damn age. For all you could know that he might be in his forties."

"I doubt he is that old!"

"What is it with you liking older men?"

"Shut up Luke. I don't want to hear about that again."

"I will keep bringing it up until you know not to get involve with that again."

Raito heard the bathroom door open and ogled L's nude chest. He gulped down the lump in his throat. He whispered, "I got to go Luke."

"Wait…"

He hung up before the other can say anything else and turned off his phone. Knowing Luke, the man would keep calling until he talked to him. He is not looking at me. I wish he would see me for me, not a suspect. That must be why he refuses to do anything with me. The teenager pulled his boxers and pants up under the sheets. He would leave it alone for now.

"What was Yagami-kun talking about on the phone?" L asked as he got his night clothes on. He refused to look at the boy just in case he lost control again. He would hear about this tomorrow. Watari would demand an answer. He glanced over at the teenager, waiting for an answer.

"Is nothing private?"

"No. Not until you are clear."

"I was talking about you."

"I do hope Yagami-kun did not reveal anything that could ruin this case."

"I'm not stupid. So do not talk to me like I am. I would never reveal the case to anyone except the team."

The detective kept silent as he dressed. He felt eyes on his body but didn't comment. It was going to be very hard being chained to someone that was at least attracted to him. He walked to the bed, cuffing his wrist. He sat down on his side of the bed, pulling his legs up to his chest.

"Do you sleep like that?"

"Yes."

"Why?"

"I do not see the point of Yagami-kun's questions." L replied as he closed his eyes. He usually didn't sleep during a big case, but even he needed some rest. Everyone thought he was a machine and could stay awake forever, but it wasn't true.

Raito lay there, watching the rising and falling of L's chest. He wondered if the older man had a heart. It seemed to him that said man didn't. He rolled over, letting his arm hang behind him, so he wouldn't pull the chain. He stared at the wall thinking about his emotions and also what happened last year. No one knew what happened except Luke. He wasn't about to reveal it to the detective because he feared it would lead to a Kira accusation.

The next day, everyone was tense and it was driving the detective crazy. He watched as Matsuda dropped papers on the floor by Raito feet. Of course, he usually said something but he decided to keep quiet. Raito was the one who snapped and Yagami was now staring at them. It was unnerving. He knew the elderly man wanted to say something. He sighed as he looked at the reports popping onto his computer. I am positive Raito was Kira, but what could have happened to him during the time he was in the cell? Something changed.

Why am I snapping at everyone? I'm starting to act like L. I can't do that. My father will say something shortly if I continue with this kind of behavior. Raito sighed and closed his eyes, trying to suppress his anger. He wasn't sure what he was angry about. The more he thought about it, he must be angry about being a suspect. He hated that. He wasn't Kira. Everyone believed him except L and that drove him mad. Though he must admit, his thought pattern was the same as Kira's. What am I thinking? I'm not him. I would remember something like that. It must be the accusations.

"Everyone please take a lunch break. The information is not going anywhere." L spoke up as he felt the tension rise. Everyone including Yagami left without questioning it. He turned and sighed, "Yagami-kun has been snapping all day long."

"Sorry." Raito hissed. Didn't L realize he was tired of the games? He just wanted to be clear, so he could go home. He couldn't handle the rejection L was giving him. He wanted to know how L felt. He stood up and walked behind L. The chain was jiggling. He laid his hands on L's shoulders. He felt the other man tense by the touch. He rubbed the detective's shoulders, easing the tension. He whispered, "I don't understand you."

"Yagami-kun is not supposed to understand me."

"Friends should know each other."

"What does Yagami-kun wish to know? He could ask, but it does not mean I will answer him."

Before Raito could ask his questions, Watari came in the room with a tray of sweets. The elderly man looked at him with a raised eyebrow. With a blush on his face, Raito pulled his hands away from L's shoulders. Sitting down, he looked down at his feet. They seemed more interesting than what Watari's eyes were speaking.

"It is good that the team has left. We need to talk." Watari spoke as he looked between the two.

L sighed, "I was wondering when Watari would talk about last night." He turned his chair around, pulling the chain and stared at his caretaker.

Watari began his speech, "First of all, what were you thinking, Ryuuzaki? He is a teenager, way too young for you."

"He didn't force me into anything." Raito growled as he raised his head and stared at the elderly man.

"Second thing he is a suspect." Watari continued ignoring Raito's remark.

L tilted his head and placed his thumb on his lower lip, thinking about what to say and what not to. He should tell the elderly man to mind his own business, but Watari had two good points. He sighed, "It will not happen again."

"It better not happen again or I will be forced to inform Yagami-san." Watari threatened.

Raito jumped from his seat and yelled, "You can't tell my dad any of this! He will throw me out of his house and I will be homeless!"

"I am sure Yagami-kun could go through college and find a great job with NPA." L replied as he turned his head to look at the younger man.

"You don't understand! Dad could easily make sure I never get a job with the NPA!" Raito screamed and then turned to Watari begging, "Please do not say a word to my dad."

Watari stared into those honey eyes and felt horrible for bringing that topic up. It would seem the young Yagami was really scared of his father finding out his sexuality. He looked at his ward to see the man was studying Raito. He sighed, "Very well. I will not inform Yagami-san but I do not want this to continue."

"As I said, it will not happen again." L replied staring at Raito. He is really scared of what his father would do. I even feel sorry for him. He watched as Watari set down the tray and left the room. He turned around to face the computer. He glanced to the tray to see some real food. Placing it on the table next to Raito, he spoke, "I believe this is for Yagami-kun."

"Thanks." Raito muttered as he started to eat the soup. It was good and it was something he could eat without thinking about throwing it back up. If he didn't start to eat, he was sure L would force some food down his throat. He glanced at the older man to see L was busy eating the sweets. He asked, "Is sweets all you ever eat?" He was curious about the detective and he hoped he would get some answers from said man.

L paused in eating his cheesecake and thought about the question. Is it a way to find a weakness from me? But what could be a weakness in my eating habits? He glanced from the corner of his eye at the teenager to see what expressions were on that perfect tan face. There was nothing but curiosity written on the face. He mumbled around his fork, "Of course, I eat other food. I just prefer my sweets."

"How old are you?" Raito asked as he remembered his conversation with Luke last night. He thought L was older than him but not too much. Then again, Luke was right and he could be wrong. He had to know.

L turned his chair to face the curious teenager and thought about what he got himself into. He could ignore the question and sit there. Did Raito really want to be his friend? Or was this a way to make him let his guard down? He muttered, "Twenty-four but I'll be twenty-five this year."

"I was right. You aren't that much older than me." Raito spoke happily. L wasn't too old for him. Now the only problem was to get L to like him back. He decided to ask, "Are you straight or homosexual?"

Blinking his eyes at the young man, L decided to ignore that question all together. He wasn't going to open himself up that much to his suspect. He might feel attraction for the other but he refused to fall prey to Kira and he was sure the teenager was Kira at one point and might be Kira again.

Raito sat there waiting for an answer but the detective was silent. Did I push him too far? Why isn't he answering? I guess that question is too personal for a man like L. But I want to know. I usually can tell with people but I can't tell with him. Realizing he wasn't going to get an answer, he teased, "So you are bi-sexual." He watched amused as L spilt out some cake. He smiled as those dark grayish blue eyes looked at him.

"I have never thought about my sexuality." L answered and groaned in annoyance. He realized he answered Raito's question when he didn't want to. Raito being around me is making me say things that usually I would never reveal.

Raito sat there happy that he got that information. It meant L could like him back. He stood up and span L's chair around. Before the detective could ask him questions, he started to massage L's shoulders. He mumbled, "I guess I always knew. Girls would flock to me and I didn't find any of them attractive. But once in a while I would see a guy and I would find him attractive." He didn't know why he was telling L his secrets, but he wanted to trust the other.

The detective stared at the computer screen and wondered about this piece of information. It wasn't concerning the Kira case. He didn't know what to say or do. He was never put in a position like this before. He never had someone attracted to him. He realized that some way Raito was attracted to him. The door opened and the task force came in.

Yagami stared at his son and their leader. He asked, "What is going on?" He didn't understand why his son was rubbing L's shoulders.

L glanced up to see fear written on Raito's face before it disappeared quickly. He decided to let the boy answer the question. After all, it was Raito who decided to rub his shoulders. He didn't ask for it.

"Well, L's shoulders were sore. I thought giving him a massage will help ease the tension." Raito lied. He didn't want his father to find out. He didn't know how his father would take it.

Yagami raised an eyebrow and watched his son sit down. He glanced to their leader and wondered about L. Is L trying to seduce my son to get him to confess? I hate to think it but L has shown he would do anything to win. I could ask Raito but I do not want to ask in front of L. Before he could speak, a loud pitch scream came. He turned to see Misa run into the room and sat on his son's lap. He did ponder what kind of relationship his son had with Misa. He showed no interest in her even though she was very attractive.

"Guess what my dear Raito. I got this great shoot. Isn't that wonderful?" Misa babbled. She turned to face Raito and asked, "Can we have a date?"

"I have to work on the case to clear our names." Raito replied, holding back his annoyance. He didn't want to ruin his cover, but he was really getting tired of Misa. Why didn't he pick someone else? But wasn't it Misa who found him?

"It would be good for Yagami-kun to have a date with his girlfriend." L spoke as he stood up.

Misa jumped up and clapped her hands as she said happily, "See even Ryuuzaki thinks we should have a date."

"Of course, I must attend the date." L responded.

Pouting, Misa mumbled, "Pervert." She ignored the detective and pulled on Raito's arm. He dragged both boys out of the main room and up the stairs.

Raito stopped suddenly and asked, "Can we go to the roof?"

L was ready to ask why they needed to go to the roof. Sadly, he was pulled along with Raito to the roof. He didn't like being in a place that had no cameras. He stared at the two. Could this be a way to kill me? No. Raito would die along with me if they try to push me off the roof. I should be safe.

"Why did my Raito bring me to the roof?" Misa asked as she grabbed a hold of Raito's arm.

Pushing Misa back, Raito sighed. He didn't know what to do. He muttered, "Misa, I have something to tell you."

"Oh my Raito wants to tell Misa that he loves her. Misa is so happy." Misa babbled.

"Misa."

"Yes."

"I'm gay. I don't love you." Raito quickly ranted. As those golden eyes looked at him confused, he spoke calmly, "I'm so sorry for using you. I didn't want my father to find out about me being homosexual. He wouldn't like it. I used you as a cover."

Misa stood there as her heart was breaking apart. She glanced to the detective to see him looking around, refusing to look at them. She looked back at the man she loved. She tilted her head and stared into those warm honey eyes, trying to read them. They were serious looking. She sighed sadly. She asked, "Do you have someone?" She wanted the other to be happy even if it didn't involve her.

Rubbing the back of his neck, Raito answered, "Sadly no." He waited for what Misa would do. He retorted, "I understand that you hate me. I'm sorry."

"Misa could never hate Raito. It should be Misa who should be sorry. I never asked if Raito wanted to be with Misa." Misa whispered as she lowered her head. She peeked through her bangs at the detective and Raito. She noticed Raito was looking at him. She lifted her head and mumbled, "Misa will help Raito anyway Misa can. Misa will be happy to be his cover for his father."

"I should never ask you do that."

"Do not worry. Misa does not mind. Misa will be Raito's cover, so his father won't be mad at him." Misa replied as she grabbed a hold of Raito's arm. She dragged the two guys down the stairs, toward her room.

After listening to Misa rant, Raito learned L was depressed. The older man was depressed that he wasn't Kira. He was anger and threw a punch. Of course, the chain pulled him with L. They were fighting. Now, sitting in the main room, he felt his lip hurt. He watched as the task force sat there, staring between them. Watari came in and handed him an ice pack. He watched as the elderly man tried to give one to L but said man denied it. He stared at L, seeing a bruise on the older man's face. He felt guilty for hitting the other. He spoke, "Ryuuzaki." From the corner of his eye, he saw everyone staring at them. He wouldn't want to be with me. He thinks I'm a mass-murderer. He would never return my feelings.

L turned his chair to face the teenager. He watched as Raito put the ice pack on his lower lip. He didn't say a word. He didn't want to speak. He just wanted to be alone. Too bad, he had to chain himself to his suspect. Still, he couldn't stop thinking about last night. He wanted more of the teenager and that was a scary thought. He turned back to face the computer. It didn't seem like Raito was going to say anything else. He mumbled loud enough for the team to hear, "Everyone go home. It is getting late." No one questioned him. They all left even Yagami left quickly and didn't even say a farewell to his son. He stood up and sighed, "I believe we can have an early night."

Raito didn't say a word. He stood up and followed the detective up the stairs to their room. He didn't have anything to say. What could he say? The other man didn't see him anything else except Kira. He entered the room and sighed. He heard his cell phone ringing loudly and he sighed. He walked over to the night stand, hanging up on the person on the other end.

"That was rude."

"It was only Luke."

"Your ex seems pretty close to you."

"He is the only one I can talk to."

"It seems maybe he still likes Yagami-kun."

Raito turned to face the detective and laughed. It was the first time someone made him laugh for real. He always faked his laughs, to fit in. He chuckled, "Doubt that. We only were together because we hated to be alone."

"So, he is a friend to Yagami-kun."

"I wouldn't really call him a friend either." Raito replied. He didn't know what to call Luke. He sat on the edge of the bed, staring at the floor. He continued to speak, "He is just someone I could talk to about my sexuality without worrying what he would say or do."

L jumped onto the bed and stared at the teenager. It must be hard for the other man to hide his true self all the time. Of course, it was Raito's choice to hide that fact about himself. Shaking his head, he muttered, "It seems Luke is a friend to Yagami-kun."

The teenager looked up and smiled sadly. Turning his head before L could see his eyes on him, he retorted, "That isn't true. Luke and I aren't friends."

"Yagami-kun and Luke talks about things no one else knows about. He is Yagami-kun's close friend." L replied, trying to hide his anger. What was he angry about Luke? He glanced to the teenager to see Raito's shoulders shake.

"We were never friends. We talk to each other because there is no one else. If we had others, we wouldn't speak to each other at all." Raito chuckled. He turned to face L.

L shook his head. He didn't understand any of it. He didn't understand Raito relationship with Luke. He didn't understand why he got so angry about them being together. He went to his side of the bed and sat there, holding his legs close to his chest. Some rest might clear his mind.

Turning around to face the detective, Raito ran his finger over one of L's bruise. When dark grayish blue eyes opened, he whispered, "See it from my point of view. I am not Kira but my only friend wishes to see me as Kira." He leaned forward and kisses L's face. Pulling back, he laid his head against L's chest, pushing the legs down.

"Yagami-kun." L growled in warning.

"I do not care what Watari says. If you didn't want me like that, you would have locked me away already." Raito whispered.

"Maybe I should lock Yagami-kun in another room." L replied as he glared down at Raito's head. The other man only moved closer to him.

"You like that. Watching me. I bet you get off on it." Raito muttered as he hide his smile from the older man. He wanted to get a rise out of L.

L pushed the teenager off of his person and glared. He growled, "Yagami-kun will not try anything. So help me I will lock him away."

Raito sat there, trying to figure if L was telling the truth. He didn't want to be locked in a cell again. The only thing that kept him sane was L's voice. He leaned forward and whispered, "If you want to lock me away, and then do it. I know you feel something. Even if it is attraction."

Before L could say anything, Watari walked in and said, "I thought this would not happen again." He usually minded his own business. It was L's life. But Raito was a teenager. He didn't think it would work between them. He didn't want to see the teenager hurt in the end.

Raito turned to look at the elderly man and spoke, "It was me, not him." He couldn't stand that Watari thought it was L. L wasn't forcing him to do anything he didn't want to. He didn't understand why it was so bad for him and L to be together. He turned to look at L and saw he was thinking. Before he knew it, he was locked to the bed post again. He growled, "Why do you keep locking me to the bed?"

L stood up and walked to the door. He needed to keep his mind focus. Raito was a teenager and didn't know what he was doing. It was too bad there was a gap in their ages. It might have worked between them. To his surprise, the turn off wasn't about the other man being a suspect. He muttered, "Yagami-kun should get some rest." He walked out the door with Watari following behind him. When they got to the main room, he spoke, "Watari should mind his own business. I do not need protecting."

"He is a teenager. L, you should be doing anything to him." Watari spoke. He never spoke against L before, but now seemed he had to.

L turned to face his caretaker and sighed, "I know his age."

"It could also be a trap to gain your trust and end your life."

"I believe I told Watari that this would be my last case."

"I never thought you would give up the L title."

"I never said I would give it up. This case will cost my life."

"Do not talk like that. You might…"

"I have this feeling that this case will be the end of me." L cut off his caretaker. He smiled bitterly. He sighed, "I have been a selfish man. I always was and always will. Please do not interfere again." He headed back to his room. This case will end him. Maybe he should let things happen. It might be a good idea to get close to Raito. If Raito were emotionally tied to him, maybe the other man would admit defeat in the end. That is the best way at the moment. I will make sure he is emotionally tied to me.