So…um, this is like, the last chapter…so…I guess I'll do what other authors do at the end. Thanks to all my readers through this whole thing and for the lovely reviews I got Your support is most appreciated! Don't be too sad when the chapter's over, though, because there will a short sequel. There's a lot I didn't put in this story than I intended, but the lemons I promised will definitely be in the sequel!

-Demetrifever123 :3

"Some things we don't talk about

Rather do without, and just hold a smile

Fallin' in and out of love,

Same then follow, together all the while

You can never say never while you're knowin' time and time again

Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go(x6)"

I didn't have time to think about it, there was no time if Caius ordered it. I grasped Demetri's hand and ran for all it was worth. I could hear the guard that leaped for us, but heard them drop to the ground motionless after they did. The shocked gasps that erupted throughout both sides caused him to look back with wide eyes. I heard Caius's angry yells at the guard, but mostly at Jane and Alec. They could go after us for a certain point, but there was a job that had to be done there. They would come after us later, giving us enough time to ditch this town.

Everything moved so fast. We left the clearing as quickly as we came, and the voices grew more and more distant. Though we were a good distance away, I didn't let go of Demetri's hand. We stopped at a cliff that had a large body of frozen water at the bottom. I had heard the name once before; La Push beach or something like that. The ice was in between freezing and melting and the water spilled over slightly.

I looked over at Demetri, who both blended in and stuck out in the snow. His skin was pale but his hair was dark and his eyes were a beautiful, prominent red. He looked at our joined hands and looked up at me.

"They'll kill us, you know. If they win," he said solemnly.

"I know." He looked surprised for a reason I wasn't sure of. "But they might lose." He cracked a smile at that.

"I guess our bets are on that." His gaze turned to the almost frozen water at the end of the long fall from the cliff and his smile faded yet again. He pulled his hand out of my grasp. "Some of the guard left." I furrowed my eyebrows. "When we left, so did some of the guard. Chelsea, Afton, Jane and Alec to be more specific." That was actually surprising. Chelsea would be reluctant to fight and Afton would leave with her, but Jane would never leave Aro's side unless Alec used his talent on her and dragged her away.

We sat for a while in silence. I could tell he was keeping tabs on who died and watched for who was winning. It was very quiet, if only for the swaying wind coming and going, and I jumped when he did. "Is it over? Who won?"

He just nodded and sighed through his nose, touching the Volturi pendant that hung around his neck. I smiled broadly; it was over. There wouldn't be any more slaughter or having to refer to one person as "master". I wouldn't even have to answer to anyone at all.

He traced the lines on the necklace before murmuring a slight "Thank you".

"For what? Getting us out of there?" He nodded.

"And for the eye-opening experience." He pulled the pendant over his head and held it over the edge of the cliff. He seemed reluctant to let it go. "Do you think I should forget all of this and start over? Or should I keep it as a reminder of what might not be a good idea to forget? Sometime in the distant future there will be another coven that will do the same thing the Volturi did. All of this will happen again, one that might not be as civilized." I thought about it for a moment and how true and possible it really was.

"Sometimes it's better to forget and do what you wanted to do than linger on what you regret." Huh, that rhymed. I think those were my actual first words of wisdom/Shakespeare. He looked into the distance off of the cliff and breathed in the fresh air. His grip loosened and he let it slip through his fingers and I watched as it slowly fell into the water.

"Thank you, Felix," he repeated. He looked like he had more he wanted to say, but nothing came out. His chest rose and he held his breath. "Maybe I'll see you again in the future."He let out his breath in one puff and his chest deflated. I swallowed trying to hold back the sadness that crashed over me after he said those words, and how much they seemed to hurt him.

Instead I settled for something short. "Yeah." It was so faint I wasn't even sure if I actually said it. His mouth slightly parted and he looked down, walking away. I counted every step he took away from me, and every step he took the more I regretted the words I said. I could have said something to make him come back, to tell him just so he knew I still loved him as much as I did before. As much as I wanted to say something, I didn't. And the next thing I knew he was gone. I realized that the moment we just shared was probably very well our last. I could have cried would I been able to. I wanted to run after him, but I wasn't the tracker, and I had no idea where he went. He was gone.

I screamed the words over and over again in my head. Gone. Gone. I ripped the necklace from my neck and gripped it tightly, making indents in the sides. The Volturi could have been my worst decision ever, but it could have been my best. I met him there. I befriended him there. I loved him there. But I also broke his heart along the way.

I could remember the first day we met as clear as day in my head.

The guard surrounded a corner in the throne room, trying to harness the newborn guard member. I could remember how frightening it was at first, and how scared the newcomer must be surrounded by threats in a strange place wondering what happened to him. He crouched down in the corner and hissed as someone made an attempt to walk towards him. Aro was watching from behind us with curiosity, seeing how we would calm him down. It would be hard to catch him with his newborn strength, but I was sure I could. Newborns were frantic and jumpy, so there was no point in trying to calm him down. His crimson eyes stood out of his pale complexion, and his features I found very attractive. From his vibrant eyes to his high cheekbones down to his angular jaw…Focus, Felix. His scent was favorable, much more than any I had smelt before. Damn it, focus.

He darted for a gap between me and another guard, and I restrained him from getting further. I had both of his wrists up and stood behind him so he couldn't fight back, and he fell to his knees, trying to shake me off while growling and hissing. He was almost as strong as I was and I found it almost a challenge to keep him under control. I held him as still as I could on the marble floor while Aro stood and walked toward him. When Aro extended a hand to him he jerked away. He reached again and touched his face, making him look up into his eyes while he violated his private thoughts that he thought would always be private. But nothing was a secret in the Volturi. Aro's mouth turned up in a delighted smile. "How lovely," he said gleefully.

I remembered how he couldn't leave the castle without killing any humans that were around him, making him almost useless to Aro for a few years. I think his newborn year was worse than mine. I remembered how spastic he was and how many times Jane had to use her talent on him. Later the screaming that came from him when Jane pained him annoyed Caius and just had Alec cut his senses.

Aro couldn't feed him until Heidi came back so he sent me to take him to his room, which would probably be guarded around the clock. My right hand had his left arm, and he didn't fight back. He just tried to get away. He pulled and threw himself against the wall yelling frantically. I felt badly for him. My newborn year was fresh in my head and I couldn't forget how traumatizing it was to wake up in a new body in a strange place and no one would give you answers on what happened to you. "Let go," he growled. "What did you do to me? Where am I?" He threw out questions I answered with one word each. It was, "No." "We changed you." "Volterra." When we were at his room I threw open the door and pushed him inside, though I really didn't want to, I had to remain feared like I was supposed to. "You'll be staying here. Your questions will be answered quite soon." Heidi would be back very soon.

Every sweet moment I had spent with him came back after the ones I'd rather forget.

The rain in the city poured down on the super-sized, black umbrella I held over myself. The streets and sidewalk flooded with water and it thundered above. Stupid rainy cities…I couldn't believe Aro had sent us here. You couldn't do anything because you always had to hold something over your head. Suddenly I saw a swift flash of white and my umbrella was gone. I saw Demetri run off with it into the distance shouting, "Run, sucker, run!" He was laughing hysterically and I chased him down, failing miserably and getting drenched going so. Eventually he gave it back because I couldn't catch him and as he put it once, "Cats don't like to get wet." I stared into his eyes only a few inches away from his face. A crazy thought crossed my mind at that moment, but I couldn't do it. At that moment with his hair getting wet in the rain as he looked at me smiling, I wanted to kiss him.

I smiled at the memory, and then frowned and gripped my hair in frustration.

It had been a few weeks after I told him I loved him. I wasn't sure if he was ready, but I wanted to find out. I placed my hands on his hips and drew him closer to me. He got the idea and kissed me deeply while wrapping his arms around my torso. He was so damn beautiful that I could feel an arousal already coming into place, and I leaned him back onto my bed. His hands massaged the small of my back, and I thought that he might be ready, too. I lay on top of him completely and began to unbutton his shirt. Once I was done I discarded it on the floor and placed kisses down his neck. He tilted his head to the side allowing me better access. He moaned and I kissed him on the lips again. Our tongues swirled and he put light pressure on my chest, breaking apart from the kiss. I opened my eyes to see him looking at me in a concerned way. "You're trembling," he stated. I hadn't realized it. I looked and apparently I was, but I had no idea why.

"I am," I said softly and went to kiss him again. It didn't last long and he pulled back and lowered my head so my forehead was on his sternum. I closed my eyes and breathed in his scent as his chest rose and fell while his fingers kneaded through my hair as he massaged my scalp until I was still. Nothing else happened that night.

That time was the last time I kissed him that I didn't feel guilty the whole time.

I continued to look at the Volturi pendant as the memories flooded in. I had met Demetri there and that was enough reason to keep it, but I hurt him beyond belief and that was enough to toss it. I gritted my teeth and chucked it down into the water. The sooner I forgot, to sooner Demetri would. I looked to where I had last seen him and I came to a conclusion that made me ball up my fists and look down. My chest was tighter than it had been when I admitted to cheating on him. I held in the sobs that someone close by might hear. I knew what I would do, though I might regret it. If it made him happy, then I would try to bear with it.

I decided the best thing to do was let him go.

I looked down at the water again and thought about how willingly some vampires could commit suicide when they lost their mates.

"I will be your guardian when all is crumbling

Steady your hands"

It sounded so appealing.

"You can never say never while you're knowin' time and time again

Younger now than we were before"

But it's stupid, Felix. No one should kill themselves no matter what the reason.

"We're falling apart, and crawling together again and again

We're crawling apart, and we're falling together

Pulling together to share love again"

Without really thinking about it I jumped off of the cliff, which was stupid because the fall wouldn't even hurt me. The cold air felt good on my skin, and my mind raced with my two options. Let him go.

Find him. Stop him. You love him so find him.

Let him go. Let him be happy.

Let him go!

Kill yourself.

You can't live without him. Kill yourself.

I let my body go limp as I smacked against the freezing water. Death…I won't be able to find him…I'll have to let go…or kill myself. But I couldn't let go of Demetri. One of the options rang in my head. Kill yourself…Never.

One thing I had learned in my lifetime though was to never say never.

"Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go-o(x2)

Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go-o-o(x3)"

The Fray