Mello tightly gripped my throat, digging his nails into my flesh. I tried my best to continue breathing but, with his constricting hold on my neck and his mind numbing thrusts, something had to give. "Meh-Mello, p-please, god please stop!" I screamed. Of course I knew this wouldn't convince him to stop, it never did. Still, I couldn't stop the pleas from slipping through my teeth. "Meell!" I shrieked as he bucked harshly into my nerves. "S-stop." I whimpered.

Mello was kind enough to remove his grip around my neck. He moved down so his nose rubbed against my skin before bitting into the nape of my neck. I shrieked in response. I moved my hands to his shoulders and tried to push him off of me, another feeble attempt, I know. My fingers scratched at his shoulders as I felt some blood run down my neck. Finally he pulled up with that rusty color smeared over his lips, and with a smirk he looked to the left and spit some out. "Gross." he muttered.

"Baby," I started unsure of how'd he react. "C-can't you s-slow- Agh!" Mello thrust his hips again, so hard I hit my head against the headboard. I shouldn't have asked him like that, especially while he's under. Sex was painful and horrible while he was like this, it had to be for him to enjoy himself. I never wanted to do it with him while he was... well, maybe I'm exaggerating. I mean could it really be construed as rape if you like it? If in the midst you give in and just take? And then by the time it's over you've enjoyed it enough to cum too? I dunno. All I'm really sure of at this point is that I'm really, even after everything, still in love with Mello.

My arms fell to my sides. I'd finally hit that point of giving up, especially after that thought, there really was no reasoning with him. It's just sometimes a glimmer of hope would shine through and try to get through to the real Mello. My lips parted and I began to scream and moan at the mixes I felt. "Hmm." he groaned. Mello kissed my jaw then bit it. He moved his hand to my chin, his scratches looked worse, he must've been picking again. I looked up into his dark hazy eyes, he only kept my gaze for a moment before closing his eyes tightly. He groaned loudly and moving against my nerves. Mello ran his hands into my hair pulling as he began to thrust in and out insanely.

"Unh! Mello!" I began to cry "Oh my god! You're making me cum!" I shrieked. Mello slapped me upside the head as the wave tore through my veins, making me tighten even more so around him. I felt like I was on fire and I couldn't breathe but I felt amazing even with the pain that came.

With the calmest of moans I felt him spill inside of me. He laid next to me for just a short minute before getting up and walking out of room. I guess that's all he wanted for tonight. It was highly unlikely that he would sleep tonight, so I moved closer to the middle of the bed. I laid my aching head into the pillows and waited for sleeps warm embrace. Sleep was so close to overtaking me when I felt something getting ripped out from underneath me. "You were on my pants." Mello answered my look. He wiped at his nose then buckled up his belt.

"You're leaving?"

"I need t-to get s'more." he muttered moving to get his boots. Mello sat on a chair and began to pull them on.

I moved to the arm of the chair and sat on it. Placing my arms around his shoulders, I started with "No, stay home an-and," I gulped down the lump in my throat. "And make love to me again."

Mello stood up, making me fall to the ground. "N-no. We'll do it again later." he said, walking out of the room.

I scrambled after him. "Mello, when was the last time you ate something?" he shrugged his shoulders. "Then maybe you shouldn't... do it for a couple days, ya' know? So you can eat something and sleep for awhile."

Mello paused as he put on his jacket and looked over his shoulder at me. "Maybe."

Is he really listening to me? "Y-yeah, uh, h-how 'bout you just come back to bed with me? We can have sex again." I repeated the offer. I grabbed his hand tightly with mine. "Come back to me." I kissed him gently. "C'mon babe, lets go back to bed. We'll go until you can't move anymore. Please?" I begged.

"Matt," he played with my hair with the tips of his fingers. "Do you really know what your promising?" I bit my lip and nodded "Can you even keep a promise like that?" Mello gripped my hair roughly, pulling me close to his body. He bit down in the same place as he had before making it bleed again.

"Ah-uh!" my knees began to knock together. He's right. Can I keep up? No, but I- I'll do anything to... to get him to stop this... even for a little while. So I'll have to keep his attention. "Unh! Harder!" I begged. The blood began to seep again, running down my chest. I didn't care, as long as Mello was staying here with me. "Mgh, Mello," I moaned. "I'll do whatever you want!... Wh-at do you want?" I saw Mello spit off to the side again before returning to me. His hands grabbed my hips, they were clammy but felt good to me. Mello moved up so he was face to face with me. He ran his hands up my back gently then scratched his nails down to the small of my back. "Agh Mello!"

He pulled away to look me in the eyes. "On your knees." I nodded and moved down his body. I was scared but, I knew it'd be worse if he went. There were so many more ways he can end up if he goes out then I can if I just have sex with him again. My hands slightly trembled as I reached for his zipper. I pulled the slider down and reached inside, he was semi-hard already. This is gonna hurt. My lips parted so my tongue could meet him. "I don't have all night." he growled.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled. This time I rushed to fit him inside my mouth. Mello groaned loudly before bucking roughly and deeply inside, making me gag. Tears began to form at the corners of my eyes and they stung horribly. Mello grabbed the back of my head to push his way deeper.

This went on for what seemed like hours. Once he was fully hard again Mello stopped, to my relief. "Get your ass back in bed." he snapped. I nodded and stood up. My throat was raw, burning all the way down into my quivering stomach. I wiped the saliva from my chin with the back of my hand before making my way back. His foot steps were close behind me, making me nervous. My whole body was beyond aching from the first round and now we were going for two. It'd take me awhile to recover from this, but I loved Mello more then enough to bare it. To keep him safe. I reminded myself, that's what I was going to get out of this. I was about to lay on the bed but he pulled me back to him by my hair. I cried out, but he silenced me with a bruising kiss. He pushed me onto the bed and his teeth knocked against mine then bit down on my lip. I whimpered against his lips. My eyes shut tightly and I moved my arms up his back to slip off his leather jacket.

I was glad I'd stayed naked (he got really mad at me if he had to take my clothes off) when Mello bucked against me, his cock grinding against mine. This was his way of telling me was gonna be entering soon, if I was ready or not. "Mello!" I leaned my head deeply into the bed and arched my back so our stomachs touched. My legs wrapped around his ass, making him grab my ribs with his nails, "Uh!" I cried as he clawed down.

He bit into my right ear, letting his canines dig into the cartilage. The sensations set a wave of fire to the back my right eye and I shrieked again. "Get on your hands and knees." he demanded in a harsh whisper. I struggled to flip around, I was so scared. Once I did make it, Mello grabbed my hips, pulling me onto him. The pain made me see white for several minutes as he had started at a painful pace. He fisted my hair then pushed me into the bed so that I couldn't breathe again. "Fuck!" he groaned and moved against me. His hand fell from my hair. I struggled to hold myself up with my hands, it seemed almost impossible, my elbows were ready to buckle at any second.

All I could do was whimper when he started to grab my inner thigh. Mello began to rub it, almost tenderly before scratching up to my hip. I moaned at the burning and finally gave up on holding myself up and moved both hands down to rub at my stinging erection. "Auh," I moaned. Everything was so painful, it actually felt good... actually it felt blissful. "Mello!"

"Stupid bitch." he grabbed the back of my neck, threateningly. I moaned which seemed to encourage him because he moved against me again. His fingers pinched my nipples then he moved them up to my hair again. My lips were parted so that there was a constant flow of my noises and so that I could salivate. My mind was so gone I couldn't even try to swallow anything. Mello was really going hard now, it was blinding and I knew he was starting to get ready to do something. It was always at this point when we had sex in this position, when I was barely conscious enough to feel and somewhat see what was happening, he'd do something. It was always different, and always painful... but always made me cum. I've really become quite a masochist in such a short amount of time.

I kinda smiled at the thought of the last time when he slammed my head into the headboard (at least that's what I remember happening) and the time before that when he actually did choke me until I passed out. Once I did ask him why he did it, as far as I could understand it made me tighten more around him so he could climax with me... it was kind of sweet. Mello groaned loudly, my stomach began to do back flips as my hips trembled and I knew... we both knew it was coming. He moved away from me while his hands gripped my hips to guide them back harshly. Mello scratched his nails all over my body making me see white "Awh, Mello!" I shrieked closing my eyes tightly. His fist met the back of my skull hitting it so hard lights flashed in front of my eyes and the last thing I felt was that hot fluid explode onto my hands.

A/N: I'm in a good mood after Anime Expo ending and getting oh-so many good deals so I decided to finally put this story up!... Is it weird that my good mood is expressed through a sad story about drugs? xD Anyway, I think this will only be one or two more chapters. Review thank you please!

Disclaimer: I don't own Death Note, The Used or Lady Gaga.