Earless? – A Loveless Fanfic by namichan89

Disclaimer: I do not own Loveless, it's by Yun Kouga. Of course. Neither do I own any of the song titles I used as chapter titles.

This is my first fanfic, so please rate & review if you liked it (or not?). Your opinion on my english is also appreciated, cause I'm no native speaker.

Chapter 1: The sad man's tongue

Ritsuka sat in his maths class, staring outside the window, unable to concentrate on the lesson. The weather was cloudy, only a few shafts of sunlight came through. This always made him some kind of thoughtful and depressed and his thoughts digressed from school. He looked forward to 4 pm, when he finally could leave school and meet Soubi. The boy of the blonde man made Ritsuka smile a little. Not that anyone would notice it, for his chin was laying in his hand. Soubi didn't call or text him today, but Ritsuka was pretty sure he would wait for him outside the school yard. „Aoyagi-Kun!" Shinonome-Sensei looked at him. „Will you please answer the question I just asked you?" Ritsuka was puzzled. „I'm… sorry… I didn't… get it…" He blushed, looking to the floor. „You should really pay more attention to the lesson or I think I have to contact your parents. Seriously." She answered. Ritsuka swallowed heavily. „I'm sorry, Sensei. It won't be happening anytime soon, I promise." With a last, strict look from his teacher, the lesson continued.

Ritsuka felt releaved as the bell finally ended this horrible day. He packed his bags and left the room with Yuiko, who was in a hurry cause her parents were waiting for her at home. Ritsuka didn't really listen to what she said about her plans for todays afternoon, but it was okay. He would spend the afternoon with Soubi anyways.

Leaving the schoolyard, he realized that Soubi stood not beside the gate where he always waited for Ritsuka. Checking the cell phone Soubi gave to him, he found a SMS instead. „Sorry Ritsuka, I have to buy some painting stuff today. Going to town with Kio. Hope I'll see you tomorrow. I love you – Soubi" it read. Ritsuka immediately pushed the answer-button and typed: „okay then " He had almost sent it, but then decided to delete the sad smiley. Soubi would just get the wrong idea about this. He shouldn't have a reason to tease Ritsuka by imputing him to miss Soubi.

Disappointed Ritsuka went home. He wouldn't have time to meet Soubi tomorrow, because tomorrow was Wednesday. Therefore time for his weekly meeting with his therapist. His mother was not waiting for him, she was nowhere to be seen. He didn't mind at all and entered his room. Ritsuka couldn't help feeling a little bit lonely, but well. He sighed and took out his homework. It was done way too fast, so he found himself laying on the bed one hour later with no clue what to do now. As Ritsuka looked to his bedside table, he saw that the red light was not blinking on his cell phone. What a bad day.

Finally the dark-haired boy decided to get himself a good book and read for the rest of the afternoon. When it was 8 pm and he hadn't heard anything neither from Soubi nor his mother, he went to the bathroom, changing into his pyjamas. „A good night's sleep will help, I have been so tired over the last few days…" he thought to himself, burying his face into the pillows.

Even though his eyes were tired and he felt very sleepy, he couldn't really get his mind to rest. Ritsuka found his thoughs circling around the lonely afternoon and the emptyness filling his chest. He wondered what was going on. He always felt comfortable when he was alone. He sighed again and tried to calm down. But still, sleep wouldn't come over him.

Suddenly, he heard a soft knock on his window. Rubbing his eyes, thinking of just dreaming or hearing an illusion, he turned around and tried to get to this halfway-asleep state again. But then there was the knocking, again. Ritsuka rose from his bed, staring towards the window. He saw a tall shadow standing there. „This could only be Soubi", he thought in sudden joy, jumping up and opening the window. „Hi there, little one" Soubi said. – „Why did you come that late, Soubi?" Ritsuka answered with a question. „Well", Sobi smiled, „I thought you might be happy to see me. How was your afternoon?" – „Boring as hell…" Ritsuka couldn't surpress a smile appearing on his face. „But come in first."

Ritsuka lay back in his bed. Soubi was sitting on the edge, looking at him through the twilight. „Soubi?" Ritsuka started, not sure how to continue or to put his plea into words. „Uhm… will you…" – Soubi interrupted him by asking back: „You haven't been sleeping very good latley, right?" – „Yeah, how did you…" – „You sound very tired. I think I should leave now, so you can rest." – „NO! No, Soubi, please… just stay a little longer, okay?" – „Okay then", Soubi said, silently smiling. „Can I do anything for you?" he asked, petting the boy between his cat ears. Ritsuka shivered at this touch. He knew Soubi would notice that as well. „Just… stay here with me." Ritsuka said to the older one, staring to the floor. Soubi lay down next to him, hugging him from behind. Ritsuka suddenly felt the tension in his chest leaving, enjoying the touch and the warmth of Soubi's body on his back. After several minutes passing by he got sleepy. Soubi turned him around, leaving a light kiss on his lips. „Good night and sleep well, Ritsuka", he said gently, rising from the bed. But something inside the younger one just didn't want to let Soubi go like that. Ritsuka quickly wrapped his arms around Soubi's neck. „Wait…" he whispered. „I… uhm… Soubi… would you…" But Soubi somehow got what Ritsuka found no words for. He bent over the boy's face to kiss him again. But this time it was different. Ritsuka felt Soubi's warm, soft lips, teasing him slowly and he didn't want to stop it. He replied the kiss and let Soubi nibble at his bottom lip. This felt so wonderful… and passionate. Without knowing what was going on, his heart was beating at a fast pace suddenly, and as he realised what happened, he ended the kiss by pushing Soubi back roughly, shocked by his own reaction. The man just left him with a hushed „I love you, Ritsuka" and disappeared through the window.