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My first rated M fan fic. Don't be a Flame :). Anyways…I hope you enjoy it. P.S. not a fluffy first chapter

SONNY POV

"Chad I need to talk to you" I said crossing my arms on my chest

"What Monroe?"

"I want to see other people" I asked welling up with tears

"What?" he asked astonished

"I'm breaking up with you" tears started streaming down my eyes from the hurt in his face

"What did I do…?"

"I'm tired of it being all about CDC or Mackenzie Falls"

"I can change Sonny… I can, I will" he said taking my hand in his. His voice becoming shaky

"Bye… Cooper"

I jerked my hand out of his softly and said goodbye. I walked out of his dressing room.

"This isn't through Sonny…you don't mean it" I heard him yell from his room

I finally made it back to my dressing room to see him sitting there

"Did you do it?" he asked getting up

"Yes… I did" I grumbled

"What was that" he asked grasping my face in his head

"Yes" I blurted out tears still in my eyes

He tilted his head down and tried to give me a kiss on the lips. I turned my head and caught my cheek. He was mad then. He grabbed my face tighter and forced his lips to mine. I tried to push away but he was stronger. His hands went up under my shirt unclasping my bra.

"James …Stop"

My shirt was already off. His hands in trying to take off my pants

"Come on Sonny… you know I'm better than Chad Dylan Cooper… you love me right?" he spat

"I DON'T Love you…I don't even like you…Get the Fuck off!"

"I want you Sonny… so…so… so. Bad"

"I don't want you…let me go!" I struggled against his grip

I gasped when I felt his hand touch my mound. I punched him in the chest. It didn't shake him. He snaked his finger inside me. He was pressing lightly down on my hymen. I was afraid. I knew where this was going

"God…Sonny…You're so fucking tight and wet. It's all for me" Damn Hormones. My own body was deceiving me

"James…NO…"

I pushed him with all my might he stumbled back. He grabbed both my hands in his one hand putting them above my head. He was undoing his pants. Pushing them down, revealing himself to me. He pushed me on the couch. While he was busy putting the condom on I tried to run as fast as I could. He caught me by my wrist. He pulled me back to the couch placing my hands above my head again. I knew what was coming next. He pushed into me breaking my barrier along the way. I yelled out in pain, tears falling from my eyes even harder. I was scratching his back trying to get him to stop. He never did.

"Fuck, Sonny…so tight" he hissed thrusting harder as I cried

I laid there lifeless. Limp. No use in fighting anymore. He was heavy and stronger. He tensed releasing inside the condom. He got off me throwing the condom in the garbage and putting on his clothes. I was curled up in a ball on the couch. Bleeding…My virginity was taken be a self absorbed douche bag.

"Sonny…that was…great" he kissed me and walked out

I felt dirty. Used. Ugly. I put my clothes on and drove home sobbing. I got home and took a shower. Scrubbing every part of me so much it turned red. I still felt dirty

"Sonny…are you alright?" my mom asked between the door

"Yea mom I'm fine" I lied "why?" I asked chocking on my words

"You've been in the shower for almost an hour"

"I'm almost done…" I managed to get out between my silent sobs

"Ok"

I turned off the shower and stepped out looking into the mirror. I was red. Like burning red. I felt nasty. I put my pajamas on and walked to my room, I heard my cell phone ring.

"Hello"

"Tell anyone and you're dead"

"Who is this?" I already knew who it was I just felt the need to ask

"It's our little secret"

I started sobbing again. It was uncontrollable. I laid in bed crying. I cried myself to sleep. My world was ending

END FLASH BACK

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This is my first M rated fan fic. I think I did well. Leave a review of what you thought. Chapter 2 is on its way.