The Reason I love him – Ecstasy Ver.-: Saya Version!
Author's Note: Contains hints of spoilers, if you never went through the game, you probably won't understand it.
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Original Game: Little Busters Ecstasy
Original Concept: Key
Written by: wrathie
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I am a spy, a very good spy.
The best there is, an internationally trained spy with skills and talent.
So, why do I have to have a partner in him?
I don't know…
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Anyway, let's start this game, GAME START
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I don't love him at all, I never told him that at all!
It is not like I wanted to be with him or anything!
It was, that it was an accident!
I couldn't believe it when I failed thrice, he fought me off thrice!
He fell of a building and never died!
He was not choked to death by that trap that I set!
HE FOUGHT OFF LIGHTNING.
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He couldn't die. He wouldn't die.
Somehow or another, he survived everything.
So he must be, the hero of this story.
After all, each story has a hero and a heroine.
And the heroine is me, surely it is me.
After all, this is a game that I play.
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A game, where I infiltrate the labyrinth in search of the secret treasure.
This is the game that I am playing.
The game has already started, it may be restarted more than once.
I certainly hope not, but it is beyond my choice now…
I do not belong here, this is a world that I do not exist in…
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So why, why is it that I want to stay here?
Why are the people so kind to me?
Why is the… final boss… so gentle with me?
Why is it that, I feel that I can find my youth here?
Why is it that… I just, want to stay here.. forever, with my first love?
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Even if I had failed in my mission, even if I can't win the final boss.
Even if he said he would kill me.
Even if he said that it would better off if I died.
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This world is harsh, it is unforgiving, I do not belong here.
I am running away from the truth… but I do not care.
He is my first love.
I want to know, what it is like to love someone.
What it feels like, to say that I like him.
What it feels like… to… to say that.. I love him.
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That's enough! ENOUGH I SAY!
ENOUGH WITH THIS TORTURE!
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So, even if I am defeated.
Even if I am in the hands of the enemy, even if it means my certain death…
I do not want to leave this world.
Riki, my Riki, he said he liked me.
He said that he wanted to be with me.
He said that he wanted to stay with me…
He said, that he wanted to go on a date with me.
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He, Riki, who saw who what I am.
Not the awe-inspiring Tokido Saya.
But the klutz, the airhead… the… embarrassing true self.
Yes, I make mistakes..
So laugh at me won't you?
Why don't you say that I'm useless?
That I'm not a spy, that I screwed up by telling you all of this?
Go on, laugh!
Ah-ha-ha-ha!
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I love him, it's the truth…
I admit it now, only under duress you hear me?
It's not like I would ever tell him…
It's not like I would ever accept me.
Why should I accept me?
I should never have let him joined me…
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That way I wouldn't screw up in front of him…
That way I wouldn't ever let him see how clumsy I am…
I… I am the idol of many,
I have many friends.
Who need someone like him…
He's not my friend…
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So… So… he's my friend…
So… so what if I've been stalking him?
Following him around… watching him smile and laugh.. to those girls! To those girls!
It's not like I'm jealous or anything!
He's not in danger! Never will be… never…
After all, he's the irreplaceable one in this world.
Unlike me, who have to go…
Who have to leave this world.
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How I wish, I can stay here…
But perhaps, we have met before…
A long, long time ago…
A time where the world didn't hurt
A time where I was happy, where I was at peace…
Where the world I lived in was stable, where there were no wars.
Where there were no disasters, where everyday… I'm just a normal high school girl.
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Perhaps, Riki-kun likes normal, high school girls.
After all, I'm a spy, I'm not some normal high school girl.
I don't go out to play, I don't go out on dates…
I don't get to enjoy my free time.
I'm a spy, I should be professional… not wasting my time out in that way…
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Even if I liked it… even if I am spending time with him…
Even if he… likes it…
Even if he was the one who brought me out…
It's not.. like..
Oh stop… please… I can't stand it no longer…
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Riki-kun, I really… really like you.
Even if you forgot, even if you may have forgotten..
I really like you…
That's why… I… It's not like.. I..
I was jealous or anything…
I was observing all of you! That's right, observing!
I just want to see if you are safe, you irresponsible and complacent idiot!
It's not like… I was jealous of all of you… able to play like this…
Or of you, Riki-kun… of that girl, those girls all eyeing and surrounding you.
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No, I am not… jealous…
Riki-kun… Riki-kun!
D-don't… say you don't know me.
Don't ever say that..
Don't leave me…
I remember, everything… everything that we went through…
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The many things that we did,
The things that we experienced…
The way you saved me.
The way I praised you…
The way you did the things I asked you too.
So why… why can't you remember?
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I must stop this, I mustn't let this get in my way.
I will, find the treasure
I will find what is at the end of the labyrinth…
The secret, the one that I am seeking for.
Even if it is harsh, even if… I may not return.
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But Riki, he promised to wait for me.
He remembered what he felt about me.
Of course, that is to be expected, he was the one who confessed to me.
He was the one who made me so confused.
He was the one who made everything go wrong..
He was the one… who solved… everything.
Not me… I… I'm useless..
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That's right! Laugh at me!
Laugh at how a professional trained person like me lost to him!
A common guy!
Even if he is the hero, even if he is the one that I like, that I love.
It's not fair…
It's not fair that he should be the one to see all of my mistakes.
When I'm trying so hard, so hard to impress him.
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When, I'm trying so hard, so hard to actually be a real, real spy.
Just so I can impress him?
It was… so silly..
He liked me, fell in love with me… somehow, without me noticing it.
I'm a true spy aren't I?
Spies are supposed to have flings… and I do seem to have a fling.
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So that's right, I love him.
He is my first love, I didn't have time to love before.
Travelling everywhere, never having a stable life.
Moving, leaving, crying, being alone was usual.
I was never a usual, typical girl…
I never went to school, but…
I was still a growing young girl.
And I am interested in love, in all…the rapid hormonal changes in myself.
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I am admitting this under duress!
Anyone would feel the same way…
So… I wasn't prepared when he said he loved me.
Why, why does he love me? Why does he say it so confidently…
Why does he remember our love, even if he shouldn't… shouldn't have remembered…
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D-don't get me wrong! I-I'm not happy he remembered…
But… that's why I love him.
As he remembered…
In the end, he remembered everything about me.
Even if I was the only one who remembered.
Somehow, in the end, when it most mattered. He remembered.
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Even if it meant it was too late.
Even if it meant, there was no hope left.
Even if it meant, I have to leave him and go.
Even if it meant, to… return to the cruel and harsh world that I hate.
I do not want to leave. But the choice, is out of my hands.
So, forgive me, Riki-kun.
But, I know you'll remember me.
Maybe, we already met… a long, long time ago.
Not here, but then.
Not now, but in the future.
We will, see each other again.
If you remember, keep your promise, Riki-kun.
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A date, a real date… just the two of us…
Together…
Author's Note: ARGH, THE HARDEST SO FAR. Hard to get details when it is so lacking.
I died 27 times before i finished her route...