A/N: Sucks there aren't as many NoCo stories as there should be… They are the two best characters in the show (I have a complete love for geeks with brains lol)… as well as polar opposites… Noah cold self important jerk… Cody caring friendly clutz… Plus the couple might as well be cannon… They kissed, cuddled (Twice) and they spend a lot of time together… I dunno if it's just me but come on… After all it's amazing that it happened with my two fav characters XD… Nothing is sexier than two nerds falling for each other lol… But any way a summary to begin the story so you can decide if you want to read lol.

Summary: Noah is having a hard time suppressing his feelings for cody… some one who he actually enjoys spending time with… but because no one truly knows he's gay at home he tries to hide it because his parents would disown him if they ever found out… dealing with Izzy's constant Nagging, Cody's adorable obsession with fixing the friendship and one other camper's advances he is thrown into the midst of confusion... a confusion that logic won't be able to help him with.

**Don't read if you don't like Boy love… seriously**

(Do not own Any of the total drama Island/action/world tour characters.)

Rated T for teen

Chapter one: Every story

"Every story in existence has three things, A beginning a middle and an end. Mine is no different, I write this in hopes of seeing where my End has brought me. Or is it the end I am not sure, Izzy, has told me that the end is what I make it. But what does she know, she isn't all there if you understand my meaning. Yet strangely enough she does have wisdom beyond her years."

"Hey Noah whatcha doing?" Sighing he turns to her in annoyance.

Rolling, his dark fathomless eyes he sighs answering her question in his usual monotone voice. "What does it look like I'm doing? I'm typing on my laptop."

A hand slams the laptop closed just as he is attacked by a wave of curly orange. "Well what'cha writing about is it about your kiss?"

With that Noah turned a bright red scarlet but hid it with a mask of indifference. "No It is not… It is a memoir I hope to publish about my annoyance with this whole show. As well describes how reality shows such as this have lead to the intellectual downfall of the world as a whole." Hoping that would show the over rambunctious girl that there was nothing more to the conversation that needed to be said.

"Oh… must be rough being kicked off third." Leaning back in the pool chair he sighed glaring as Izzy gazed at him with eyes of comprehension. Believing she would drop the subject, he brought out his laptop and continued to type about his experience. He and Izzy became closer once she arrived at the resort, before he thought she was just crazy, after speaking to her he realized something, she was the exact opposite. Though the pair was worlds apart they had something that no one else could understand. They were both geniuses in their own sense. While Noah's intelligence caused him to be cold to all those around him, Izzy's seemed to have driven her mad. Many would believe he was insane for saying something like that, but that's because it took a genius to see her's. Noah found it baffling how no one could see between the lines of her insanity, the moments where what she said made perfect sense. "Thanks for the complement… but why isn't Cody in it? You do miss him don't you?" Though he wished to deny it with every fiber of his being, this was one of those times.

"Do you mind?" Slamming his laptop down again he glared at her wild eyes. "Izzy why do you keep bringing Cody up, We barely interacted on the island and that kiss was a fluke." Shifting himself to the sitting position he glared directly into her green eyes, hoping to get the point across. Though it was a lie that they barely interacted, he did not wish he prying into his business any deeper. After all he didn't know if he liked Cody the way she often implied, but for some he did miss him a lot. He was one of the few people on the show he could hold a conversation with. With the constant discussions they had on video games, a topic they both held a passion for, how could one not wish to talk to him. And it didn't just end there his knowledge of current technology, the ability to comprehend his dry humor. And he even had some witty retorts of his own. Some one who could make him smile, a legitimate smile, not one of his usual smirks. Who would not miss a friend like that? But the feeling that lingered seemed a little too powerful to be just the missing of a friend. What there was left to admit to himself, he did not wish to travel down that path. Because though he knew for a long time he had no interest in the fairer sex, acting upon it by having a male crush was not well advised with his upbringing.

"O come on Noah… You know you can trust me…" Noah fell back as Izzy leaned in smiling menacingly down at him. "I won't tell."

Noah cleared his throat from the uncomfortable feeling of having Izzy so close to his face, it was strange he could predict everyone's reactions and movements, all but Izzy's. "Izzy there is Nothing to tell."

Izzy moved away looking down at him with disappointed eyes. "O pooh…" He picked himself back up and watched her as she began to walk away using it as the perfect opportunity to get back to his typing. "I was hoping we could get some guy on guy action going on." Rolling his eyes at her statement he continued to type ignoring her, after all answering only fueled her. "O speaking of which did you watch the show?"

"I don't watch that dribble…" Noah groaned wanting her to just leave him to his words.

"O really… to bad you didn't cause if you did you'd know…" Noah grunted uninterested in anything she had to say, continuing to type his memoir. "Cody got kicked off…" Noah's typing stopped abruptly, he was coming here? Already! He was hoping he could have some time to fully understand his feelings before confronting the adorable brown haired, glistening blue eyed…um… No he means the boy in which his most embarrassing moment happened. That alone was reason enough for him to not wish to see him. But adding on the conflicting feelings that lay with in his stomach at the sound of his name, was more than enough of a reason to avoid the boy all together. "I knew it…" Noah turned back his entire face burning. Giving her his coldest look of irritation, he watched her giggle and run off. "I'll tell him you're happy he's here…" With that single statement brought Noah to un-characteristically, leap out of his chair to grasp Izzy around her dainty little wrist. "Why Hello Noah." She giggled playfully.

Clenching his teeth he held back his embarrassment. "Izzy can you please stop tormenting me and implying that I have feelings for him? I have no feelings for him I just do not wish you opening up fresh wounds that Cody may have about what happened on the island." Smirking smugly to himself he knew he could talk his way out of this, this would get anyone to drop the subject for sure. He released her and looked her in the eyes preparing for her to agree to drop the subject.

"Is that why you got yourself voted off? Cause you were being extra obnoxious for no reason..." Noah's eyes widened in shock as he turned to Izzy, did she just imply that he purposefully forfeited? "It's ok the look on your face is enough." Noah blushed a bright scarlet and looked away from her in irritation.

"I didn't And I don't know what to say to convince your stubborn mind otherwise. So I suggest you leave me alone. And do not mention to me to Cody." He didn't get an answer from her, only a playful giggle as she ran away. Noah clenched his fists silently begging that Izzy would not tell Cody her theory about his feelings. Noah groaned and sat himself back into his chair sneering. Why must she insist on irritating him with nonsense? He would never give up, he wanted to prove that he could win the game using only his video game skills and he needed the money. After all being a surprise as well as the youngest of nine, didn't really leave enough money for his parents to save up a college fund. If he wanted to go to college he needed to save up the money himself.

"But she like everyone else enjoyed participating in this show. And this show was just mindless dribble in which many watch for mind numbing entertainment. It required no intellectual skill to move through the challenges, all it required was mindless followers willing to do stupid stunts…"

At least that is what he intended when he first joined the show. But now hearing it aloud made perfect sense. He subconsciously wanted to be voted off. Because after that utterly embarrassing moment with Cody, he couldn't see him, not because of the embarrassment, but that one moment brought up a feeling with in him he never felt before. A comfort and closeness he never felt in his life. And the boy's intelligent was not one to scoff. Though he seemed to be in his own world reading during the dodge ball game, the whole time he was watching Cody from the corner of his eyes as he played. And his ability to integrate strategy in sports was amazing. He used static electricity to turn the dodge ball into a homing ball, pure genius if he did say so himself. The boy wasn't only cute and huggable, he also had intelligence and Noah couldn't help but feel those metaphorical butterflies fluttering in his stomach as he thought about him. And all he wished was to learn more about him and be around him.

"Yes I was voted off as the first in the "Screaming Gophers". But it was because I did not wish to participate in the mindless action of throwing balls at my fellow campers. What is there to learn from such an action?..."

But, he had to be realistic; though he didn't admit it out loud his affections for Cody were best left a secret. A secret he would bury and hopefully with time diminish into nothing. He wasn't looking forward to going back home with what happened at the show, but at least he could cover it all up stating that he was imagining some made up crush, but to add real feelings to the mix would just be to difficult. And that was with out adding a simple and true fact… The boy of his affections was straight. There was no going around something of that magnitude. It is known that it is virtually impossible to change some one from something socially acceptable to something viewed as wrong. Or better yet it was impossible. Who would willingly choose to be tormented and ridiculed everyday when they could easily just fit the norm? He often wondered why he himself couldn't just change instantly he had the intelligence to. But with matters of the heart, shuddering slightly at the cliché ness of the statement, intelligence held no hold over it.

"I feel unchanged by my experience on this show for what is there to learn from pointless acts of violence and 'stupid stunts'…"

So instead he chose the next best thing; which was to willingly die alone. To show no need for affection, this was why he was always cold to everyone. Because with his cold nature it brought on no speculation of whom or what he was attracted to, people would just assume that he was a pompous self absorbed Jerk, who had no interest in dating what so ever. No one, including his parents, were any the wiser. But that day… he just couldn't get the feeling of how wonderful it felt to hold some one close in his arms, and to hold some one with intelligence, wit, and soft heart to boot, was more than his emotions could handle.

"I will not miss my time in Total Drama Island for there frankly is nothing to miss. I would not advice watching this show for it provides no new out look at life and human interaction, as many claim it to…"

Though he would never admit it, he did watch the show. Only to see how Cody was progressing and how Gwen so easily broke his heart, hurting him. He couldn't understand how someone as cold as her could win the affections of some one as kind and caring as Cody. He willingly helped the one he cared for hook up with another. Noah knew for a fact anyone else, including Trent, would never willingly give up so easily. And his reasoning behind it? He wanted Gwen to be happy. No underlying cruel intentions, just he wanted her to be happy. He was everything Noah himself wished he could be, because it took courage to feel for someone and there was no mathematical formula to figure out if they will return your feelings. It was all by chance, and Noah was never one for chance.

"It instead only strengthens what we know about the selfish manipulation that goes on in our society. What is there to learn from watching something we can see by walking around?"

He just wished he had watched the new show sooner via online. Then he would be more prepared. He would have prepared a dialog or reasoning to why the kiss happened, and he wasn't ready. If he had only known… "Hey whatcha doing eh?" Noah quickly slammed his laptop down as Ezekiel appeared from behind him in his usual socially un-acceptable fashion.

Groaning he spoke out loud his feelings on the situation. "Why can't I get a few moments to myself?"

Ezekiel held his grubby hands up in some form of surrender or back off, he wasn't sure. Ever since he was kicked off the island solely based on his social skills, or lack there of, he had been more careful about the things he said. "I just wanted to tell you Cody's pretty messed up eh."

Noah's eyes widened in shock, ' please be ok' was all he kept repeating over and over in his mind. But on the out side he simply shrugged uninterested. "What does this have to do with me?"

"He had some pretty bad luck eh…" The only sign of Noah's worry was his constant tapping on the case of his laptop. 'Hurry up… just tell me if he's ok already!' But to the untrained eye, with the look on his face and usual mannerisms, they would assume he was just wanted to get back to his typing. "…he was mauled by a bear…" Noah's tapping quickened as he held his breath. He was quickly loosing his patients, he needed to know what happened to Cody now, and he couldn't stand how long it was taking the slow spoken hic to finally spit it out. "Not every day you get mauled by a bear… pretty bad luck eh?" Noah couldn't take it any more it.

Snapping rudely, a slight anger filling his usually monotone voice, he interrupted the slow drawl. "For god's sake just tell me already!"

"OK OK… calm down. Izzy said that you were the only one smart enough to keep an eye on him medically…or something..." Noah groaned at both Izzy's name and the fact the Ezekiel miss understood what he wanted to hear. It was a false victory, because though no one saw through his mask of indifference, the only way he could see if Cody was alright would be to see him face to face. Not many people had lived through a bear attack, and most of those who did died a few days later from damage to major organs, or blood loss. And the uncertainty was killing him. What if the damage was irreversible? What if Cody was in a coma and would never wake up? What if he would never be able to see him again…

Noah internally shook his head. No he wasn't going to turn into some irrational child. They wouldn't move him if he was in a severe condition, and if they did it would be to a hospital not to a fancy Island get away. It was probably a few scraps and broken bones. But he still had to see him, just to be sure. Packing up his laptop he walked off not caring that Ezekiel was still talking to him. "Where are you going eh?"

R&R please :3