This Chapter is rated 'M'.

Emma's POV

'Inconclusive'

My heart was racing as I took in the word. Did that mean they were no closer to finding out whether or not I had Cancer? I glanced nervously across at Will, his face like mine, confused and upset. I felt guilty for putting him through this, for keeping him up through sleepless nights, crying on his shoulder about my fears and worries. He had been my rock the past couple of weeks and knowing that it was still not over, still no confirmation as to what it was, I felt myself crumbling slowly, not just for me but for him, he deserved to know just as much as I did.

'So what does that mean then?' Will questioned, his hand gripping tighter onto mine as he ran his thumb across my knuckles.

'Surgery' I said, almost without hesitating. I saw him swing his head round to me, a look of shock on his face as my face paled. I knew the routine but it didn't stop me being any less fearful about what was to come.

'Eventually, yes, if you look at the screen, you can see a cluster of dark shadows around the curve of your breast where the lump is and what we will need to do is to make a small incision to remove the lump and to extract the tissue for further examination so we can discover whether or not the cells are cancerous or not.'

I felt a slight nausea in the pit of my stomach at the mere thought of being cut open and prodded at.

'Is there no other way of finding out what it is; no other tests you can run?' I was thankful he was trying and I gave his hand a reassuring squeeze as my eyes started to brim with tears,

'I know it's a lot to take in but surgery is the only option I'm afraid and with your permission, we'd like to bring you in within the next couple of weeks if possible. I'll just give you two a moment.'

I saw her leave the room as I turned to Will, who cupped my face into his hands and kissed me, 'Hey, I know this is scary but the sooner we do this the sooner they can find out what's wrong.'

'We do this? I'm sorry but the last time I checked it was me having to go into surgery with people poking at me and touching me, cutting me up inside not 'we'.'

'Emma, you know what I meant, please don't turn on me, I know you're scared but this needs to be done, they need to take it out so they can find out what it is'.

'But I don't want this; I just want to forget about it', I couldn't bring myself to look at him, knowing the pain in his eyes would be enough to send me into a quivering wreck.

'Em, Emma look at me, this isn't going to go away,'

'But surgery and germs, I just don't think I can do it, even the thought is making me want to be sick, what am I going to be like when the time comes?'

'You have been so strong these past few weeks, no don't pull that face you have, god I can't even begin to imagine how scared you must be, but you can do this, we can do this together, I'm not leaving your side ok? I'll be with you when you go in and I'll be waiting for you when you get out'.

'I'm just scared'. The sound came out almost mute as the lump in my throat reached my voice box. I felt incredibly guilty for snapping at him, the feeling of losing all control becoming too much as I moved my hand to his, 'I'm sorry'. The look he gave me showed that all had been forgiven..

'Right Miss Pillsbury, we'd like you to come in next week so we can run just a few routine tests on you, check your heart rate, your blood pressure, that sort of thing just to determine whether or not you'll be able to withstand the anaesthetic ok?' I could only nod wearily, 'Good, then if that's all clear, we would most probably be able to operate the following week'.

I looked across at Will who by the looks of things was taking in everything the nurse said. I started trembling as the nurse spoke, my whole body slowly breaking down part by part. With a stammer to my voice I finally spoke,

'That's fine'.

I could see Will in the corner of my eye smiling as his hand grasped further onto mine. I was still shaking as the nurse bid us good day, my mind racing with fear and anxiety. I could do this. I could do this.

Will's POV

Like most nights, we spent the evening curled up together in each other arms, my arm occasionally draping across her stomach as we flicked aimlessly through the many array of channels on the television, nothing quite fitting to our mood. Tonight however I could feel her apprehension and I had to admit, my heart was racing a little faster than normal. She had gotten the go ahead which meant she was to go into surgery tomorrow afternoon and I could tell by the way she was fidgeting that it was resting heavily on her mind.

'Will?'

'Yes Em?' As she sat up I followed, resting my back against the arm rest, hitting the 'off' button on the remote.

'I just want to say thank you, for these past few weeks, I just don't know how I could have coped without you being here and supporting me, you've been amazing. Thank you, so, so much.'

I smiled, 'Hey it's ok' I grabbed her hand, 'what do you say about getting our pyjamas on and pop on a movie, I'll even let you pick!' I said with a wink. She looked across at me, all brown eyes and beauty as she bit down on her lip before shaking her head firmly,

'I was wondering if you wanted to do something else.' She shyly turned her head away from mine, running her hand along the hem of her skirt as I was left puzzled,

'Erm sure, whatever you want, we could I dunno play a game or-' I was cut off by her lips pressing gently onto mine, the softness feeling divine as she, not I went to deepen the kiss leaving me gasping for breath as we regrettably parted.

'Wow!' I couldn't help but emit a smirk as she coyly fingered at the collar of her blouse, her eyes overpowering with lust as my smile faded, realising now what 'something else' entailed.

'Emma, are you sure?' She kissed me softly on the forehead before moving her lips to my nose, kissing at the bridge before sitting up and smiling bashfully. 'I don't want you to feel like you have to do this just for me you know as a thank you or something, you know it doesn't matter to me, just being with you is more than enough Em.' I was well aware I was rambling but my heart couldn't contain a regular rhythm as I continued to process what was actually happening.

'I've been thinking about it for a while, I mean we came close to you know before,' I could see her hand trace the outline of her breast knowing fully what she meant, 'and I know it sounds strange but tomorrow, when I go in for sur-, I just want to know I've not regretted anything you know, I mean anything could happen tomorrow and'

'Emma, your gonna be ok tomorrow, you heard the nurse, it's a simple procedure'

'I know I know but things can change Will and well I just want to show you how much I love you'.

'You don't need to prove anything to me Emma; I know how much you love me',

'Please Will?' The look she shot me was so utterly heartbreaking I struggled to keep my emotions in check, 'Even before all of this happened I knew it was you I wanted my first time to be with, I mean I had resigned myself to living alone for the rest of my life but you-' she smiled, 'you showed me over these past few weeks that having that one special person in your life can make all the difference'.

'Oh Emma', I was openly crying now and I could feel her fingers trace the tears away, 'you know I love you so much'.

'I know, and I love you too. I want this, I want all of you'. The look she gave me right then and there would forever be engraved in my heart as I felt myself unwilling to deny her of anything.

She attentively licked her lips before signalling towards the bedroom we have grown accustomed to sharing as she held my hand in her delicate, dainty fingers, leading me towards the bed that rested to the left of the room.

'Will you just, erm, wait here, I, I have something I want to well- you'll see'. I could only nod as she rummaged through the draw, pulling out some sort of material and heading off into the bathroom. I sat on the bed anxiously, facing the bathroom door. We had been in this situation before but this time everything felt so different. We had both changed over the last half year, discovered who we are and how we are together. Before I could even continue with my thoughts the door swung open and she's stood there in a white baby doll nightie. I could hardly breath as I drank in the sight of her, she looked,

'Amazing'. It was all I could muster as she stepped forward, fiddling with the strap, finding a place on my knee, her legs straddling me on either sides.

'I look ok? I mean if it's too much I can-?'

'No, no you look beautiful'.

'I just want tonight to be about us Will, no talk of surgery or Cancer.' Tears had begun to build up in my eyes as she talked, the fear clearly marked on her face, 'I just, I love you.'

I could never get sick of hearing those three words escape her mouth so harmoniously. She was perfect, every bit about her was beautiful and I was so glad we had finally made it through everything. I let my hand trail down her face as I kiss her cheek, our tears mixing together, 'I love you too'.

The overwhelming feeling sat high in my heart as I tried to focus on breathing; her touch feeling so amazing, so scorching that at any moment I felt I could burst into flames. I tried to push past my anxiety, my worries and fears about tomorrow and concentrated on the present, how her lips curled, how her hair would flick to the side, how beautiful she was.

My thumbs began to graze at her stomach as she tugged at the bottom of my t-shirt, her fingers working melodious over my stomach as she discarded my top to the floor. I decided to move back onto the bed, my head resting on the array of pillows as I let her take control, her hands exploring my body, her lips kissing at my chest. I took a minute to pull her face to mine, smiling adoringly into those big brown eyes of hers as I kiss her on the lips, just needing to taste her, to feel her body close to mine. I kiss her shoulder as the strap slids neatly down her pale freckled arm, her hair further glimmering in the candle light. As I did, I felt her hands move towards the buckle of my belt. God this was really happening. She slid the denim down my legs, leaving me only in my boxers, my desire burning through the thin material. I pulled her back up to me, my hands sliding under the flimsy fabric of her underwear as I cupped her ass in my hands, running my hands up and down the soft skin.

Emma's POV

I felt a series of knots twist and untwist as Will's hands continued to rub up and down my bottom. I was beginning to grow nervous about what was to come but I knew I wanted it, knew how much my heart wanted Will; all of Will. I felt his hand reach for the top of the material, so I lifted my hands up to allow him to discard it with the other clothes that met the floor sometime ago. I felt his hand move to my breast, caressing it slowly and that's when I immediately froze causing him to retract his hand, looking up at me with a worried glance in his eye.

'I just, not there, I can't, not now anyway.' I felt pathetic as the tears began to slowly build.

'It's ok, I understand'.

'No, no it's not ok, I just, just want to forget that it's there and all I could think about when you, is when you touched me there the last time and-'

'Oh Em,' his voice sounded so soft as his fingers danced up and down my sides, his face offering such a wonderful and forgiving smile. He was truly beautiful, his soul, his body, god I never knew someone could be so perfect in every shape and form. 'Can I, you know touch you here?' His ran his fingers down the valley of my breasts as I compliantly nodded, shaking away the nearly fallen tears, his lips kissing down to my belly button, sucking at my hip bone which subconsciously made me groan, my face reddening with embarrassment as I hid it under the crook of his neck where I could feel his laugh vibrate through his body.

'Emma that was-'

'Embarrassing' I offered, my face coming up to meet his, my face showing no sign of returning to its natural colour anytime soon.

'Sexy I was going to say, definitely not embarrassing! Come here.'

As soon as I lay down he removed his boxers and I felt a growing splurge of anxiety muscle its way in through my veins. This was really happening.

'Do you have a condom?'

'Top draw'. I saw him route around, pulling the packet out of the draw as he swiftly rolled it on.

'Less messy' he added, making me slightly giggle, my hands reaching up to cover my mouth.

We lay there just kissing for several minutes, his desire for me resting at the core of my stomach, a wave of almost pride seeping through; had I really managed to turn him on so much? Suddenly I felt his hands trail at the edge of my panties, his eyes meeting mine as he mouthed; 'are you ready' between lazy kisses. I smiled, giving him the confirmation he needed as he finally pulled away the last remaining barrier between us.

'You're so beautiful. I plan on telling you every day just how beautiful you really are'. I began to blush again, this time running a hand through the soft waves of his hair as he smiled. 'So, so beautiful' he whispered as he stroked me where no man had ever gone before. It was a strange sensation, one that felt right. How had I gone so long without feeling his touch, feeling the tiny fireworks spark off inside my stomach? I pulled him up towards me, surprising myself with this new bout of confidence as my tongue duelled with his, letting him know I was finally ready. I felt his lips on my neck as I clutched onto his curls while he slid into me, muttering words of apology as my inhibitions and fears melted slowly away as he finally rested inside me.

'Come on baby' he panted as he continued to fill my ears with adoration and love, making me feel like no ever man had ever made me feel before. The pain had subsided a little while ago and now I felt a stir in the lower pit of my stomach, a feeling that was beginning to override all my senses as I clutched my arm around his neck, kissing him fiercely until I felt myself let go, finally falling into a state of pure bliss as he joined me, both of us holding onto one another as our breathing decreased, our heads falling back onto the pillows.

'How do you feel?' he whispered as he rolled over to face me, our noses slightly rubbing together as his hands got lost in my hair. I could only smile as I rested my hand on his shoulder, stealing another kiss from those luscious lips,

'That good ey?' he winked, causing me blush, 'God you're so perfect.'

I snuggled up closer, the slight hairs on his chest tickling my chin as his arms wrapped protectively round my body, the comforter surrounding us as we hid away from the cold and the rest of the world. I could have stayed like this forever, cocooned in his arms while he sang sweetly to me the song I had grown to love,

'I will love you baby, Always ...

And I'll be there forever and a day, Always ... '

And with it, I drifted off in his arms remembering tonight and the love we shared together, not thinking about tomorrow.

So there you go Chapter 9! Next chapter will be the operation and mainly from Will's POV.

I'll try and get the next chapter up as soon as I can but I'm not too sure when that will be yet!

I'm not a doctor so I apologise for any mistakes that I've made in this chapter.

Any feedback would be greatly appreciated, thanks for reading!