Jasper's darlin'

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Summary: Bella has felt a strange pull towards jasper ever insince she met him. But the problem was that she was with Edward and Jasper is Alice's husband. A truly forbidden love. After the Cullen's leave Bella is forced away from jasper and her life takes a spiral downwards. When jasper and Bella are suddenly reunited will Bella accept his love? Or will she be too hurt to love him back?

I am sorry if some of the dialogue doesn't match up with the book or movie, I try to get it as close as I can, and I have to change some of it to fit this story. I did not come up with the name angelface. I give all rights to that to firewings312, the fabulous author of the life and times of Bella swan which you can read here: .?sid=1600&textsize=0&chapter=1

I don't own twilight; I just play with the characters. Okay, that sounded wrong even to me. But you know what I mean. :D

And this story begins in twilight, when Edward takes Bella to meet his family.

(Twilight)

I remember that I was nervous. Not that I would be in a house full of vampires, but that they would not like me. I had a tight hold on Edwards hand as I walked into the kitchen. Everything seemed to be going well. There was Emmett and Rosalie, Edwards adopted 'brother and sister' and Carlisle and Esme, Edwards adoptive 'parents'. From what I could tell, they all seemed to like me, well except for Rosalie. I don't know what her problem was. But it was all going well until a pixy-like vampire walked in through the window. Yeah you heard me the window. She was pretty, well they all were, and short, her black hair was spiked. She walked up to me and gave me a hug, claiming we were going to be the best of friends, before I even knew her name. That's when Edward spoke up saying that this pixy was Alice and her companion was jasper. For the first time I looked at jasper. My brown eyes met his and it was like this spark zinged through me. He was handsome no beautiful, ugh even today I don't have words to describe his beauty. He was the most good-looking person I had ever laid eyes on. I thought that this couldn't get any better, and then he spoke. "It is a pleasure to meet you." I swear that my heart stopped beating then. His voice was perfect. He had a southern draw, it was very manly and one that if you heard on the radio, you would probably cause a car pileup because you were in the middle of an orgasm. Edward said something but I didn't hear him, I was still staring at the beautiful man in front of me. A small smile spread across angelface's lips. And that's how this all started.

(New moon)

A year had passed since then, and the attraction I felt towards jasper hale had not waned. It had only grown. I dreamt of him almost every night. Sometimes we would just talk, other times it was something else. I knew I shouldn't be having these thoughts about my boyfriend's brother, or my best friend's husband. Yeah, Alice and jasper are married. I thought about going to see a counselor, because jasper was in my every thought. And what was weirdest of all was I felt this pull towards him. And when I was away from him it only got worse. The pull was getting almost painful now. It only eased up when I was in the same room as him. But if I did go to a counselor what would I say? I have an attraction to my vampire boyfriend's brother, who is also a vampire. Who is married to my vampire best friend? Yeah that is a one way ticket to a crazy hospital. And that's where I am today. Having crazy dreams about something that will never happen. About me and jasper. *sigh*

I walked down the hall with Edward by my side. "It's my job to protect you. From everyone except my sister." I was about to ask him what he meant by that, when Alice landed in front of me, with my angelface in tow.

"Happy birthday!" she said in her soprano voice.

"Shhhh!" I shushed her

"Sorry she said more quietly."

She started telling me about the party she was planning for my birthday. I was going to object, but then I felt a wave of acceptance roll over me.

"Fine, I'll go."

"Yay!" she squealed and hugged me. I smiled at her.

As they were walking away something dawned on me. "Jasper, that's not fair with the mood control thing!"

He smiled a lazy grin that made my panties go from damped to soaked. "Happy bir… never mind" he said.

The rest of the day I could not get jasper's picture out of my head. His lazy smile, his golden eyes.

And that's what brought me to where I am today. I was standing in the Cullen's living room holding the big box that Alice and jasper had gotten me for my birthday. I opened it and pulled out. It was a beautiful black acoustic guitar. It must have cost a fortune.

"Jasper, Alice, this is perfect!" they smiled.

"How about you play something for us Bella?" Alice asked.

"Well….umm…I…"

"Oh Bella, don't worry jasper can play with you!" Alice said with a smile.

"You know how to play?" I asked my angel.

He nodded "I will be right back." He went up the stairs at vampire speed and came down with a guitar that was similar to mine, but brown in color.

"Umm I don't really know what to play" I said blushing with embarrassment.

"Jazz, why don't you play something and Bella can follow your lead?"

"alright." He said and started playing. I knew the song at once, and looked at him and saw he was starring into my eyes. This is about the time I would blush and look down, but my eyes were unable to look away from his, and since I knew the song by heart, I didn't have to worry about messing up. I followed his lead.

I thought his regular voice was perfect, but his singing voice was ten times better.

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing.

He looked surprised when I joined him in singing.

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

His eyes never left mine during the whole song.

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

When we finished the song they all applauded. I smiled and blushed. "You have an amazing voice Bella." Jasper said to me. My blush deepened.

I stood up and Edward pulled me into his arms. He whispered something in my ear, but I was still focused on jasper. "You still have more presents to open Bella" Emmett taunted. I rolled my eyes at him. He knew I hated gifts. I took one of the presents and jerked my finger under the tape. "Shoot" I said when a drop of blood materialized on my finger. "Paper cut."

It all happened very fast then. Jaspers eyes turned black, Edward pushed me behind him, with a little too much force and I crashed back into one of the glass bowls, cutting my arm open. I looked up at jasper and saw that his eyes were so black. He ran towards Edward and Edward pushed him into his piano. Jasper got back up and charged at Edward again, but Emmett had locked him in his massive steel grip and was dragging out side.

Carlisle had run to me and Edward started to growl at him, but he put his hand up. "I am not going to hurt her, I need to close her wound though." I looked down at my arm, and that's when I saw all the blood. I had never been good with blood, and I could feel myself go light headed. And everything went dark.

I had passed out. Seriously passed out. Jeez I'm a wimp. When I woke up I was in Edward's car. I looked down at my arm and saw that it was bandaged up. Edward was looking at the road (a first for him) with a strange look on his face.

He parked outside of chilies house. We got out and I could tell something was off. We stood in front of his car; he leaned over and kissed me on my cheek. "Edward, what's wrong?" I asked him. "Bella were leaving."

Oh. I knew this day was coming, but thought I would have at least graduated before we left. Then a cold, sickening thought crept over me. "When you say we?"

"I mean my family and me."

No. this was NOT happening. He couldn't leave me here. "So you're just going to leave me here?"

"Bella-

"No! Don't you Bella me! We had a deal."

"I know we did Bella, but it is just too dangerous."

"What that thing with jasper? That was nothing Edward!"

"Nothing compared to what could have happened Bella. I'm not good for you"

"Don't you twist my words around? I am coming with you."

"Bella I don't want you to come."

"You…don't…want me?"

"No. you're not good for me."

"All the times you said you loved me?"

"I lied."

I didn't know what to say to that. So this past year had been nothing but a lie? He didn't love me? He didn't WANT me?

"Good bye Bella." With that he kissed my forehead and got back in his car and drove off.

I didn't remember opening my front door, or walking up into my bedroom. I just sat there. Crying. How could he do this to me? It never made sense that he loved me and now I know why. He never did.

I lay on my side, curled up in a tight ball facing the wall.

I woke up some time later with that creepy feeling that you're being watched. I sat up and turned to look at the window and saw someone there. I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

"Jasper? What are you doing here?"

"I had to make sure you were okay. Are you?"

"Do I look okay?" I didn't mean to be snarky at my angelface.

He moved so that he was sitting on the edge of my bed. "I am sorry Bella. I don't want to leave. I am sorry that Edward lied to you." He put his hand on my cheek, and I leaned into his touch. "Bella" he whispered. "I don't want to leave you here. But I have to. Carlisle won't argue against Edward. We all have to go."

"I don't want you to go." Tears were streaming down my face. Jasper leaned forward and pressed his lips to mine.

He pulled back and whispered "I am sorry Bella." He got up to leave.

"Jasper wait! Do you have to leave tonight?"

"No, not tonight, but tomorrow for sure."

"Can you just… stay here until morning?"

He walked over towards me and kicked off his boots. I rolled over onto my side and he laid in bed behind me, spooning against me, with his arms wrapped around my waste. My head was screaming that this was wrong, I should NOT be laying in bed with my best friend's husband, but everything else, my heart, body and soul was screaming that this was RIGHT.

I could feel myself drifting off to sleep, but there was one more thing that I had to know.

"Hey jasper?"

"yeah darlin'?"

Darlin'. I liked that. "You weren't going to hurt me today were you?"

"No. I was fine until Edward pushed you, and made you hurt yourself. I wanted to protect you and hurt him for hurting you."

So that was it. Jasper was not trying to attack me. He had been attacking Edward for hurting me. I smiled to myself, wishing jasper had gotten a few good licks in. and that is how I fell asleep, with a smile on my face. Wrapped in jaspers arms.