Hey ya'll, can you believe it? I'm still alive and haven't forgotten my poor stories!

Sorry it took so long again.

xo

"What the hell Hans? How can you not have a clue about Axels' files? There's barely anything there!" I yelled incredulously into the phone.

"Look Hathaway, last time I seen those files they were picture perfect. Maybe you dropped some pages, I don't know, but it's all there." Hans agrued back to me.

We've been at this for the past twenty minutes. He keeps telling me how everything, reassignments and all, were in Rylans' files when he gave it to me. I keep telling him there's no possible way they could have been. I didn't drop anything, I know that.

"Have you hit your head or some shit? There was nothing more then you gave me!"

He sighed, exasperated, "I'll look around the office. Retrace your steps, they'll be somewhere."

"Um Hello-"

"Hathaway." He barked, "The fucking papers were there this morning, they didn't just up and walk the hell away. Now go fucking out and look for them." With that, he hung up.

I sat on my bed another moment or two longer with the phone pressed to my ear, shocked. As long as I've known him, Hans has never snapped out like that. I mean, yeah he really hadn't said much, but I've never heard the man curse so much, I'm not even sure he ever has. I removed the phone from my ear, looked at my wallpaper for a moment and snapped the phone shut. I tossed it down on the bed, it bounced once and landed an inch away from the edge. Growling out my frustrating, I stood and paced the room. My leg was all but new by now, there was no evidence that I had missed Axel and hit the floor.

Stupid Hans. Does he seriously think I'm so clueless as to lose such important papers?

Fucking Axel. Why the hell did he have to be reassigned so many times? Why bother taking Lissa as a charge, just to get reassigned again? Asshole Grant. I still don't understand why he's making me go through this. I wouldn't be looking for a new partner if it wasn't for him, if he hadn't-We'd still be in Lousiana if that night hadn't-If we would've just stayed home he'd be-If I was stronger I could've sa-

"Goddamnit!" I screamed, my voice loud and piercing.. I continued to scream, even after the word esacped from my mouth. No words, just a shrill sound that cut through the air like a knife. I clutched my head, and fell to my knees and finally quieted my cries.

"Fuck!" I punched the floor, a low crack sounding from it.

No matter what the subject, my thoughts lead me back to Grant. No matter what, my thoughts ended in thinking of his-

"Fuck!" I swung around and slammed the bed frame.

I gasped for air and clutched the frame in my hands, squeezing my eyes tight. I tried to force the truth out.

"Grant's..." I gasped, unable to finish the sentence. "I saw Grant..." I clutched the frame tighter, my gasping quicking. I tried my best to slow it, then continued, but nothing came out beside ragged sobs.

An unmarked amount of time past as I calmed myself. I let go of the frame, and shrank in on myself. "I'm sorry..." My voice barely a shakey whisper, "I can't. I can't...I...just...can't..."

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I quickened my pace as I tracked myself back to the gym, looking everywhere as to where the missing files could be; still finding nothing.

It's been an hour since I was in my room, I had thrown a half ass attempt of a bandage on my hands, the wood had cut them badly but I really didn't care; even as the red seeped slowly through the white now, I ignored it. The blood on my doorknobs and bed frame were left there, I promised myself I'd clean it when I got back then ran out before anyone would come home.

Keeping my eyes on the ground the whole time, I looked left and right, behind and ahead of me. Nothing. Absolutely nothing, of course. It was nearly dawn, only a few handful of Guardians were to be seen. Everyone else was asleep, probably where I should be if I was smart, instead of looking for nonexistant papers. I was almost to the gym when I had that feeling that someone was watching me, I didn't look back or run or some stupid girly shit, but kept looking for the papers.

I kept walking even as the shiver ran up my spine and my insincts told me this wasn't just some Guardian on patrol or another person trying to cast some vodo spell on me. I looked over my shoulder, the barely there sunlight told me that no one was actually behind me; even though the feeling never left.

As I entered the gym I took a look around, not really paying any attention as I search for the supposed papers. Going over to the rest rooms I decided to take a quick look, I hadn't be in there but who the hell knows. The rooms were empty, and as I was making my way out I heard a slight thump, like a door shutting. Walking out though, showed the gym to be empty, so I quietly walked over to the office to see if anyone had went in. Empty, and no papers. Next was the supply room, nothing and no papers. I heard another thump and spun around, looking over the entire gym. Nothing, but I spotted something over at the farthest edge of the gym. I walked over, still looking around for the source of the noises.

"Wha...?" I stumbled quietly, "How the..." Bending down I picked up a few pieces of papers. Looking them over showed they were my papers. Sighing I rubbed my forhead, "You're losing it Rose."

Making my way out I thought back, the papers weren't even in the right place. I had sat reading them 50 feet over, but maybe the wind the blew them over there? So how had I not seen them before? Maybe they scattered that way when I threw them to fight Dimitri. I wasn't sure, but I blamed it all on stress. Too much has happened in the past few days for me to really notice papers, that's gotta be it.

I looked to the spot the papers were, the spot was empty, a window next to that spot though...wasn't. I had seen a dark figure disappear just as I had looked. But they weren't quick enough and I ran out the gym as quickly as I could.

As I made my way to the outside of the area though, I found nothing. No one anywhere near and not a leaf disturbed. The gym sat at the edge of the wards, so a forest faced it's left and the window to my right. I looked into the forest, the sun shone bright in the sky and lit the forest for all to see.

I stood there, unmoving, barely breathing. Trying to listen for any clue to where the figure went, staring hard into the trees as if I could see through them. Three minutes past and I finally moved, into the forest. I went far enough in that I couldn't see the Court, even in this light, and had still found nothing.

A few twigs cracking deeper into the forest, birds singing, and a fox or two. But that was it.

I wanted to continue to search the forest, the figure had to go in. There was no other place to go in such a short amount of time. From the time I seen the figure, to when I was standing where I had spotted the person on the outside of the building was no more then twenty seconds. But I also knew that with a three minute head start, that person could be anywhere in there.

I could have even passed right under him if he was smart enough to hide up in a tree. My guess was that he was the one cracking the twigs further in, but me being a smart little Guardian, knew the risk of Strigoi hiding out here was far greater than finding some creep watching me through a window.

I shivered involuntarily, was someone really watching me through the window? Or was it just a trees' shadow?

I made my way easily back to the gym, where I had entered the forest, and went back to my apartment. As I fell back onto my bed, fully dressed, I looked at the papers crushed in my hand. They were smudged with blood, and I looked around my room, the proof of the damage I had inflicted to my hands was everywhere.

What's gotten into me?

"You're losing it Rose." I repeated, shaking my head as I drifted off into a deep sleep.

xo

So not much really seems to happen here, I know I know, but it's kinda really needed. Plus I'm half asleep and can't stand to write longer to make anything happen yet.

But! Things are gonna start picking up from here on. Promise. So what 'cha thought? Any good?

I'm sure if I would get some reviews I'd wanna UD alot more...Just sayin' L;

Tif, xo