AN: So, this was a project that started after I got a response on LJ after seeing the last three episodes of this season on mute because my sound driver crashed. xD
Yes, this is for you, ILOVEPLOTBUNNIES. Hope you like it =)
Disclaimer: I don't own a single letter of the series. I just play with the characters because I got nothing else to do.

You are doing this because you agreed with that monster.

He's keeping your wife and child as hostages and will only let them go if you do one thing for him…

The knife on your hands feels threatening.
The blade shines whenever the moonlight hits it and your heartbeat turns erratic.

You don't need to study your victim, because you know who she is.

Female, in her late twenties, red-haired, works at the CBI, in your team, and she is currently asleep.

You pick her lock and enter her apartment. You don't even bother to stop and look around, heading straight to her bedroom.

You breathe slowly, trying to calm down.
You wish you would have never accepted to kill every single member of your team in trade of your wife and child, but, while admitting that the lives of your loved ones are the most important thing in the world, you plunge the knife directly in the woman's heart and you're certain she died instantly.

You stab her a few more times, tears leaking from your eyes, and you draw the bloody smiley face on the wall as the monster told you to do.

You stare at the woman… Her blood is in the knife, in your hands, in your clothes… The metallic taste of blood fills you and you resist the urge to throw up.

She was your first kill.

The ringing of your cell phone startles you and you answer it.

You already know the maniac laugh in the other end and your hands ball up in fists as anger threatens to consume you.

"That was very well done Patrick. I'm surprised."

"Shut up. Where are they?"

"Don't worry Patrick, they are with me so they are safe…for now."

"Try to do something to them and I'll have your head hanging in Eiffel Tower."

"Well, well, well. Now Patrick, you know that I'll never do anything to hurt them, but we have an arrangement. Play your part and I'll play mine."

"What do you want me to do?"

"Kill Wayne Rigsby tomorrow night. He'll be filled with self-loathing for not being able to save his girlfriend."

"You're doomed Red John."

"You think so, Patrick? Their blood will be on your hands, not mine. And if you want to see your wife and child again you'll do as I say. Understood?"

"I'm going to kill you after this."

"Keep trying Patrick. I'll always be one step ahead of you."

He hung up and you leave the house of your former colleague.
The guilt and sorrow you feel are enough for you to cry. You know he's going to make you kill everyone on the team.