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BELLA POV

We spent the drive downtown talking about Renesmee's eating habits (regular these days), sleep pattern (only after Jacob has read multiple chapters of Harry Potter), schooling (home school for now until the growing slows down more), and general overall well-being (thriving lately, but with a bit more sass). Edward parked the car and like a perfect gentleman, opened the door for me. The first half hour or so was spent walking hand in hand and not really talking.

I can't help but be disappointed when he drops my hand. In an instant, his arm is around me and his mouth at my ear. "I thought you might be cold..."

I grin and shiver slightly, not from the cold but from the proximity of him.

He keeps his lips on my ear. "What do you want to do first, love?"

I really want to tell him that first, I want him to kiss me.

Instead I say, "Win me something?" and nod toward the ring toss.

Edward steps back, releasing my waist and grabbing my hand again, leading me to the game. "And what do I get?"

I laugh and squeeze his hand. "Depends what you win for me."

"Which one do you want?"

I tap a finger to my lips, considering all of the options hanging against the back wall of the booth. "The biggest one, the panda bear eating the ice cream cone." I point to the large stuffed animal in case for some reason he has overlooked it.

He chuckles, kissing my temple. "Bella, what on earth are you going to do with that?"

I shrug, grinning. "Cuddle with it on lonely nights?"

"Do you plan on having many of those?" Edward cocks his eyebrow, giving me that crooked smile.

I look away for a moment and know that I would be blushing if I could. "That all depends on if you win it or not, now doesn't it?"

"If you having the bear means you are spending your nights with it instead of with me, just forget it." He drops my hand to cross his arms stubbornly.

My heart drops to my stomach. He may be saying it playfully, but what he's talking about is serious. My mind races. Us together overnight?

He mumbles, looking away, "I mean, if you'd rather the bear, let's go get it..."

He took my silence and deer in the headlights look the wrong way. I step in front of him and lean up on my toes to kiss the corner of his mouth. "There are two sides of me, you know. You could be on one, and my new panda bear on the other. Or do you not think you can win it?"

Edward visibly relaxes. "What if I don't want to share you? What if after too much time apart, I want you all to myself?"

I smile and lean back on my heels, tugging gently on his sweater. "That would be hard, considering I come with a plus one... and a dog."

He laughs loudly, before clearing his throat, and trying hard to keep a straight face. "I don't mind sharing you with Renesmee in the least...Jacob on the other hand..."

I tug my bottom lip between my teeth, still smiling. "At least you don't have to worry about him kissing me anymore."

Edward growls under his breath, his voice quiet, but even. "Did you kiss anyone while you were away, Bella?"

The question surprises me and I feel the smile disappear from my face. "You are joking, aren't you?"

He sighs, pulling me to a nearby bench with him. After we sit down together, he says, "I want to know about your time away, Bella. Did you ever think about coming back? To me?"

I try to lighten the mood, looking down at our linked hands. "I guess you're avoiding trying to win me that bear hmm?" When I look up he's staring intently at me, obviously not in the mood to side step this any longer.

"Edward you know I stillthink about coming back. In a way it would make everything so much easier..." I take an unneeded breath and turn my focus back on our linked hands, lowering my voice. "What happens if you don't want us again?"

He closes his eyes, shaking his head. " I never didn't want you, Bella." He opens his eyes and looks me right in the eye. "Never."

I swallow hard. "You didn't want her though."

"Bella...I never dreamed her possible. I know that's probably hard for you to understand...Hell it's hard to explain now...If I knew...Things would have been much easier. For all of us. I came up with the worst scenario possible, and she was the personification of it...She didn't deserve that and neither did you."

I squeeze his hand and give him a small smile, hesitating before speaking again. "She never thought you abandoned her or didn't love her, Edward. Please know I never tried to make her hate you."

He nods, "I know that, Bella..." He sucks in a sharp breath. "I'm sorry for making you feel like you needed to leave." He looks at the ground, as if he's studying his shoe. "I know I hold a lot of the blame for that."

"I should have trusted you. I shouldn't have assumed the worst." I wait until he looks up at me to continue. "I obviously wasn't in my right mind, befriending Rosalie of all people."

I see his lips forming a smile. "Good point." He looks down again, messing with my fingers. "Bella, I should tell you about what happened after you left..."

I want to run and not hear this, but I know I have to. Is he trying to tell me something happened? Is that why he asked if I had kissed anyone? Because he has?

He rubs the back of his neck, keeping his head hanging low. "When I found out you were gone...I lost it..." His voice trails off.

I trace my thumb across the back of his hand that I'm still holding and wait for him to continue, expecting the worst.

"I just...lost myself, I suppose. I couldn't cope and I disappeared...I didn't speak, didn't move...Carlisle took to feeding me bags of blood from the hospital. I should have been stronger. I should have found you in Alaska...I failed you twice. First by closing myself off to you and the baby. Second by shutting down instead of bringing you home. I was like that for months...Carlisle was beside himself. He couldn't figure it out. There was no logical explanation for a vampire to get like that. Rose and Emm moved away from us for a while. I guess I came out of it long enough to attack her..." He looks ashamed.

I feel my hand come up to my cover my mouth. This isn't I wasn't prepared for.. "Oh, Edward..."

After a few moments I drop my hand and place my palm to his chest. "I'm sorry that I caused you to go through that, I truly am."

He shakes his head. "It's my own fault, Bella. I drove you away."

I scoot closer on the bench, practically in his lap as I slide my hand up his chest over the smooth fabric of the sweater he's wearing. "In reality, Rose drove me away." I give him a small smile and push my lips to his, not able to find the words to tell him what I want to say.

Within seconds his hands are in my hair and one of my legs is draped over both of his, our mouths moving in perfect synchronization together. The sounds, the smells, the people all disappear. There's just the two of us.

EDWARD POV

I almost forgot we were in public. If it hadn't dawned on me where we were, I would be getting carried away right now. I'd have taken her right here - In the middle of the festival, on the park bench. So much for discretion. Since I have realized where we are, I pull back, kissing Bella lightly one more time on the lips.

"I love you, Bella. I always have and I always will."

She leans up kissing me yet again. "I love you too, Edward."

"Come on, love. We have a panda to win." She laughs, and I can't hold back a smile.

I restrain myself and continuously remind myself to act human, tossing the little rings at the bottles, trying not to shatter them with my superhuman strength. I easily win the panda for Bella and an equally enormous pink bear for Nessie. How are we going to get both of these monstrosities home in my car?

We decide to go on the ferris wheel, and head in that direction, Bella carrying her panda and leaving me with the big pink bear. I can hear the thoughts of everyone around us laughing at me. I'm too thrilled that I am here with my wife to care. I'm already annoyed with the bears. I can't hold Bella's hand or get close to her with them in our arms.

"Bella, love. Give me the panda. I'm taking them to the car. Wait here." I grab the panda from her, carrying both bears, unable to see around them. I snicker at the thoughts surrounding me, and walk as fast as I can, still passing for a human. I'm anxious being away from Bella, even for a few minutes.

After shoving the bears into the backseat, I hurry back toward the ferris wheel, looking around for Bella. I inhale the air, seeking out her scent. It's there, but there are so many people and all the various food booths, it's faint and I'm an awful tracker. I search the thoughts of everyone in my vicinity, knowing they would have noticed Bella if they'd seen her. They would have made mental note either of her beauty or of the uneasy feeling that comes with encountering our kind. I feel her before I see her.

"Come here often, handsome?" She purrs in my ear.

I turn into her, pulling her against me and kissing her before releasing her and grabbing her hand to pull her to the line. I realize I've never done anything like this as a vampire. I don't recall whether I was ever at a fair before that. When it's our turn, we get into the passenger car of the ferris wheel, the operator closing the door behind us.. Bella sits across from me, smiling ear to ear. It's contagious.

"What?" She pushes her hair behind her ear, getting self conscious that I'm watching her.

"Don't fidget, Bella. I was just thinking that you look happy. And beautiful. Come here."

She moves to my side of the compartment, sitting across my lap. "Are you alright, love? Is there anything else you want to talk about?" I ask her.

She throws her arms around my neck, pressing her forehead to mine. "How about this, Edward? How about we forgive each other and leave the past in the past?"

"Really?" I cannot hide my surprise. I've forgiven Bella, forgiving myself is a whole other issue.

She talks in between kissing my lips. "Really." Kiss. "I." Kiss. "Love." Kiss. "You." Kiss. "We." Kiss. "Deserve." Kiss. "To." Kiss. "Be." Kiss. "Happy." Kiss. "Let's." Kiss. "Just." Kiss. "Be." Kiss. "Happy."

I smile against her lips, wrapping my arms around her waist and pulling her closer to me and murmur, "I love you too."

I trace my tongue along her bottom lip before nipping it, and Bella moves to straddle my lap, kissing me deeply. We moan together, alternating between hard and soft, never breaking our kiss. She grinds against me and I growl, holding onto her hips as she presses her chest to mine. We are both oblivious to the world around us.

We are pulled from our reverie by a clearing throat. "Sir? Ma'am? Ride's over." Bella buries her face in my neck, giggling and I laugh with her, making our apologies as we stand and slip off the ride. We hear him mumble as we walk away, "Teenagers!" This only makes the both of us laugh harder.

We spend the rest of the evening in the same manner...going on rides, talking and kissing. We are both reluctant to admit it when it gets late, but we know we should get back to the house to get Nessie and Jacob home. I'm not sure what happens then, and I'm too afraid to ask. As we walk closer to the car hand in hand, we both start laughing seeing the ominous shadows of the huge bears in the backseat.

I play with Bella's fingers as I walk around to her door, opening it for her. "I had a great time tonight, Edward. Who knew you could be so much fun?" She grins mischievously at me.

I smile back at her, "I guess you just bring out the best in me, love...I had a nice time too." I lean down and kiss her softly, closing the door behind her after she gets in. I walk around to my side, chuckling to myself, thinking about the evening. Bella melts into my side as soon as I get into the car. I kiss her hair and fight the urge to ask her "What now?"

She sighs happily, trailing her fingers down my chest and over my stomach, grabbing onto my sweater. "Edward, come home with us...I know it may seem fast, but we're married. We should be a family."

I pull out of the parking lot, looking down at her wide eyed. "Are you serious, Bella?"

She misunderstands my hesitation. "You're right, it's too soon."

"No!" I blurt hastily. "No! It's not too soon. It's much too late. We've been married for over four years, and we've never lived as man and wife."

She puts her fingers under my sweater on my stomach. "Maybe tonight we can go for a hunt?" She leans up, nibbling my earlobe. Groaning and shifting in my seat, I drive out of town heading back toward the house.

Suddenly, their thoughts invade my mind. I gasp, my entire body going stiff. I press the gas harder, needing to get home. Now.

Bella sits up straight. "Edward? What's wrong?"

I look over at her, my eyes wide. "It's the Volturi. They're here."