Judais POV
It had been days after Johan had met me in my dreams assuring me of my emotions. Sometimes between that gap of time a rebellious thought would run through my mind causing me to break a dish or escape into the tunnels after losing my guards. I liked the feeling, nostalgia warmed my chest and adrenalin pumped through my veins. Hope would rise warmer than the nostalgia when I went to sleep in pitiful thoughts of seeing Johan.
Maybe my subconscious kept the illusion of emotions for so long that without it I'd just, poof, disappear. I almost wished that was the case. If it was true than if Haou did get his wish-As my master always has-And I lost all my rebellious thoughts and emotions I'd be gone and he'd have lost. I guess that's always what I wanted to do to him. Show him no one can have everything
King or not
I wanted him to know the pain I should've felt when Johan was ripped away from me. I wanted him to know the sorrow and mourning of having two friends and a place to call home torn away because of someone else's selfish intentions. I wanted to have him feel love and know that it would never be returned. No matter what.
But I'd already shown him that hadn't I?
I'd torn myself away from him, insulted him, ignored him, and worried him to death at least eight times over. And honestly now… I feel… regret. Up until now I had seen myself as completely blameless. But No one is blameless. It was a human trait to screw up and hurt others-whether intentional or not-and seeing as I had done it over and over again it proves that human traits were natural to me, emotions, likes, dislikes, good things and bad. I wasn't perfect like I was created to be
And I loved it. I loved being defective if It meant I understood. If it meant I could learn and understand my mistakes as something more than-
"Yes master, I'm sorry I have disappointed you. It will not happen again"
Just the fact that I could screw up started meaning the world to me. Johans words gained greater meaning in my mind and I could feel my love for trouble and him coming back stronger than ever
And suddenly, I wanted to apologize, Let Haou know that yes I did understand what I did was wrong, and let him know I love him as a brother would love a brother. I would continue to cause him trouble but I wouldn't hate him.
And maybe I'd be forgiven
I would understand of course if he didn't forgive me. But hey, everything's worth a shot.
Now, I'm going to stop my rant there and to go back to being completely honest-I wasn't where I was supposed to be. I was in one of the deepest parts of the labyrinth of tunnels. Far away from those who were supposed to be watching me. Regrettably I was just too damn good at this running away thing
I swear I must be the master of hide and seek
The worst part of this whole affair was the fact that those idiots the king called guards had probably come in after me and lost their way trying to find me. So of course I had to get up and head out to find them.
Weaving my way through the tunnels I set out, calling names and making loud noises so that they could follow them, but none of my calls were answered. Of course being the stubborn idiot I was I refused to leave them behind to rot and worked faster to find them, I was almost convinced they hadn't come in to find me when I tripped. The landing was way too soft for its own good, and not only was the ground higher up than it was supposed to be; but it was moving, sluggishly, but it was moving.
Up, down, up, down
It moved Rythmaticly, but strained by my weight. I quickly got up and looked down to see my two guardians. Currently they were none more than two poor castle guards assigned to the lately easier-than-usual task of watching my every move. They didn't really seem to be hurt which was relieving but they were both disarmed and knocked out. Someone else had managed to get down there…
It would have been in the few hours since I escaped that they would have came down here looking for me so whoever had done this couldn't be very far-especially since this was my turf and no one else alive knew how to successfully navigate these tunnels.
"Stupid! Your going the wrong way" A hushed hiss came along with quiet footfalls into earshot
"Do you know your way around these tunnels? No you don't. So shut up! I know where I'm going"
"You're both idiots. For the love of God why did we use this way to get it? I mean obviously neither of you know your way in or out of this damn place. I just know we're going in circles"
All three voices sounded eerily familiar. I couldn't bring myself to breathe for fear that whoever it was would find me. I mean-if I could keep the element of surprise on my side I may have just been able to take on three people
"I can't shake the feeling we aren't alone…" I bit my tongue after the soft female voice sounded, far closer than it had been a moment ago
"And I think your imagining things. Listen even If someone else was in this labyrinth they wouldn't be able to get to us very easily, anyone here is as lost as we are and probably not nearly as strong" Came a stronger male voice, ugh these people… Their names were on the tip of my tongue! I stared in the direction of the voices as three figures became visible at the end of the dimly lit corridor
Oh my God…
Authors' notes
Chara: I know it sucks and Yup. I've been dead. don't worry though I'm writing this from hell
Haruka: Some serious Hiatus has been going on with Chara, Thanks to school, watching new anime, role-playing, and just plan laziness and procrastination
*Johan, Judai,Haou,Jehu,Asuka, Jim, Kenzan and the rest of the GX cast ignore us completely*
Chara: Go-men-a-sai! This time we aren't going to make any promises of updates anytime soon so wait another half year and maybe we'll get around to updating but this fic isn't dead yet
Haruka: Nor are any of our other fics
Chara: We are just too lazyyyyyy
Haruka: Also there's a new poll on our page, please go and vote
Chara: We'll update one of our GX chapters every three votes we get
Haruka: Thank you, and now to the corner!
Soul of an Elemental Alchemist: Johan: Hold on! Hold on! Why are you threatening me worse that you threatened Jehu? I'm gonna save him! Don't hurt me!
Judai: *Nods blissfully unaware of all the violent threats* Thank you for the reassurance!
Chrisandersenyuki: Jehu: *Blushes* what are you talking about? I have no ulterior motives! *Obviously lying*
Haou: What are you talking about? Forcing people to do things is nicer than threatening them and their family to do your bidding
Yuri n'chuka: Jehu: *Mutters spitefully about the fluffy comment* Yeah, Yeah I won't screw up
Chara: My new year's resolution to update failed ^^'
Ari-Chan and ReNA: Jehu: Yup! Now! If I play the hero maybe Haou will finally see how much better I am for him than Judai and we can finally have a frikking happy ending!
The KeyBlades Chosen: Jehu: Hey! That door is a worthy opponent! And I can totally help save Judai from Haou! Just watch me!
Luving Randomness: Jehu: I have a terrible feeling about this…
Haou: You can't replace me! I'm the king!
Jehu: *Grins* you keep telling yourself that, but I think she could if she wanted to. Then you and I could live in the country! And have three children! And raise them to kill the innoc-
Haou: *Whacks him over the head* Shut up stupid
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