Sorry it's so short; I just needed to let you know what Rose was really thinking. I have my GCSE's for the next two weeks so I doubt there will be many uploads. My last exam is on Friday 25th June and then I have the ball on Sat 26th and then the after party so I doubt I'll be in any state to upload on the Sunday. But, the Monday will be a great day! I will be able to upload like 10 chapters! Well, many not 10 but a lot!

Hey, for legal reasons I need to say that I own nothing. Richelle Mead owns the characters and everything else. All that is mine is the storyline of my continuation.

Anyway, enjoy...

Chapter Two

I love Dimitri, of that I am certain. But sometimes one person's love isn't enough.

I spent months searching for him, trying to keep that promise. I dedicated everything I had to find and kill him. I risked everything; I risked the lives of everyone I love, Lissa's life, and for what?

I had gone to Russia – I had tracked and hunted him to help him – to kill him if that meant saving his soul. Once I had found out how to restore his soul and keep him alive, I had done everything in my power and more to make that happen. How could he just throw me to the side as if I was nothing to him now? How could this have happened? Did he not love me in the first place, was it all a lie?

It didn't matter in the end. He doesn't love me anymore, and I am actually starting to doubt if he ever did. No, I know he did, just not anymore: Love fades. Well, not mine. Definitely not mine, Dimitri. I will always love you, forever and always, but perhaps now I realise my mistake; should I have just killed you?

He doesn't want to live anymore, doesn't have the will. He may have his morals back now but he can never be the same as he once was: He'll never be my Dimitri again. And he doesn't want to be.

I did everything to bring him back to me; he was my life – the only thing I ever wanted. He was my focus, my home. He was my reason for everything. He was the only thing I have ever wanted and now he didn't want me. What was I supposed to do? I have nothing, no one.

With Dimitri and Lissa only becoming closer, there was nothing else for me. Everyone had something, someone to live for, except me, with Dimitri alive again and his new found devotion to Lissa, neither of them needed me anymore, I had been replaced. Perhaps if I had just killed him, everything would be different, perhaps I could have moved on and Lissa and I would have been happy together, but no, I can't wish for that, I refuse to, I will not regret saving Dimitri, even if he doesn't appreciate it, I love him and for that reason, I can never wish him dead.

Lissa had her Guardian and a new best friend and that left me with all of nothing. So you see; it's not that I deserve this punishment – there was a reason behind everything I ever did – I just told them that because it was easier. It's just, there's no point in me anymore, that's why it won't matter when I die.

I hope you liked it, this was a little tricky to write because I have all these ideas for the story but I don't know what order to put them in yet but I'll try and get my mind sorted out so the next chapter is ACE!

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