Reviews are much appreciated! I'm sorry about any inaccuracies but I've only seen the movie and a couple of the episodes of the original series. I'm watching them all slowly but surely.

Uhura opened her eyes slowly but closed them quickly at the glare of the fluorescent lights in the sick bay. "Oh good you're awake." Said McCoy walking over to her bed.

"What happened? Where am I?" she said groggily trying to stand up. He gently pushed her back to a laying back position and adjusted the bed so she was sitting up.

"You're in the sick bay." Said McCoy checking her vitals. Suddenly it all came rushing back.

"Oh god… is the baby ok?"

"Well no-"

"Oh god- I can't- I lost the baby?" Uhura gripped her stomach and began to cry.

"Not exactly." said McCoy looking uncomfortable.

"Wait if I didn't lose it then what's wrong?"

"There is no baby." Said McCoy looking at the ground.

"Wait." Aid Uhura pulling her hands to her head. "I'm missing something. You just said I didn't lose the baby."

"There wasn't ever a baby." Said McCoy. "You were suffering from something called pseudocyesis." Uhura looked at him blankly. "Your body for whatever reasons mimicked the symptoms of pregnancy. You had a hysterical pregnancy."

"Then a hysterical miscarriage." Said Uhura her voice unemotional and flat. "So basically I'm crazy." Tears ran down her face but she seemed not to realize they were streaming from her eyes.

"No you're not crazy. Due to some emotional stress you're body felt it necessary to mimic the symptoms of pregnancy. It's more of an endocrine disorder than psychological-"

"How many people know I'm here?" said Uhura cutting him of flatly.

"What?" said McCoy disconcerted.

"How many people know I'm here?" repeated Uhura starting to sound more frustrated.

"Well Gaila, me, Kirk-"

"Why the hell does Kirk know I'm here?" said Uhura sitting up straighter.

"He carried you here." Said McCoy starting to look uncomfortable again. "Apparently you walked into your room and he was there with Gaila and when you passed out he carried you here."

"Great." Said Uhura clenching her jaw.

"And Spock." Finished McCoy.

"Spock knows I'm here?" she said looking up her eyes wide.

"Yeah. He went looking for you and went to your room. Apparently Kirk blurted it out." She rolled her eyes.

"Great." She said again.

"Would it make you feel better if I told you Gaila nearly broke his ribs she punched him so hard?"

"A little." Said Uhura her face setting impassively.

"He's been waiting here for you." He said.

"Kirk?" she said looking up confused.

"No Spock. As soon as he heard you were taken to the sick bay he rushed up here. He's been sitting outside for six hours."

"Does he know what happened?" she said sitting up trying to settle herself.

"He knows you passed out and Kirk carried you here. He doesn't know anything beyond that."

"Why did I pass out?"

"High blood pressure and anemia." Uhura took a deep breath putting her fingers to her temples rotating them slowly closing her eyes. She slid her hands over her face then dropped them to her lap.

"Send him in." she said cracking each of her fingers in her lap.

"Are you sure?" said McCoy. "I could just tell him you're awake and to come back later."

"No." she said inhaling slowly. "Send him in now. Let me tell him what's going on myself though. Ok? Just let me say what I need to say." McCoy nodded then went into the next room to get Spock. Uhura looked up to the ceiling exhaling slowly. Before she had fully expressed the breath Spock was beside her. McCoy stood in the corner monitoring her vitals.

"Nyota are you alright?"

"Not really." She said her voice starting to shake.

"Is-" he glanced quickly at her stomach, then to McCoy. "Is… are you still-"

"He knows, you don't have to worry about telling him." She said looking at McCoy. "And I'm not."

"Uhura-"

"Look Spock I miscarried. That's what you wanted anyway so it's all fine." McCoy looked up his eyes shocked but he didn't anything. "You didn't want to have a baby and now there is no baby."

"I am sorry you miscarried Uhura." Said Spock extending her hand to rest on her arm. She did not make any indication of whether she wanted him to leave his hand on her or not so he left it there. "I know you wished to deliver the baby-"

"You never answered me." She said not seeming to have heard him.

"Answered what question?" he said looking confused which was an unusual expression for him.

"If you would stay with me if I had the baby or if you would have left."

"Well seeing as there is no longer a child in question I don't see-"

"Spock." She closed her eyes looking upward. "Just answer me. Would you have stayed?"

"If you had kept the child…" he paused. "Yes, I would have stayed."

"Really?" she said looking up her eyes shining. "Why couldn't you have said that before?"

"I hadn't properly thought through my response when you first asked. I have had considerable time since then to decide." He looked down at his hands now both on her lap then up to her eyes. "I would help you with whatever decision you made."

"Thank you." She said leaning forward and gripping his upper arm. "I know it doesn't matter now but it helps to know you would have been there for me." He leaned forward and wrapped his arms around her. She held him close her eyes clenched shut.

He rubbed her back and murmured over and over."Nyota, t'nash-veh veh ong goh." She held to him fiercely stroking his hair and neck.

"Uhura needs her rest." Said McCoy moving forward. "Spock I'll need you to leave in a couple minutes." Spock turned and nodded his consent and noted the odd expression he gave Uhura.

He turned back to her and she kissed him softly. "I'm sorry for all this." She said her lips a breath from his as he held her close. "I didn't mean to- and I-"

"Do not apologize, Uhura. You have nothing to apologize for." He kissed her gently again then pressed his lips to her forehead. "I will let you rest and visit tomorrow." He went through the door and McCoy passed him on his way in.

As the door slid shut McCoy engaged the hyperlock. "Why did you tell him you miscarried when you know that's not what happened?"

She sat back on the bed looking away from him. "I didn't want everyone thinking I was just some crazy girl who faked a pregnancy to keep Spock with her ok? Anyways essentially that's what happened, so what if some details changed?"

'Uhura-"

"Look if Kirk or Gaila asks, I miscarried. Got it?"

"Uhura-"

"Bones, there's no reason anyone but the two of us need to know the truth. I'd just like to preserve some of my dignity." McCoy looked like he wanted to argue but merely shrugged and left Uhura to sleep.

t'nash-veh veh ong goh- my one and only

I think I'm only going to write one more chapte rbecause I'm not sure if this can go much further without it turning WAY to dramatic.