For as long as he could remember, Noah Puckerman knew he was different.

Different you say? You see, Noah aka "Puck" as he was dubbed, HAS a lot of tiny secrets.

First there was his Dad.

He was the only one he knew in Lima, with a Dad that had decided to become a woman – and no longer wanted his children. So he left them to rot.

With his mother.

His mother who drunkenly got through work so she could pay the bills and mourn the loss of her so called husband; never really looking after Puck or

His sister.

Who was the real reason he signed up for those pool boy jobs, so he could get his sis some decent clothing. But that was all before...

Quinn

The girl he stupidly knocked up because he was a horny boy who couldn't control his basic urges. And the girl he loved secretly but could never have-

Because of Finn, his best friend.

The man he loved like a brother then screwed over for one night, just so he could feel wanted.

Oh how Noah wanted to be wanted.

Maybe it was envy that was the last straw on his back, envy that finally made him collapse not in tears but in dry sobs when no one was looking.

Maybe it was being wanted that made him push everyone away just so that he could actually see who saw through his bullshit.

Or-

Maybe it was both of those that made him so angry at life. That made Noah Puckerman cruel and mean. That made Puck pick up those nerds day after day and put those "suckers" into the garbage bin outside the school.

No, no those were the reasons he made fun of everyone else.

Because he could not and would not see what else life had for him.

And then he met Kurt freaking diva Hummel.

The boy that absolutely, fucking screamed with his eyes "Hello World", "I am a Grade A BITCH", and "You can do what you want with me- because I've probably already been through it."

A boy Puck later noticed was exactly like him- just not straight; and minus not being an eternal whore, better fashion sense and a complete asshole.

Kurt just wanted to be loved for who he was too, wanted to feel wanted.

Which wasn't all that bad- because who doesn't- except Puck couldn't stop staring at those eyes .

And then that added another tiny secret...

Noah Puckerman had a thing for blues eyes.

More specifically Noah Puckerman had a thing for Kurt Hummel.

And that only added to the secrets, because when you're the straightest man in Lima how does one explain such a condition to –

Well everyone.

And how does one go about telling one Kurt Hummel.