Okay, my family's officially gonna have a fit if they find out I'm writing this....

Oh well, I'm doin' it anyway.

Well y'all remember that "gay cowboy movie," Brokeback Mountain, right? How sad was it at the end when Jack dies? Yeah, I know. Have you ever wished it ended differently, that maybe Ennis had gone along with Jack's idea of them livin' together?

But he didn't, and then there's all that crap about their wives and yada yada yada, and then Jack dies and, well, that's the end of that.

Right?

WRONG!

Death ain't the end of anything, it's the start of a whole lot. The story goes on, half way starts over, actually, once you die. I've set myself to tellin' this half of Brokeback Mountain, from "the other side," if you will.

First of all, a bit of vocab: Multiverse: many universes on one plane (not quit sure what that means, really, but just bare with me here, a scary-smart eleven-year old explained this to me for an hour, and that's about all I got figured out for sure). All of the worlds of this multiverse feed here, to the Kingdom. You name 'em, they dead, they here. Seriously, one of my friends is taking fencing lessons from Joan of Arc.

Made-Angel: somebody who's died and then come here, like Joan, or Poe, or Jonathan Larson, who's in the second phase of their existence.

Born-Angel: somebody born here, like me, who's an Angel for their entire existence. We don't get a second chance.

Got all that? Good.

Secondly, by now, most everybody you'd know from BBM (get used to the abbreviation, people), book or movie, doesn't matter, is dead and so is here.

Third, I bet you're wondering who the frick I am. My name is Suzann Lauralai Twist. That's right, Twist. Quick explanation of that: Jack's my daddy. Laureen's my mama. I'm not quite sure what order all this happened in, as far as when people died, but I know Jack died first. I think.... Yeah, that's right. After him, Ennis, Alma, and Laureen all died, in one order or anther, for various reasons. Ennis and Alma never even thought about getting back together, that dynamic got itself so fucked up there was no chance of it ever getting worked out. In the long run, that may have been for the best though. But, my daddy and mama did get back together, really only long enough to have me though. They split 'cause Jack met back up with Ennis, and the whole "y'all don't go up there to fish" type of thing happened again; old habits die hard I guess. When my mama found out about all this, she was not happy whatsoever. Anyway, Jack and Laureen broke up, Ennis picked Jack back up, they moved in together and got married. Sounds pretty much like Jack's original plan/fantasy/idea thing, no? All he had to do to see it realized was die. Lovely.

I was still a baby, so I had to stay with Mama.

Even when I was real little, I'd visit my daddy. He and Ennis live on a joint ownership ranch/farm way out on the edge of town, they own the ranch part of it. The farm part is owned by this other family, the Magnells, and a woman named Teiah Grover owns the rice fields that go along with it.

The Magnells have a daughter just a couple years older than me named Cissy, she's been one of my best friends for as long as I can remember.

When I was younger, I couldn't stay the night at my daddy's if Ennis was there, it was against some kind custody agreement. I hated it! I just didn't understand what was so wrong with my being there at night when my freaking stepfather was too. I mean, I do now, but that's not the kind of thing a six or seven year old would realize.

But it drove me nuts, I just wanted to spend time with the other half of my family. I always liked Ennis. He's a little gruff sometimes, well a lot of times, but he's funny (at least I think so) and, somewhere behind the cowboy hat, beer bottle, and coarse facade, he's a genuinely sweet caring man. Somewhere.

Well, when I was ten, I got into a fairly major fight with Mama. It started with my friend Zazu telling me he was gay. I told Mama, and she kinda freaked a little, I never imagined she'd take it like she did. It just snowballed from there. I got real upset and I ran away to the only place I could think to run away to: Daddy's ranch.

I remember Ennis answered the door when I got there, it must have been almost midnight. I kinda jumped up and through my arms around his neck, cryin'. I must have nearly strangled him, but he'd dealt with his own girls in another life and he just picked my up and went and got Jack.

I told them about Zazu and about tellin' Mama and the fight that had ensued. I said I didn't wanna go back to live with Mama if she was gonna judge my friends, I meant it too.

Well Daddy knew I'd been fussin' with Mama for a while, so he made about a zillion phone calls (I swear that's a number) and got some custody stuff rejiggered. It took a couple weeks, but everything got worked out so I could live them and its been that way ever since.

I'm seventeen now, and I go to school in town a ways. Daddy gives riding lessons and Ennis does the same kind of farm work he always has, 'cept it's for himself now, and he works with the local mounted law enforcement some. Daddy seems to hate my boyfriend (he really doesn't though) and I keep reminding him that he wasn't much older than me when, ah, how to put this nicely, he first got to know Ennis. It just bugs him more, but my point is, I'm plenty old enough to have a boyfriend.

But, yeah, as I kinda already said, Daddy and Ennis don't know I'm typing this up, so I'm sittin' here with my laptop eating some kind of Asian take out (I've officially decided it doesn't quite pass as Chinese) while Daddy shows a bunch of fifth graders how to saddle a horse without getting themselves hurt or killed and Ennis chases down our runaway goat (her name's Daisy-May, she likes to climb trees).

You're probably real tired of listenin' to me rant, but a promise, this entry's just a introduction-type-thing. From here on out I'll be recording days in the life of Jack Twist's daughter. At least the more interesting ones.

A/N: Okay, at the point in time I wrote this I had neither read nor seen BBM, so please excuse anything in this chapter that just doesn't seem to work. I just read BBM today (it takes less time to read the book than watch the movie) so now I actually know what I'm talking about! Yay!

I did just go through and edit based upon my new found knowlage so I think everything okay.

Obviously, I own nothing BBM related, if I did I don't think I could have killed Jack....

Comments and questions in reviews can be directed at either me or Suzann. Those that are directed at Suzann will be answered in character.

Happy fanfic-ing!