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AN: So, I started this as a one-shot. The ending left it open for a continuation. I didn't intend that to happen. It just kinda did. Please review and let me know if it's total crap or not. Also, if you want to read more of this story and think I should continue, let me know. So, on with the show.

"Because she let me."

"You're kidding me, right?" Penny yelled as she walked into Leonard's apartment behind him. "That's your reasoning. You jumped into bed with another woman a week after we broke up because she LET you? How many have there been who didn't let you? Did you just go out after I dumped you and start propositioning women?"

"Hey, that's completely unfair," Leonard yelled back. "Maybe that didn't quite come out right, but you have no right to judge me."

"I'm just saying, you apparently fall in and out of love pretty damn fast. If you were even in love with me to begin with."

"How can you even doubt how much I love you? I have been infatuated with you since you moved in across the hall. I was in love with you after our first date. The very first one, when you asked me afterwards if it was a date or not. I was still in love with you after our second first date. I loved you when I left for the North Pole. I was in love with you when I was standing out in the freezing cold catching a damn snowflake for you. But I held it in. Forgive me if I thought after being in a relationship with you for eight months, I could finally clue you in to how I felt. So don't you dare doubt how much I love you."

"Then why did you fuck the first woman who looked your way?"

"For starters, I didn't proposition her. She came into my bedroom and took off all her clothes. She's like a physics goddess. If Brad Pitt came into your room, got naked and said he must have you, you would have done the exact same thing."

"Because she's famous is not an excuse, Leonard."

"Then maybe it just felt nice to be wanted for a change."

"What do you mean for a change? I wanted you, Leonard."

"I was the one that pursued you for two years. I have always been the one to pursue the woman and I nearly always get shot down and crushed. My first real girlfriend defected to North fucking Korea to get away from me. Leslie used me for sex, not that she and I had any real future. Stephanie and I never had a chance because I was too in love with you. Then, after being shot down by you so many times and being led on, I finally get my shot with you. Everything is going great and then you go and pull the rug out from under me and make me feel like an unwanted piece of shit. So, no Penny, you obviously did not want me. And you don't get to judge me for how I am dealing with things. I'm sorry you found out about the one night I didn't sit in bed alone and think about all the things that happened in that room between us. I'm sorry you heard about the one night where it wasn't complete torture to lie in that bed."

"You think you're the only who feels like they're being tortured? You still have your friends to help you through this. You can turn to your best friend. My best friend is gone now."

"You can't get a hold of her," Leonard asked, thinking she was talking about a friend from back home.

"No, you idiot. You. You are my best friend. Or were. So now, I have to sit on my couch, eating ice cream and watching Star Wars alone. I can't talk to anyone about this because the one person who can fix my heart is the same one who broke it. So, don't act like you're the only one suffering. I have to "forget" to put gas in my car just to see you. Don't you dare think that I'm not hurting too."

"You've been watching Star Wars?"

"Yeah."

"And I'm your best friend?"

"Who else would it be?"

"I watched an episode of Sex and the City."

"I thought you hated that."

"I do. But I can imagine you laughing. If I can't hear your actual laugh, I just have to go off of my memories. Look, if it makes you feel any better, Dr. Plimpton was just using me. She's apparently some kind of sex maniac and I was an available penis. I guess she figured she had a better chance with me than with Sheldon, since you know, I actually have a sex drive."

Penny let out a soft chuckle at that. "But how hilarious would it have been to see her try to seduce Sheldon? Leonard, it doesn't make me feel better that she was using you. It doesn't make me feel better to know you're hurting."

"Thanks. For what it's worth, I can't talk to my best friend either. I wish I could because I miss her so much."

"I miss my best friend too." The two paused and looked at each other. "So, how exactly did you figure out Dr. Plimpton was a sex maniac or do I want to know," Penny asked to break the tension.

"She tried to initiate a four-way between her, me, Wolowitz, and Koothrapali."

"Please tell me you didn't do it because that's a picture I never want to imagine again."

"Of course not! How could you think I actually did it?"

"Well, she is a 'physics goddess," Penny joked.

"Trust me, nothing could make me do that," Leonard shuddered at the thought.

"I'm glad not everything has changed. Well, I um, I guess I should go."

"I guess so. Penny, you don't have to forget to fill up your car just to come over here. We miss you during Halo nights. I miss you. So, whenever you want, you can always come talk to your best friend."

"Thanks, Leonard. I don't know if I'm ready for that yet. But maybe I'll start coming over again to hang out with the guys. I'll see you around."

"See ya."

Penny closed the door behind her. It was going to take a long time, but Penny and Leonard would eventually find their way back to each other.