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NAMIMORI MIDDLE SCHOOL ROOFTOP [4:00 pm]
"I love you, Gokudera"
"W-what?"
"I said that I love you, Gokudera!"
"Do you really know what you're saying, you fucking baseball idiot?"
"Just tell me whether you like me or not, Gokudera."
"Y-you're a guy, I'm a guy, and we're both guys! Do you understand that?"
"Just say it Gokudera, just say it!"
"Okay, fine! I hate you; I really, really hate you! Are you happy now, Yamamoto?"
"…"
"Why can't you open your fucking mouth? Why aren't you showing your freaking smile, huh?"
"G-Gokudera, do you really hate me that much?"
"Isn't it obvious, idiot? Well, let me say it again and clearly… I hate you!"
February 14
Dear stupid diary,
Guess what, its Valentine's Day… also, the day that Yamamoto (baseball idiot) confessed to me. Do you know what I feel? Let me tell you, it's Fucking stupid, although I can't consider it as a feeling…
If I could only describe myself in that situation, is that I'm an idiot. Why is it so? Well, I'll give you the reason… I rejected him. I don't know why, but I think I could guess three hints: one, we're both guys, two, I can't express my feelings with him, and three, because I'm too obsessed and in-love with him which makes it the worse. But still, I can't hide the fact that I'm in-love with him and I can't stand myself without noticing him even I could only show him my negative personality. I still want to see him smile that 1000 watt smile that he always show, being able to spend some time (of course, I'm using the tenth for him not to notice it), to call my name, and to call me as his best friend (or as someone special). Well, it's already late, I'm still thinking if I'm attending school or not tomorrow. I don't want tenth to worry about me. But I don't want him to worry more if I'm going to school but avoiding Yamamoto (baseball idiot).
Signed by: Hayato Gokudera
NAMIMORI MIDDLE SCHOOL [7:45 am]
"Oi, Tsuna! Good morning!"
"Ah, Yamamoto-kun, good morning. Say, is Gokudera-kun here already? He didn't come and see me this morning."
"…"
'Snap it out, Takeshi there must be other reasons why he's not here yet.' Yamamoto can't help himself thinking about it. How couldn't he? He might be the reason.
"Um… Yamamoto-kun, are you alright?" Tsuna asked worriedly.
"E-Eh?"
"A-are you okay? You seemed so space out. Did something happen to you?"
"N-Nothing, I'm just tired from morning practice. Are you asking something Tsuna? Sorry, I didn't hear it."
"Is Gokudera-kun already here? He didn't come and see me."
"N-No. He's not yet here as well."
"Yamamoto-kun, I'm already worried about him. What if something might happen to him?"
"Come on, Tsuna he might be late. You never know, he might just oversleep. There are still 10 minutes before our class started."
"Yeah, you're right. I'm very happy."
"Happy? I thought you're worried?"
"No, I mean happy because we had a good friend like you. You're always there to comfort us whenever we are in trouble."
'Sorry Tsuna, I'm not a very good friend. If I could just tell you everything…'
NAMIMORI MIDDLE SCHOOL ROOFTOP [12:00 noon]
It was already lunchtime and Tsuna can't stop worrying at Gokudera. No matter how many times Yamamoto cheers him up, Tsuna can't help himself.
'I guess I have no choice, I have to fix this problem on my own."
"Tsuna."
"Yes, Yamamoto-kun? Do you need something?"
"I'll go to Gokudera's house to check on him."
"But what about your baseball practice?"
"Gokudera is more important. I need to know what's bothering him; that's what friends are for, right?"
"Thanks, Yamamoto-kun I really thank you for your concern. I could always count on you."
"Don't worry, I could handle it."
GOKUDERA'S APARTMENT [4:30 pm]
Yamamoto knocked at the door for six times and yet, no one's answering. 'I have no choice; I have to go inside by force.' Before he pushed the door, he noticed it was not locked. "He must have forgotten to close the door." As Yamamoto closed the door, he went upstairs to go to Gokudera's bedroom. As he opened the bedroom, he saw Gokudera sleeping in his bed. 'He looked adorable while he's asleep.' He looked at his room once more. So, this is his room; he saw bookshelves on the walls, a small study table and… a diary? 'Gokudera has a diary? Now that's what I haven't seen before.' Yamamoto thought of reading the diary since Gokudera's asleep. He looked at the diary once more. Written in the cover was 'HAYATO GOKUDERA'S DIARY… BEWARE!" He chuckled lightly not letting a single voice come out. As he opened the diary, there was a warning written in uppercase letters; "WARNING: THIS IS A PRIVATE PROPERTY OF HAYATO GOKUDERA HIMSELF. NEVER EVER READ IT, OR ELSE BE READY FOR A DEADLY PUNISHMENT!"
'He really is scary.' Once again, Yamamoto chuckled. He then started reading the diary without hesitation. From the time he met Tsuna and him until they came back from the future, everything, every little thing, he made sure he has summarized his entries in the diary. Until he noticed a folded paper at the center of the diary. Once again, he looked at it. Also, this folded paper has a warning which is similar to the warning on the first page of the diary. The warning is also written in uppercase letters; "WARNING: THIS IS THE MOST PRIVATE PROPERTY OF HAYATO GOKUDERA HIMSELF. IF YOU REALLY TRIED TO READ THIS, I'M SURE OF IT THAT YOU WILL NEVER COME OUT OF THIS HOUSE ALIVE!" 'So, I will have a deadly punishment and will not come out of here alive because of reading his diary? Scary!' without hesitation (again), he read the entries. But this was different from others…
December 25
Dear stupid diary,
Hey, it's Christmas! I spent my Christmas with the tenth and his family since I don't have anyone to spend it with me and also, my sister is here. I'm really happy that I had a lot of gifts (even though it looked many because of those stupid and freaking fan girls!), but I really loved the gift that tenth gave me. Do you know what it is? It's a scarf. I loved it because the color of the scarf is red and it also has my name on it. I'm really happy. By the way, another thing happened and this made my heart beat faster than the fastest car! This is what happened: Yamamoto (baseball idiot) gave me a present. Not just that, he told me that it's a special gift for me. So, I opened it… I was surprised on what this idiot gave me: a jacket. He also told me that this jacket reminds him of me. Well, I kind of like it. It has my favorite colors (red and black) and when I wear it, it makes me comfortable and warm with it. But saying this kind of things make me a bit of nervous as if I could faint in too much emotions. I think I'm having a different feeling with this idiot ever since he told me those things. You might say I'm not saying this, but… I think… I'm in-love with him… badly.
Signed by: Hayato Gokudera
Yamamoto's eyes widened and without even noticing it, he's blushing. So, he continued reading the next entries. He noticed that each entry (all of them) has a part where he puts his feelings at him. Every entry, short or long has been everything about what happened between him and Gokudera. He also noticed that as the days have passed, his feeling for him has deepened. And he also noticed that there was only one more entry he hasn't read.
February 14
Dear stupid diary,
Guess what, it's Valentine's Day… also, the day that Yamamoto (baseball idiot) confessed to me. Do you know what I feel? Let me tell you, it's Fucking stupid, although I can't consider it as a feeling… If I could only describe myself in that situation, is that I'm an idiot. Why is it so? Well, I'll give you the reason… I rejected him. I don't know why, but I think I could guess three hints: one, we're both guys, two, I can't express my feelings with him, and three, because I'm too obsessed and in-love with him which makes it the worse. But still, I can't hide the fact that I'm in-love with him and I can't stand myself without noticing him even I could only show him my negative personality. I still want to see him smile that 1000 watt smile that he always show, being able to spend some time (of course, I'm using the tenth for him not to notice it), to call my name, and to call me as his best friend (or as someone special). Well, it's already late, I'm still thinking if I'm attending school or not tomorrow. I don't want tenth to worry about me. But I don't want him to worry more if I'm going to school but avoiding Yamamoto (baseball idiot).
Signed by: Hayato Gokudera
Because of his surprised look, he had dropped the diary which made Gokudera awaked in shock.
"Who the hell are you and why are you in my ro-." He was stopped when two arms wrapped him. He struggled but stopped when he heard that familiar voice.
"I love you Gokudera, I always have."
"Y-Yama… I-Idiot! Don't you dare hug me! I hate you!"
"I don't care you hating me as long as you know how I feel about you and it won't ever change!"
"I don't care of your stupid fucking feelings! Let go of me!"
"No! I won't listen to you anymore! I know everything!"
"W-What do you mean you know everything?"
"I mean this!"
Yamamoto took the diary and showed it in front of Gokudera.
"Are these true?"
"What are you talking about, idiot?"
"Is it true that you have feelings for me as well?"
"I don't… know."
"Stop messing around with me, Gokudera! I'm being serious here!"
"Can't you see, I'm serious as well, Idiot!"
"You're not…"
"What?"
"You're not serious… I can see it. If you think hiding you're feelings at me is the best way, then be it! But Gokudera, you can never run away at me."
"…"
"I'll be counting 1 to 10. If you didn't tell me how you really feel, I'll be avoiding you until you tell me everything. Because… I will do everything just to know the true feelings of the person I like."
"I'll start now… 1…"
"…2…"
"…3…"
"…4…"
"…5…"
"I'm waiting, Gokudera… 6…"
"…7…"
"…8…"
"…9…"
"…10."
Silence…
"So, you don't want to tell me… okay, I'll be going then."
Before Yamamoto came out of the room, two arms circled his waist. He turned at Gokudera.
"G-Gokudera, you're crying."
"I love you." Gokudera muttered.
"G-Gokudera…"
"I love you… Don't ignore me again… I still want to see your 1000 watt smile that you always show, being able to spend some time with you, to call my name, and to call me as your special someone… I want to be… loved by someone badly as badly as you. Please… I don't want to be ignored by the one I loved. I can't take it… I don't want to be… alone."
"Gokudera, I…"
"Can you still forgive me? I didn't mean to say those harsh words to you. I'm just shocked because you suddenly confessed at me. "
"I forgive you… I'll never leave your side again, I will never ignore you. Because… I love you too, Hayato. "
"Thank you Takeshi, for loving me."
THE END
Aya-chan: Sorry... I Failed... Everyone's VERY OOC here! (T_T)
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