Hey everyone, sorry it's been a while for the update. I have an English Literature A2 exam coming up soon; so obviously I have been revising my ass off! I'm really enjoying writing this, but ultimately it is for your pleasure so could you please review for me so I know this is fulfilling its purpose: suggestions, what you would like to happen and so forth Thank you awesome fans!

Kaname had lapsed into a state of conflict. After spending the entirety of the last two days on his throne of guilt, he had braved the storm and strived to fight his mental war. He was torn between ruthless desire and morality. Two days in rancid squalor he had dwelled, barely clothed, his eyes maintaining a squinting glare at the emptiness blinding him.

Hunger stirred like an untamed beast within his loins and in the very pits within his stomach. Still to this very moment he sat, his arms gripped tight to the velvet arms of his chair. He was slumped as before when he had stumbled into Zero's room. Another quiet rumble of his fellow immortals rustling about his chambers could be heard.

He could smell their concern, their longing to be permitted to intervene and question Kanames sudden lapse into silence that disturbed them: such unusual behaviour for their normally charismatic and domineering leader. The rustling soon ceased as Kaname forced with his might the power of his essence to warn them if they attempted to invade his chambers.

He closed his eyes, even the tiny flecks of white under his lids danced under the guise of Zero's appearance. He quickly opened his eyes to the soft sound of knocking. His glare intensified and his aura became infused with unfamiliar malice. He didn't move, he simply hunched over more: his long arms and fingers outstretched appeared almost alien over the arms of the chair.

Hair clothed his face, yet the tremendous intensity of his glare was still visible beneath the many strands. He tensed. The smell of fear breathed through the cracks within the door. Kaname shifted his gaze to be faced with Zero. His aura shifted. His gaze became softened. The primitive atmosphere dissolved. Zero glared at Kaname, "sorry, but this is ridiculous." He crossed his arms in resemblance of child during tantrum. Kaname swallowed loudly and sighed utterly defeated; "what an atrocious mockery of a serious situation." Kaname retorted and began to shift from the chair, he groaned.

His elbows were situated on his knees as he massaged the roots of his hair away from his face. Zero sat down on Kanames bed and merely observed him. Kaname refused to even glance at him. Was this a display of guilt? Zero knew he was only longing for resolve in Kaname, Kanames behaviour right now was probably due to something not going right, or being denied an indulgence.

Zero made to stand "I'll come back when you decide to be mature." Kaname looked up; his eyes were heavy with a nameless emotion; tainted with the rawness of red. Aghast with surprise Zero could only stare with equal intensity at the fully dilated pupils. "Wait, Zero. Forgive me in this pathetic state, but I really think…we erm need…we need to discuss something. I'm…I'm sorry.' Zero's eyes scrunched in disbelief. 'I cannot apologize enough for what I have made you endure. I've despised you, humiliated you, I have driven you into a submissive state of nothingness.

I have drained you of your nectar; absorbed you're life and I still…I still continue to take anything I possibly can take from you. Apologies can never be enough, how can I make you or anybody else for that matter realize the true extent of how sorry I am! I want to pour it into you and make you understand! You see! There is still the sadist within me; it ruthlessly surfaces and I am powerless in the face of my own desire. I am truly sorry, and yet I still want to consume you, I still want to…I still want you." Kaname collapsed in the chair, his confession had exhausted him in his desperation to make his apology heard. Zero was utterly perplexed. The normal disregarding attitude of Kaname was nowhere to be heard or seen. The projection of his voice was a complex tang of emotions that wavered through the air filling Zero with confusion. Zero couldn't fathom a response: nothing seemed plausible in the face of such a sincere expression of guilt. He reflected on the many encounters he had endured with Kaname, the possessive nature of his obsession, the conflict in their personalities, the ruthless guilt that plagued him when his own sex was driven wild with any absence of touch from Kaname. How was one to respond?

To love the torturer and for the torturer to love, Kaname had gone back to being situated with his head in his hands. Zero again sat down on the bed and they both remained in their positions and merely listened and watched as time ticked by, neither making a gesture or a sound that signaled for the other one to talk. After time fled by, Kaname stood. His hair a wild mess of intangible knots, his stature was taught and carried little flesh; but the muscles were still predominantly evident. He simply walked towards Zero and sat down next to him on the bed. He gazed at the floor, absorbing the intricacy of whatever dirt or debris lingered on his normally pristine chamber. He then sat up, his back entirely straight and gazed at Zero. Zero pulled back slightly to meet the gaze, to meet the eyes that reflected the internal war within Kaname; the eyes that displayed a battleground of uncertainty and the enemy that was lust. Kaname lifted his hand and with hesitation gripped Zero's shoulder, he wanted to signal gentle nature and not anything of the imposing attitudes he had in the past bestowed upon Zero. Then, he gripped Zero into a tight embrace and so they remained until the tension separated them.

Kaname gazed back at the floor, his desire tugged at him to react, to take everything Zero withheld as an individual and make it his. It tugged greedily on his loins; the beast wanted to be fed. Kaname struggled to maintain his posture, to maintain his attitude. His face had contorted into struggle and his facial expression was one of intense pain. He gripped his stomach and projected a fit of hisses through clenched teeth. His head shifted from one side to the other and his eyelids took on the form of a prison for his eyes; as they clenched tightly over his sight. He pushed Zero back and leaped onto him; a predator now unleashed. He gripped Zero's throat and clawed at as much visible skin as possible. The fear Zero projected could be smelt by a mere human and the disgust in the lack of self-control this man possessed. Zero merely turned his head to the side, emotionless and waited until Kaname had taken his fill. Trembling hands ripped at his clothes as they were flung in no one direction.

Zero could feel the cold air informing him of his naked self, the cold exposure leering self-consciousness to the surface. His eyes were blank and waited for the inevitable grip on his manhood, the inevitable explosion of pain and pleasure to erupt from his bottom. But nothing of the nature occurred. Kaname was starring wide-eyed, his breathing a haggard mess of desperation and desire. "I, I, Zero…I" Kaname looked on in horror at the display before him. This wasn't supposed to happen; he had tried so desperately to gather all his self-control. "Zero, I can't, I'm so…' Zero glared up at him "the word 'sorry' cannot ever come from your mouth; it is an empty word where you're concerned. A word you couldn't possibly understand. If you had any ounce of control, any ounce of respect or compassion for my person…this simply wouldn't happen. It would be natural to know that this isn't how relations with people function. I will not allow raping me again and again; as you know Kaname, this is effectively what you have made me endure for countless months. I lo…care for you Kaname and until you understand yourself and get to grips with reality, I can't even be a friend to you."

Zero moved from the bed and made for the door, anger surged through him and deep, clawing hurt. How could he have allowed himself to even believe that Kaname had control over his primitive nature? How could he have been so desperately and pathetically foolish? Kaname leapt of the bed behind and dragged Zero back by his hair, he shoved him face first onto the bed, so his bottom and back remained fully up within the hair. Kaname gripped the base of Zero's neck with harsh need. Kaname thundered in rage: "You think I have no control! I will show the knowledge you lack, I'll show you lack of control and then maybe you'll see that what you have received is my gentler nature!"

With that Kaname clawed viciously at Zero's skin, pulled his hair, raised his back and bottom higher so Zero was forced to stand on tip-toes. Kaname laughed, the laugh pulsated with a perverse and dark undertone. He again made to humiliate Zero by starring intensely at everything Zero exposed. He pulled at pieces of skin, observing everything. He then swung the struggling Zero around; taking a tight hold of his jaw he pulled it open and forced his manhood into Zero's throat. Zero rasped. He was in utter panic. The lack of remorse in Kaname deeply and simply…frightened him. Zero gasped for air, his lungs accelerated. Kaname dragged him onto his knees and held his wrists high above his head "I'LL MAKE YOU SEE" and with that he began to attack Zero.

Pain surged through all of Zero's physicality, Kaname was hitting him: Kaname…was. Zero erupted into sobs; he was in fetal position by Kanames feet. Bruises taunted his face, his body. His exterior was a pulp mass, a physical demonstration of Kanames true nature. He would have to carry around the reminder. Kaname then grabbed Zero's hair and threw him onto the bed; his eyes possessed nothing but carnage. He again forced Zero to consume his manhood, he watched in a fit of lust and laughter as Zero struggled to breath, struggled to keep his organ within his mouth.

The spluttering only acted further as a lubricant. Kaname pulled away and then shoved himself back in again; allowing Zero a small intake of air. Zero's face was red, his eyes streamed, tears fell from his face and trickled over his skin. Zero fled for the safety of his mind, the loneliness; the anguish…it seared and teased. The love he felt quickly burned to ashes, the love became a corpse he quickly buried. Kaname then flipped Zero over and rammed everything he had, every ounce of strength. Zero screamed and flecks of white clouded his vision. Surely his body couldn't tolerate this?

Kaname had opened several parts of his skin that bled freely. His hands were clasped behind his back, Kaname remained laughing, the squirming and the obvious hurt only provided more fuel for his desire. Kaname paused for a moment; his whole body was wrapped in a sheet of perspiration. He yanked Zero's head back and licked the open wounds. Zero flinched as he felt Kanames breath shift to his ear; "how does this compare to my gentle nature? Huh, Zero?' The breath held all the intensity undiluted cruelty 'which one do you prefer; my love." Zero attempted to shift from the grip on his neck "fuck you, Kaname."

Kaname shoved his head into the bed and muttered; "And I haven't even finished yet." With that he grabbed the nearest object resembling that of a phallus and twisted around Zero's anus before shoving it in, in its entire entirety. He then propelled himself in after the object. He continue to dig his fingers into Zero's wrist; tighter and tighter they coiled. Zero could only scream, could only express using his voice. His body couldn't move, he was utterly trapped, and then the ordeal ended. Kaname had erupted with deafening scream of lust. He still continued to pin Zero down and the expression still pulsated within his eyes; that look of pure atrocity. Moving of Zero, he stilled gripped his wrists tightly and flipped Zero onto his back. Zero merely lay, unchanged, he had sought comfort within his mind; he now danced in wonderland away from the harsh cruelties of the world. Kaname observed in silence, until pulling Zero onto his manhood. Zero felt the tang of metallic blood of himself invade his mouth and he was powerless against his distain. Kaname then threw him aside, as child does when a toy has completed its usage.

Okay long chapter as I made you wait so long for an update. Hope you enjoyed it! x