Amu P.O.V

I'm lying down, my back on the bed, looking up at him. Looking up at those dirty green eyes. We had been making out, but that wasn't out of the ordinary. No, at this moment, I was looking at him with tears bubbling up and spilling over, running down the sides of my face, dropping onto the bed sheets. I was begging him to stop, if that's what you call screaming out "No" when you had the chance to breathe and talk again. He had begun unbuttoning my shirt (the one day I decide to wear a button shirt).I pushed him off and tried to fix it, but he just forced me back to the bed. He kept saying it was because he loved me, but I wasn't listening anymore and I stopped fighting back. He's so mush stronger than me. I was just hoping he would be done soon

I woke up in a cold sweat. That damn dream has been haunting me ever since it happened. I sat up and looked at the clock, 5:30 am. Right on time. The clock went off. I slammed my hand down on it and turned it off. I got up and walked to the door. I walked out my room, down the hall and into the one next to mine. I walked to the crib and looked over the side.

"Well good morning Lilly." I whispered. I picked her up and brought her close to me. Oh she's so warm.

"How about we get you some breakfast. Huh?" She looked up with her beautiful, bright, emerald green eyes. How that happened I'll never know. He had dirty green, but I have honey gold. I guess it was a mix.

"Yea that's what I thought." I kissed her forehead and that adorable toothless smile broke out across her face. I walked out of her room and walked down the stairs into the kitchen. I walked to the fridge and grabbed a pre-made bottle. I am so grateful for my momma.

"Hold on, hold on. I almost have it." I said because she started to squirm. I took the bottle to the microwave, set for 30 seconds, and sat with her in my arms.

"Beep – Beep – Beep"

She heard the beep and really started to squirm. I swore she knew what was coming. As I grabbed the bottle I stuck my finger in to check the temperature and then screwed the cap back on.

When she was about halfway through the bottle, I was just about to burp her when momma came down stairs.

"Good morning momma." I said patting Lilly's back. On the third pat I got a good one.

"That's my girl." I whispered.

"What you doing up so early?" momma asked.

"I couldn't go back to sleep when I got up at 5:30. So I decided to give her a bottle." I said setting her back in my lap for the rest of the bottle.

"Well it's your first day at that new school. You should go get ready its 6 'o' clock now." She said going to the fridge and grabbing the egg carton, cheese, and a packet of bacon.

"Ok momma." As I got up and brought Lilly to my chest, momma turned to look at me.

"What?" I asked when she didn't say anything. Plus she had this look on her face.

"I never would have thought you would be such a good mother."

"Oh." Wow I don't feel like such a good parent.

"But when she was born and was handed to you, the look in your eyes was like you found the light. And seeing the way you act around her, you're more of a mother than I was when I had you."

"Oh." Wow that was a turn around.

"Now I can see shes getting tired again and you need to go get ready for school." She said turning around again to get breakfast ready.

"Ok." Before I did anything I real quick gave momma a kiss on the cheek and then walked upstairs. I walked to Lilly's room and to her crib and was about to put her down when she held tight to my hair and started crying. She looked up at me and started to make a noise. It sounded like 'm'. She's only about a year old so I don't expect a word yet but sounds are good. I smiled and I could already feel her grip on my hair to loosen.

"Do you want to watch mommy get ready?" she was still sniffling so I started to walk to my room.

I set her in the bouncer I had in my room. I walked around my room picking up cloths from last night and put them in my hamper or picking out cloths to wear today. Every once in a while I would look at Lilly and she would be watching me with her eyes, her mouth still trying to make the 'm' sound. I thought it was so cute. From what I learned about the school, the guys had to wear a uniform but the girls didn't. Don't ask me why it's just the way the school is. Stupid if you ask me. I mean why a uniform if not everyone will wear it? But either way it saves me from a major migraine. I wouldn't mind a uniform but it just means I have to spend more money than I'd like. I got out a jean mini skirt that ended in the middle of my thigh. Next I got out a cute baby blue tank top that said 'You can look, you just can't touch!' And just as it happens it sits right over my size D cup breast. But it's not like I can help how big I got. I also can't help that I'm 17 and I'm a mom. Well maybe I could have if only I hadn't gone out with him or given her up for adoption. But I can't change the past now. And when it comes to Lilly I wouldn't have it any other way. I slipped on my black zip up hoodie. The design looks like it has al kinds of blue patches but really its just meant to be that way. I zipped it up half way so you can still see the writing on my shirt. As I was putting in my favorite hoop earrings I was also slipping in to my black combat boots. Then to top off the look I put on a baseball cap that says 'Hot' with a set of different blues. I turned around and picked Lilly up.

"So does mommy look good?" I asked, knowing that I won't get much. But I got a smile and some drool on my hand.

"I'll take that as a yes." I kissed her forehead as I grabbed my bag and walked out my door.

"Amu, can you get Ami up and tell her breakfast is ready?" momma yelled up the stairs.

"Sure momma." I walked into Ami's room and boy was it a mess. As best I could I walked over to the bed where there was I big lump. I shook her shoulder? and she ground at the other end. Oh that was her butt.

"Ami, breakfast is ready. It's and omelet with bacon and cheese." I told her. She shot right up.

"Ok, I'll be down in a minute." She said jumping up out of bed. Then she gave Lilly a kiss as she was on her way to her closet.

"Alright." I walked out and down the stairs with Lilly still in my arms.

"Amu. I told you to put her back down." Momma said while flipping out an omelet from the pan.

"Sorry but she grabbed my hair and started to cry." I said while putting Lilly in her seat at the table.

"You spoil that little girl to much." She said with a smile which I took as a comment not a scolding.

"How can I help it? She's mommy's little angel." I said picking her back up.

"Ma." Lilly said right as Ami came down. I looked down at her and couldn't help but smile.

"Did she just say 'ma' or was that you?" Ami said pointing at me. I was about to answer but momma cut in before me.

"Lilly did, oh she said her first word."

"Awwww." Ami said sitting down across the table from me.

"That's my baby girl." I said hugging her closer to my chest.

"Ok, ok. Now that she said something I think we need some breakfast." Momma said putting a small pile of eggs and an omelet on my plate.

"Thanks momma." I took a strip of bacon and popped it in my mouth. I took a little bit of egg on my finger and blew on it. I put it to my lip to check how hot it was. As it cooled I put it to lilly's lips. At first she didn't want it but as I was pulling my finger away she opened her mouth and leaned toward my finger. As I was pulling my finger out I was taking a bite myself. And from the way she was moving I think she likes eggs.

After I was finished eating I walked upstairs and put her in her bed. As I do every morning I sang a small song to help her sleep.

You are my sunshine

My only sunshine

You make me happy

When sky's are grey

But oh please

Oh please

Don't take my sunshine away

As I was finishing her eyes were drooping and I knew she was really tired. I kissed her forehead and whispered I love you Lilly and set her down. I walked out the door and down the stairs. I grabbed my bag, my cell, and my keys and walked out the door. I walked down the driveway to my cute black mustang convertible with blue flames front end. I got in, turned on the car and radio and buckled up. It was only 7:10 so I decided to stop off and grab a Pepsi and a pack of gum.