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DISCLAMIER ; I DO NOT OWN DARKEST POWERS SERIES

I guess I fell back asleep..

I woke up to see Simon watching me.. but I wasn't creeped out.. He was watching me, to make sure I was ok.

I sat up, not saying a word. i leaned back against the headboard.. I patted next to me in the bed and Simon climbed in next to me. I was close to crying, and for once I didn't want to hold it in... so I didn't. I let it all out.

As soon as I started crying Simon grabbed me and pulled me into his lap, holding me while I crying.

"it's going to be ok Chloe.. It is ok.. shhh... don't cry.." He mumbled in my ear. After I was done crying I became furious.

How could he just up and leave?

How could he leave his family?

How could be leave me!?

I was so mad that I started crying again.

I got so fed up that i threw one pillow across the room, and i grabbed the second pillow screaming my lungs out into the pillow.
I forgot that Simon was there untill after I was done screaming, I felt like such a fool.

"Oh, S-S-Simon.. I'm s-s-sorry..." I mumbled, he just chuckled and hugged me.

"It's ok Chloe, we all have to have a way to vent." He said. He then pulled out some paper and envelopes, what the heck?

"I got an idea when you were sleeping.. as a way to get your anger out.. or, atleast try to.." He said, "You can write letters, to Derek. He wont get them, but you could pretend he does. You can tell him everything you ever wanted to. Only you will read them, unless we find Derek to give them to, if you want."

I was about to protest.. but then I thought it was a good idea...

I wanted to start writing a letter right away, and Simon noticed, so he left my room so I could write in peace.

Dear Derek:

I told you I love you... and you leave.. you leave me all alone...

You leave your dad and brother all alone.. You're usually so selfless Derek.. What happened to you?

You completley changed..

Yet... I still love you..

I can't stop thinking about you.. Or dreaming about you..

Atleast in my dreams you actually said 'good-bye'

It hurts to know you couldn't even say it to my face.. a letter.. a short, heartless letter...

but yet.. I still love YOU. I LOVE YOU DEREK SOUZA.

And I am NOT afraid to say it,

-love always... Chloe Saunders.

I sealed the letter in an envelope and left it blank.

I got up and stuffed the letter in my bag, so no one would find it..

I sat back down on the bed, too tired and sad to do anything else.