Prisoner

Kyouyama Anna walked slowly towards the fence, wanting to see the outside once more. She had no idea what day it was or for how long she stayed in that place. And she didn't really care. Her parents were probably dead already and she was all alone. She didn't care anymore. She was only waiting for her time to die, the time they would lock her in the room that no one came out.

She did that every day; walked to the fence and take a look outside, imagining how it felt to be free; how it felt to be happy. It's been a long time since Anna last smiled. She had no reason to anymore, she was a prisoner, waiting for her time to die. She had no one, no reason to live, no one to live for, and nothing to look forward to. She would only go to the fence and imagine how it could be like.

Today would be no different, she thought as she walked, looking at her dirty bare feet. But as she got to the oh-so-hated fence, the fence that divided her from her happiness and freedom, and looked up, she saw him.

He was a boy, about her age, on the other side, staring at her. He had brown chocolate hair and eyes of the same color, wearing wooden sandals. He was also pale and thin, with tired eyes that seemed years older than he actually was, but unlike her, he wasn't dirty, he wasn't injured and he had a smile upon his lips. And he was on the other side of the fence.

One day, some place,
One of the prisoners
fell in love with a girl outside the fence
So sad... feel so sad...

He waved at her, with that big smile, and ran towards the fence. Anna was scared, to say the least. It's been so long since she had seen someone on the outside, since she seen a smile directed at her. She didn't know what to do.

Looking down she tried to calm herself. No one has ever showed her kindness for years, and now this strange boy on the outside appeared. It wasn't right. She was a prisoner, she didn't deserve to live. That's what the guards always told her. That's what she heard on the streets before her and her parents were found and separated.

But at that moment she didn't really care. She always imagined how it was to be on the outside, and someone from the outside was there, just for her. Smiling for her. Anna felt a funny feeling inside of her, a warm feeling that started on her heart and then expanded through her entire body. She felt the urge to smile for unknown reason.

No, she knew the reason. It was that boy, who was still standing there, looking at her with a smile. Finally she looked up to see that he was sitting down on the grass. Grass, that's what they have on the outside, not that dirt that stuck to her feet. He was carrying a backpack and looking for something, every now and then looking at her, with an apologetic smile.

Curious, she also sat down, and stared at the boy as he continued his search. He had a funny frustrated look on his face, a cute look, one that almost made Anna want to laugh. She almost forgot who she was or where she was. Almost. She knew that the two of them lived different lives. She was a prisoner, living inside the fence. He was free to live outside.

Deprived of freedom,
I'm persecuted
Between you and dirty me
There is a gap... a gap

Finally finding what he wanted, he threw his backpack to the side and started writing something on a notebook he found. When finished, he ripped the page off and folded into an airplane and ripped another page, folding it into a small square and placing between the wings of the paper plane. He also put the pencil he used to write between the wings, and when done, he took a few steps back, before throwing into the air.

She looked up, following the airplane with her eyes, her mouth slightly opened in awe. It was then she realized that the small paper plane was crossing over the fence. Standing up, Anna ran towards the direction the plane was landing, never taking her eyes off it. The chocolate haired boy stayed where he was, watching the scene with a smile, looking quite amused.

Finally she was able to catch the paper plane, and sat down on the dirt, in front of the boy once again. She took out the folded paper and the pencil, and opened up the paper plane. It was a letter. A letter from the boy to her.

"You are really cute, thought that sad face doesn't suit you, you know. I bet if you smile you would be the prettiest girl in the world!"

It was a simple a letter, but enough to bring happiness to Anna once again. So that was how it felt to be happy again. She couldn't help but smile, the warm fuzzy feeling taking over her entire body.

A second later she heard the boy laughing. Taking out her eyes from the paper, she saw the boy laughing. He then pointed to the corner of his lips, and Anna understood he was referring to her smiling, probably wanting to say he proved his point.

She frowned and grabbed the blank paper and pencil and wrote something:

"You're lucky, if I could reach you I would slap you hard for laughing at me and having the nerve to call me cute. I would slap you with my left hand. That's my good hand."

Anna then folded the letter into a paper plane as well, putting the pencil between the wings. She repeated his actions, taking a few steps back before throwing it over the fence. The boy stood up and ran, following the plane. It was a sight to see, that silly boy running around, trying to guess where the plane would land, tripping a few times.

She laughed at him. It almost seemed like nothing else but the two of them existed. Them and that fence.

He finally grabbed the airplane, opened and read the letter. He laughed again and ran towards his note book, ripping off two pages before writing in one of them, folding into a paper plane. He folded the other piece a paper into a square, and repeated the procedure from before.

"Such a cute girl and yet so violent." Read the letter "But it won't matter. Even if you slapped me it wouldn't change the fact that you are cute! And I was right, you are even cutter when smiling!"

Frowning again, she wrote her reply, and throwing a new paper plane over the fence. The two continued doing that for hours.

I wrote a letter and folded an airplane
As we cross over the wall between us
Go fly! Go fly!
Ah, I can also become free
One day

Anna found herself staring at the boy when he wrote his letter. She felt happy again, after such a long time, the prisoner felt happy. She tried to remember when was the last time she felt like that, like she wasn't alone. It was before she got sent to this place, when she had her mother and father. When she felt loved and loved back.

She hugged her knees as she waited for another one of his paper planes. Maybe it was weird, but right now, talking to this boy, she felt like she was free as well. He wrote to her, making her forget that she was a prisoner and didn't have a future. She only wished that the fence wasn't there, so she could be by his side.

Another paper plane flew over the fence. Anna ran to get it, her heart beating fast. She only knew this boy for a few hours, and yet he already managed to make her feel like that.

"I don't have a mom either, and my father works all the time." He wrote "But I have an older brother. He is always doing things for me. I wish I could destroy this fence and free you, then I bet I could see you smile all the time."

Anna sighed and started writing her reply:

"The fence only separates us. It wouldn't matter if you destroyed, after that I would have no place to go and no one to be with. I wish I could be free like you, but I wouldn't have anyone. My family is gone and even thought I would be free, I would be lonely. It's confusing, I wish I could free, but at the same time, I'm scared that I'm going to be alone."

Then she threw her paper plane to him. She noticed that while he read the letter, he frowned.

His reply brought tears to her eyes:

"What are you talking about? You're not alone! That's not true! You have me! I'm here for you, even thought there is this fence separating us! Don't think that, please. We're friends. You have someone, and that someone is me! And it's not true that you would be alone when free, I would be there, by your side. So please, stop thinking that! I'm here with you, and I know it's not the same as freedom, but I can always tell you about what goes on here on the outside, so you won't feel as isolated. You are not alone, keep my letters, and I'll always be there with you."

Anna smiled and looked up. He was also smiling now. That feeling of happiness, of having someone… Anna wanted that day to last forever.

"You are so cheesy, can't you be more original?" she wrote "That was really cliché of you, but I appreciate it. Just don't expect me to be this nice every time you start talking nonsense."

When he read her reply, he laughed. His laugh was beautiful; Anna could just stay there listening to him laughing all day. And she felt like what he said was true. She had him, and as long as she kept his letters, she could imagine like she was free as well. Free like him. She could imagine the two of them, running on the grass together, no fences around.

She knew it wasn't possible, but just imagining such a future, a future she could share with him, made her feel happy.

A lie...
It's a lie...

They stayed exchanging letters for the rest of the day. Sometimes they joked, sometimes they were serious. Some letters were only a few sentences short, and others took the both side of the pages. Anna treasured them all, no matter the content or the size. She was happy.

The boy also seemed happy. He smiled at every letter she sent him and laughed every now and then. He would stare at her when she was writing, just like she did with him. Anna wished that this time she was spending with him would last forever, that the day would never end.

But soon the sun started setting, and it was becoming hard to read and write. Anna knew soon she would have to go back, and leave the boy and this moment behind. Soon this moment would be over, the hopes for a better future over, and she would have to go back to reality. She is a prisoner, and he is free. They live in two different worlds and can't be together, that fence is permanent reminder of that.

Soon another paper plane came, this time with no folded square or pencil. Anna felt her heart ache, a suffocating feeling invaded her body as she opened her letter. The last letter.

"I'm sorry, but I have to go back now. I wish I could stay here with you longer, but I can't. But don't worry, I'll be back tomorrow."

I'll be back tomorrow. It was incredible that it only took those words to make the suffocating feeling and heart ache go away. She was happy once again.

Looking up she saw the boy putting his notebook back into the back pack, along with the pencil. He folded the letters carefully and held on to them. As he stood up, he looked at her and smiled. She could read on his eyes, she knew he was thinking 'What? You thought I was not going to back? You're so cute when you're surprise, you know that?'.

He waved at her, and ran towards the woods, looking back every now and then. Anna stayed there, looking at the place where he was, again, shocked. He would come back. He would come back for her.

She held the letters close to her heart and smile. He would come back, she would see him again. The happiness she felt couldn't be described in words.

Anna couldn't wait until tomorrow.

I know that

She hid the letters under her clothing, running back to the building where she slept, worked and lived. There were other girls and women walking around, being mistreated by the masked guards, wearing expressions of pure despair on their faces. Anna was one of them before that afternoon.

She ran to her room, being careful not to be seen. She didn't want the guards to see her yet. She had to put the letters in some place safe, some place they wouldn't find them. If they saw her with the letters they would probably burn them, or tear them apart. Then they would do something horrible to her.

Anna remembered one time when she forgot to bow when the guards were passing. The kicked her, and then tortured her. She was lucky that she came out alive. It took her months to heal.

Finally finding her room, she went to the bed she shared with 4 other girls, and looked for the loose brick on the wall. When founded, she carefully folded her letters and putted them inside the hole, placing the brick back soon after.

"What are you doing there?" asked a voice coming from the door. Anna saw the doors one of the masked guards on the door. He went into the room and grabbed her by the arm, dragging her by the arm. He didn`t care that she fell on the floor and that he was walking so fast she couldn`t stand up.

He threw her on the yard again, then kicking her, in front of all the others. He then turned around and left.

Anna stood up with difficulty, brushing the dirt off. She was used to it by now. Sure, it hurt. A lot, actually, but she was used to it. It was something that happened in almost every normal day.

But today wasn`t a normal day. She looked over at the fence, smiling slightly. And yesterday wouldn`t be either. His words… We're friends. You have someone, and that someone is me! Made her feel special.

"Anna-san…" called a pink haired girl, coming close to her. "You sure look happy."

"Don`t be silly Tamao." Anna tried to hide her smile. She didn`t want the others to know, maybe they would tell the guards. You couldn`t trust anyone in that place. They put themselves firsts, and gave away anyone, if it meant that they could live another day.

Tamao was three years younger than her, and one of the girls she shared a bed with. She had arrived a few months ago, really knew, but because of her personality she was already broken, given up hope, like the rest of them.

She sat down on the dirt, and kept looking at the fence every now and then. It must be evil, but she wished he was the one there by her side, not Tamao. She wished to be with him, to be by his side.

"NO!!!" They heard someone yell. They saw the guards dragging a green haired girl by her arms. Everyone watched in silent. They all knew where she was going to: The Dark Room. No one ever came back from there.

If you stay by my side, even lie
I believe they will be true, all of them
Please come over here and talk to me
But this will never convey my feelings

The next day Anna woke up earlier than usual. The eagerness from the day before turned to anxiety. What if he didn't show up? What if he forgot about her? Why shouldn't he? She is just a prisoner, a pathetic orphan girl on the inside of that fence.

Maybe she should just not go, find some way to avoid the guards and stay inside. This way she could still believe that he showed up, without risking having her hopes crushed by the cruel reality of the world. She wouldn't be able to take it if he never showed up. He finally gave her hope for a new beginning, a new life with at least one person that care about her. If he didn't show up, she would be back to how she was before. She didn't want that. She wanted to have that boy by her side. She wanted him so love her, to talk to her…. She wanted to be loved and needed. She wanted a future with him.

But even with those doubts, she still went to the fence, slowly, her head down the entire time. Even thought that only made her heart beat louder, she wasn't ready to know yet if he had came or not. It was really quiet on the other side. She feared the worst.

And that's when a paper plane landed a few inches away from her feet. She looked up and saw the boy, standing there, sitting on the ground, with the notebook by his side. He was there.

When he finally got her attention, he pointed to his feet, obviously trying to tell her to pick up the paper air plane. Looking around, to make sure no guards were coming, she grabbed the paper airplane, sitting down on the floor, took out the pencil and the folded piece of paper that were on the wings of the plane, and opened.

"Finally you're here! I have been waiting a long time, thought you weren't coming." That surprised her. He thought she wasn't coming? "You walk really slow, did you know that? Oh, and keep your head up next time. I want to see your pretty face and your smile, not your hair!"

Anna looked up and saw the boy, smiling at her. Holding back a smirk, she answered him back, and quickly sent the paper plane over the fence.

"Are you saying my hair is ugly?"

Even so
I look at you
For tomorrow, my small Happiness...

It had been months since their first meeting. They repeated their routine every day, never growing tired of each other's company. Anna looked forward to it every day spending hours imagining her smiling brown haired boy waiting for her, with a funny letter already folded into a plane, ready to fly.

And she kept every single one of those planes. She would hide them in her clothes and hide them behind the bricks close to her bed. When the first brick was full, she loosed some other ones, and hiding them carefully, so they wouldn't be damaged.

She would read them again and again, holding them close to her heart. It took her some time to figure out she loved him, for she couldn't remember how it felt to have something special to her. Him and those planes… It wasn't the same, but when she held them, it felt like he was by her side, holding her hand and smiling. When he described the outside, it felt like she was there with him, watching everything. Those letters created the illusion that the two of them could be together. The only happiness she had during day.

"Tell me how is the forest behind the fence." She had asked some time ago.

"It's beautiful! I wish I could take your hand and show it to you! I know, imagine this: Green everywhere you see! Life everywhere! Harmony and happiness! It's so peaceful! You can hear the birds and some river far away… And you can smell something in the wind that is so good, but I don't know what it is! Maybe it's just the healthy earth and the fresh air… But it's so good! It gets your lungs full and you don't grow tired of it! When you look up you can see the trunks from the trees and the leaves and even the blue sky with the clouds! It's beautiful! And then the river has such clean water that you can see the fish swimming! I wish that you would go with me there, and we could play in the water together."

Anna smiled as she reread the letter with difficulty. There was little light coming into the prisoners' room, but that didn't stop her. She would read those letters, live the things he told as if she was there, clinging to the joy and happiness those letters gave her.

They never spoke out loud, always by the planes. Words could be lost and forgotten, getting mixed up with all your old memories. But those letters, those paper planes… They could be treasured. They could be with her forever, and she could read it again and again, in the exact way he wanted her to read.

They never got to close to the fence either. Maybe it was just because they needed distance to throw the planes, or maybe because if they were so close to each other, talking to each other, the guards could hear. Or maybe it was because their bodies could never cross over the fence. Their bodies could be close enough to touch, to see, smell… They could be close enough like many other people who are free, but the fact was that there was still fence between them, dividing them. But the paper planes could go over that fence. They could do what their bodies couldn't, going over the fence, being able to go outside and inside.

She loved him. She loved him so much… He was everything to her. Her partner, her only friend. The only person who still cared for her. He stayed with her even though she was a prisoner. He was the only person she had left, the only person she loved… And when they were apart at moments like this, she had his letters. They were the link between the two of them.

Some day
Some more month later, every day since then
Your paper airplane is my
Joy... My joy...

That day started out like all the others. Anna couldn't wait until she met with her boy, the one who lived outside. She walked, her head up, trying to stop herself from smiling. She didn't mind the rocks hurting her feet or the fact that her clothes were dirty. She looked at him, waiting for him to throw the paper plane.

He smiled at her, not a big one, and stood up slowly, throwing the paper plane. She didn't hesitate and ran towards it, jumping so she could grab it in midflight, and then going back to her spot, sitting down and starting to read.

She smiled at the first letter. As always, he wrote the first letter teasing her about something. Now he teased her about her temper, asking if the reason why she was so late was because the bright happy sun didn't go well with her crabby mood of always. She knew he was only joking, and replied with one of her own, asking why the hell did he always have a stupid smile on his face.

And soon they started their routine again: He was writing the letters, folding them into paper plane and then throwing over the fence; Anna running towards it, grabbing it, sometimes in midflight, sometimes when they were ground, writing a reply and throwing back to the outside. For some reason he was walking much slower that day, but Anna didn't really care. They were together, and that's what mattered.

They talked about many things that day. Sometimes they would be teasing each other, other times they would talk about something that was happening on the outside, or he would ask her how she was being treated on the inside. He wouldn't talk about his personal life though, which annoyed her. The only things she knew about him was that he lived close by, and that his brother was covering for him when he came to visit her.

Even though they were talking like usual, something was odd. The sun was starting to set and he still didn't leave. It was odd, for he never stayed that long. And he was taking an awful amount of time on that paper plane. He stopped every few seconds to think about the words, something he never did before.

She was so curious to say the least, anxious to figure out what he was writing. And then he stood up, slowly, and threw the plane.

Smiling, Anna ran towards and again, grabbed it in midflight. Eagerly she opened the paper plane, only to have the smile on her face disappear.

"I'm so sorry, but I can't come back. I won't come back anymore. I'm sorry, I really am! I can't explain you the reason, but it's not because I don't want to. Believe me, the moments I spent with you were the happiest of my entire life. I think I never smiled so much before. When I'm with you I actually believe that we can have a future together, and that nothing can keep us apart, not even this damn fence. I'm sorry… But don't think that we are truly apart. I meant everything I told you in those planes… As long as you have them, is liking having a little bit of me with you. I know I think of that when I reread your letters.

I'm sorry, I wished things could be different. I wished I could get you out of there and we could go to the woods together, and ignore everything.

I Love You"

When she looked up, her vision blurry with tears, she saw him, back facing her, walking slowly to the woods. It was then she broke their rules:

"Wait, please!" he stopped, but didn't turn around to see her "What do you mean you're not coming back? You're my partner!" she held back a sob and clutched to the letter "Why not?! I kept all your letters…All of them! So carefully… You were the first one to make me feel loved again! I love you! Please… Please… Please don't leave me." She was close to crying, sniffing and closing her eyes tightly. No, she couldn't give up hope. He would come back. "I'll be waiting for you tomorrow, ok?"

But he just walked away, without ever looking back or saying a word to her.

But you suddenly told me
You had to go away, so
Bye-Bye! Bye-Bye!

Anna didn't want to believe him. She wasn't going to believe him. Maybe his parents found out about his visits, and now he needed a new way to escape. Yes, that was it… He needed a new way to escape. He would come back, she knew he would.

Why wouldn't he? They were friends! Practically lovers! He told her he loved her… And she loved him too. Yes, he was coming back. He had to. He just had to! What would she do without him? In this world where she was hated and persecuted, what could she do without him? For the first time in a long time she felt happiness and joy!

Before she was alive, not wanting to live but at the same time not wanting to die. She wanted to survive if possible, but also couldn't help but wonder when it would be her turn to go to the dark room. She had no hope, her life was constant pain. She was desperate, so close to losing her mind… But then he showed up. He brought her happiness.

No, he couldn't go. If he did her life would be back to the way it was. No, it would be worse. Now that she knew what it felt like to be loved, to love someone and to be happy… Having it all taken away from her would only make things worse.

He wouldn't go, Anna decided while she hugged the letters. They loved each other, he wouldn't leave her. He couldn't leave her.

"I'll wait until you return… Ok?" she said to her dear letters, closing her wet eyes and imagining his smiling face. Yes, she would wait for him… She would go back every day and wait for him. Because Anna loved him. Anna loved him more than anything.

That night many guards came to her room, trying to silence her sobs. She stayed up most of the night, until finally, at around 3 in the morning, she cried herself to sleep.

Ah, I'm suffering every day
And I'm still alive today, but
I've never
Cried so much

She came back every day. Every day Anna would walk to that fence, early in the morning and sit down on her spot, looking at the outside, waiting for him to show up. Every time she would imagine him there, smiling at her, and throwing her a paper airplane, apologizing and explaining he couldn't come for whatever reason. Than they would be together again, they would continue exchanging paper planes and everything would be back to normal.

But he never came back. She would stay there for hours, staring at the same empty spot, drawing random patterns in the dirt. Oh, how much she missed. How much she wanted him to be with her. Even if that damn fence was between them, if only she could see his smiling face, even though she knew she would eventually get killed in that place, she could be happy. If Anna could be with him, everything would be fine. They didn't have a future together, but that didn't matter anymore. She just wanted to see him again, just so her last days could be somewhat tolerable. He was her only happiness.

There were a lot of things she wanted to know. Not about the world, but about him. She knew nothing about her mysterious nameless boy. She just knew that he was special, that she loved him. Anna knew that he loved the color orange and that he had the most beautiful smile in the world. He was optimistic and could always make smile. But besides that… She didn't know anything about his life.

When she asked he told her that his life wasn't interesting, and changed the subject, teasing her about something that made her forget her questions. He never told her his name, and never once explained why he was walking close to this place. He didn't talk about his family. Only once he mentioned that he had a brother, and that he was covering for him. It meant that his parents didn't knew he was out, that he was coming to see her even though he wasn't allowed to.

He wanted to be with her. His parents wouldn't let him, but he still came. He cared that much for her. He loved so much that he would come back every day for her, just so they could write letters to each other. And Anna loved him the same way. She loved him even though she knew nothing about him, even though she knew that if she was caught, she would be killed.

But he wouldn't come anymore. For some reason he wouldn't come anymore. She would wait every day for months, but he wouldn't come back. Anna would wait there, feeling her heart breaking, as if another part of her was dying every second she didn't saw him appearing. He wasn't coming back.

Yet she still waited. And waited. And waited… Waiting for her nameless boy.

If you stay by my side, even with my bad destiny
I believe I can smile
I met you whose name I don't even know
I felt I had won the future

At night Anna would reread the letters. Some nights she would spend the night reading them all, others she would spend her time rereading just one of them, remembering how he smiled and the way he threw that plane. It was so easy to just close her eyes and see him there, running and throwing the paper plane, and slipping and falling, laughing as if he didn't have a care in the world.

It was so frustrating! She loved him so much yet she couldn't do anything but imagine his face! Anna was a prisoner, she couldn't get out of that place. She had everything taken from her, and now even her small happiness that came with that boy was taken as well. Why?! It wasn't fair!

She wished she could just yell his name over the fence, call for him, make the entire world know that she was there for him. She wished she could have escaped, digging a hole under the fence and followed him to his home. But she couldn't, she couldn't escape. She was a prisoner, and all she could do was wait. Wait, wait, wait and wait. Wait for him to come back. Wait for her happiness and for her joy. Wait for her death. Whichever came first.

"Anna…" she heard Tamao call her name, a worried look on her face "Why do you keep doing this to yourself?'

"You wouldn't understand." She replied, her voice only a whisper.

"Is he really that important to you? So important that you are willing to hurt yourself like this?"

"You wouldn't understand." She repeated, looking down at the letters. No, Tamao wouldn't understand. She doesn't know how it felt. She had no idea who he was and how happy he made her. She had no idea how frustrating it was to have to sit and wait. And she had no idea how it felt to be loved again.

"Why are you so sure he will come back?"

Anna couldn't help but smile at that. She was sure because of what he wrote in those letters.

I can't call you...
I can't follow you...
I can't get out...
I never will...

She was holding his letters, like she did every night. Everyone was sleeping. She could even hear the crickets outside. But none of that mattered. Just her, her letters and him.

What would he be doing right now? Did he thought of her as much as she thought of him? Did he read her letters just like she read his?

A smile appear on her face as she hugged the letters. She could almost see him. See his face, with that beautiful smile. She could almost hear the giggles he tried to hold when he read her letters. She could see his beautiful eyes, gentle and full of kindness.

Holding those letters was the closest thing to hugging him. He wrote those letters, those were his words, his thoughts. So as long as she had them, part of him would always be with her. She could almost feel him hugging her, accepting her into his arms warmly, showing her the tenderness she long forgot. She could almost feel him running his fingers through her hair and whispering those words to her. The last three words he ever wrote her.

Anna was so lost in her fantasy that she didn't hear the guards walking outside. She only noticed it when they were at her room, and two men grabbed her arms and dragged her to the hallway. The third one followed soon after, and in his arms were her letters.

Finally, my turn came
And you're gone
Now, I have no regrets in this world, but
My heart shouted "Why...?"

They threw her on the floor, kicking and laughing, before going to the side of the third one, who read the letters. No… He had her letters… He was holding her letters!

"Give them back!" she yelled, standing up.

They all looked at her with surprise. No one ever spoke like that to the guards. They knew what it meant. But yet here she was, a young, insignificant prisoner standing up, eyes who a few months ago were dead, burning with rage.

"I said give them back!!!!" she yelled, even louder, starting to run towards them, her fist ready to punch them.

But before she could do that, the two guards held her arms back. Yet that didn't stop her. She continued to kick and yell, trying to free herself from their grasps.

"You are in no position to make demands." The man holding her letters said.

"I don't care!" she continued to yell "Just give them back to me! They are my letters, give it back!"

"This letters?" the man asked, laughing. He turned his eyes to them and started reading, still laughing. But suddenly he stopped.

Anna continued to fight. Seeing that man… That disgusting man holding the letters he wrote for her with so much care and so much love disgusted her! How dare he?! He was too pure and too kind! He wrote those to her even though she was a prisoner! He loved her, and those letters showed it!

And yet that filthy man dared to touch them!

It was then that her heart broke into pieces. The man, in a quiet anger, ripped all her letters.

I want to live a bit longer
Now, I have no hard feelings
I just... In my last moment...
See you... Want to see you...
Miss you! I miss you!

It was like they had done that done that to heart. Like instead of ripping the letter into a thousand of pieces he had physically reached out that done that to her hurt. Surely such action was impossible, but that what it felt like he did. They had taken everything from her! Everything! Her family, her freedom, her will to live… And now they had destroyed her letters!

She watched them as they fell to the ground, so slow that she couldn't take it. Anna kicked and screamed, trying to free herself from the other's grasps. When she finally freed herself she ran towards the pieces of paper, not caring about the laughter that echoed all around her. How pathetic she must have looked to them. But she didn't care. Not at all. All she cared about was the boy who gave her those letters.

"that sad face", "world", "cute girl" she read. All parts of the letters she knew so well. Letters that now were pieces, the words that formed the sentences that warmed her heart every night she spent in this horrible place. "smiling", "father works all the time," "destroy this fence", "free you", "not alone", other pieces read. "here for you", "keep my letters", "be back tomorrow", "keep your head up", "Life everywhere", "together. She tried to gather s much as she could, holding the pieces close to her heart. Until one she had forgotten to pick up caught her eye.

"I Love You"It said. And that was enough. Anna let all the other pieces of paper fall from her hand and grabbed that one, with the four words that meant so much to her. I. Love. You. With those words in mind she ran towards the man who had destroyed her letters.

She jumped towards him. She punched him. She did the best she could to break that bird mask and make him feel pain. She wanted him to pay for destroying her precious letters and for ruining her life! Destroying all the happiness she had.

Happiness… How long has it been since she last had that? That boy… That boy was the only source of happiness she had. For so long she was almost a living corpse, waiting for the day of her death… And then he appeared. With his sweet smiles, his letters… He gave her strength to move forward. He made her hope for something better. He brought light back to her… Something she had long lost, he brought back.

And now she was going to die. She knew that, for she felt the other two guards grabbing her arms and lifting her up, dragging her to the room where no one came from. She felt herself kicking and she felt the tears falling… But in her mind she could only think of two things.

The boy and the small piece of paper in her hands.

The days spent with you did not return
Many sweet memories passed before my eyes
You gave to me one by one
The food for my mind in my life

They threw her inside, without a care. Her back hit the floor and she could feel her the pain taking over her body. They closed the door quickly, with a loud sound as the last light she would ever see was completely shut out of the room.

She couldn't see. Anna couldn't see anything, but yet she stood up and walked backwards. So this was it, huh? This was her end? She knew it was coming. She knew that sooner or later she would be the one inside this room.

So why did it hurt so much? Why? More than ever she felt overwhelmed with sadness. With despair. She never felt so alone before. Never in her life had she experienced something so strong as the realization that she was about to die… And die alone.

Alone because her family was already gone. Alone because no other person in that camp cared for her. Alone because no matter how much she tried to denied, her and that boy belonged to different worlds, and while he was free to see the wonderful woods and blue river, she was a prisoner in this darkness.

But yet she did not regret it. She did not regret talking to him. Anna did not regret going to meet him everyday at that fence and seeing his beautiful smile. The smile that could have warmed thousands of hearts, like it did with her own. She would never regret it, even if after he left, after he stopped coming, she was in much more pain than before.

Because during that short time, she felt like her life was worth something. Like she was important for someone… And like someone cared for her.

Weeds are swirling in the darkness
A beautiful flower blooms nearby
We both live in different worlds
But I desperately tried to reach her

She could still feel it. The small piece of paper with the words she treasured so much. A small smile appeared in her lips. The tears continued to fall but she did not care.

Now that she thought about, she really did not regret getting to know that boy. Yet, if she could only have one wish… Only one wish…

The smile disappeared and she felt her legs going weak. She felt her body falling as she started to sob. Why was everything so confusing? She was happy that her pain would end, yet she wished she could move on. She had no regrets, yet she wished for one last thing.

Was this death? Something so bittersweet?

Please God... If this is my last chance
I want to talk to her

If she could have one last wish… She wished she could talk to him, face to face, with no fence. She wished she could actually hear his voice. She wished she could see his smile… Just one last time, before she died…

Distantly she heard a small noise, and her body tensed up. She could smell it. It was not only air in this room anymore. There was something else. It was coming… Any time now.

In a small dark room that was closed
A sad voice reverberated through the room
My heart and breath...
Are in pain...

Her grip on the small piece of paper tightened. She brought to her heart and closed her eyes, waiting for the moment where it would all be over. Her body was becoming numb, and she could feel that it was becoming even harder and harder to breath. Now it was not only her legs that could not support her anymore. She felt her back hitting the cold floor, and even though her hair was everywhere, her right hand was still holding that small piece of paper, still holding it close to her heart…

If she could have one thing before the end… If Anna could have one thing before it was all over… She wished she knew… She wished knew what his name was.

At least...
I want to know...
Your name...

She could almost not hear anything anymore. The sound of the gas was almost gone, and her breathing was slow… The grip on the paper was very lose now. Her vision was now completely clouded, and she could feel her eyes slowly closing…

And as she did so, she could almost see it… That smile she loved so much.

Okay… What do I have to say…? Please don`t kill me!!! __ I know, it`s sad, but the song is sad! Besides, it wasn`t even my idea to write this! My friend Felipe, who I`m dedicating this fic to, told me to write it. I showed him the videos for the songs and he said it would be a good YohXAnna and asked me to write it. So here. He even got the lyrics for me! And yes, songs, as in plural. To the ones who don`t know, this is song is by Len Kagamine, and there is the companion version, by Rin Kagamine, which tells the story of the girl on the other side of the fence. Next chapter will be Yoh`s version, and since it is already done, I`ll publish it a week from now. See? I`m nice! You won`t even have to wait long! =DD

Please review! Oh, and I own nothing. Not even the plot this time.