Too Far Gone? Chapter 1, a four brothers fanfic

Ages:
Bobby- 25
Jerry- 21
Angel-18
Jack- 16
Tris- 24
Sam- 27

To Far Gone?

Chapter 1

Tris's POV

"Hey, Sam, hit me with another Yeager would 'ya?" I asked in a little bit of a daze from my last few drinks.

"Nope, no more." Sam said with conviction earning himself a glare.

I let out an aggravated sigh and puckered my lip out while giving him the best puppy eyes I could muster after the glare proved to be ineffective.

Sam frowned at me and rolled his eyes. "Tris, no is a no. You don't need anymore okay." I persisted with my puppy dog eyes. "You know, you try this shit every time and I'm still sticking with no."

I couldn't help but smirk and drop the pleading look. He was right. We played this game all the time and not once have I gotten my way. It's kind of become a routine. Every Friday night I come in, grab a few free drinks, beg Sam for more, he says no, and we spend the rest of the night talking about whatever.

"Oh, hey, watch this." Sam said as he nodded his head in the direction of the scarcely used stage where a few boys were preparing to play.

I sighed heavily and prepared for my ears to bleed as they often do when a band comes in to play. Sam never did have a good ear for music.

My thoughts were quickly thrown back in my face when they started to play and the lyrics drifted through the bar.

Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul?
Someone you don't know
Money it's no cure
A Sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?

We are dirt, we are alone
You know we're far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we're far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?

Turn a blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die Happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?

I don't care, you don't care
I'm bitter, you're angry.
You don't care, I don't care
You love you, just like me
I blame you, you blame me
I'm bitter, you're angry.
You don't care, I don't care
You love you, like me

Are you Ugly?

I was stunned. Everyone was. We were used to shitty background music bands. This blew our minds. Everyone was silent and then cheers broke out. I was still too shocked to say anything. My mind wasn't working. It was gorgeous that voice of his. He had the vocal cords of an angel.

They started a second song when the people in the bar pulled out their lighters and screamed for an encore. My ears were dying to be fed more of that angelic voice.

Sure enough the strumming of a guitar cued in and following it was that beautiful voice.

"In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders

I feel it in me
So overwhelmed
Oh, this pressured center rising
My life overturned
Unfair the despair
All these scars keep ripping open

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

In this hole
That is me
A life that's growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set; all darkens

Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal path-way to contention

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Are you
HAPPY?

Are you feeling happy?

In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
What's my release?
What sets me free?
Do you pull me up just to push me down again?

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Peel me from the skin
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone
Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost left with nothing

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost left with nothing"

Again everyone went crazy over the band and their amazing lead singer. It wasn't just his voice, but it was the emotion he put behind every single note, every single word, and every single strum of his guitar. You could see the emotions he put into his music fly gently over his facial features.

Sadly he exited the stage with his band and disappeared out the back where I'm sure he was then paid by Simon, Sam's money handler.

"Damn Sam where'd you find them? It's so unlike you to find talent!" I said with dramatized exasperation as I turned to face him.

Sam once again rolled his eyes at my antics and said, "He's my best bud's kid brother." A small frown eased it's way on his face and after a few minutes of silence and no explanation I prodded a bit.

"What's with the look? Shouldn't you be happy? That kid will bring way more people in here." I exclaimed.

Sam sighed heavily and replied, "He looked…off."

Tick tock and time goes by…no further explanation. "You want to enlighten me on what the hell that means or do I have to guess?"

"Jack, the kid we're talking about, hasn't been…doing so well recently. His brother, Bobby, suspects he's doing drugs again." He informed me before he picked up the phone on the wall and walked out of my ear shot. Damn him.

I thought about what he said though and I thought about the lyrics that the boy had sung so melodically. They were words of pain…if that's how the kid, Jack, was really feeling then hell I think I'd be doing drugs too.

"Don't hurt yourself."

I looked up to see that Sam had ended his phone call and was now standing in front of me with an amused look on his face.

"What?"

"Don't hurt yourself thinking to hard there." He chuckled lightly as I proceeded to stick my tongue out at him like the mature twenty-four-year-old that I am.

"So what was your phone call about?" I asked curiously.

"Just thought I'd tell Bobby about my suspicions."

I nodded my head and quietly wondered if that was such a good idea.

Jack POV

After about a twenty minutes of walking back from Sam's bar I entered my house. I wasn't too surprised when I saw Bobby sitting awake watching TV, but I had been silently hoping that he wouldn't be up. I mean me coming home late was excused since I had already gotten permission from Ma to play the gig at Sam's bar. The suspecting looks Bobby had been giving me for about a month though was a good reason for me not wanting him to be awake. Especially not right now.

"Hey Jacky, why don't you come in here a sec." Bobby spoke from the living room.

I took in a deep breathe and retracted my steps from the stairs and into the living room where I sat in the chair opposite Bobby.

Bobby frowned at me. "Come here you idiot." He said annoyed as he patted the spot next to him on the couch.

I rolled my eyes and took the seat next to him. He instantly grabbed my face and inspected it. When he let it go with an angry growl I knew I was in shit.

"Damn it Jack! I thought we told you to quit smoking that shit!" He starred at me, rage and confusion in his eyes.

I just sat there not saying anything, staring at the ground.

"You still doing that other shit too?" He asked after my silence proved persistent.

"No." I replied dumbly.

He turned my head up to look at him and stared furiously at me. "If I find out that you're lying to me Jack…so help me god…"

"Bobby just fuckin let it go okay?" I yelled in a whisper as to not wake up Ma.

"I'm not just gonna let it go Jack! You OD'd on pills and shit and you scared the shit out of us. Don't you dare think I'm just doing to let this go so it can happen again!" His voice softened for his next words. "What's up Jacky? Tell me why you're doing it?"

I stared at him for a long time. "It won't happen again. Now can I go to sleep."

I saw Bobby go to say something so I quickly cut him off and added, "You'll wake up Ma and you know she's been working hard hours." That shut Bobby up quick, but earned me a nasty glare.

"We're not done." Was all he said before he stood and stalked angrily towards his room.

I sighed heavily and curled up on the couch burying my head in my arms. My high was leaving and with all the new shit running through my head it was becoming increasingly harder for me to not just bust out screaming.

I drew one of my arms away from my head and dug into my pocket pulling out a few pills that I knew would send me off quick. I popped the pills carelessly and didn't even care enough to move up to my room. I was just too damn tired…of everything.

Bobby's POV

When I came out of the bathroom the next morning I noticed that Jack was passed out on the couch and Ma was standing in front of him with her arms crossed over chest. "Everything okay Ma?" I asked.

"I don't know. Look at his face Bobby." Ma said in a quiet tone.

When I looked closely at Jack's sleeping face I saw faint traces of tear tracks and I couldn't help but cringe. It was hard to watch my baby brother hurting. "Did he sleep there all night?" I asked.

"I guess. Poor baby, I just don't know what to do to help this time." She said with deep concern.

There was a long moment of silence where we both just stared at Jack's unsuspecting figure. Then I decided to share with her what I had found last night. "Ma, Jack came home high last night."

Ma nodded her head, not a lick of surprise on her face, just disappointment and worry. "Did you talk to him about it?"

"I tried, thought I'd talk to him after you leave for work and Angel and Jerry go do whatever they do." I said, my eyes not leaving Jack's still form.

"Okay, just be gentle with him okay, he's breaking and I don't want to lose him for good this time." Ma said quietly as she bent down to lay a kiss on Jack's forehead.

I smiled to myself at her actions. Jack just had no idea how much he was loved.

If you have any questions feel free to message me or comment! Oh and a fanfic friend said that she prefers that people not put lyrics into the story when a character sings a song. Please go to my profile and vote on your preference so that I can fix it in future chapters! I want to know what the majority thinks. Oh and I'm changing the direction of this story immensely and I've changed the title just so you know =] And I'm soooo sorry that I'm like the slowest updater ever, I've been going through some…stuff and I've just been too tired and stressed to write but I'm back!