Well, I'm gonna tell you this now. I have to rewatch the episodes all over again, but I've got the basics of it down. Forgive me if there is anything that they wouldn't/didn't say. Just tell me in the review if you find something wrong.

While it was great that I was able to get a good night sleep, for the must part… It still bugged me about how nice they were to me. I didn't deserve that kindness. I don't think I'd every think that I deserved it. Maybe over time of changing my past could fix that? I had to try. Just as I remembered, there was training going on. I watched as Cyborg went through the course and then it would be my turn soon.

"Terra, give it a try. It would be nice to see what you can do" Robin told me.

I considered doing it the same as before, but I was going from reform. I didn't want to. I wanted to prove I was better then before. I just nodded, putting on the goggles that usually hung around my neck. I nodded as I started to walk towards it. I know I had beaten Cyborg's time record before, but just barely. This time, I wanted to beat it with my new control over my powers. Granted, I still wasn't perfect. I made mistakes every now and then.

I had crashed the course before, due to lack of control, but I was fine now, for the most part. Though, it would probably be safer to stick with destroying some of the course so that I had something to go off of. I mean, it made Raven dislike me more, but I knew she'd dislike me for a while before things got better. I just hoped that they would soon. Before I knew it, I had already cleared the course. Though, I didn't pay attention and ended up stumbling off the bolder I was riding on. Guess who I ran into, too. Of course, it had to be Beast Boy.

"Whoa! Nice timing! You even been Cyborg's time!" Robin said.

"Yes, it was quite delightful" Starfire charmed in.

I couldn't help but to smile, my cheeks slightly warming up. I glanced to Raven. It was obvious that it was scorn on her face. I knew it. We'd be destined to fight for a while. Still, I wouldn't let her get to me. I would enjoy the time I had with my friends. They've cheered me on all this time, even when they found out my dirty secret. Beast Boy hugged me and it made me feel so much better. I hugged him back.

"You were great, Terra!" he said.

It felt so nice to hug him again. If there was anything I missed while I was wallowing in the darkness, it was Beast Boy. If anything, just to be with him without him pushing me away. I mean, he had a good reason to, but I was just glad to be with him again. It wasn't long after that when the alarm went off.

"Titans! There's trouble! Let's go!" Robin announced heading off.

This is what I was afraid of. This is when things went awry. As everyone started off, Beast Boy started, too. He stopped, looking at me. I knew what was coming. I knew I'd have to come along. I know that I wanted to prove to myself, more then anyone else. The others didn't know it yet, but I knew every single detail as to what would happen. Maybe not everything, but I knew more then they did. I wouldn't let Slade with this time around.

"Terra, come with us. I'm sure you would really help" he said.

As much as I wanted to say no, I couldn't. I wanted to stay away and avoid from ever becoming the corrupt and out of control person I was before. I couldn't do it. Beast Boy's gaze made that impossible. On the other hand, maybe I could prove that I can change. Either way, he won. I gave a small sigh, giving in.

"Alright, I'll do my best" I said to him with a smile.

We made our way to the area designated. Oh dear lord… it was that diamond mine… This was it… It was the moment of truth. Was it bad to admit that I was afraid? Not because of fighting, but more so of what I'd become if I failed. Still, I had to go in with a brave face. I don't think anyone noticed, thankfully. They were too busy fighting the robots that Slade had with him. I saw no signs of Slade just yet, but that was fine with me. Meanwhile, I did the best I could to help out. I ended up taking out quiet a few of the robots.

I was fighting alongside Beast Boy as I noticed where he ended up. Wonderful… it's where I accidently ended up hitting him with a boulder. Looking at the boulder I had now, I quickly threw it at a few robots. Sadly, my plan to keep it away from Beast Boy didn't really work. I kept mine away, but he was sent flying back.

"Beast Boy!" I yelled to him.

Of course… he was under the rocks. As much as I wanted to help him, the robots would get away. Slade would probably, too, but I was trying to keep my distance from him. The more distance between each other, the better it was. Still, I couldn't let the robots go freely. I went after them. This was really stupid. I went to crush the robots, but even though I have pretty good control on my powers now… I can't always be perfect. It did more damage then I wanted it to. I started towards the way I came from, but that's no good. The man I wanted to avoid was standing in front of me, staring at me. Crap! I did it again!

I tried so hard not to confront him, but here he was staring at me with such intensity. He had already blocked my way of escape. Well… this sucked. Even though I did so much to prevent this, it still happened. Hopefully, he wouldn't get to me this time. I overheard Beast Boy calling out for me, just barely. I would have loved to get to him, but as you could see, my way out was blocked.

I started to back up a little, lifting a good sized bolder from one of the sides and throwing it at him. Of course, it did nothing. My powers were faltering on me, and even if they weren't, there was no way something like that would take him out. Before I knew it, I had been darting to the wall.

"Impressive, Terra, but not good enough" he finally spoke.

While I was trying to adjust myself, I said to him, "Leave me alone, Slade."

"So you do know me. That makes introductions a lot easier" he said.

I had been trying to get up and take some of the rocks from the side to escape, but as if that would do anything. My goggles were cracked and broken at this point, but I'd find a way to fix it later… or get new ones. Still, I was foolish for thinking I could possible create an opening in time. I had to try something, though.

"I've been watching you for a long time, Terra. You're powers a great, but your control on them is poor" he casually carried on as if this was a tea party.

I didn't respond. I was far too busy trying to get out. Oh and… I have to point this out. Did that not sound like a stalker to you? Seriously! But I suppose that wasn't really important to bring up at a time like this. This is where my downfall started. No, it's where it sparked. My downfall started when I lost control of my powers. I refused to let it happen again. It would all go downhill from here.

"You know, you don't travel a lot because you like to see the scenery. You did it because all of those earthquakes, avalanches, and mudslides. They were all your fault, because you can't control your powers" he said.

I stopped trying to get out. He sank his fangs into me with that statement. On instinct, I chucked a bolder at him. I know! I know they were my fault! I ran away so many times because I was afraid. I didn't want people to hate me. Surely they would treat me as an outcast, had they known it was all my doing. That never seemed to leave me alone. I had a feeling it would always haunt me, no matter how much I tried to change. Last time, he had gotten her with that. Not this time. It was so tempting to fall victim to that again, but I didn't want to let things happen they way they did before.

"You're wrong! I can control my powers now!" I yelled at him.

"No, I think you're the one who doesn't seem to get it. Terra, I can help you. Those Teen Titans can't do a thing for you. I can help you have better control over your powers" he stepped closer, putting his hand out.

I wanted to get away. I wanted to slap his hand away and say leave me alone, but nothing would happen. I couldn't move. I didn't want things to end they way they did before.

"Terra, be my apprentice. I can make you stronger. They can't do a thing to help you. They wouldn't understand you" he said.

He'd done it. He'd thrown his pitch at last. I didn't want that though. It made me think back at so many horrible things I'd done before. I didn't want any of it! I noticed then what he had in his hand. That butterfly hair pin. I felt the side of my hair, but it was gone. Figures things would end up like this. I was cornered. I didn't want to go back to him, yet if I didn't… he would probably be able to kill me right where I stand.

"Beast Boy… Help…" I whispered to myself.

As if by magic, rocks flew forward from behind me. I turned to see Beast Boy in animal form. He was rhino right now. I went to look back, but Slade wasn't anywhere to be seen. Still, I managed to hear his message that he'd be waiting.

"Terra! There you are! Are you okay?" he asked, clearly worried.

I just sat there staring at him like an idiot. I was shaking a little, dropping to my hands and knees. I knew that this would be difficult, but I never pictured that I'd be this shaken. He had turned back to his normal form, hugging me. I couldn't help but to cry. Why did this have to happen to me? I wanted to help, but things were so difficult. I had so much to grieve about. I didn't deserve this kindness.

"It's okay, Terra. You're safe. Now… let's go, okay?" he asked softly.

I just nodded, rubbing my eyes. He helped me up as we started to leave. If anything, at least I'd managed to keep the mine in one place. After a while, Slade and his robots were nowhere to be found. We went back to the T-Tower. At least it was all over, for now. I had dodged a bullet for the time being. I had gathered my stuff and told them I should be going.

"You're goggles…" Starfire commented on.

"It's fine. I can get some new ones" I said to her, "Thank you… All of you."

"You're really leaving…?" Beast Boy asked, clearly hurt by the idea.

'Don't worry, Beast Boy. It hurts me more then it hurts you' I thought.

Robin didn't seem to say anything, but he was shuffling for something. I knew what he was getting. He finally pulled it out. It was a Titan Communicator. Oh god. This was the moment to try. Before, I had told Beast Boy the night that I couldn't sleep that I couldn't control my powers. He had promised not to tell, but this time things were different. I didn't tell him. I didn't tell him because I had no serious problems with controlling my powers. Before, I had thought he told them and then lied to me, but now he had no reason to.

"I understand that you can't completely control your powers, but we can work on that" Robin told me.

I stared at the communicator for a while. So… Beast Boy never told Robin…? Robin must have found out, then. It made me feel like an ass now. I'd hurt Beast Boy because I thought he had lied to me… I wanted to apologize to him, but now it would do nothing. Can't apologize to something that hasn't happened, right? I wasn't going to mess this up. I just smiled to him, taking it.

"Thank you guys so much. Are you sure it's okay?" I asked.

I should have said no. I should have run off, but I didn't want to. I wanted to be with them more then ever. Beast Boy hugged me all of a sudden. And it wasn't long until Starfire joined in.

"I am so glad that you are staying, friend" Starfire said.

"Yeah! It will be so great with you here!" Beast Boy added in.

"...You guys…" Cyborg said, finally hugging them, too.

"It's good to have you here, blondie" he said.

I started to laugh a little. This is what I wanted the most. I wanted to be accepted with them. I wanted to be with them more then anything. I might have even started crying happy tears. Robin was just smiling to us and Raven seemed uninterested, probably sickened that I was accepted. I figured as much. Still, she wouldn't ruin my time here.

I got my outfit for the Teen Titans and Beast Boy showed me where my room was. I knew where it was already, but I'd let him show me. He was more then happy to show me; ecstatic, even. I walked into my room, taking it all in. Maybe things would pay off in the end, but that didn't stop my fears about becoming Slade's slave again. I was so convinced I wouldn't be, but that fear wouldn't leave my gut.

"Welcome home" Beast Boy said before leaving me to go to sleep.

I gladly welcomed it, looking at my bed. This was my room. It was my room. I couldn't believe it. I really didn't deserve this. I really didn't deserve this. I didn't. Not after what I've done to them all that time. It…was really nice to be together, though. I fell asleep the moment I touched the pillow in sweet slumber.

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