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This one takes place during Breaking Dawn.
Pain
Alice's pov
I curled up hugging my knees to my chest at the furthest point in the house from Bella.
A steady pounding repeated over and over in my head, sharp pain lanced through my temples as fuzzy distorted images flashed behind my eyelids.
A pathetic whimper escaped my lips, it felt like my head was about to explode.
"Alice." Carlisle's calm voice echoed around the small space.
"It hurts." I whimpered, my hands came up to grip my hair.
"I know." he sighed understandingly and I felt his arms pull me up so I could lean against him.
"I can't see anything." I admitted feeling useless. "We're all tied to Bella and the….foetus." I wrinkled my nose, what else was I meant to call it? "Nothing makes sense."
"Alice." I heard the slightly reprimanding tone in his voice "Stop trying to see, you know it hurts your head more."
I sighed in defeat "What else am I supposed to do?" I asked softly "Rosalie's not letting us near Bella, Emmett and Jasper are researching all they can and not coming up with anything really useful. All I can do is sit around while my best friend…" I trailed off unable to actually say it.
"Then we sit and wait." Carlisle said softly "Bella has made her choice, if she believes everything will be alright we have to trust her."
I couldn't help trying to see the outcome and shied back as pain erupted in my head.
"Alice!"
I glanced up guiltily, Carlisle shook his head in exasperation.
"Sorry, force of habit." I grinned a little.
"What am I going to do with you?" he sighed softly.
I shrugged nestling closer into his comforting embrace. Silence fell between us, all I could feel was the steady thud repeating in the back of my head.
"Why do you think I can't see the…foetus?" I wrinkled my nose again.
"I'm not sure Alice." Carlisle murmured.
I winced again and sighed heavily as another spike of pain sliced through my head.
I pressed my forehead into Carlisle's chest with another moan.
"You're a doctor, make it stop!" I whined.
He sighed sadly and I felt his fingers probe over my head.
"I'm sorry Alice, I don't know how to." he said softly and I could hear the heavy guilt in his voice and felt bad for making him feel guilty. It wasn't Carlisle's fault my body was rebelling against me.
"It's ok daddy." I hugged him tight "It's not your fault, I'm sorry." I sighed "It just hurts."
"I know Alice, I wish I could help."
I nestled back into his arms "You are helping." I told him honestly.
He chuckled a little as though he didn't believe me.
"How are you feeling other than the headaches?" he asked running his fingers through my hair.
I thought about that for a second before answering.
"Uncertain." I could hear the fear in my voice, it might seem stupid but uncertainty about the future terrified me.
My whole life I had always had some idea what was coming, what was going to happen.
Things may have changed, some things had been prevented but I'd always been able to see the outcome.
This situation was new to everyone and I didn't even have my ability to help see us through it.
I had no idea what could happen in the next minute and the thought absolutely terrified me.
I clung to Carlisle tighter, I needed to be a little girl right now clinging to her father as he gave her false reassurance that everything would be fine, and I needed to believe him.
I needed my daddy.
"Everything will be fine." Carlisle said in his soothing voice "We have a plan in place to remove the baby as soon as it can survive without Bella. Then we turn her. It's under control Alice."
I relaxed at his words before making the mistake of trying to pull up the vision of Bella as one of us I had been receiving for years.
"Ow." I moaned pathetically.
I really wasn't learning!
Carlisle brought a hand back up his fingers slowly massaging my head.
Jasper had tried this several times and whilst it didn't really get rid of the pain it did make me feel a little better.
"How's Jasper?" I asked softly.
I was worried about him but I couldn't be around him at the moment, the helplessness and self loathing I knew he was feeling every time I winced in pain was too much.
I couldn't keep putting him through that so I just steered clear. But I missed him.
"He's worried." Carlisle answered honestly "About you, about Bella, about Edward, about the threat from the wolves, about the possible repercussions of the whole situation."
I giggled "So like normal then?!" I joked trying to lighten the black mood that clung to the whole house.
I sighed out in relief as my headache faded.
"Jacob's coming." I could hear the relief in my voice.
"And to think you used to hate the wolves blocking your views." Carlisle teased.
I huffed moodily "Right now I'll even take the smell if it means I can get some peace."
Carlisle chuckled as he hugged me tight pressing a kiss to my head.
"You gonna be ok?" he asked in concern.
I nodded "Yeah I'll be alright now." I assured.
"It wont be forever Alice." he murmured softly "I promise everything is going to be fine."
I knew he was lying to me there was no way he could know that.
For the first time ever my father had just lied to me, and I felt myself relax because despite knowing he had lied he was my father and I believed in him completely.