Jenny looked at herself in the mirror. Her hair was in a ponytail, a little bob at the top back of her head. She had just returned from the Snowflake Ball and all she could think about was what Nate had said.

"She lied? She went behind your back? So what?!" Nate's eyebrows rose with each question. "And for that she deserved to be publicly humiliated?" He added softly. Jenny's eyes wondered anywhere but near Nate's face.

"She's your friend…" He finished, seeming as if he couldn't believe what had just happened. Especially at the hands of Jenny. He blew out a deep breath and looked around angrily before locking his stare back on Jenny's face.

"You know, there's no reason for me to tell you this now but I wrote you this letter," Nate reached into the inside of his tux and brought out a crisp white letter, "after the fashion show… Telling you my feelings for you…"

Jenny's eyes widened and she looked wondrously at the letter. She shook her head slowly before picking up the pace, "I never got that."

"I know. Vanessa stole it." Jenny rolled her eyes as she looked away angrily. Her relationship problems began with something to do with Vanessa… "But she felt so bad about it. So bad she came and told the truth."

"Told the truth to who?! Just you? I wonder why she had no problem coming to you!" Jenny's eyes finally snapped up to meet Nate's for the first time this night.

"You know what? I'm honestly glad that you didn't get this." With this a small smirk grew on Nate's face. "You're not what I thought you were."

"Oh, yeah? What am I then? Am I any different from you or Vanessa or Blair?!" Jenny was getting angry yet she didn't want to lash out at Nate, the one guy that seemed to understand her once.

Nate sighed and pushed past her, slowly making his way towards the exit. Before he walked out he turned around and looked Jenny right in the eye, "You're much worse."

"How could I ever be worse than you?" Jenny whispered to herself as she looked around, trying to keep the tears at bay. She blinked quickly and looked up, willing the tears to go away as they built up.

No matter how hard she tried she still reduced herself to tears, tears that blurred her whole vision and life. She let out a little sob and turned around so that she could leave. She felt like such a fool, trying to humiliate Vanessa like that and getting what Nate thought she deserved thrown at her face. And she had felt right about him.

And, as of yet, everything she had once felt right about went downhill without a second thought. Was that her future? To have her life messed up?

Before she could even try to think up of an answer she willed her legs to move and soon she found herself outside in the fresh air.

Her sobs continued as she waited for a cab to pull over. It didn't take too long for someone to see that she was in some kind of trouble. She had barely managed to get into the cab once one had pulled over because of her tears

"Where you headed?" The cab driver didn't feel like asking the girl why she was crying so he just stuck to the basic question.

He stepped on the gas after she had told him her destination and with that Jenny fell back into her restless being.

The petite girl reached back to release her hair from the ponytail and suddenly she wished that it was long again. She wished that she was still the same person she had been when she first arrived to the Upper East Side. Back then she had been a little girl who needed her brother to protect her from people like Chuck Bass. Back then she couldn't have gone shopping in the right stores, back then she wouldn't have made any real friends and only now could she see that she should have stuck with that side of herself. Yet back then she had thought she'd be liked ore this way.

"Jenny, dinner's ready! And we have guests!" Dan's voice reached Jenny's closed bedroom. She sighed and wondered what today's occasion was.

"Just a second!" She wiped harshly at her mascara that had run down her face from when she had last cried. She had spent a few minutes crying after she had had a nightmare about the letter from Nate. She had felt like it would go on and on until she finally got over it but that was the problem… She didn't know how to get over him.

Before she finished wiping away the mascara her bedroom door opened and Dan came in.

Jenny quickly turned away so that Dan wouldn't be able to see her face from his full line of vision. "What did I tell you about knocking?!" Her voice came out shrill and an octave too high.

"What's wrong with you?" Dan took another step into the room and found his sister holding herself in an embrace, facing away from him. His eyebrows rose in question even though she couldn't see it.

"There's nothing wrong with me, Dan. Just the usual girl stuff." Jenny's voice was still high and shrill, as if an unfortunate sign that she was not telling the truth.

"Dad, come here for a second." Dan called back so that his father would hear. Jenny sighed exaggeratedly as she slumped her figure. She was so sick and tired that everything resolved with her dad trying to figure out everything for her.

"Dan? What is it?" Rufus Humphrey quickly walked into the room, looking around as if expecting a fire. "Is there a problem here?"

"Jenny's not telling me something." Dan stated while looking quizzically at Jenny's back.

"Jenny? What's wrong?" There was concern filling her dad's voice as he stepped closer to her.

"There's nothing wrong with me! It's just something you'll never understand! Either of you. So just leave it!" Jenny couldn't hold it in anymore. Tears fell down her face yet again as she remembered what exactly was wrong with her.

"Jenny. I-I-I'll go get Vanessa. She's a girl and she'll help you solve your problem." Dan put up his hands while edging towards the door. Jenny spun around and stared at Dan.

"Vanessa's here?!" A questioning look passed over the male's face at her outburst. He was finding her confusing at the time being.

"Yeah. Nate, too. Eric and Serena are coming now." Dan's voice was nonchalant, something that Jenny felt she'd never be again.

"Can you step out so that I can clean up?" It wasn't really a question as Jenny proceeded to push both her father and Dan out of her room. Just as she was closing the door she heard Vanessa giggle and Nate accompany her with his laughter. It was so good to know that they were enjoying themselves when Jenny was just a room away…Not.

She stalked over to her wardrobe and rummaged though it, finding a plain Tweety t-shirt and brown skirt. She pulled them on, careful not to get her ruined make-up in them clothes. Once she had them on she got her make-up remover and wiped it all away before applying a bit of eyeliner and nude lipstick. She ran a hand through her hair and stepped out of her room. She knew it was going to be hard to walk out with Nate and Vanessa there in her dining room.

She took a deep breath and walked into the room where everyone was. She found Nate and Vanessa seated on an armchair together and Dan and Rufus sitting across from them on the couch. Plates of take away were in front of them.

"Well, look what we have here," her voice was calm and slightly nerving as she spoke to everyone at large. Everyone's head turned to look at her as she walked past them slowly.

"Where are you going?" Rufus was the first to ask as Jenny picked up her jacket.

"Just a walk outside. I'll be back soon. Just don't want to contaminate the air for some of us with my awfulness in here." Without another word Jenny left, last having stared at Nate and Vanessa.

As she stepped outside she felt calmer than she had for a long while. She guessed because it was that she finally saw Nate again after what he said to her. He truly had messed up feelings if he couldn't stick to one girl for a while.

She took a step and the rest of the way to the Upper Side was a haze as Jenny thought over her new plan. If she could now act this cool about it why shouldn't she get a bit of payback from Nate and Vanessa?

I mean life's a bitch and all but it also had a cousin.