FULL SUMMARY: Desperate for a way to cope with her feelings of desperation after Edward leaves in New Moon, Bella discovers a brand new way to deal at a party in Port A. One night a year after Bella's 18th b-day changes everything. Will anything ever be the same? R&R. Rated M for Mature Themes, Language, Severe Drug and Alcohol usage, and possibly future lemons. (Not sure I've never written a lemon. I will try though...) If you are sensitive to any of this type of material please feel free to read something else and I am sorry if you are offended.

A/N: I do NOT own Twilight. I'll leave that up to the great Stephenie Meyer. I still wish I do though... Santa obviously thought I was too naughty to get even one of the Cullen boys under the tree this year... :(

A/N/N: This is my first time writing anything on fan-fiction so any feedback would be greatly appreciated. Let me know what you like and what you don't like and what you would like to see worked on. I am willing to take suggestions for this story so leave me a review if you want to see something in later chapters and I just may add it in if it fits where my story is going...

Last time...

"Well if everyone is ready we should really get going." Carlisle states helping to bring me out of my fantasy induced fog.

Everyone quickly agrees and we make our way out of the house to into the surrounding forest.

EPOV

We take off on a slow, for a vampire anyways, run. Bella keeps close to Alice. Watching how she twists her body through the trees and how her feet make impact with the earth with each fraction of an inch me move deeper into the thick trees surrounding our seems to be mimicking Alice's dance like movements through the forest as if it all came naturally. I guess the clumsy Bella I had once oddly enjoyed saving from herself was now a graceful swan.

Alice, Bella and I slow to a stop when we near the river that runs through our land close to our home. Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie and Jasper all make simple jumps over the rippling water and land gracefully on the other side and wait for Bella. Emmett on the other hand chooses to just run straight through the rapidly running stream; splashing fat droplets of water all over everything.

As Alice, Bella and I start running at a slightly slower pace towards the river I start slowing my pace more so I can demonstrate to Bella how to make the jump so she doesn't feel self-conscious about not being sure about how to do it properly. Bella doesn't seem to even notice that I've slowed my pace. She speeds up and runs straight at the river, her eyes scanning the rocks around the edge on both sides.

Suddenly Bella picks up speed and springs from a rock at the edge of the river. Bella goes sailing through the air. When she is about half way across the river she tucks her head to her knees and makes herself into a ball, spinning three times, before pulling herself straight and landing in a tree on the other side of the stream.

As Alice and I make our jumps Alice catches my eye and we are both thinking the same thing... Wow... She was giving Alice a run for her money in the grace department. Every step she took looks like she is in the middle of an exotic dance.

We get to the other side of the river and Bella leaps down from her tree branch, with a little giggle, landing lightly on the tips of her toes before resting on her feet so she won't break the heels off her boots. She makes her way over to Alice and stands with a little smile on her face until she sees that everyone is staring at her quite openly, mouths agape. She looks at my family, looks at the river, looks at herself up and down, and then raises an eyebrow.

"What?" She finally asks. "Did I do something wrong? Did I step in some shit? Did I grow a fucking tail and maybe some horns outta my forehead? Just... What?"

All at the same time my family looks at her and reply, "Nothing..."

I just shake my head... Smooth guys. Because that's not going to make her uncomfortable at all. When someone asks you a question and everyone in your vicinity answers "nothing" you know its "something" you just don't know what but you know it has to do with you and it gives you a really paranoid feeling. I sigh shaking my head again...

"We are all simply shocked by how graceful you are." I speak up looking her directly in the eyes. "Before... Well before everything, the emergency room was a place you frequented quite often because of your numerous bouts with were terribly clumsy and I guess we were just assuming your clumsiness would still be around slightly as a vampire but now... well now you are one of the most graceful vampires any of us has ever seen. You're even fighting Alice for her spot for number one that we know... It's just surprising is all?"

Bella thinks about what I said for a moment then replies with a simple "Oh..."

"But this is a hunting trip so let's go find you something that smells palatable." Alice chimes a moment after Bella has had a moment to digest the new nugget of information.

We all take off into a run again this time at a slightly quicker pace. After about 150 miles are between us a Forks we decide it's safe to start hunting. I let my sciences expand around me and in the distance to the North East I can smell a warm, rich, tangy, and slightly nutty scent. I can hear tongues lapping at a stream of water, and five stead heart beats. Elk. They should do nicely for now. Something easy for her first time. Plus I don't think I could manage seeing her take down a mountain lion. The urge to take her, right then and there, would be too much.

My family smells the elk as well and slow down and start walking before coming to a complete stand still. We all watch Bella to see how she will react towards the smell of the elk and what she will do about it. She takes in a deep breath through her nose and she looks like she is going to say something. Probably ask why we have all stopped moving. Suddenly her breath hitches before she says anything though. She takes another breath through her nose and mouth this time at the same time almost as if she tastes the air.

Bella tilts her head towards where the smell is coming from and her eyes zero in as she listens closely, no doubt hearing their heart beats. She takes another sniff of the air before suddenly bolting towards the smell in a perfect hunting crouch. We couldn't even explain anything and she was gone. At least this all comes naturally to a vampire. It wasn't really taught behaviour to drink blood.

We all follow behind a ways from Bella making sure not to make her think we are trying to steal her kill. The last think we need right now is Bella to turn on us because she feels the need to protect her hunt. She is racing crouched low to the ground towards the North-East, using the trees when they are quicker to get where she is going.

The elk are all gathered in a small circular clearing, drinking from a streaming that runs through the middle cutting it directly in half.

Bella stands as still as a statue in the thick bushes just watching the animals for a moment, almost as if she is picking out the best take a deep breath in through her nose again before her eyes zero in on a young, but still the largest by far, male buck. He has the strongest heartbeat of them all. His antlers are huge. Twice the any I've seen in this area in a long time. It seems this one is Bella's now.

It seems without a second thought Bella crouches lower and spring out from the trees. Before any of the other elk know what has happened Bella is firmly planted on the bucks back and has snapped the creature's neck and flipped it over onto the wrapped around the buck's now lifeless body Bella lowers her lips down into the jugular. From here it almost looks like Bella is kissing the animals neck. I can hear her teeth sink in like a hot knife slicing through butter. I can hear the blood filling Bella's mouth as she swallows mouthful after mouthful of blood.

Picturing Bella hunting in my mind wasn't even half as erotic as watching it happen right in from of me. She is a natural, graceful huntress, but that not it. Seeing her moving like she was... mixed with the scent of the fresh blood in the air... the ways her long dark hair moved as she sprang at the elk. My eyes darken and once again I feel my pants start to tighten. She is exquisite. Perfect.

I need to control myself. If I don't get a hold of myself I am going to end up going over there and ripping those skin tight clothes of hers to shreds before I proceed to make her feel as desperate for release as I am right now... I will make her as mine in every way possible! Mm mm... Those boots though... those boots can stay on. I would love to feel her pressing the heels of those amazing boots into the skin of my ass while I drilled into her over and over again...

Shit, I need a cold shower... If only that would help me out. If I don't get a handle on this I will probably end up scaring her away and lose any chance of getting her to put her trust in me again.

I hear Bella pull the last mouthful of blood from the buck. She shoves the carcase away from herself looking at it in disgust.

"Why am I still thirsty?" Bella grumbles.

I shift my weight from one foot to the other uncomfortably trying to adjust myself subtly, and then answer her question." You are young. You will need more blood, more frequently for a while to sustain yourself until you can get your thirst under control."

I hope no one can hear the strain in my voice. The image of Bella hunting is ingrained in my mind and it's playing on repeat. It's all I can do not to rush across the small area that distances us and ravage her. I know I can't do that but the draw her blood once held for me is nowhere near this over powering. Just being near her is making it hard to function. In every sense of the word. No pun intended.

Hoping my family won't notice is like wishing for world peace; never gonna happen. With Jasper's ability for sensing people's emotions there was no way he wasn't able to pick up on what I am currently feeling. Just as the thought crossed my mind Jasper looks at me and smirks.

'Can you cool it a bit with the lust, Edward? I need to keep an eye on Bella and you're not helping me at all. All I can think about is running off with Alice deep into the woods and having my way with her but I'm needed here. I know what it's like to watch your mate hunt but because of the situation you are in you have to gain control of your feelings. We all have to earn her trust, and with her emotions towards you, you may need to work harder than the rest of us. Bella has changed from before. She is a new woman and we will have to adapt to her not the other way around.' Jasper's thinks to me, offering me some advice.

When Emmett notices my err... problem, on the other hand he decides to use this new piece of information to his advantage.

'Oh Eddie boy... What this? Is our little Bella finally thawing out our little prude? Does she make you randy Eddie? Does she make you want to take off that damn chastity belt you have worn your whole damn life and actually get your dick wet? I don't know how you made it past twenty years let alone over a hundred with that thing firmly attached. After all you are a pretty boy. Are you sure your dick hasn't fallen off from lack of use? And just think Eddie boy... Bella's a vamp like us now. She isn't breakable anymore. You can do anything, and I do mean anything and you don't have to worry about breaking her...'

Emmett starts picturing all the different positions he and Rosalie have done it as well as some he has invented. I shudder at the mental image going through his mind. He is just excited because I am... excited.

Alice and Rosalie keep exchanging knowing smirks whenever they meet one another's eyes, but other than that, they didn't make a direct comment toward me with their minds.

Carlisle looks at Esme, then they both glance at me at the same time, they then look at each other and smile. Carlisle puts his arm around Esme and pulls her closer to him. He radiates pride as does Esme. I immediately feel embarrassed. Great my parents know I am sexual stimulated right now. I know they thought I was changed to young but it was just that I never found my one and only.

It's not like I haven't heard each and every one of them in the throes of passion. And with my gift I saw allot more then I was supposed to as well. But I still try to give my family as much privacy as possible. Especially Carlisle and Esme. I didn't want to think of my sweet, kind parents, getting it on. Hey may not be my real parent but that is the way I have always thought of them all throughout my vampire existence.

Putting all of my attention back towards Bella, I see her kick the drained elk and murmur quietly something about it being a tease. Out of know where I see Bella tense for a split second as the wind blows a gust of air from the south. Closer to Forks. The sent reaches my family and I just milliseconds after it does Bella but she is gone racing after it before I even have time to stop her. Before I even have time to register what she smells.

Blood. Human blood. Somewhere close there is a human close by and they are bleeding. Somewhere close there is a human bleeding, with a newborn vampire racing right towards them to hunt them down.

We all take off running as fast as we can after Bella. I have the best chance at catching up to her, hopefully to stop her in time. Holy Hell she's fast! Nearly faster than me. Plus she has a head start. I push myself harder trying to get to her in time. I am running at full force.

I can hear the person who is breeding's mind now. It's just a girl. She is only four. Bella will never forgive herself if she kills this innocent child. She has hardly gotten to experience life she shouldn't have it ended so soon. The little girl is camping in the woods with her family. She wandered down a path through the trees and fell down while playing by the stream that runs through the woods. She's lost and scared and just wants her mommy.

Bella starts running faster all of the while she is coming closer and closer to the little girl. How the hell is she so fast? Carlisle's mind is on the same page as mine. He has never seen a vampire as fast as Bella in his entire three hundred and fifty plus years. I wasn't' even close to that fast when I was a newborn and my strength and speed where at their highest.

I scan the forest ahead of me looking for any sight of Bella- hoping she is still in my line of view. Dammit. She isn't. I can't see her anywhere. I'll have to follow her scent. I could find her scent anywhere, it so powerful to me. Suddenly I know exactly where she is... I can see her through the eyes of the child.

There isn't anything I can do now. I know it. I still have to try though, I get to the edge of the clearing by the stream and immediately I see Bella there with the child. Their... talking? How can Bella control herself enough to stand there and talk to this little girl? She should have ripped out her throat without even giving it a seconds thought. She should be so consumed by blood lust. The only things on her mind should be killing and consuming.

I stay where I am hidden in the trees just watching how this plays out. I can't go in there all gung ho and cause Bella to snap and kill the child only because she is trying to fight me.

I am still hiding in the trees when my family finally caught up to minds are filled with concern for Bella's wellbeing as well for the human she went stalking after. All at once their minds are berating me with questions. Where is she...? What happened...? Did she kill the human...? What should we do with the body...? What will happen now...? I raise my hand and motion for them to look towards Bella's direction.

Bella and Kim, as I found out was the little girl's name, were standing there talking about everything and nothing. My family made a move to go after Bella but again I stop them by raising my hand.

"Just watch." I urge them in a whisper; being as quiet as possible.

I can tell my family wants to protest but they seem to trust my judgement when they see my face because they turn in the direction of Bella and little Kim or should I say little Kimmi with an I, as she made sure to inform Bella was her name, is currently talking Bella's ear off.

Bella listens intently as she picks Kimmi up off the ground and sets her on a large, smooth boulder, which is embedded in the earth by the stream.

"I'm just going to clean up these yucky scratches, okay?" Bella says, smoothing down Kimmi's little blond pig tails.

Kimmi grimaces while biting her lip and looks over in our direction. My breath catches in my throat. She has Bella exact same colour of chocolate brown eyes. She could be Bella daughter if her hair was brown. They even have some of the same features. I wonder if somehow they are related... But Bella once told me she doesn't have any family besides her mother and her father. No Aunts or Uncles. It must just be a coincidence.

"Is der gonna be blood? I hates blood..." Kimmi asks after a moment.

"You don't like blood? How's abouts I tell you secret? I don't either. Just don't look and I promise you won't feel a thing, okay angel? Why don't you tell me about yourself? What's your favorite animal?" Bella continues sensing Kimmi's discomfort with the situation. Bella rips up pieces of the bottom of her shirt into long thin pieces of fabric.

Kimmi makes sure to keep her eyes everywhere but on herself while she answers. "Well my favorites animals are's wolfies. I just loves thems soooo much. My big sister like kitties but wolfies are soooo much better don't you think? Kitties just lie around all day cleaning demselves and don't play at all. AND they scratch you when all's yous wanna dos is petted dem." Kimmi grimaces.

In her mind she is remembering going to pet her sister's cat peanut and said cat turned around and viciously scratched her, seemingly for no reason.

"Why wolves though?" Bella asks as she wraps the homemade bandages around Kimmi's hand, causing my family to snicker, "Why not puppies?"

I also can't help but let out a low chuckle at this.

"Wolfies are soooo much better. Their bigger, and stronger, and they lives with lotsa other wolfies... Puppies are okay I guess... But wolfies are like super puppies! They are everything a puppy is times two. I told my mommy I wanted a wolfie but she said I couldn't." Kimmi says looking around suspiciously before leaning closer to Bella and whispering to her, "That's whys I runned off, I'm looking for my very own wolfie. When mommy sees how much my wolfie loves me she won't ever make me get rid of him. She will let me be with my wolfie forever and ever. I just knows it."

"Oh! I see... Well you know you shouldn't wander too far away from your mommy right? Something bad could have happened to you. What if I didn't find you out here? Plus I am sure your mommy is worried sick about you. I know if I had a daughter like you I would want her close to me at all times because she is so special. Your mom must being going crazy right now wondering if you're okay."

"Well... I guess you're right. But Bella?"

"Yes sweetie?" Bella responds.

"Aren't you gonna kiss my boo boo's better?" Kimmi asks with a small voice.

My whole family, who have been watching Bella, interact with Kimmi with reverence this whole time, suddenly become tense. Every one's mind wonders whether Bella will be able to control herself with being so close to blood. While she has done remarkably well so far no one wants to risk little Kimmi's life by tempting Bella any further. Jasper and Emmett are both debating on retrieving Bella before things get out of hand and she ends up doing something she will later regret.

Before they have a chance to make up their minds Bella leans down and places and gentle kiss on Kimmi's knees and on the palms of each hand. From the looks of her she doesn't seem to be suffering from any blood lust and my family and I stand there looking at my beloved with a whole new sense of disbelief. She was mere millimeters away from fresh, human blood. I don't even know if I would be able to resist the temptation of something as sweet as this. Bella is merely hours old and she has resisted even a taste of the pure, rich, thirst quenching blood. She didn't even hold her breath when she was cleaning Kimmi's cuts and scrapes. She is acting centuries older than she is. It's remarkable.

Not one person in my family, including my family, can understand how Bella can handle being so close to human blood, without giving into temptation. Carlisle and Jasper and the most surprised.

Carlisle's mind is filled with unanswered questions that he is dying to resolve as he watches Bella interact with Kimmi. He is questioning in the reasons Bella isn't attacking her. Is it simply because of her reaction towards blood before her change? Or perhaps because Bella knew what we were and that there were options she somehow resolved herself against drinking human blood. Maybe, even though she forgot about us, just the fact that she knew about our lifestyle choices that were enough for her to commit to it. Without her even needing to try. Carlisle believes her memories are all hiding behind layers of "Blankets" as he thinks of them. He believes, eventually, we will be able to pull each blanket back slowly and in turn wake up the dormant memories.

Jasper keeps testing feeling moods. He can tell she is still thirsty and it is making him anxious about her being so close to this small child. He is tense as he watches Bella treat Kimmi's wounds. I can tell he is prepared to take action in seconds should he need to. The only reason he isn't forcing Bella to leave is because all of the other emotions he feels coming off of Bella. He assesses she is perfectly calm and at ease around Kimmi. Bella is almost felling motherly towards this charming, little girl. Sort of like how Esme feels around us. It's as if she has pushed her thirst to the back of her mind and can only concentrate on taking care of Kimmi.

Once again I find myself wishing I could see into Bella's mind. What I wouldn't give to see how she is experiencing this whole experience through her view. I wish I knew what she was thinking right now. If things were different between us I would just ask her, but seeing how she reacts around me I feel like we won't be able to have a real conversation for quite some time.

Bella picks Kimmi up off the boulder she has sat her on and sets her on her feet on the ground.

"Okay sweet thing, let's go and find your mommy. I'm sure she is going nus looking for you." Bella says taking Kimmi's hand and starts walking toward where we all smell a campfire.

As Bella and Kimmi get back on the path we can smell hotdogs and hamburgers cooking on the campfire. We assume this is Kimmi's mother. I can hear the woman panicked mind from here. She notices her youngest daughter is missing but she doesn't know where she is. It's starting to get dark out and she doesn't have anyone who can watch her other children so she can go look for her. She doesn't know what to do. She doesn't want to risk her children getting hurt or lost in the woods with Kimmi.

Without another choice the mother gets her children together and prepares them to go and search the woods for their lost family member. Just as they are almost prepared to go Bella and Kimmi arrive just on the outskirts of the clearing where the family is camping.

"Is that your mommy over there, little one?" Bella asks Kimmi.

"Yup. Come Bella, let's go!"

"Nope. Sorry little one. This is where I have to say good bye for now. It was really nice meeting such a wonderful little girl like you and I really hope you get your wolf someday. But please promise me one thing before I go, Okay? I want you to promise me that you won't go running away from your mommy anymore. Okay sweetie?"

"...Okay..." Kimmi says as tears fill her eyes.

In Kimmi's mind I can see that she has grown quite fond of Bella. She wants to "keep" her.

"Bella?"

"Yes, Kimmi?" Bella asks wiping away a stray tear that has made its way down Kimmi's cheek.

"Will...sniffle...will I ever see you again?"

"Well... I'm not too sure Kimmi. But how about this. I will promise you that I will do everything in my power to make it that one day we will see each other again. How does that sound? Okay sweet thing?"

"Okay Bella. Bye." Kimmi rushes up to Bella and gives her a big hug and a loud smack of a kiss on the cheek before she turns and walks through the trees and into the clearing.

She turns around and gives Bella a quick wave before she turns and runs over to her mother, who scoops her into her arms as soon as she sees her and covers her in millions of hugs and kisses. Telling her to never run off again.

E/A/N: So...? What did you think? This chapter was dedicated to my sister Kim, who little Kimmi was named after. What did you guys think of little Kimmi? Do we have any Alice's in the room? Can anyone predict what I have planned for her...? If anything? Let me know your predictions by leaving me a review and let me know. Also let me know how you think I'm doing with the characters so far? Hope to hear from you all and if I get enough reviews I will update a little early. See I'm still not ashamed of bribery. Muhahaha…

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