Hey everyone :] Hehehhe. I know this is gonna be strange... But it seems like such a funny Idea!!!

I hope you all enjoy this little thing, hahaha!

Co-written with Crying_Solstice xxx Moonlit_Eclipse, formerly BrokenGoth! Haha, i owe my cousin so much for this idea (my cousin is BrokenGoth)

Solstice: Why.

Eclipse: Yes, why?

Carp: Because, you guys came up with the idea of Sora becoming a g-

Solstice+Eclipse: Ahhh yes.

Jerry: Curtains?

Eclipse:... Didn't he used to hate curtains?

Sora: What exactly are you going to be doing to me...?

Carp+Eclipse: Hehehee. Nothing in particular...

Riku: Enlighten us.

Solstice: ... Carp, you're on your own. Eclipse, get over here.

Eclipse: But-

Solstice: *glares* N.O.W.

Eclipse: *meekly walks over*

Riku+Sora: Well?

Carp: Ah heh... Heh... I do not own Kingdom hearts!! Or riku! Or sora!!

Riku+Sora: YOU BETTER NOT OWN HIM!

Riku: *stops and looks at sora*

Sora: *freezes and slowly looks at Riku*

Both: *blushes and turns away* I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT!

Carp: _ oh my oh my. JERRY!

"Sora! Come downstairs any time now, supper is ready!"

I didn't respond to my mother's call, for I was far too dazed as I stared at the small vial full of bluish-blackish liquid. It had no scent, and no taste. It just seemed so innocent. But sometimes the innocent... Is not innocent at all.

In my soft, tan hands, I held a bottle of ethyl arothica. I'm not sure if i'm saying it right, but that was what I've always called it. There is another name for it as well. Plain and simple; poison.

Yep, you heard me. Poison. I just want to die and get it over with. Kairi and I had the biggest fight... Verbally and Physically. I can't remember ever hitting a girl. I don't think I even meant to. It just... Happened.

And my best friend probably hated me. After all...

I'm pretty sure he's in love with her.

FLASHBACK...

"Sora," Kairi came running up to me, panting, "What is all this about you and Tidus fighting about something?"

I felt my face heat up as I remembered the conversation that Tidus had brought up; I coldly turned away from the girl, sighing angrily.

"It's not your place to even ask about it."

Kairi was silent for a moment before speaking.

"But you're my friend. I'm worried."

"Well maybe I don't want you to be! It doesn't matter okay, that is just between me and Tidus, and whoever told you, whether it be Wakka, Tidus, OR Riku, it isn't ANY of their business!"

"...Why did you put so much emphasis on Riku?"

I turned around, glaring at her.

"Will you stop pestering me?!"

"Sora, why are you yelling?! What's so wrong about me asking you about-"

I grabbed her wrist, pulling her closer to me. She gasped in surprise as she was about an inch away from my face. I glared at her intensely, letting go.

"Stop it."

I walked around her, walking away. Not that I wanted to; I wanted to turn around, take her in my arms and apoligise for being such a dick. But I couldn't... Not after what Tidus had said.

"So, Sora... You're starting to realize you love Riku, right?"

I turned to the blonde, jaw hanging slack.

"...What the fuck. That's a really bad joke, Tidus. You've been hanging out with Wakka too much."

Tidus laughed heartily.

"Maybe so. But you can't deny it. You follow him everywhere right? You want to be around him alot right? Face it, Sora. You love your best friend."

I stood up quickly, slapping Tidus across the face. The boy hit the ground, then looked up at me in shock as tears of anger and confusion ran down my face. I bit my lip, turning around.

"You don't know fucking ANYTHING, TIDUS! SO SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH!"

And that is where I ran away, away from the problem I was so scared to face... The fact that I really may be in love with my best friend... But... It had to be hormones. Right?

"Sora, I don't want to fight with you."

"Who said you had to?"

"Nobody, I guess..."

"Then drop it!" I continued to walk away, very aware of what I was saying, but gave up on feeling sorry. It just made this 'thinking-and-figuring-out-whether-or-not-I-love-my-best-friend' thing even harder.

"Sora, why are you acting like this! I'm tired of putting up with it, and I want to know why!"

I stopped walking, then slowly turned around, looking into her eyes. She closed her mouth and straightened as my blank but sharp stare pierced her.

"You..."

She blinked oddly.

"What...?"

I looked at her dead-on, panning my next question down flat.

"Do you love Riku?"

She stared at me, eyes wide with her mouth hanging slightly open. She sighed closing her eyes.

"Was that what you fought with Tidus about? He was telling you I loved Riku?"

I stared at her, wondering whether I should lie or not. Well, it's not like I had a choice.

"Yeah."

Her eyes darted downwards.

"I like you... And... I like Riku a bit more..."

I stared at her wide-eyed. My jaw dropped and I felt tears spring to the sides of my eyes. She couldn't have Riku. Riku was my friend. Riku was my special friend. Nobody else can have him. He was mine from the start. It was just supposed to be us, and I couldn't realize it til' now?

"...No."

"What?"

I glared at her.

"YOU CAN'T FUCKING LIKE RIKU!"

She stared at me in fear.

"Wh-what?!"

In my absolute rage over the fact that this so-called friend of mine was trying to steal my most important friend, I didn't even notice the silver-haired angel walking down the beach towards us.

Kairi gave up on being nice to me and began to get angry herself.

"Stop yelling at me! I can like who I want!"

"Yeah, but not him!"

"Why, it's not like he can date you or something!"

I stared at her, frozen. She was right. She was absolutely and wholly right. But... Why... Did my body move... On its own?

Soon enough she was on her knees, holding one reddish cheek in the palm of her hand, a tear sliding down her pale face, hitting the boards on the dock. I stared at her, my hand still in the air where it had stopped after I'd hit her. My tears had accumulated and made a fairly large wet spot on the wood, and were still falling.

She slowly lifted her head, looking past me and she gasped.

"Riku!"

My pupils became smaller and I moved my hand, turning around; and there he stood. My best friend, staring at me in a look that was either swimming in shock or horror. My hand was red and swollen; obviously the part that made contact.

Riku's eyes were wide, his pupils small. His body was standing straight, his hands limply at his sides. I felt tears pour out of my eyes even faster as I turned around and ran.

That look that Riku gave me... He liked Kairi too. And I just hit his crush.

No way he'd ever talk to me again. I don't want to live like that.

Hell...

I can't live like that.

END FLASHBACK...

And so, this takes us back to the here and now. Donald had visited a while ago, and I stole this from his bag so I could study it. And it made a nice lamp- if you put a flashlight under it in the dark, little sparkles would fly through it, like stars. It was so surreal. I loved it.

But now, this was what would put me to my demise. It was what I wanted. And what I needed. There was nothing left if I didn't have my only true friend there for me.

I popped the cork off the top, and a small cloud of blue smoke flowed from the bottle in an almost taunting way, as if saying 'are you man enough?'

I stared at it a few moments, before slowly moving the small bottle to my lips. It was just about touching my lips when my window opened, which caused me to gasp. Only one person came through my window and that was-

"Riku?"

I stared at him blankly, as if I was doing nothing wrong. He sat on my windowsill, one leg on my bed, the other hanging out still, both arms on either side of the window frame. His eyes were wide, and his mouth hung wide open.

He shook his head, jumping in and heading to pull the bottle from me. I pushed him away.

"No!"

He looked at me in fear.

"What is it you are trying to do?!?!?"

I looked up at him, tears in my eyes.

"I don't want to live like this, Riku!! I can't stand it!"

Riku looked at me worriedly; it scared me seeing him like this. He never made faces like that. It was my fault... All my fault...

"Sora, what's going on? You haven't been to the island since last week when you fought with Kairi, and you haven't messaged me or mailed or anything... I've been worried and lonely, why were you hiding here?"

"How is it hiding if it's my house..."

"Don't be a smart ass."

I said nothing as I looked at the ground.

"You heard what Kairi said to me..."

" Yes. She said 'it's not like you can date him or anything.' I didn't understand though, because that was all I caught. Then you hit her..."

"We were talking about you."

Riku stared at me wide-eyed.

"W-what?!"

I stood, looking up at Riku with foggy eyes, fat tears pouring down my cheeks.

"Riku, somehow, just somehow... I think i've fallen in love with you."

Before he could respond, I had tugged him down by his shirt, pushing my lips against his. He made a suprised noise, but didn't struggle or push me away. I licked his lip, and he gasped. I used that to slide my tongue into his mouth, which caused him to gasp again, with a soft but slightly wavering moan following. I pulled back, a trail of spit connecting our mouths; I wiped it off of his chin and then stepped back, looking at the floor, bottle still in hand.

"... That's all. Goodbye, Riku."

Riku looked at me wide-eyed as I brought the bottle to my lips. He ripped the bottle out of my hands, throwing it against a wall; but it was too late. I had drank half of it.

The room suddenly started to spin, and all colors blurred together. My breathing suddenly wouldn't work, and my heart was beating ten times faster than it should have been. Suddenly I was scared, and wanted to go back. To go back to that breathtaking kiss, that breathtaking forbidden kiss that I had shared with my best friend.

I turned, and realised that I had fallen to the floor, and was cradled in Riku's arms. I looked up and could barely make out his face, but something began trickling down my nose and I realized; Riku was crying for me. I lifted my head up, kissing one of his tears away, then pulled back hastily, and coughed into my hand.

I looked at my hand, closing my eyes as I saw blood all over it.

"Oh God, Sora!! Please, you can't die!!! I don't want you to die!!"

I looked up at Riku, who was now just a big silver and yellow blur. I smiled weakly, coughing again, blood trickling out of my mouth.

"I'm sorry Riku..."

Everything blacked out then, the last thing entering my ears were the frantic calls of my best friends, and the shocked cries of anguish from my parents.

But only one call mattered to me then. Even though it was a final, sick wish, it had come true...

"SORA! PLEASE, DON'T DIE! SORA, I LOVE YOU!!"

Flashback- written by Solstice.

Yaoi-ish scenes- written by Eclipse.

Everything else- written by Hitomi Kaetie.

Carp: Please tell each of us what you think! It would mean alot, because all of us need to get better!!

Solstice: But don't be stupid and bash the whole thing.

Eclipse: And... don't bash me for being the yaoi writer... there was a warning in the summary, so don't read if you don't like... Don't review just to bash :] okay, nyeah?

Solstice: ... Lipse, you are a fail at being Goth.

Eclipse: E-Eh?!

Carp: I agree.

Eclipse: E-EHHHHH?!

~Hitomi Kaetie-san

~ Solstice. xxxx Eclipse.