Chapter one: I'm Leaving

Disclaimer: If I owned this it wouldn't be a need to give Leah an ending she would have received a pretty good one.

A/n: I didn't have this edited by my beta because I'm too anxious to post it. So if my grammar errors bother you then don't read it!!!

I'm not sure how many chapters it will be but there will be more than Three.

I walk in the room and I can see she has been crying. Her eyes are red and her checks are moist. She turns away from me; I figure she must know by now. Her family doesn't keep secrets from her anymore because she's an adult now. She isn't that baby I imprinted on years ago. She turns around and stares at me intently she looks tall for the first time in years to my 6'7 body frame. Her brown curls have been straightened out and her brown eyes remind me of her mothers. The sun shines brightly in the room from her bay window and she starts to shimmer. It reminds me again how far from perfect we are. We were never meant to be and somehow it was force I don't want anything to force what I'm feeling now it is so far from force I break out in a wide smile every time she comes in the room.

"Jacob, is it true? She asks, "Is she the reason?" I look at the ground.

It hurts to deny her but I have to for myself and for her. I was blind for years and now I can see. The first thing I must do is break what we have, I have too. What kind of life is it for her if someone never denies her, how would she know love? I feel it and I'm tired of hiding it isn't fair to her to be a secret she is happy now for the first time in years and I want everyone to know about us.

"It's true, I'm sorry but I can't do it any more Ness." She looks down.

"Do what? You can't continue to lie to the one person who would have always loved you?" she asks. She lets out a screeching howl before I know it she has my throat in her hand and I'm pinned against the wall.

"I love you." she says quietly.

I had no Idea she is this strong. I feel her crushing my windpipe, I could fight her but I don't I let her do her damage. She throws me on the floor she crouched in front of me.

"Fight for me." she yells out.

"I don't want too." I tell her simply.

I don't want to anymore. After a half of a second she jumps on top of me and punches me in the face twice and she begins to cry.

"It's okay you can hit me." I say.

"I don't won't you to hurt you I just want you to want me and you don't." she looks at me and I feel it. Her tears are pulling me in and I want to end her suffering.

She sits next to me and cries harder than I have ever heard her cry. I take my arm and place around her shoulder. I don't want to do this but it has to be done. My heart feels like it is going to explode the more I tell her no the more pain I am in.

"I will always be here for you but I can't love you like you want me to." she looks up at me the way Leah looked at Sam for leaving her and it was pure hate and disgust. But I know like Leah she will one day forgive me for this Well I hope she will.

"Do you love her more than me?" she asks.

"It's not the same type of love it's different."I say smiling at the thought of Leah.

"Because it's not forced." she says with her lip trembling.

I tried to love Nessie in a romantic way, but something's about our relationship bothered me. She was really nine she had no experiences she know nothing and I don't want a naive soul mate.

Nessie and I have been dating only a year on her seventh birthday she looked eight-teen, When Alice asked what she wanted she yelled she wanted to kiss "her Jacob" Edward hurdled over everyone punching me and Bella sobbed, the pack thought it was funny but I didn't.

Later that night she told me that she was tired of me being her friend and she was ready for more. I wasn't, I convinced her to wait at least a year and then on her eighth birthday her present from me was a date. It was perfect we flew to Miami and stayed on the beach Bella and Edward was there though they couldn't come outside. She loved it, we had our first kiss. It's been a year and I don't feel that way about her like I feel about Leah. Nessie is going to leave and go to college and I'm staying in La Push to carry out my birth right. Sam has stopped phasing to raise his family and I have to be Alpha.

"Jacob when did you start to fall for her?" Nessie asks me. I look down at her she wants the truth and that's what she deserves.

"I never fell for her, it's like my life fell in to place Ness." I say quietly.

It is true when Nessie turned four the Cullen's moved. Seth, Leah, and Embry Came with me. When she told me that she wanted to attend Princeton I agreed. Sam wanted to stop phasing so my pack and I returned to La Push and I took over. Paul and Rachel Moved in with my dad after giving birth to Paul Jr. Sue moved to forks with Charlie and I moved in with Seth and Leah. Things naturally flowed one day I looked up at Leah during breakfast and I it was the first time I saw her.

"Nessie please don't hate her." I beg.

"I don't, I hate you right now." she said

"If you hate me so much why are you still lying here with me?" I asked.

"Because I still love you."

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