Hey, okay soooo I'm doing loads better and am trying to get back writing. Thank you all so much for everything, I really appreciated all the messages everyone sent me, they really helped.

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BPOV

When I was a little girl visiting Charlie over one summer, an incident had happened. The incident itself was nothing to extraordinary as to be remembered; nothing important. Not the incident, no, but it was my reaction that stuck in my mind even after all these years with a new accident that had nothing parallel to that of when I was young.

I remember playing inside the forest, not far from the edge of exit but still enough to be an adventure for me. It had rained very little that day, yet the ground was all mud which I had taken to playing with at that time. I was absolutely joyous playing in the mud; even though I was completely alone…I thought nothing to disrupt my small world.

It came in the shape of a pinecone. Nothing big, nothing worth remembering. Silly, really, but I do remember.

The mud wouldn't stay any way shape I tried to mold it to, but still I persisted that it would if I was patient. So I stayed sitting calmly and happily in nature's mess when a slight touch tapped my head. I felt no pain or anything, but confusion at that moment. No one was around, but the slight tingle at the back top of my head told me that I had imagined nothing. So naturally, I had raised my hand to the point in which the tingle continued. My hair didn't part as it usually did and my fingers developed a sticky substance at the ends.

At that point, I brought my hand back down towards my face for inspection finding my blood covering the roots of my hands almost fully. And really, I should have been used to my own blood, being the klutz that I am, but for some unfathomable reason this time felt absolutely different.

I remember staring, just staring at my crimson colored fingers almost numbly. Nothing seemed to process. Nothing even felt aware, but then for some unfathomable reason when the liquid began to seep down and towards my cleansed palm…I remember crying, not just sobs but being almost hysterical. I felt the pain sharply across my skull then and felt myself breaking down, more so when I had no idea as to why.

I suppose this memory came to my in this time, because at that moment about hearing Carlisle's results…I felt numb; I felt as if I was that little girl again playing in mud and listening to the birds sing with the wind then having that pinecone hitting me across the head then the wait for my own reaction.

And now, a new song with only two words and mix of beats was the constant broken record of my new uncertainly joyous news. In all actuality, Alice was the singer with no melody. She would shout, 'holy shit,' in random moments of her pace dance which Carlisle seemed to have choreographed. Their usually silent footfalls, crashing heavily against the wood as they moved in the same pattern back, turn, and forth and back again.

I watched the talent going on in front of me, remaining still on the couch while rubbing my stomach somewhat absentmindedly. It felt harder than usual, I had noted earlier, and no longer the flat abdomen I was used to. How I did not catch the slight difference to my body sooner, I have no idea. It was actually quiet noticeable now that I actually realized that I was…pregnant.

Even in my mind, I couldn't seem to actually believe that I was with a little person growing inside of me. Perhaps, I was in a bit of shock. I mean, never in my life had I even thought for one single moment that I would have children. More so, since I stepped into the world of these mythical beings that would forever stay frozen. Never in my dreams did I think that a having sex— multiple times— with a vampire would give me the chance to become a…a mother.

My eyes flitted from the ridiculous scene going on in front of me down to the concealed bulge near my pelvis. It was a strange thing still, I could feel the hardness protecting it…the child, but was there really a baby in me?

None of the panicking going on was helping with my readjustment to my situation, either. I could almost feel the tension in the air threatening to drown me with all the shock and disbelief. The least the two could do was go outside and rampage through the forest like I know some of the others will do once they got back here.

Now, that's a whole other twisted problem I don't even want to think about at the moment.

Because if all that was happening was real, then I know that my whole thought out future was no longer going to be even close to what I had wanted. Because this…child was as unexpected as they come and did not come from the one person I wanted to spend forever with. How can you just clearly accept something this big when life would surely become what you never could have imagined?

And that was the thing; I did not know what to feel. The only way to place it was that I was currently in full out shock. Just like that moment when I was little and staring at my bloodied fingers.

I moved my eyes down to my currently semi-flat stomach and splayed my hand on top of my bellybutton. I don't know why, but maybe I'm just trying to feel a presence hoping that a single act of proof would help me know what to do…what to feel.

All I can do is stare at my opened palm across my belly…over a new life. I am frozen in time, it seems, trying to distinguish all the rights that I'm sure this is that was made by so many wrongs. None of which, I had really a choice in…I mean how could you say 'no' to a vampire like Jasper when he is sucking your skin in various tantalizing manners…so yeah I have to say I never actually had a choice.

Especially, when it was the family's scheme for me to lose my virginity with someone who had absolutely no words for me until the act. My best friend allowed me to have sex with her ex-husband... my fiancé allowed a brother; both probably thinking that it would be a harmless act with no strings attached in the least.

Who knew vampires could be so moronic?

Because really, losing your virginity is a very memorable moment and it seems to me that Jasper would never forget it either. Somehow, we became connected…not only physically but more so bonded in ways that no one could foresee. Or at least, I would like to think that Alice didn't foresee any of this, but somehow a little voice in my head tells me she knew way more than what she was letting on.

But what did she see for my future that had to be kept a complete secret? Obviously, she never seen this baby problem arising.

I wanted this life. I wanted to have this only chance of being a mother. I wanted what I didn't even have a dream about, for my future. I wanted what once was the impossible. Just like immortality was once, now having a child was up there with it…now in my grasp while I seem to keep reaching for the moon.

Now on how to tell Edward about the new person that was going to be in our life. Perhaps something like…

'Hey Edward, I just needed to tell you that you're going to be a dad, though in actuality Jasper's the true father as you know because you allowed me to have sex with him, but me and you haven't touched one another in any way that I once wanted you to. Anyways, I just wanted to give you a false congratulation.'

'Oh, love, I have always dreamed of having a family with you. Perhaps, Jasper can be the godfather and/or uncle, what do you say?'

'I just knew you would understand.'

Share a chaste kiss then the end.

Ha, yeah right. That's definitely how it's going to go.

So this is shorter and possibly different, but it is the first thing I have written since everything so just kindly tell me if anything needs to be fixed.

For those that read 'Seek Not My Heart,' I am currently finishing up the chappie.