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Chapter 5

Chuck sat in Sarah's bedroom just waiting for her to come back. He almost ran out into the living room when he heard the punching noises; but settled for peeping out of the door instead. He saw Sarah punching the bag and then heard Carina mumble something and Sarah hit the bad harder; then Sarah's mask slipped and he saw the tears. He was very tempted to go out there and comfort her; but he held back knowing this time it was Carina's turn to comfort Sarah. I really want to know what made her so upset. I won't push her though; it's something big and she needs to come to me about it when she's ready. I have a feeling she's already told Carina; the old me would have whined but now that I know more about her and that Carina is probably the only true friend she's had while in the spy world I can't blame her for telling Carina. I was there when she needed me and that's what matters. Then he saw Sarah motion towards the couch and Carina shake her head and turn towards the bedroom; he stepped slowly out of the door.

"Chuckie-boy; you take care of her alright," Carina said.

"Promise," Chuck nodded. "You aren't going to stay Carina?" he asked.

"Not really interested in watching this puppy love you got going on here. Walker needs you right now anyway. I'll be around; oh and don't hurt her Chuck or I'll do much worse then try to seduce you when I get you alone." Carina said smirking; on her way out of the door.

Once the door shut Chuck turned back to Sarah; "Somehow that didn't scare me as much as I thought,"

Sarah smiled, walked over to him, and wrapped her arms around him, "Why not?"

"Well for one I'm never going to hurt you and two I don't think there would be anything left after you got through with me; so I don't have to worry about Carina," Chuck said. Sarah just laughed and kissed him lightly on the lips. Sarah's stomach made its presence known again when a low rumble sounded out in the silence. Chuck laughed, "I think I need to make good on my food promise from earlier."

"I'll put in a movie while you're getting the food," Sarah said. Chuck went into the kitchen and picked up the phone; dialing an old familiar number and then walked out into the living room to sit on the couch with Sarah.

"So what are we watching?" Chuck asked. He put his arm around her so she could snuggle into his side.

"Beauty and the Beast; it was my favorite movie growing up and well after Dad and I were on the road I didn't get many more chances to watch it." Sarah said wrapping an arm around his waist. "What about the food?"

"I ordered some sizzling shrimp and it should be here in twenty minutes," Chuck answered kissing the top of her head. He trailed his fingers up and down her arm hoping to offer her some kind of comfort even though she was acting as if nothing was wrong. When the food came he was reluctant to get up and get it; but their growling stomachs made the choice for him. When he sat back down on the couch Sarah moved to sit on the far end of the couch and put her feet in his lap. Chuck handed her a container of sizzling shrimp and her chopsticks.

"Thanks," Sarah smiled at him before opening her box and dug into the shrimp. When she turned her attention from the movie back to the food she caught Chuck trying to sneak glances at her. "What's wrong? Do I have something on my face?"

"Nope; nothing's on your face. I was just wondering…"He trailed off; not quite sure how to ask her about her mom.

"Wondering what Chuck?" Sarah asked tensely. I really hope he's not trying to ask what I think he is. I don't want to talk about this right now. What am I saying; this is Chuck. Of course he's wondering what's wrong with me. I broke down and he saw it but doesn't know the cause of it. I was hoping to have some more time…

"Umm. Well; did you want to talk about earlier?" he asked. I know she probably doesn't. I just want to know what made her break down like that. I know she told Carina; but I want her to know I'm here for her too.

Sarah set her shrimp down on the table and closed her eyes; taking a deep breath. "I uh- I'd rather not discuss it." When she opened her eyes; Chuck nodded in resignation and patted the spot beside him. She immediately came to him arm let him wrap her in his arms. She closed her eyes again and breathed in deeply; inhaling Chuck's comforting scent and just soaking in his presence. I need to tell him. I'm not being fair. He won't judge me; he just wants to be there for me. I just…why do emotions have to be so difficult? Sarah moved out of Chuck's arms and straddled his lap; knowing she was really going to need him to hold her after she told him. "I… Remember me telling you about my sister and how I couldn't find her?" Chuck nodded. "Well I was trying to find her tonight before you found me. I told you that she disappeared; well my mom was the one that she disappeared with. One morning dad and I woke up and they were gone; that's when dad got into the con game. He felt so betrayed by my mom so I never brought it up; but I never forgot her or my sister. Anyways I tried searching for again so I used the last known alias that I knew her to have and it pulled up very few results; but…umm…" She swallowed against the lump that was beginning to form in her throat. God this is hard. Chuck saw that she was struggling started rubbing her back and gave her a few light kisses. Sarah ran her hands up his neck, into his hair, and sliding her lips over his with more pressure; drawing strength from him. She pulled back and took a deep breath before continuing, "One of the results was an obituary; my mother's obituary. Catherine Johnson died in 1995; survived by Leann Johnson. I just… I never thought she would die. I- I always knew she was out there somewhere and that was enough for me; but now she's not and I'll never get to see her again." Tears were streaming down her face. "I'll never get her back Chuck. I won't get to tell her that I'm okay; that I've got you and I'm alright." For the second time that night; Sarah collapsed into Chuck's arms and she hid her face in his neck. Her arms were wrapped around him in a vice-like grip but he didn't care. He wrapped his arms tight around her; placing kisses along her neck and whispering soothing things in her ear while rubbing up and down along her back. Time passed them by before Sarah got her breathing under control. She placed kisses up and down Chuck's neck and nibbled on his ear kissing her way up across his jaw before reaching his mouth. Her hands worked their way under his shirt and up his chest.

Chuck gasped and grabbed her hands under his shirt, "Sarah wait…"

Sarah stopped kissing him and pulled back and breathed "I want you Chuck."

She tried to resume kissing him but he put his hands on her shoulders and pushed her away from him and when he saw the hurt flashing in her eyes he spoke quickly. "I don't want to take advantage of you like this Sarah; you're vulnerable and I don't want to hurt you more."

Her eyes softened and glistened with unshed tears, "Chuck you aren't taking advantage of me; if anything I'm taking advantage of you. I need you right now Chuck. I need this; I need our connection. I need something stable right now and your love is the most stable thing I know. I want you; I want this comfort for you. I promise you I won't think of this as you taking advantage of me in my weakened state. I love you Chuck and I need you to love me right now. So please Chuck; will you love me right now?"

Chuck smiled softly, stood with her in his arms, and walked them to her room. Laying her gently on the bed and then climbing on top of her; careful to not place all his weight on her, "I will love you forever Sarah Walker; that I promise you." She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him down all the way on top of her; kissing him deeply. She ran her hands underneath his shirt again and this time he didn't stop her. As they continued; her pain in her heart was slowly healed thanks to his love. Several hours later they lay together under the sheets content with just holding each other; basking in their love.