Secrets of the Heart
By Chisa Yume
Author's notes: Kon'wa minna!! This is the first time writing a fic on my own. You might have
read Searching for Love, which is being written by Neko and I and we hope to finish it soon.
Hopefully this won't turn out too horribly. Please review after reading so I can know what you
think! If you want, you can e-mail me at [email protected].
Disclaimer: ::sniffle:: Weiss and all other characters aren't mine. T_T
Japanese vocab: If you notice something is worded incorrectly tell me because I'm not fluent in
Japanese and I only know a little bit so the odds of me screwing up are high.
Hai- yes
Gomen nasai minna- I'm very sorry everyone
Kami-sama- God, the -sama ending is used to show great respect
Onegai- Please
Daijobou?- Are you ok?
Nani?- What?
Ja- Bye
Yamero-Stop
Arigato (gozaimasu)- Thank You (very much)
Spoilers: There is brief mention about Aya's sister but nothing else and you don't need to know
their past to understand the fic.
Rating: R- for mature themes and adult language towards the end of the fic.
Warning: This story is going to be an angst and will have mention of rape. Nothing graphic
mind you, just enough to let you know it happened. If you still think this is a horrible topic,
just push the back button and pretend you never saw this fic. ^_^ I'll try not to make the
characters OOC but I might do it on accident so don't be surprised. Tell me if you think anyone
is OOC. Also, this is a yaoi fic which means male/male relationships. Gomen Neko-chan! ^_^
I'm not writing anything too serious but just to let you know. Ok, now on with the fic. Enjoy!
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"Why does this shift have to last so long?" Omi thought as he fought the urge to stare at Ken
for the millionth time that day. "Why couldn't Aya take Ken's shift today? I'm going to doing
something stupid if I'm around Ken for so long. I'm sure he'd love to have me randomly walk up
to him and kiss his breath away. Yeah right."
There was no use in denying it, he had fallen in love with Ken. Sometime over the years they
worked together, his feelings of friendship grew into something more. At first he was scared
and thought he was just going through some sort of phase but as the months passed by and his
feelings only grew stronger, he knew this was something serious.
"I probably wouldn't have realized I was feeling love if Ken hadn't screwed up on that mission."
Omi thought reflecting on one of Weiss' previous missions.
Weiss had been sent to take out a man testing drugs on innocent children abducted off the
streets. When they infiltrated the building Ken and Yoji took off to check for guards while he
and Aya went to short out the security system. As it turned out, the target had kidnapped a
little boy that day and was in the process of giving the child drugs when Ken found him. Ken
found the target first and, furious at the man because he was hurting a child, charged blindly
towards the target. Then some of the target's guards came out of the shadows and shot Ken in
his left arm and twice in his left thigh before Yoji had a chance to wipe them out. He and Aya
had barged in right after Yoji killed the last guard and Aya then proceeded to eliminate the
target.
He had never felt so scared in his life when he saw Ken on the floor covered in blood. It was in
that moment that he realized he was in love with Ken. Ever since then Omi wanted to tell Ken
about his feelings but every time he started to tell him, he would get nervous and say something
else instead. "Maybe I'm just not meant to have love. There's no way Ken would feel the same
way I do..." Omi thought dejectedly until he heard Ken's voice yelling to him.
"Oi, Omi! Can you lend me a hand over here?!"
"H-hai Ken-kun!"
He walked over to where Ken was and assisted him in carrying out the bigger plants from the
backroom to put on display, being careful not to embarrass himself in front of Ken.
"Thanks Omi, it would have taken me forever if I had moved all of that on my own!"
"It's no problem Ken-kun. Anything else you need help with?" Omi asked.
"Just help with getting all of these banshees out of the shop for our lunch break," Ken said
referring to the hoard of girls mobbing the shop.
"Be nice Ken-kun! Even if they are annoying, you don't have to call them banshees!"
"You're too nice for your own good Omi. These girls are going to walk all over you if you keep
that attitude up."
"Yeah, yeah." Turning towards the crowd Omi yelled, "Gomen nasai minna! It's time to close the
shop for lunch!"
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Heading up to his room after his shift had finished, Omi was glad to be away from Ken for a
while. Settling down on his bed for a short nap he was almost asleep when he heard a knock on
the door. Sitting up, he asked who was there.
"It's me Omittchi!"
"That sure does tell me who you are," Omi replies sarcastically. "Yoji-kun, shouldn't you be
in the shop for your shift right now?" Omi asked, annoyed at the interruption of his quiet time.
"Nah, Aya can handle those girls for a few more minutes alone. Right now I want to talk to you,
so can I please come in and stop talking to a door?"
"Fine!" Omi got up languidly, walked to the door to flip the lock off and promptly laid back
down on his bed.
Upon hearing the lock click out of place, Yoji opened the door to see a sleepy and annoyed Omi.
"Come on, cheer up! You'll never impress the girls with that face!"
"Since when have I wanted to impress them? That's your department Yoji. So, what did you want
to talk to me about? I'd like to get back to sleep."
"Well, nothing important really, just wanted to know how you felt about Ken." Yoji asked
nonchalantly.
"W-what?!" Clearly not expecting to be asked such a personal question, Omi was speechless.
"Seriously Omi, I've seen the way you stare at him. I want to know what you feel for him
because it looks like more than a crush to me."
"I-it does?" Omi tried to think of any opportunity Yoji might have had to figure out his
feelings for Ken but kept reaching a blank.
"Come on Omittchi, your reaction alone tells me I'm right. Why don't you just tell him how you
feel?"
"I can't Yoji-kun! He'd never feel the same way about me! Remember when he went out with
Yuriko? He's straight!"
"What happened to comfortably bi? He could have changed since he broke up with Yuriko. That
happened months ago anyway."
"Yes but-"
"See what I mean? You're just making it harder on yourself. You should tell him how you feel
Omi."
"Even if he does like guys, he doesn't feel anything more than brotherly love towards me." Omi
replied dejectedly.
"You're being too hard on yourself Omittchi. Do you want to live the rest of your life
wondering what could have happened if you had told him? Trust me, you'll regret it eventually."
"I don't know if I could Yoji-kun. The odds of him actually feeling the same are slim to none."
"The odds are better than you think Omittchi. Just tell him how you feel, and go from there."
Before Omi had a chance to ask what he meant, Yoji had gotten up and left the room. Perplexed,
he sat down on his bed to think about Yoji's words, his nap long forgotten.
Outside, Yoji walked back towards the shop thinking about how Ken could pay him back for helping
Omi come forward with his feelings. He could remember when Ken had first started to come to him
about two months earlier trying figure what he was feeling towards Omi. As it turned out, Ken
was just as shy about telling Omi his feelings as Omi was. "Hopefully Omi is brave enough to
take my advice. He and Omi would be happy together, not to mention it would put a stop to that
horrible tension in the shop while they are working together if they hooked up," Yoji thought as
he entered the shop ready to give the red-headed leader, Aya, his excuse for being late.
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After staying up late thinking about Yoji's words, Omi had finally decided to talk to Ken about
his feelings. Now he just had to find a way to get on the topic of his feelings...
The chance finally arose when he volunteered to play soccer with Ken a week later. They
dribbled the ball around the field and played until they wore themselves out and eventually Omi
collapsed onto the grass letting out a big sigh and stretching simultaneously. He looked over
to see Ken follow suit.
"Thanks for playing with me Omi. It was a lot of fun." Ken said looking over at his blond
friend.
"No problem Ken-kun, I really enjoyed it. I had forgotten how fun it is to play soccer."
"Maybe we could... do this again sometime?" Ken asked.
"I'd like that Ken-kun." Omi replied. Seeing Ken's face light up when he said "yes" gave him
more courage to tell Ken his feelings. "Um... Ken-kun, I've been meaning to tell you
something..."
"What is it Omi?"
"I... well... that is..." Becoming scared again Omi started to back down on his confession.
"Yes Omi?" Ken looked over with hopeful eyes.
Noticing this Omi found a little more strength. "I... like you Ken-kun. Not just like a
brother or friend but more like someone in a relationship would and I don't mind if you don't
feel the same way I just thought you should know so please don't hate me!" Face flushed with
embarrassment Omi got up to run off the field instead of staying to hear the inevitable
rejection. Just as he was about to sprint off he felt a hand on his wrist. Turning slowly,
he saw Ken looking at him with a new expression on his face. Almost like...
"Do you really mean that Omi?"
"Y-yes Ken-kun, I do. I've felt this way for... a long time actually, I just never could tell
you before." Feeling himself blush, Omi looked down to admire the grass.
Suddenly, a hand was under his chin tilting his head up to look into deep, chocolate eyes.
"If you run off, how am I supposed to tell you how I feel?"
"H-how you feel? Ken-kun...I understand that you won't feel the same way, there's no need to
point that out." Confusion and hope flooded his senses as he tried to understand what Ken meant.
"Have I said I don't feel the same way? Have I done something to make you think I don't feel
anything like that towards you?"
"W-well, no but-"
"Exactly, and just for your information," bending down to where their noses touched and
looking deep into Omi's wide, blues eyes, "I do like you."
The next thing Omi knew, was soft lips on his own in a chaste kiss that said more than words
ever could.
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"It's been six days, 3 hours, 40 minutes and ....36 seconds since Ken told me he liked me!"
Omi thought to himself happily as he cooked lunch.
"Off Cloud-9 yet?" Yoji's teasing voice called out.
"Nope!" Omi beamed back at him. "I don't think I'll ever come down from it!"
"Maybe I shouldn't have convinced you to talk to Ken. Now your smile is making me sick! Not
to mention when you're together! Ugh! Thank goodness Ken still has to work in the shop right
now!"
"Yoji-kun! You're just jealous!" Omi laughs as he continues his cooking.
"Me? Jealous? I don't get jealous!" Yoji countered with indignation.
"Then what was that emotion you felt when you thought Aya-kun was sneaking out to see a girl
when it was really just his sister? That couldn't have possibly been happiness!" Knowing he
had won the argument, Omi tuned back to the stove, laughing.
"Omi! Yoji! Manx is here!" Aya's voice cut through the two men's laughter.
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"Good evening Weiss, this is going to be a smaller mission than usual so only two are needed."
Looking at each boy's face she continued, "The information at Kritiker's database doesn't
warrant a video cassette today so the mission will be handled through papers and photographs.
The target is Masaya Toru, the leader of a drug ring." She informed, placing a picture of a
youthful, brown haired man on the table. "He and his comrades have been selling and trading
drugs for the past 5 months but up until now, Kritiker could not find them. The number of
people supporting them has dwindled to a select few so it is very unlikely for Masaya to have
guards. Any volunteers for this mission?"
"I will go." Aya announced, though he really didn't need to say anything since they all knew
he accepted any mission.
"I'm out, I have other things to do this weekend." Yoji stated from his spot on the couch.
"I promised the kids I'd play soccer with them and if I cancel again they might get suspicious."
Ken said.
"Then I guess I'll go," came from the youngest member. "Good thing I don't have any tests to
study for this weekend."
"Then it's settled. Hunters of light, hunt the beasts of darkness," and with that said, she
turned and left the building.
"Are you sure you want to take this mission Omi?" Ken asked walking over to Omi.
"Don't worry about it Ken-kun, it's a simple mission anyway so it should go off without a hitch."
"Yeah, you're right. Just be careful." Ken warned placing an arm around Omi's shoulder.
"Hai, I will Ken-kun." Omi replied returning the hug.
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"Target eliminated, lets head out Bombay." Aya said into his microphone as he headed towards
the exit. When, no answer came, he grew worried. Omi had never ignored a transmission before.
"Bombay? Do you read me? Bombay?"
"Ok, where is his station?" Aya though trying to remember how to get back to the assigned spot
Omi had. "Here it is... kuso! Where is he!"
Distantly he could hear what sounded like Omi's voice sobbing. "Please let him be ok..."
Opening the door, his hopes were shattered. "Kami-sama!"
There on the floor was Omi, with two large men holding his naked body down while another was on
top of him. Anger raging through him, Aya attacked the men raping his friend. After they had
all be killed, Aya knelt down to check on his friend.
"Omi? Omi talk to me, say something!"
"A-Aya...kun?"
"Hai, it's me. Everything is going to be ok. Let's get you out of here." Aya placed his
jacket around Omi's nude form, his clothes too tattered to be used again and reached down to
help Omi stand, being weary of his battered body.
"Aya-kun... promise me- ouch!...something." Omi winced as Aya accidentally jarred his body
trying to pick him up.
"Sorry about that." Looking into sad, blue eyes, Aya asked what is was he wanted.
"Promise me you won't tell Ken-kun or Yoji-kun about this."
"N- nani? Ken deserves to know this happened." Aya asked perplexed.
"If he knows that this happened to me, he won't trust me to take care of myself anymore. I'm
already babied enough, if Ken and Yoji know then it'll just get worse. Onegai! Aya-kun."
"Are you absolutely sure this is what you want?" Aya asked, still skeptical of Omi's decision.
"Hai Aya-kun. It's best this way."
"Well, I'll only promise because you really want me to but I think you should tell Ken at least
Omi. I can't make you though but at least think about it. Now let's get you home." Aya then
proceeded to put his jacket more securely around Omi's small frame and carried him to the car.
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By some miraculous reason, neither Ken nor Yoji came to see how the mission went when they
arrived back at the Koneko. As it turned out, Yoji had given Ken vodka to settle his nerves
because he wouldn't stop worrying about Omi. Ken had already passed out by the time Aya brought
Omi home and Yoji had decided to go to sleep as well before he got himself drunk so they didn't
have to explain why Omi was wearing Aya's jacket and bleeding.
Ken had noticed a change in Omi ever since he got back from the mission. He seemed more...
subdued. Omi rarely wanted to do things together, much less share physical contact like he
used to. Fed up with trying to get information out of Omi, Ken had decided to ask Yoji, since
he was always good at deciphering people's emotions. "I've asked Omi if something was bothering
him, on multiple occasions even but he always says he's fine! He acts like he is trying to hide
something from me. Have you noticed anything different about him?"
"Actually I have. I was going to ask you about it but obviously you don't know any more than I
do." Yoji's brows knitted together trying to figure out what was bothering their young friend.
"I think I'll ask him one more time, and if he doesn't say anything, I'll go to Aya." Ken said
determined to figure out what was bothering his loved one.
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Aya was really wishing he hadn't promised Omi his silence as the days went by. "Omi needs
someone to talk to and Ken would be perfect for the job. I'm really not good at heart to heart
talks but since I'm the only one that knows out of the three of us... I guess I have to."
Having made up his mind, Aya knocked on the door to Omi's room. Aya had tried on multiple
occasions to talk to the distraught boy but he always asked to be left alone. "This time I'm
not leaving you alone, no matter what you say." Aya thought to himself with an air of finality.
Soft sniffling sounds could be heard as he waited for an answer.
"Who is it?"
"Aya."
Slowly the door crept open to reveal a puffy eyed boy. It was obvious he had been crying.
"Can I come in Omi? Onegai?" Aya asked quietly.
His answer was the door slowly opening wider to allow him entrance. After walking in, he and
Omi both settled down on the bed.
"What can I do for you Aya-kun?" Looking into Omi's eyes, Aya could see the usual sparkle was
missing.
"I'm getting worried about you Omi... you aren't eating well anymore and you keep shutting
yourself up in this room. It's not healthy."
"I'd eat but it never stays down, so I just stopped trying. I haven't felt like socializing
very much lately, I can try harder though if you want." Omi started to fiddle with his blanket.
"You shouldn't let what happened get to you so much Omi. It wasn't your fault!"
"I really am weak... I'm a trained assassin and I can't stop three men from ganging up on me!
Don't you see? If I was more skilled this never would have happened." As Omi spoke, tears
slowly started to trail down his cheeks.
Now Aya was unsure of what to say to console Omi. "I can't say 'blame me' or else I would be
babying him, which he really doesn't need right now. Oh I know."
"Omi... just because you couldn't fend them off, it doesn't mean you're weak or that it was your
fault. One on one I can understand, but three against one? That's hard to handle sometimes. I
can remember on multiple occasions that... Yoji had to get me out of trouble when I... took on
too many people at once. Why don't you just blame the assholes who attacked you? It certainly
was their fault, don't you think? If anything, place the blame on them. Never blame yourself
Omi."
"Yeah... I guess so but..." Aya's silently confession of his own mistakes touched Omi. He knew
it was a rare thing for Aya to admit a fault in his decision, but he was still worried. "I... I
can't stop remembering Aya-kun! Every time I close my eyes I can see those men. I wanted my
first time... to be with..." the tears were flowing in earnest now, "someone I love... maybe
Ken-kun. At least someone I trusted!"
"Come here Omi," Aya said as he enveloped Omi in a hug, trying to help comfort him. He rubbed
small circles into his back to help ease the tension and Aya didn't even think about Omi's tears
getting his favorite orange sweater wet. Even though he didn't usually like physical contact,
he swallowed his preferences for a few moments.
Eventually, Omi's sobs subsided until he just rested his head on Aya's shoulder, breathing
slowly.
"Arigato... Aya-kun."
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Walking up the stairs to Omi's room Ken decided to just surprise Omi and walk in without
knocking. Cracking the door open slowly, he saw Aya holding Omi in a tight embrace having just
missed the conversation between the two men and Omi's tears.
Unnoticed, Ken closed the door back softly and walked back towards the kitchen getting angrier
with each step he took. "I should have known that's what was going on! How could he... I
thought he?! I guess his feelings about me are a lie. He really likes Aya, why else would they
be hugging?! Aya never hugs anyone! He could of at least told me he wanted to break up instead
of letting me find out this way!"
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"This talk has really made me feel better, thank you Aya-kun. Maybe now that I'm feeling better
I can stomach some food." Omi said perking up.
"You had better, so go get something in that stomach of yours before you die of starvation!"
Cracking a small smile, Omi got up and headed downstairs while Aya went into his room.
Reaching the kitchen, Omi saw Ken brooding by the stove as he tried to cook something.
"Daijobou, Ken-kun?" Omi asked walking over to stand by Ken. Silence greeted him. "Ken-kun?
Are you ok? What's the matter?" Omi turned to try to get a better look at Ken's face.
"What do you mean, 'Are you ok?' How do you think I feel?!" Turning around he flashed angry
orbs of chocolate brown at Omi.
"Ken-kun, I don't understand. What's wrong?" Omi asked again, getting nervous under Ken's
intense glare.
"You could have at least told me you were going out with Aya! Instead you leave me to find out
on my own!"
"N-nani?! I'm not seeing Aya-kun!" Nothing was making sense anymore, every sentence only
confused Omi more.
"Don't lie to me Omi! I just saw you hugging him! Aya doesn't hug ANYBODY! There's obviously
something going on if he's hugging you. I'm not stupid enough to get that wrong!"
"He wasn't hugging me because we were seeing each other Ken-kun honestly! It was-"
"I don't want to hear it Omi. Just leave me alone from now on!"
"But Ken-kun! You don't understand-" Tears once again coursed their way down Omi's cheeks for
the umpteenth time that afternoon.
"I said I don't want to hear it! Go to Aya! I hope your happy with him!" Ken shouted as he
pointed towards Aya's room.
Sobbing, Omi ran up to his room and slammed the door.
Upon hearing Omi's door slam, Aya got up to see what the problem was now. He could hear muffled
cries emanating from Omi's room and decided to just open the door instead of knocking first.
"Omi?"
"Not right now Aya-kun." Omi's tired, broken voice came from the pillow.
"You barely left your room for five minutes Omi. What happened?" Aya couldn't figure out for
the life of him what was wrong. He thought he had heard some yelling but he could never hear
much from his room so he just left it as Ken fighting with Yoji again, a frequent occurrence in
their house but now he wasn't so sure.
"It's was awful Aya-kun! Ken-kun.. he saw you...hugging me and now he thinks I am cheating on
him with you!"
"He does?" Aya hadn't been expecting that to be the reason for Omi's tears. He was at a loss
for words.
"He wouldn't even let me explain why we were hugging in the first place! He hates me now..."
At his last words Omi started to cry again.
"I'm going to go have a talk with Ken. Ja." Getting up and ignoring Omi's protests, Aya
heading downstairs to find Ken. "How could he assume something like that so quickly? I never
thought of him as that big an idiot but he surprises me everyday. How dare he hurt Omi at a
time like this. I guess I have to knock some sense back into him.
Walking into the kitchen he saw Yoji talking with a furious Ken.
"Ken, did he say why he was hugging Aya?" He heard Yoji ask.
"Ken."
Turning around and seeing Aya, Ken's anger only multiplied. "What the hell do you want?! You
already got Omi so leave me alone!"
"Listen to me!" Grabbing the lapels of Ken's jacket, Aya slammed Ken into the wall.
"Aya! Don't kill Ken!" Yoji started to pry at Aya's fingers to get Ken free.
"I'm not going to kill Ken, Yoji. Omi would kill me if I did that." Looking back over to Ken
he said, "You never think do you Ken?! You see something and automatically assume it only means
one thing! Well, for your information, you totally misunderstood the situation!"
"Then why were you hugging then?! You never hug anybody Aya so you better start explaining and
it better be good!"
"Some deep shit happened to Omi on our last mission and he told me not to tell you guys. Since
I'm the only one who knows, I have to be the one to console him! I wanted to tell you but he
made me promise and I don't go back on my word for some light reason, as much as I want to!"
Ken Sobered up slightly at hearing something had happened to Omi. "What happened to Omi? He
can tell me anything and he knows it!"
"He didn't want to tell you because both of you would act differently around him, which is
something he doesn't want!"
"You still haven't told me WHAT HAPPENED!"
" If I could, I would but I promised Omi I wouldn't tell."
Suddenly flinging around and pushing Aya into the wall Ken yelled, "Tell me what happen to Omi
damnit!"
"Yamero! Ken-kun!"
Turning their heads, all three men saw Omi standing in the entryway of the kitchen. Ken's hold
on Aya slipped when he saw Omi and Aya used this opportunity to get away from Ken.
Taking a deep, Omi said calmly, "Arigato Aya, for your silence, but I don't think I should keep
it a secret any longer."
"Are you sure Omi?" Aya asked, surprised at Omi's sudden decision.
"Hai, Aya-kun. Ken-kun, Yoji-kun... I'm sorry I wouldn't tell you... but I was afraid you would
be even more protective of me than you already are if you found out. The only reason Aya knows
is because he found me..." Losing his nerve, Omi looked down at his feet.
"F-found you...?" Ken prodded.
"H-hai... I was outnumbered by three men that snuck up in me while I was at my post on the
mission. I couldn't take them down. They dragged me off and..." Omi looked up at Aya,
silently begging him to help.
Sighing, Aya complied with Omi's silent plea. "They were in the middle of... raping him by the
time I found him."
Both Yoji and Ken turned astonished eyes towards Omi, only to see him with his head ducked down
and his body shaking slightly.
"Gomen nasai minna..." Omi whimpered.
"And you were just ...oh Kami-sama... and I just! Oh Omi... I am so sorry! I can't believe I
have been such an asshole." Distraught, Ken was unsure of what he should do. On one hand, he
could hug Omi and try to make everything better but on the other hand, he probably didn't
deserve Omi back after the way he had treated him.
"Gomen Ken-kun. I should have just told you from the beginning and saved us the trouble of
this horrible mix up."
"No Omi, I'm sorry. Considering the circumstances, I probably would have been overprotective of
you but I'll try my best not to. I should have let you explain. I had no right to assume you
and Aya were seeing each other. I'm so stupid." Ken finished, looking down at the tile floor.
He could feel his eyes burning with unshed tears.
"Can you ...forgive me Ken-kun?" Omi asked timidly.
"Only if you could find some way to forgive me." Ken let out a choked sob. "You needed me and
I did nothing to help you, only added to your problems."
"Of course I forgive you Ken-kun!" Omi said and enveloped Ken in a hug. "We both screwed up
but everything's ok now, ne?"
"Hai. Lets just put this mess behind us." Now Ken's tears turned to tears of happiness and
Omi's joyful tears soon mixed in with them.
"Come on Aya, let's leave these two by themselves for a while. They need some time alone."
Yoji said walking up towards his room.
"I'm the one who's supposed to say that." Aya grumbled as he followed Yoji up the stairs,
leaving the two men alone in the kitchen to start the healing process. Not everything would be
fixed immediately, but now Aya was certain that everything would turn out alright in the end.
Owari.
So, what's you think of it?! Good, bad? Should I give up the writing business? Review and tell
me!! Constructive criticism is welcomed but please don't waste your time flaming me, it'll
just be ignored. Arigato gozaimasu for reading! Also, Neko and Keithan, are you suprised I was
so mean to Omi? I didn't mean for it to turn out this way!! Honestly!! ::sob:: I'm going
to get a new muse, I this mine broke. Well, thanx again! Ja! ^_^
By Chisa Yume
Author's notes: Kon'wa minna!! This is the first time writing a fic on my own. You might have
read Searching for Love, which is being written by Neko and I and we hope to finish it soon.
Hopefully this won't turn out too horribly. Please review after reading so I can know what you
think! If you want, you can e-mail me at [email protected].
Disclaimer: ::sniffle:: Weiss and all other characters aren't mine. T_T
Japanese vocab: If you notice something is worded incorrectly tell me because I'm not fluent in
Japanese and I only know a little bit so the odds of me screwing up are high.
Hai- yes
Gomen nasai minna- I'm very sorry everyone
Kami-sama- God, the -sama ending is used to show great respect
Onegai- Please
Daijobou?- Are you ok?
Nani?- What?
Ja- Bye
Yamero-Stop
Arigato (gozaimasu)- Thank You (very much)
Spoilers: There is brief mention about Aya's sister but nothing else and you don't need to know
their past to understand the fic.
Rating: R- for mature themes and adult language towards the end of the fic.
Warning: This story is going to be an angst and will have mention of rape. Nothing graphic
mind you, just enough to let you know it happened. If you still think this is a horrible topic,
just push the back button and pretend you never saw this fic. ^_^ I'll try not to make the
characters OOC but I might do it on accident so don't be surprised. Tell me if you think anyone
is OOC. Also, this is a yaoi fic which means male/male relationships. Gomen Neko-chan! ^_^
I'm not writing anything too serious but just to let you know. Ok, now on with the fic. Enjoy!
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"Why does this shift have to last so long?" Omi thought as he fought the urge to stare at Ken
for the millionth time that day. "Why couldn't Aya take Ken's shift today? I'm going to doing
something stupid if I'm around Ken for so long. I'm sure he'd love to have me randomly walk up
to him and kiss his breath away. Yeah right."
There was no use in denying it, he had fallen in love with Ken. Sometime over the years they
worked together, his feelings of friendship grew into something more. At first he was scared
and thought he was just going through some sort of phase but as the months passed by and his
feelings only grew stronger, he knew this was something serious.
"I probably wouldn't have realized I was feeling love if Ken hadn't screwed up on that mission."
Omi thought reflecting on one of Weiss' previous missions.
Weiss had been sent to take out a man testing drugs on innocent children abducted off the
streets. When they infiltrated the building Ken and Yoji took off to check for guards while he
and Aya went to short out the security system. As it turned out, the target had kidnapped a
little boy that day and was in the process of giving the child drugs when Ken found him. Ken
found the target first and, furious at the man because he was hurting a child, charged blindly
towards the target. Then some of the target's guards came out of the shadows and shot Ken in
his left arm and twice in his left thigh before Yoji had a chance to wipe them out. He and Aya
had barged in right after Yoji killed the last guard and Aya then proceeded to eliminate the
target.
He had never felt so scared in his life when he saw Ken on the floor covered in blood. It was in
that moment that he realized he was in love with Ken. Ever since then Omi wanted to tell Ken
about his feelings but every time he started to tell him, he would get nervous and say something
else instead. "Maybe I'm just not meant to have love. There's no way Ken would feel the same
way I do..." Omi thought dejectedly until he heard Ken's voice yelling to him.
"Oi, Omi! Can you lend me a hand over here?!"
"H-hai Ken-kun!"
He walked over to where Ken was and assisted him in carrying out the bigger plants from the
backroom to put on display, being careful not to embarrass himself in front of Ken.
"Thanks Omi, it would have taken me forever if I had moved all of that on my own!"
"It's no problem Ken-kun. Anything else you need help with?" Omi asked.
"Just help with getting all of these banshees out of the shop for our lunch break," Ken said
referring to the hoard of girls mobbing the shop.
"Be nice Ken-kun! Even if they are annoying, you don't have to call them banshees!"
"You're too nice for your own good Omi. These girls are going to walk all over you if you keep
that attitude up."
"Yeah, yeah." Turning towards the crowd Omi yelled, "Gomen nasai minna! It's time to close the
shop for lunch!"
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Heading up to his room after his shift had finished, Omi was glad to be away from Ken for a
while. Settling down on his bed for a short nap he was almost asleep when he heard a knock on
the door. Sitting up, he asked who was there.
"It's me Omittchi!"
"That sure does tell me who you are," Omi replies sarcastically. "Yoji-kun, shouldn't you be
in the shop for your shift right now?" Omi asked, annoyed at the interruption of his quiet time.
"Nah, Aya can handle those girls for a few more minutes alone. Right now I want to talk to you,
so can I please come in and stop talking to a door?"
"Fine!" Omi got up languidly, walked to the door to flip the lock off and promptly laid back
down on his bed.
Upon hearing the lock click out of place, Yoji opened the door to see a sleepy and annoyed Omi.
"Come on, cheer up! You'll never impress the girls with that face!"
"Since when have I wanted to impress them? That's your department Yoji. So, what did you want
to talk to me about? I'd like to get back to sleep."
"Well, nothing important really, just wanted to know how you felt about Ken." Yoji asked
nonchalantly.
"W-what?!" Clearly not expecting to be asked such a personal question, Omi was speechless.
"Seriously Omi, I've seen the way you stare at him. I want to know what you feel for him
because it looks like more than a crush to me."
"I-it does?" Omi tried to think of any opportunity Yoji might have had to figure out his
feelings for Ken but kept reaching a blank.
"Come on Omittchi, your reaction alone tells me I'm right. Why don't you just tell him how you
feel?"
"I can't Yoji-kun! He'd never feel the same way about me! Remember when he went out with
Yuriko? He's straight!"
"What happened to comfortably bi? He could have changed since he broke up with Yuriko. That
happened months ago anyway."
"Yes but-"
"See what I mean? You're just making it harder on yourself. You should tell him how you feel
Omi."
"Even if he does like guys, he doesn't feel anything more than brotherly love towards me." Omi
replied dejectedly.
"You're being too hard on yourself Omittchi. Do you want to live the rest of your life
wondering what could have happened if you had told him? Trust me, you'll regret it eventually."
"I don't know if I could Yoji-kun. The odds of him actually feeling the same are slim to none."
"The odds are better than you think Omittchi. Just tell him how you feel, and go from there."
Before Omi had a chance to ask what he meant, Yoji had gotten up and left the room. Perplexed,
he sat down on his bed to think about Yoji's words, his nap long forgotten.
Outside, Yoji walked back towards the shop thinking about how Ken could pay him back for helping
Omi come forward with his feelings. He could remember when Ken had first started to come to him
about two months earlier trying figure what he was feeling towards Omi. As it turned out, Ken
was just as shy about telling Omi his feelings as Omi was. "Hopefully Omi is brave enough to
take my advice. He and Omi would be happy together, not to mention it would put a stop to that
horrible tension in the shop while they are working together if they hooked up," Yoji thought as
he entered the shop ready to give the red-headed leader, Aya, his excuse for being late.
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After staying up late thinking about Yoji's words, Omi had finally decided to talk to Ken about
his feelings. Now he just had to find a way to get on the topic of his feelings...
The chance finally arose when he volunteered to play soccer with Ken a week later. They
dribbled the ball around the field and played until they wore themselves out and eventually Omi
collapsed onto the grass letting out a big sigh and stretching simultaneously. He looked over
to see Ken follow suit.
"Thanks for playing with me Omi. It was a lot of fun." Ken said looking over at his blond
friend.
"No problem Ken-kun, I really enjoyed it. I had forgotten how fun it is to play soccer."
"Maybe we could... do this again sometime?" Ken asked.
"I'd like that Ken-kun." Omi replied. Seeing Ken's face light up when he said "yes" gave him
more courage to tell Ken his feelings. "Um... Ken-kun, I've been meaning to tell you
something..."
"What is it Omi?"
"I... well... that is..." Becoming scared again Omi started to back down on his confession.
"Yes Omi?" Ken looked over with hopeful eyes.
Noticing this Omi found a little more strength. "I... like you Ken-kun. Not just like a
brother or friend but more like someone in a relationship would and I don't mind if you don't
feel the same way I just thought you should know so please don't hate me!" Face flushed with
embarrassment Omi got up to run off the field instead of staying to hear the inevitable
rejection. Just as he was about to sprint off he felt a hand on his wrist. Turning slowly,
he saw Ken looking at him with a new expression on his face. Almost like...
"Do you really mean that Omi?"
"Y-yes Ken-kun, I do. I've felt this way for... a long time actually, I just never could tell
you before." Feeling himself blush, Omi looked down to admire the grass.
Suddenly, a hand was under his chin tilting his head up to look into deep, chocolate eyes.
"If you run off, how am I supposed to tell you how I feel?"
"H-how you feel? Ken-kun...I understand that you won't feel the same way, there's no need to
point that out." Confusion and hope flooded his senses as he tried to understand what Ken meant.
"Have I said I don't feel the same way? Have I done something to make you think I don't feel
anything like that towards you?"
"W-well, no but-"
"Exactly, and just for your information," bending down to where their noses touched and
looking deep into Omi's wide, blues eyes, "I do like you."
The next thing Omi knew, was soft lips on his own in a chaste kiss that said more than words
ever could.
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"It's been six days, 3 hours, 40 minutes and ....36 seconds since Ken told me he liked me!"
Omi thought to himself happily as he cooked lunch.
"Off Cloud-9 yet?" Yoji's teasing voice called out.
"Nope!" Omi beamed back at him. "I don't think I'll ever come down from it!"
"Maybe I shouldn't have convinced you to talk to Ken. Now your smile is making me sick! Not
to mention when you're together! Ugh! Thank goodness Ken still has to work in the shop right
now!"
"Yoji-kun! You're just jealous!" Omi laughs as he continues his cooking.
"Me? Jealous? I don't get jealous!" Yoji countered with indignation.
"Then what was that emotion you felt when you thought Aya-kun was sneaking out to see a girl
when it was really just his sister? That couldn't have possibly been happiness!" Knowing he
had won the argument, Omi tuned back to the stove, laughing.
"Omi! Yoji! Manx is here!" Aya's voice cut through the two men's laughter.
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"Good evening Weiss, this is going to be a smaller mission than usual so only two are needed."
Looking at each boy's face she continued, "The information at Kritiker's database doesn't
warrant a video cassette today so the mission will be handled through papers and photographs.
The target is Masaya Toru, the leader of a drug ring." She informed, placing a picture of a
youthful, brown haired man on the table. "He and his comrades have been selling and trading
drugs for the past 5 months but up until now, Kritiker could not find them. The number of
people supporting them has dwindled to a select few so it is very unlikely for Masaya to have
guards. Any volunteers for this mission?"
"I will go." Aya announced, though he really didn't need to say anything since they all knew
he accepted any mission.
"I'm out, I have other things to do this weekend." Yoji stated from his spot on the couch.
"I promised the kids I'd play soccer with them and if I cancel again they might get suspicious."
Ken said.
"Then I guess I'll go," came from the youngest member. "Good thing I don't have any tests to
study for this weekend."
"Then it's settled. Hunters of light, hunt the beasts of darkness," and with that said, she
turned and left the building.
"Are you sure you want to take this mission Omi?" Ken asked walking over to Omi.
"Don't worry about it Ken-kun, it's a simple mission anyway so it should go off without a hitch."
"Yeah, you're right. Just be careful." Ken warned placing an arm around Omi's shoulder.
"Hai, I will Ken-kun." Omi replied returning the hug.
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"Target eliminated, lets head out Bombay." Aya said into his microphone as he headed towards
the exit. When, no answer came, he grew worried. Omi had never ignored a transmission before.
"Bombay? Do you read me? Bombay?"
"Ok, where is his station?" Aya though trying to remember how to get back to the assigned spot
Omi had. "Here it is... kuso! Where is he!"
Distantly he could hear what sounded like Omi's voice sobbing. "Please let him be ok..."
Opening the door, his hopes were shattered. "Kami-sama!"
There on the floor was Omi, with two large men holding his naked body down while another was on
top of him. Anger raging through him, Aya attacked the men raping his friend. After they had
all be killed, Aya knelt down to check on his friend.
"Omi? Omi talk to me, say something!"
"A-Aya...kun?"
"Hai, it's me. Everything is going to be ok. Let's get you out of here." Aya placed his
jacket around Omi's nude form, his clothes too tattered to be used again and reached down to
help Omi stand, being weary of his battered body.
"Aya-kun... promise me- ouch!...something." Omi winced as Aya accidentally jarred his body
trying to pick him up.
"Sorry about that." Looking into sad, blue eyes, Aya asked what is was he wanted.
"Promise me you won't tell Ken-kun or Yoji-kun about this."
"N- nani? Ken deserves to know this happened." Aya asked perplexed.
"If he knows that this happened to me, he won't trust me to take care of myself anymore. I'm
already babied enough, if Ken and Yoji know then it'll just get worse. Onegai! Aya-kun."
"Are you absolutely sure this is what you want?" Aya asked, still skeptical of Omi's decision.
"Hai Aya-kun. It's best this way."
"Well, I'll only promise because you really want me to but I think you should tell Ken at least
Omi. I can't make you though but at least think about it. Now let's get you home." Aya then
proceeded to put his jacket more securely around Omi's small frame and carried him to the car.
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By some miraculous reason, neither Ken nor Yoji came to see how the mission went when they
arrived back at the Koneko. As it turned out, Yoji had given Ken vodka to settle his nerves
because he wouldn't stop worrying about Omi. Ken had already passed out by the time Aya brought
Omi home and Yoji had decided to go to sleep as well before he got himself drunk so they didn't
have to explain why Omi was wearing Aya's jacket and bleeding.
Ken had noticed a change in Omi ever since he got back from the mission. He seemed more...
subdued. Omi rarely wanted to do things together, much less share physical contact like he
used to. Fed up with trying to get information out of Omi, Ken had decided to ask Yoji, since
he was always good at deciphering people's emotions. "I've asked Omi if something was bothering
him, on multiple occasions even but he always says he's fine! He acts like he is trying to hide
something from me. Have you noticed anything different about him?"
"Actually I have. I was going to ask you about it but obviously you don't know any more than I
do." Yoji's brows knitted together trying to figure out what was bothering their young friend.
"I think I'll ask him one more time, and if he doesn't say anything, I'll go to Aya." Ken said
determined to figure out what was bothering his loved one.
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Aya was really wishing he hadn't promised Omi his silence as the days went by. "Omi needs
someone to talk to and Ken would be perfect for the job. I'm really not good at heart to heart
talks but since I'm the only one that knows out of the three of us... I guess I have to."
Having made up his mind, Aya knocked on the door to Omi's room. Aya had tried on multiple
occasions to talk to the distraught boy but he always asked to be left alone. "This time I'm
not leaving you alone, no matter what you say." Aya thought to himself with an air of finality.
Soft sniffling sounds could be heard as he waited for an answer.
"Who is it?"
"Aya."
Slowly the door crept open to reveal a puffy eyed boy. It was obvious he had been crying.
"Can I come in Omi? Onegai?" Aya asked quietly.
His answer was the door slowly opening wider to allow him entrance. After walking in, he and
Omi both settled down on the bed.
"What can I do for you Aya-kun?" Looking into Omi's eyes, Aya could see the usual sparkle was
missing.
"I'm getting worried about you Omi... you aren't eating well anymore and you keep shutting
yourself up in this room. It's not healthy."
"I'd eat but it never stays down, so I just stopped trying. I haven't felt like socializing
very much lately, I can try harder though if you want." Omi started to fiddle with his blanket.
"You shouldn't let what happened get to you so much Omi. It wasn't your fault!"
"I really am weak... I'm a trained assassin and I can't stop three men from ganging up on me!
Don't you see? If I was more skilled this never would have happened." As Omi spoke, tears
slowly started to trail down his cheeks.
Now Aya was unsure of what to say to console Omi. "I can't say 'blame me' or else I would be
babying him, which he really doesn't need right now. Oh I know."
"Omi... just because you couldn't fend them off, it doesn't mean you're weak or that it was your
fault. One on one I can understand, but three against one? That's hard to handle sometimes. I
can remember on multiple occasions that... Yoji had to get me out of trouble when I... took on
too many people at once. Why don't you just blame the assholes who attacked you? It certainly
was their fault, don't you think? If anything, place the blame on them. Never blame yourself
Omi."
"Yeah... I guess so but..." Aya's silently confession of his own mistakes touched Omi. He knew
it was a rare thing for Aya to admit a fault in his decision, but he was still worried. "I... I
can't stop remembering Aya-kun! Every time I close my eyes I can see those men. I wanted my
first time... to be with..." the tears were flowing in earnest now, "someone I love... maybe
Ken-kun. At least someone I trusted!"
"Come here Omi," Aya said as he enveloped Omi in a hug, trying to help comfort him. He rubbed
small circles into his back to help ease the tension and Aya didn't even think about Omi's tears
getting his favorite orange sweater wet. Even though he didn't usually like physical contact,
he swallowed his preferences for a few moments.
Eventually, Omi's sobs subsided until he just rested his head on Aya's shoulder, breathing
slowly.
"Arigato... Aya-kun."
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Walking up the stairs to Omi's room Ken decided to just surprise Omi and walk in without
knocking. Cracking the door open slowly, he saw Aya holding Omi in a tight embrace having just
missed the conversation between the two men and Omi's tears.
Unnoticed, Ken closed the door back softly and walked back towards the kitchen getting angrier
with each step he took. "I should have known that's what was going on! How could he... I
thought he?! I guess his feelings about me are a lie. He really likes Aya, why else would they
be hugging?! Aya never hugs anyone! He could of at least told me he wanted to break up instead
of letting me find out this way!"
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"This talk has really made me feel better, thank you Aya-kun. Maybe now that I'm feeling better
I can stomach some food." Omi said perking up.
"You had better, so go get something in that stomach of yours before you die of starvation!"
Cracking a small smile, Omi got up and headed downstairs while Aya went into his room.
Reaching the kitchen, Omi saw Ken brooding by the stove as he tried to cook something.
"Daijobou, Ken-kun?" Omi asked walking over to stand by Ken. Silence greeted him. "Ken-kun?
Are you ok? What's the matter?" Omi turned to try to get a better look at Ken's face.
"What do you mean, 'Are you ok?' How do you think I feel?!" Turning around he flashed angry
orbs of chocolate brown at Omi.
"Ken-kun, I don't understand. What's wrong?" Omi asked again, getting nervous under Ken's
intense glare.
"You could have at least told me you were going out with Aya! Instead you leave me to find out
on my own!"
"N-nani?! I'm not seeing Aya-kun!" Nothing was making sense anymore, every sentence only
confused Omi more.
"Don't lie to me Omi! I just saw you hugging him! Aya doesn't hug ANYBODY! There's obviously
something going on if he's hugging you. I'm not stupid enough to get that wrong!"
"He wasn't hugging me because we were seeing each other Ken-kun honestly! It was-"
"I don't want to hear it Omi. Just leave me alone from now on!"
"But Ken-kun! You don't understand-" Tears once again coursed their way down Omi's cheeks for
the umpteenth time that afternoon.
"I said I don't want to hear it! Go to Aya! I hope your happy with him!" Ken shouted as he
pointed towards Aya's room.
Sobbing, Omi ran up to his room and slammed the door.
Upon hearing Omi's door slam, Aya got up to see what the problem was now. He could hear muffled
cries emanating from Omi's room and decided to just open the door instead of knocking first.
"Omi?"
"Not right now Aya-kun." Omi's tired, broken voice came from the pillow.
"You barely left your room for five minutes Omi. What happened?" Aya couldn't figure out for
the life of him what was wrong. He thought he had heard some yelling but he could never hear
much from his room so he just left it as Ken fighting with Yoji again, a frequent occurrence in
their house but now he wasn't so sure.
"It's was awful Aya-kun! Ken-kun.. he saw you...hugging me and now he thinks I am cheating on
him with you!"
"He does?" Aya hadn't been expecting that to be the reason for Omi's tears. He was at a loss
for words.
"He wouldn't even let me explain why we were hugging in the first place! He hates me now..."
At his last words Omi started to cry again.
"I'm going to go have a talk with Ken. Ja." Getting up and ignoring Omi's protests, Aya
heading downstairs to find Ken. "How could he assume something like that so quickly? I never
thought of him as that big an idiot but he surprises me everyday. How dare he hurt Omi at a
time like this. I guess I have to knock some sense back into him.
Walking into the kitchen he saw Yoji talking with a furious Ken.
"Ken, did he say why he was hugging Aya?" He heard Yoji ask.
"Ken."
Turning around and seeing Aya, Ken's anger only multiplied. "What the hell do you want?! You
already got Omi so leave me alone!"
"Listen to me!" Grabbing the lapels of Ken's jacket, Aya slammed Ken into the wall.
"Aya! Don't kill Ken!" Yoji started to pry at Aya's fingers to get Ken free.
"I'm not going to kill Ken, Yoji. Omi would kill me if I did that." Looking back over to Ken
he said, "You never think do you Ken?! You see something and automatically assume it only means
one thing! Well, for your information, you totally misunderstood the situation!"
"Then why were you hugging then?! You never hug anybody Aya so you better start explaining and
it better be good!"
"Some deep shit happened to Omi on our last mission and he told me not to tell you guys. Since
I'm the only one who knows, I have to be the one to console him! I wanted to tell you but he
made me promise and I don't go back on my word for some light reason, as much as I want to!"
Ken Sobered up slightly at hearing something had happened to Omi. "What happened to Omi? He
can tell me anything and he knows it!"
"He didn't want to tell you because both of you would act differently around him, which is
something he doesn't want!"
"You still haven't told me WHAT HAPPENED!"
" If I could, I would but I promised Omi I wouldn't tell."
Suddenly flinging around and pushing Aya into the wall Ken yelled, "Tell me what happen to Omi
damnit!"
"Yamero! Ken-kun!"
Turning their heads, all three men saw Omi standing in the entryway of the kitchen. Ken's hold
on Aya slipped when he saw Omi and Aya used this opportunity to get away from Ken.
Taking a deep, Omi said calmly, "Arigato Aya, for your silence, but I don't think I should keep
it a secret any longer."
"Are you sure Omi?" Aya asked, surprised at Omi's sudden decision.
"Hai, Aya-kun. Ken-kun, Yoji-kun... I'm sorry I wouldn't tell you... but I was afraid you would
be even more protective of me than you already are if you found out. The only reason Aya knows
is because he found me..." Losing his nerve, Omi looked down at his feet.
"F-found you...?" Ken prodded.
"H-hai... I was outnumbered by three men that snuck up in me while I was at my post on the
mission. I couldn't take them down. They dragged me off and..." Omi looked up at Aya,
silently begging him to help.
Sighing, Aya complied with Omi's silent plea. "They were in the middle of... raping him by the
time I found him."
Both Yoji and Ken turned astonished eyes towards Omi, only to see him with his head ducked down
and his body shaking slightly.
"Gomen nasai minna..." Omi whimpered.
"And you were just ...oh Kami-sama... and I just! Oh Omi... I am so sorry! I can't believe I
have been such an asshole." Distraught, Ken was unsure of what he should do. On one hand, he
could hug Omi and try to make everything better but on the other hand, he probably didn't
deserve Omi back after the way he had treated him.
"Gomen Ken-kun. I should have just told you from the beginning and saved us the trouble of
this horrible mix up."
"No Omi, I'm sorry. Considering the circumstances, I probably would have been overprotective of
you but I'll try my best not to. I should have let you explain. I had no right to assume you
and Aya were seeing each other. I'm so stupid." Ken finished, looking down at the tile floor.
He could feel his eyes burning with unshed tears.
"Can you ...forgive me Ken-kun?" Omi asked timidly.
"Only if you could find some way to forgive me." Ken let out a choked sob. "You needed me and
I did nothing to help you, only added to your problems."
"Of course I forgive you Ken-kun!" Omi said and enveloped Ken in a hug. "We both screwed up
but everything's ok now, ne?"
"Hai. Lets just put this mess behind us." Now Ken's tears turned to tears of happiness and
Omi's joyful tears soon mixed in with them.
"Come on Aya, let's leave these two by themselves for a while. They need some time alone."
Yoji said walking up towards his room.
"I'm the one who's supposed to say that." Aya grumbled as he followed Yoji up the stairs,
leaving the two men alone in the kitchen to start the healing process. Not everything would be
fixed immediately, but now Aya was certain that everything would turn out alright in the end.
Owari.
So, what's you think of it?! Good, bad? Should I give up the writing business? Review and tell
me!! Constructive criticism is welcomed but please don't waste your time flaming me, it'll
just be ignored. Arigato gozaimasu for reading! Also, Neko and Keithan, are you suprised I was
so mean to Omi? I didn't mean for it to turn out this way!! Honestly!! ::sob:: I'm going
to get a new muse, I this mine broke. Well, thanx again! Ja! ^_^